Y5603

Disclaimer: I don't own CCS or any of the characters. All rightfully belong to the workers of CLAMP

Summary: Sakura now depends her life upon the cyber world. After losing her entire family to the virus attacks upon Japan, she is now cold and distant from others. She spends her life working in the cyber world but despises all the people around her. Now everything is impossible to fix and change for it's now...year...5603...SS and ET and MOC

'...' Thoughts

"..." Out loud

(A/N:...) My thoughts

Flashbacks and End of Flashbacks

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(A/N: GOMEN NASAIIII!!!! This chapter is very short for I hit many writer's blocks in this!!!!! I couldn't think of anything I could do for this! I've planned the ending and stuff but not the beginning nor the middle!!! GOMEN NASAIII!!! It was also a slow update!! I repeat... GOMEN NASAI GOMEN NASAI GOMEN NASAIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Chapter 6: Unchanging

Looking at the surroundings I was within, I found myself having plunged into my own nightmares. My nightmares...of being...alone. I searched around the pitch-black darkness that was here, no light, no ground, no wall, no ceiling and no one else but me. I was surrounded by black emptiness, a place where nothing was...just...black. I slowly sat upon the ground as I clutched my legs awkwardly to my chest calling out to the open, "Is anyone there?" Knowing my usual response would be...nothing. I heard a voice echoing in my dreams calling out my name that I had kept secret. A woman's voice...the voice...of my mother...

"My daughter..." Her soft gentle call rung in my mind as I lifted my head from my arms. I knew that tears were visible in my emerald shaded eyes as my vision was blurry. In front of my eyes I was able to make out a blurry white figure, details were unknown to me for I couldn't see very well. What I did know was that the figure was advancing towards me slowly with the soft murmur.

"Who are you?" I asked aloud to the figure.

"You cannot recognize me?" She asked again, her soft voice ringing in the darkness that was our surroundings. She was fully in my view now yet still blurry as the unshed tears glistened against my jade eyes. I softly heard the rustle of clothes as it seemed that she had knelt down, her pale face in my view. I felt her hand that felt soft like a bird's wing brush away the tears from my face and eyes, I looked at the person who knelt before me.

Large white feathers fell as she knelt, her large white wings that looked soft protruding from her back. Adorned in a simple loose white dress with billowy sleeves and a large neckline and an elegant white lace tied loosely around her hips. Her feet bare, her soft pale white skin visible from the hands, feet, neck and face. Soft silvery gray that tumbled to her waist in slight waves was her hair as her soft kind face looked with worry. Her emerald shaded eyes identical to mine as her emotions displayed were complete with worry.

Realizing who stood before me tears formed in my eyes again as I smile, "OKAA-SAN!!!!!" I screamed aloud in joy. I pounced upon her and hugged her for dear life. Tears fell from my eyes staining her soft white dress as she patted me on my back and looking at my crying form with worry. I looked up with my tear filled eyes as she cooed to me softly.

"There, there. Don't cry. Mommy's here for you..." She spoke.

It was the way she spoke to me when I was a mere child. I looked down and noticed that...I had shortened. I stared at my hands and I noticed they were smaller and chubbier than my usual long slender hands. "Okaa-san?" I asked in my voice, which seemed to have also changed back to my voice as when I was a mere child again.

The surrounding darkness changed to my house, my house upon earth. The yellow painted walls shining brightly as the sunlight shone upon it, the same brown wooden table sat beside the wall that held the counter behind it. The same red tiled kitchen with the green refrigerator, the same brown wooden cabinet that held our china...everything was the same. The brown doors that led to the living room, opened, the green couches sitting on the carpeted floor with the low table with the clear glass top. At the table with breakfast before him, steam coming from the newly cooked food with the daily news in his hand was a man.

His light auburn hair and brown eyes behind his thin square framed glasses, his white formal button down shirt with the brown dress pants and the same green tie. His smile drew upon his features as he saw my mother and my younger self now enter the room. "Nadeshiko, my loving wife and my dear little daughter...ohayo." He greeted us with his warm voice.

"Oto-san?"

My mother stepped forward and went to the kitchen and began to make breakfast for me, the soft padding of feet behind me alerted me that someone was behind me. I whirled around to come face to face with someone's stomach underneath a navy blue tee. A tanned hand ruffled my short auburn hair. Wearing simple light blue shorts and white socks with his dark brown hair that shimmered light auburn whenever light hit it and his brown eyes, was...my brother.

"Onii-chan?" I asked.

"Ohayo kaijuu!" His voice resonated in the room. Feeling sudden anger rush through me, I was my younger self again kicking him in the shin then stepping him. Smiling as I heard him yell, "ITAI!!!"

