The way back to the right track maybe you can help me find the door
Is it too much to ask, too much too fast, too much to ignore
It feels like your bodys getting closer but you seem so far away
Medicine make it ok

-Me, You and My Medication, Boys Like Girls


Interlude I

1#Lead
They'd said she'd follow her lead in mourning, wasn't she good enough as a role model to her own niece?

2#Memories
She was afraid her memories would fade so she pressed them closed in books so they couldn't escape.

3#Ashes
Ashes were better than being buried under the ground, she'd much rather fly on the breeze then be buried in the earth.

4#Secret
Ever since she'd stepped foot on the school grounds she'd been talked about, everyone wanted to know her deep dark secret.

5#Twisted
Her reflection in the mirror is twisted as she cries, she throws a jumper over it so she doesn't have to see.

6#Mother
Every time someone asked about her mother she couldn't help but feel trapped.

7#Virus
Like a virus the pain ate at her, so she ate nothing, that way it couldn't feed.

8#Teardrops
They fell like the rain that wouldn't answer her call that day.

9#Mourning
Black is the new every color.

10#Truly
She took her lunch to school everyday, truly.

11#Nothing
She begged for the day she'd feel nothing, that way she couldn't feel the pain.

12#Time
They say time heals all wounds, this one bled every time you picked at it.

13#Lost
She sometimes forgot where she was in the times she sunk into herself to escape.

14#Hot
She was like a hot coal, but with her you had to keep a good grip on her or she'd burn you with her cold words.

15#Revealed
He itched to reveal the lost little girl behind that impenetrable mask.

16#Life
It was too short to say everything she'd meant to her.

17#Breeze
It sounded lonely with out her laughter and voice.

18#Soulmate
Dad wasn't Mom's soulmate, Sam wished she'd had had a chance to find him.

19#Psychic
If she was psychic, she would have told her mom to take another road. She wished she was.

20#Listen
Sam stopped listening even to herself, the girl inside her screamed to loud in pain.

21#Nature
It was Mom's favorite thing to marvel at in life.

22#Defying
Sam wasn't defying anyone, she just wanted to be left alone.

23#Talk
She missed not having her voice, but sometimes she thought it was best. That way her mother was the last person to hear her talk.

24#Heaven
They were lucky to have her as an angel.

25#Sorry
People say they sorry, she wants to know what they reckon they could have done.

26#Gravity
The whole thing weighed down on her making her shoulders slouch and her eyes grow dark.

27#Blind
People would have to be blind not to notice she has an expressive face. The key was in getting her to use it.

28#Home
To Sam it no longer existed without her mother in it.

29#She
She wasn't just someone else, she was mom and she was everything.

30#Phantom
A kiss would brush her forehead and she'd reach out a second later to find nothing.

31#Stallion
He was the king of the herd but she couldn't help but think he was the wrong color.

32#Move
It had to be good for her because Sue was running out of options to save her.

33#New
Learning sign language was like learning a new trick, the only difference was, she couldn't drop it when she got bored.

34#Everything
Until she was gone, Sam hadn't realized how much of her mother was everything to her.

35#Things
It was hard through to go through them, Sam felt she was intruding on someone else's property even though the will said her mom's things were now hers.

36#Act
She'd gotten tired of acting like everything was okay within the second week. She just got better at hiding it.

37#Cherish
Every moment, every smile, every fight was now locked away in her to cherish forever.

38#Encore
There was no encore to life.

39#Tenderfoot
No one could say suck it up, they'd all feel to bad.

40#Dream
Each was worst from the last because they'd leave her wanting more.

41#Series
It took a lot of tests but eventually they found the problem, they didn't have a cure to either.

42#First
The first photo she sees coming home makes her cry.

43#Never
She'll never get to say I love you and goodbye properly.

44#Dancing
She was always dancing.

45#Angel
Sam hoped heaven knew how lucky they were.

46#Want
She could never want something so desperately now, it overshadowed it everytime.

47#Lost
Her smile had gotten lost, they're afraid they'll never find it.

48#Living
she contemplated it a lot, tracing her fingers over blue.

49#Midnight
The nightmares are worst at midnight, they know she finds no relief to waking in darkness.

50#Tragic
People call it tragic, she never really liked people.


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And the digital cookie goes to whoever figures out where I got the drabble prompts.