I Need You
By: Lily (Lena) Evans
Summary: With his divorce underway, Tohma is kicked out of his house and has to stay with a friend, namely Ryuichi. During his visit there he slowly begins to realize things about himself that he had never known before.
Pairings (for now): Tohma/Ryuichi. Tohma/Eiri (yet again).
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Romance
Warnings: Yaoi (duh), most likely OOC-ness. Limeness
Disclaimer: Gravitation is not mine. Note the word fanfic.
A/N: gasp! Holy mofo I live! And I've actually pounded out another chapter that really should have been up last April... I'm not going to make it easy for Tohma. Poor baby… Anyway, he has a talk with Eiri. Then he hears the news about Karen's article. Lots of stuff Read and Review!
Please remember how I feel about you
I could never really live without you
So, come on back and see just what you mean to me
I need you
Tohma walked up to Eiri's apartment. He felt nervous all of a sudden. It was the first time he had felt this way in a long time. It was going to be awkward, Tohma knew, but he had to talk to his brother-in-law.
Eiri seemed surprised when he opened his door to see Tohma standing there.
"What do you want Seguchi?" he asked, clearly sobered up.
"I want to talk with you, Eiri-san," Tohma told him, nodding towards the apartment, requesting entrance. Eiri said nothing but moved out of the way for Tohma to come inside. The keyboardist removed his shoes at the door and took a seat at the couch. Eiri sat next to him a good distance away.
"What do you want to talk about?" Eiri's tone suggested that he knew, but had decided to be stubborn about it.
"I believe you know, Eiri-san." If Eiri was going to make it difficult, so was Tohma. Eiri lit a cigarette, puffing on it slightly.
"I don't know what you're talking about, Seguchi." The novelist bore his eyes into the older blond man's. It was now a battle of will. The game was on and Tohma was determined to win.
"I believe you do," he replied. "Do you mean to tell me you don't remember what happened earlier?"
"That's exactly what I'm telling you," the younger blond shrugged. "Would you care to fill me in?"
"You could call it statutory rape." Tohma narrowed his eyes, though Eiri seemed unfazed.
"It isn't rape if the other party consents to it."
"So you're saying you remember?" Tohma raised his eyebrows.
"So you're saying you wanted it?" Tohma shut his eyes. He would usually let the novelist have his way with things, but not this time.
"Not today," Tohma said. "If you were planning to make a move on me, Eiri-san, you should have done it sooner."
"I have no regrets about when I chose to 'make a move' on you, as you put it." Eiri's eyes were still drilling holes into NG's president. "I needed something to clear my mind."
"So it was just a booty call then?" Tohma asked, not showing the effect that this small statement had upon him.
"If you want to put it that way…" Eiri put out what remained of his cigarette and leaned back against the couch, his eyes finally leaving the keyboardist.
"I suppose you find it acceptable to do such a thing to someone like me," Tohma crossed his arms over his chest.
"What exactly do you mean 'someone like you'?" Eiri appeared relaxed and Tohma found it difficult to read his next move. "Do you perhaps mean someone of your status? Or someone as easy to seduce as you?" This statement caught the older off guard. He fumbled for a second, but regained the upper hand.
"I mean someone who has been a guardian to you," the president retorted. "I doubt you would seduce a family member."
"Technically, you are family, Seguchi," Eiri reminded him. "So, technically, I already have."
"Yes, technically," Tohma reminded him. "But you wouldn't seduce an uncle or cousin, now would you? Or even Tatsuha."
"The little brat's hit on me plenty of times," Eiri stated, ignoring Tohma's previous statement.
"But you wouldn't hit on him, is my point, Eiri-san," Tohma regarded the novelist in question.
"Where is this conversation going, Seguchi?" Eiri asked.
"I want to know why you decided to give me a blow job earlier," Tohma told him bluntly.
"What would you do if I said it was because I like you?" Eiri turned to the keyboardist, his eyes softer. Tohma let his guard fall, he was at a loss for words.
"I would tell you that it's too late," he said eventually as he regained his defenses. "I have someone else now, Eiri."
"You may," he said, moving closer and cupping the older man's chin in his hand. "But you're still hooked on me."
"Wh-what makes you say that?" Tohma stuttered more than he meant to. Dammit, he was losing. No! He wouldn't, he HAD to win.
"It's in the way you look at me, Seguchi," Eiri moved closer so Tohma could feel the warmth of the younger man's breath on his ear. "Love, adoration… obsession." Tohma's breath caught in his throat.