Suddenly the happy scenes changed, changed to the painful days of my life...the beginning of my change...the beginning of the change of the entire planet. The scenes flashing before my eyes, each and every moment of those agonizing days those agonizing minutes, each taking it's slow pace to bring back the pain and horrors that came to me...

"NO!!!" I screamed aloud as I watched as my family, my clan, my people...my life...died away right before my very own eyes. The innocent, all killed...by the one thing I still have in my vow to destroy...that virus...

Soon, the painful memories have sped away, I see myself having changed back to my form at the future rather than at the past...the present form. I heard a soft angelic call, looking up...I see my mother...followed with my father and my brother...

"Oto-san? Okaa-san? Onii-chan?" I asked, my voice to myself sounded very quiet and tiny.

"You were the one who killed us...You were the one to betray us...You were the one who didn't even try to help us...and you call yourself a family member?" My brother's voice came resounding into the dark empty void.

"No...I...I didn't kill you! I didn't betray you! No!!!" I cried out desperately. My form in a pleading motion seeming as if I was begging them to believe me, begging them to understand that I couldn't do anything and I didn't betray them nor kill them. I wanted them to see...that I feel sorry and guilty that I couldn't help them...

"Lies, lies, lies. You didn't help us when we were dying. You didn't help us when we were in pain. You didn't help us when we called out to you...you didn't help us. You are not our daughter...you are a worthless orphan." My father's voice resonated to me.

"You had the chance to help, you had the chance to run...you took the option of running...leaving us to die! You aren't my child, you aren't my daughter! You aren't anything to me! You are nothing! You had the chance to help us but no! YOU ARE NOTHING!!!" My mother's screech echoed.

Pain struck my heart at each word my family said, each word each sentence drove the knife deeper and deeper within my heart. Everything around me seemed to spin in the darkness, I watched as my family duplicated images faintly...then tripled...then quadrupled...then...everything was black once more. Their voices still ringing and echoing through my mind and body as I writhed in pain and fear of my family's words of distrust.

"No...no...NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!" Waking up with a jolt, the auburn haired girl was startled out of her reverie. Her cries loud and clear in the room that softly buzzed as she unwound herself from her tangled bed sheets. Cold sweat poured off her face and body, sticking her clothes to her thin form and matting her hair to her delicate ivory face. Harsh loud pants came from her mouth as she was still startled from her nightmare. Her hand made its way to her chest as it held there until her breaths came out even and steady.

Shaking her head to cause the memories, the pain and the dream to disappear, she let her feet fall to the ground beneath, the cold tiled floors blaring light blue caused her feet to go numb after time. Standing up, she walked her way over to closet. Clapping her hands twice, the doors whizzed open to reveal a small walk in chamber off to the side surrounded by a wall of glass. Before her was a large display screen that shimmered blue in the darkness bathing her in blue. She walked up to the large screen and stepped upon the platform, the large screen began to vibrate slowly.

The sounds of a computer starting up rung in the darkness and to her ears. The feminine mechanical voice ringing out, "Outfit closet program "

Small red lights beneath her on the platform that aligned the sides turned on, shooting a large red light to her legs, bathing her from knees and down...in a crimson red.

"Recognize...Cherry Ice...monitor scanning...monitor display running." Came the voice again.

As a long horizontal line of white light shimmered from the monitor, scanning over each and every detail of her body, she stood still. Soon, the monitor shown static as a faint image of a figure appeared. The details filled in slowly as the figure shone, a complete exact copy of the girl named Cherry Ice that stood before the monitor shone out.

Lifting a long slender finger to the screen, she tapped on a colour and hit the word 'tops'. The shimmering hue of blue from the monitor shimmered different colours as she was bathed from blue to black...her finger tapping the screen every so often...the soft tapping of her finger and the buzzing of the monitor echoed in her mind. Soon enough, she had finished and stepped off the platform and walked to the small booth surrounded by the glassy surface. Walking through the glass, the glass buzzed and flashed continuously as she walked through...a mere hologram was what it was. Now, bathed in the bright white light of this small area, she closed her eyes as she enjoyed the light that felt more like her home for she rarely even saw it anymore.

It would usually be continuous black that surrounded her and the world, living in the space continents did not bring light from the fiery orb that is the sun. They would live off artificial light that was a shimmering blue and any other colour...but white. She had this one light specially made for her so that she could feel at home again rather. The memories of the sunlight bathing her home, her mother, her father, and her brother flashed before her eyes as she looked at the wall. Her eyes glazed over as she smiled a small smile.

'How I miss them...' She thought as her eyes focused back slightly, her small smile disappearing off her face but the smile lingered in her endless green orbs. 'How I miss them...'

