Chapter Seven

SillySara:So I'm guessing you don't want to answer that. You know, your silence suggests something though.

LilLindsay:My silence suggests nothing. I'm just debating exactly what I should tell you.

SillySara:Would the truth hurt?

LilLindsay:Might hurt you.

SillySara:I'm a big girl, not much can break me anymore.

LilLindsay:Fine, you wanna know everything, I'll tell you everything. On one condition.

SillySara:Whats that?

LilLindsay:You tell me the truth too. You tell me why you were so pissed off with me before I left, and when I got back. I've given you a month, I'm sure that's enough time for you to figure things out. Do we have a deal?

SillySara:Alright then.

LilLindsay:Good. I got an idea. Why don't you come over here? That way we can do this face to face. No hiding behind our computer screens. And we won't be able to get mad at each other cos if we wake Linds up, Cat will have us for breakfast. What do you say?

It took a few minutes before Sara answered me.

SillySara:Ok. I'll tell you what, I'll grab some beers on my way over. I have a feeling we might need something stronger than coffee.

LilLindsay:Sure thing. I'll see you soon.

SillySara:Be there in 20 minutes.

I did a quick clean up before Sara arrived. No use in showing off the empty pizza box that Linds and I had our dinner in, or the clothes lying around the place. Good thing Cat wasn't home to see the mess that Linds and I made tonight, she'd have a fit. Sure enough, 20 minutes after I logged off the computer, there was a soft knock on the door.

"Sara, hey, come in, don't mind the mess," I said opening the door to let the gorgeous woman into our home. Just as I've shut the door, the phone started ringing, "excuse me a minute, just go on through to the lounge room. Hello, Willows residence," I answered.

"Kody, thanks so much for staying home tonight to look after Linds," I smiled.

"No problem Cat, I probably would've been sent home anyway if I had come in."

"How did you know Gil is on the warpath about overtime?"

"Uh, Sara."

"Sara? Ok, I'm interested. Spill," Cat laughed.

"Long story. Do you mind if I tell you tomorrow? I kinda have a visitor."

"Lemme guess, Sara's there?"

"Shut up. Linds is fine, she's asleep."

"Ok, ok. I'll let you go, but trust me, first thing when I get home, I want all the gossip. And don't you two start fighting and waking Linds up either."

"Trust me, we've already agreed on that. Bye Cat," I smiled before hanging up.

I walked into the lounge room but stopped at the door. Sara was gazing at a photo on the bookshelf. A photo of Catherine, Sara and I taken years ago that Lindsay insisted had to be put up. It was the only photo that had Sara and me in it together, taken at a Christmas party Cat and I held. It was in happier times, before all the hostility. I allowed myself to gaze upon Sara and liked what I saw. She was wearing her riding boots with hugging-fit jeans that showed off her perfect arse. A blue tank top which drew attention to her lean figure and soft flesh that showed just below the top. Her hair was down and had those cute little curls at the 

bottom. She just looked so damn irresistible. I just stared at her and didn't notice that she too was staring at me and no longer looking at the photos. Damn, she's busted me.

"Um, do you want me to put those beers in the fridge?" I mumbled moving to grab the beers off the coffee table.

"Yeah, sure. Here, lemme grab one first." I pulled two beers out of the pack handing them to her and took the rest through to the kitchen. I quickly splashed cold water on my face before heading back out to the lounge room where Sara had sat down on the couch looking rather nervous. I grabbed the beer left on the coffee table before sitting down next to her.

"So, I guess I'll start," I said before taking a long swig of my beer, "you asked me if I had a thing for you before I left Vegas, the answer is no." Sara looked a little bit disappointed by my answer and that confused me.

"So you never liked me in that way?"

"That's not what I said," I skulled the remainder of my beer before putting the empty on the table and turning to face her, "I said I never HAD a thing for you. We're all about being honest here so you need to sit there and listen and not interrupt because I can't believe I'm going to tell you this. When I first met you when you came to Vegas, I was attracted to you. I don't know when or how, but that soon turned into something more. Then before I left, when you were so mad at me, I finally convinced myself that I couldn't be around you anymore and feel this way for you. So yeah, I did leave because of you, but not because you were mad at me, because I was madly in love with you and I couldn't do anything about it. I figured after being away from you my feelings would disappear. This girl I had a relationship with in Australia, her name was Melody. She was just someone to fill the void, a little casual fling but we split up when I called her Sara one night while intimate. She told me to stop running and confront my feelings. When Grissom rang me and asked me to come back, I knew that I couldn't keep running from you. I'm sorry if this truth is too much for you, but you asked for it. If I had my way, I'd never have told you. I made Cat promise and swear that she would never reveal to you exactly what I felt."

"Cath knows?"

"Yeah, she's known from the beginning. I owe her so much because during the last 6 years since you joined our team, she's had to listen to me pour my heart out and I can't imagine that was easy. So there you have it."

"Wow. I really did not expect that."