"N…no." The keyboardist felt like melting into the other man's arms. No, he mustn't!
"Really?" Eiri seemed amused by Tohma's response. "You intrigue me, Seguchi. Why do you insist on keeping your defenses up? You're only going to lose."
"What makes you say that?" Tohma smiled, not the sweet smile he usually had on, but a malicious one. The one that only people close to him knew he had in him.
"Because I always win." It was almost a whisper, barely audible, even at such close proximity. Though, Tohma heard it loud and clear. It felt like a slap in the face. It was true. Eiri always had the upper hand. That, however, was about to change.
"Not this time, Eiri," Tohma told him. "I'm still waiting for my answer."
"To which question, Seguchi?"
"Why did you attempt to take me in my office?"
"Oh, that's right. That one." Eiri's eyes, once again, bore into the keyboardist. "I already told you the answer to that one. Because I felt like it. Must I have a reason for everything?"
"You should know that by now, Eiri," Tohma stood. In his mind, this conversation was over.
"Ah, yes," Eiri remembered. "With you, everything needs a reason. Like there was a reason you didn't push me away this morning." Tohma stopped dead in his tracks, his hand on the doorframe.
"I tried, Eiri," he said, not turning around.
"You didn't do a very good job," the novelist told him. "I couldn't even feel it. Actually, it felt more like you were pulling me in towards you." Tohma felt his knees weaken, like his defenses.
"I—I—"
"Nothing clever to say to that?" Eiri asked teasingly.
"Don't tease me Eiri," Tohma commanded, turning around. Eiri's grin disappeared the moment the keyboardist turned to him and was replaced with a scowl.
"Why shouldn't I?" He closed his eyes and lit up another cigarette. Tohma resisted the urge to snatch it from him and put it out.
"I have no reason," Tohma admitted. "I simply requested for you to stop such teasing." Eiri shrugged, taking a long drag and exhaling in Tohma's direction.
"Are you finished talking?" Eiri asked after a long, awkward silence.
"Why did you really do it?" Tohma asked.
"You're persistent, aren't you?"
"I keep pushing till I get what I want," Tohma reminded him. "You of all people should know that."
"Ah, that's true," Eiri admitted. "You really want to know?" Tohma nodded, knowing already that he would not like the answer. "You were the most likely person to accept such a thing from me."
"I'm not asking why you chose me," Tohma told him.
"Oh?" Eiri opened an eye to regard the older man.
"I want to know why you decided to cheat on Shindou."
"I see…" Eiri got up, put out his cigarette, walked over to the president, and stood so close that their bodies were nearly pressed together.
"Do you plan to tell me?" Tohma asked. "Or are you planning on standing like this for the rest of the day?" He had never been so bold around Eiri before, but he wanted the answer he craved. He wanted to know why he was forced to cheat on Ryuichi.
"I needed something different from what he gives me." Tohma easily saw through this lie and called him on it.
"That's not the reason," Tohma informed him. "You wanted him to be jealous. So you chose me because you know that out of everyone you could cheat on him with, I was the one he would despise the most."
"So you caught me," Eiri gave in easily, surprising the keyboardist.
"Hn… that's all I wanted to know."
"I see," the novelist smirked.
"What exactly do you find so amusing?" Tohma asked, beginning to feel uncomfortable.
"So you're saying, if given the chance, you wouldn't do it again?"
"N-no…" Tohma felt his face flush. He knew it was not very becoming, but Eiri's eyes were boring into him again. However, it was different from before. Eiri was regarding him before with spite, now it was lust. Strange how people's emotions change so quickly, Tohma mused.
"I see…" Eiri closed the distance between them, locking his lips with Tohma's. NG's president suddenly felt his desire overtake him. Everything in his mind was telling him to shove Eiri away, to leave him, but his body was not responding to that. Instead, his arms were pulling the novelist closer, his mouth returning the kiss with equal fever, his eyes fluttering shut, and his legs wrapping around his brother-in-law, willing him forward.
Tohma didn't know when he and Eiri moved over to the couch. The next thing he knew was that he was devoid of his clothes and stripping the author of his. Eiri moved to Tohma's neck, sucking on it lightly. The keyboardist moaned.
"Oh God…" Eiri smirked at the effect he was having on the other man.
"Do you like that Seguchi?" Tohma nodded, despite his mind refusing to believe so.
"M…more…" Eiri was all too happy to comply. He captured his lips in a kiss again, devouring him hungrily. His kisses soon moving down to the keyboardist's neck, his tongue darting out every so often. The teasing made Tohma moan in pleasure. Eiri smirked, noticing that Tohma was enjoying himself, though the next word caught him off guard.