She walked to the wall where she put her hand to the hand scan, the shimmering blade of blue that shone off it went across her hand. She then pressed the single black button that was beside it.

A soft buzzing from the machines that surrounded her informed her that the machine was working. Softly her white light changed to a pale gold glow. She closed her eyes as she stood her hands and arms falling limply to her sides as she lifted her pale face towards the light. Slowly...from the glow above...soft golden dust fell down.

Her clothes changed as the golden dust fell in soft waves, one after the other. Allowing the soft buzzing fill her senses she could feel the tingling sensations that echoed through her body as she felt the golden dust hit her skin in waves.

As the glow and dust faded from around her, she stepped out of the holographic glass wall, her eyes slowly opened to reveal the emerald orbs once more. She walked to the closed door and clapped her hand again, the door whizzed open.

The soft pale blue from the tiles shimmered against her clothes, revealing her new outfit.

She wore a round black metal hoop around her neck. A black leather material hooked on it, making her wearing a simple yet non-simple leather black top. From the front the soft folds of the cloth came from where the material connected with the metal hoop, two parts of the material were hooked at the front, one covering the right collarbone as the other was opposite of it. A baggy neckline was created from the two pieces that were connected together above her chest then tightening right at her chest till it reached to above her navel. At the back, it was one full piece of black that hooked from the top to her lower back. Small cuts were made at the bottom of her top making an intricate design that had vines and leaves with cherry blossoms here and there, the cuts at the back were covered with a see through black material. The two pieces at the front were connected to the piece at the back, making the whole black metal hoop around the base of her neck covered except the front. The material covered her shoulders and at the place where it was her underarms, there was a cut. At the middle point of that, an inch width of cloth was left that tumbled down her arms to her wrists, from there it was tied around her wrist making the end of the sleeve.

Her hands were placed in black leather gloves with the middle finger and index fingers cut off revealing her long slender pale fingers. A square of cloth was cut out at the back of her hands, the wrist tied with a black Velcro. Her knuckles had a metal circle placed on them. Her nails that were showing were painted black with specks of silver here and there. Upon her right hand under her glove yet showing from the square cut out was her infamous tattoo that showed her status to open eyes. Many silver bracelets hung from her wrists on each hand as rings were placed on her fingers. Each shimmering as light hit it now and then...

On her legs were tight black leather pants that flared out right below her knees, fire danced along at the bottom painted in red, orange and yellow changing to a misty blue. She wore a silver hoop belt that allowed the most of the weight to hang to her left leg where the chains linked together, creating excess hoops dangling at her sides where a single black pouch made of shining leather was found. Inside were her cards that she had taken to be the mistress of. At her back...on top of the back of her shirt was her same maroon red cloak that now had a second shorter layer on top which ended at her navel. It hung at her back like a cape now...hooked on the silver metal hooks that were at her back.

Her long auburn hair that fell to the floor in angelic waves was now up in a high ponytail, tied by a black lace that then clipped an inch beneath the black lace, then the middle part of her hair was bent upwards making a hoop that ended at her shoulders, then it was placed within the same clip. Her excess hair was then fanned out, with braids here and there in her hair...the ends of her hair ending at her lower back. Soft highlights of gold were in her hair, shimmering as lights from above hit it every so often. At the right side of her face was a braid, small clips of moons, stars and suns were along it. On her face, her long eyelashes were painted in black mascara. Her top lip was painted in black lipstick as her bottom lip was painted in a clear lip-gloss revealing the pinky shade.

She placed her hand to the hand scan as the mechanical voice rung in her ears, her right ear having a single silver hoop earring with blue beads sliding to the bottom. The door shuffled open as she walked out, her black leather heels laced up making a soft click sound as it hit against the clear floor that shimmered blue...creating shines of blue across her clothing and makeup. She walked to the elevator and stood upon it as it slowly yet quickly brought her to the bottom level where she was shown the sight of the bar.

Loud murmurs of voices and languages were shouted in the bar as the alcoholic puddles were across the floors as drunken people had spilt them upon the floor...tainting it a brownish gold hue instead of it's usual blue. Laughs and slaps were heard everywhere as women of all known species of this millennia walked around in tight clothing...their hands in the air as the hover tray hovered from their hands bathing it blue. Drinks aligned the tables and trays as she walked, her emerald gaze affixed to the four at the counter and at the one behind the counter. She stood behind the four as the other one noticed her. A smile lit his face as she merely nodded at him.

"C.I. Ohayo." The blonde headed android greeted her.

"Ohayo Masu-san...minna-san..." She greeted, her tone changing as she regarded Hikari to the other four that had turned around.

"Ohayo!" The dark lavender black haired girl greeted, a small wave came from her hand as she was in unison with the raven-haired girl. The navy haired boy smiled at her and bowed, showing better manners than the mere nod of the chestnut haired boy.