"Ryu…" Eiri moved away from the older man, staring at him. Tohma's eyes shot open and he looked up at the novelist.
"Hmph… so you have fantasies about other people while having sex with someone is that it?" Eiri sat back, away from his brother-in-law.
"N-no! I… that is… dammit…"
"You should have said something, Seguchi."
"What?" Tohma was dumbfounded. "What do you mean by that?"
"I mean you should have told me you actually like him," he said, smirking.
"You mean you…"
"I'm not saying I wouldn't have done it, but I am saying I wouldn't have done it this last time." He pulled on his shirt and left Tohma lying naked on the couch.
"E…Eiri…" He sat up and put his head in his hands for a while before deciding to pull on his pants. After getting dressed he noticed Eiri had retreated to his room. Tohma glanced in that direction before heading out the door.
He met Shuichi about halfway down the hall. The pink haired boy glared at him with every ounce of strength he could muster, which looked slightly awkward. Tohma nodded to the boy and greeted him.
"Hello, Shindou-san," he said. "How are you doing?"
"Could be better," he said, still glaring at his boss.
"Is that so?" Tohma asked innocently. "Why don't you go see Eiri then?" Shuichi regarded the man with curiosity.
"You want me to talk to Yuki?" he asked.
"Why not?" Tohma asked. "If you two breaking up is affecting your performance it's going to cause problems Shindou."
"But I thought you—" Tohma cocked his head to the side, feigning obliviousness.
"Yes, Shindou?" he asked.
"Weren't you fucking with Yuki?" he asked. Blunt as ever, though Tohma did not lose his smile.
"What makes you think that?" he put on a confused look. "We were having a discussion about his inappropriate visit to me this morning. We have it all sorted out."
"But you… Sakuma-san…"
"Yes, I've spoken with Ryuichi as well," he said, still smiling. "As I said, everything is all sorted out… that is, except your relationship with Eiri."
"Wha--?"
"Go on," Tohma urged him. "I believe he might be willing to forgive you." He winked and walked away, his coat swishing behind him. He felt the pink haired youth's eyes follow him until he turned the corner. It startled him that he did not mention the fact that Eiri chose him over Shuichi. Something inside him, however, would not let him say such a thing. He had dreamed often of gloating that he had won Eiri… taken him away from the pink haired brat. However, now, that seemed ridiculous.
"TO-CHAN!" Ryuichi glomped him the second he walked in the door. "WE MISSED YOU!" The singer had been shouting, though Tohma was right under him.
"Hey, lovebirds," Noriko appeared in the doorway, holding a magazine. "You mind if I talk to you two for a second? It looks like you had other plans though." She winked at them. Ryuichi flushed.
"Nori-chan!" He attempted to glare at her, but it looked rather goofy. "To-chan and Ryu were having a serious conversation." He attempted to imitate Tohma, but really didn't pull it off well. Noriko bent down to pat his head.
"What is it Noriko?" Tohma asked from his spot on the floor. She giggled slightly at seeing her band mate in such a position.
"Oh, no, this can wait, by all means."
"Noriko…" Tohma glared, but from his spot on the floor, that looked funny as well. Noriko burst out laughing at the sight.
"I've never seen you in this state before, Tohma." She wagged a finger in his direction.
"Just tell us what you want," Tohma sighed.
"All right, all right," she said, rolling her eyes. "Here." She dropped the magazine on his face. "You might find this interesting."
"What is it?" Tohma asked, finally sitting up and looking down at what she threw on him. Ryuichi was still sitting on his legs.
"A magazine," she said.
"I know that," Tohma said, glaring back up at her. "What am I looking for?"
"The head article," Noriko told him as though it were obvious. "It involves you two." Tohma glanced at it and the name of the author made him sick.
"Karen…" he said.
"That mean lady?" Ryuichi asked.
"You know the author?" Noriko asked. "Well, she must have some kind of grudge against you two."
"Dammit…" Tohma cursed. "I thought for sure I'd made enough calls to make sure she never worked around here again…"
"That's just it," Noriko said. "You own Tokyo… this publishing company is in Hokkaido."
"…Fine then…" Tohma narrowed his eyes. "If that's really the way she wants it…"
END CHAPTER 7
A/N: Okay… Karen's really in for it now. You get to find out what was in the article in the next chapter. Now that Eiri's out of the picture doesn't mean that we won't have problems. Maybe I'll update before fifteen years again.
Love always,
Lily