"Daijoubu desu ka?" Hikari asked with a concerned tone.

"I'm fine Masu-san. If you don't mind...I think I will be heading off towards the new unit. Okay with you? I might not come back for a week or a month." She stated to the blonde haired android.

"It's fine. Try to contact me once in a while okay C.I?" Hikari asked as he was cleaning a cup with a white cloth.

"Hai. Sayonara Masu-san...minna-san." She said.

With a flick of her hair she had turned around and began walking towards the exit, her hair and cape trailing behind her slowly as she walked with the click of her heels upon the tiled floor. The metallic blue light shimmering upon her clothes, changing her to the sheer blue that it shone. Her hands gracefully moving back and forth as she walked with a slight sway in her body, her face an emotionless image yet again as her emerald eyes sparkled in the light.

Facing the doorway, she stepped onto the pad that was on top a small platform allowing the door to unlock and slide open, revealing her to the outside world where her black convertible was parked. As she stepped out of the doorway, the door slid slowly behind her. She slowly turned around to face the others whom were looking at her as she was about to disappear from their vision. With a small smile she waved her right hand as she cocked her head to the left a little...giving her an innocent hue. As the door was almost closed she turned around and walked into the starry sky outside.

As the door was closing, he watched as she turned around, her hair and cape unconsciously flying into the wind as the sudden movement and soft breeze blew by. Entranced by the female as she suddenly smiled and waved at them, it seemed as if they were the only two in the world. His imagination run amuck into things that might happen if they would ever go back to Hong Kong, China to his clan again, then towards what might happen if they didn't and then towards what might happen if she ever...loved him. His imaginative reverie was shattered like glass getting in contact with a hard object as he watched her turn around and disappear as the soft breeze of the world outside blew her hair and cape, amber eyes watching intently at the girl who now had disappeared from his vision by the door.

Watching the teen boy before him, the android looked at the door to see the girl wave and then disappear behind the closed door. His attention and blue orbs changed back towards the teen that still watched the door with an unwavering glance. Shaking his head and closing his eyes he went back to making the alcoholic drinks as more orders were shot at him.

As she entered her convertible, she got ready to go as she turned on the engine. She had an urge to just disappear and change her ways once more. She shook her head to rid her mind of those thoughts, she knew the answer to that urge and she knew she couldn't do it.

'I cannot change for I am not to change my ways...there is a reason to that...'

She thought as she drove at top speed towards the next intersection. She was going to make her way to Tokyo, Japan to check the new unit site...there might be a key for her there...and many more...

'The reason?'

She thought as she stopped at a blaring red light at the intersection. Her face emotionless and her eyes almost serious, she looked ahead and hit the pedal as the green light was displayed. Her car being the only car this far out at the brink of six A.M. she was happy she didn't have to drive through a bunch of cars just to get to her destination...it would take her hours and hours of impatient waiting, with the smell of exhaust fumes filling her senses and the sounds of blaring honks from other cars and loud yells from the people within filling her ears. It would be nerve-wracking.

'The reason is...I cannot change.'

She thought sadly as she continued driving, she allowed the cold air of the morning caress her being as she drove in the silent town, her car the only sound that shattered the quiet silence.

'It is as if...I am unchangeable...I am sure that I am...'

Continuing her driving, her thoughts wandered towards her family and old friends...her thoughts wandered in all directions with many questions and answers she knew of already...many left unanswered as she let herself go to her thoughts. Stopping at another red light that came from the floating traffic light she let her thoughts wander back to herself and how she was...unchangeable.

'The world continues to change as people continue to change. Everyday...new discoveries and changes are made to oneself and one place...all changing...'

Hitting the gas pedal, she began to drive again...she noticed that around her...the buildings lessened and the road was growing smaller...silence yet again ringing through the area. All around her was black...the unchanging darkness that people thought could never change...yet it could...darkness could change to light as light can change to darkness...

Oxygen could change to carbon dioxide...

Lives could change in their own ways...

Two things could never change in her opinion...the two linked together like melody and harmony...

It is...

The thing called... 'Death'... No one can change their time of their deaths, no one could change from death to sudden life, no one could change death...no one could...not even death itself.

Death is what it is and can never change itself...it can't bring someone to life for its power is death. Death can never bring joy or happiness to everyone for it could only kill and kill would take away precious people of our lives meaning sadness. Death can never change itself nor can anyone change it...

What is the second?

It is...

Something that can never change their ways no matter what, it is something that can never change what they do, it is something that can never change what they need nor want. It is something that must fulfill the destiny it was given even if seemingly impossible...

What is it?

It is...

'Myself...'