AN: I'm so sorry about the underlines . I couldn't get rid of them get rid of them. But thanks so much to all of you that reviewed. I had a bad day and when I saw how many I'd got I just started laughing. ;D Thank you little minions .

Someone said that they enjoyed my AN's. I'm glad someone does.

I hit my head really hard against a wall earlier and it's now throbbing. So if this chappie doesn't make sense blame the wall. I could be unconscious right now dreaming all this up while Carlisle Sits with me holding my hand…… Don't look at me like that . I can dream if I want to.

Bella POV

I'd got away from them as fast as I could. I don't want to see them. Ever. But they would probably go to Charlie and Charlie would tell Carlisle. Maybe I should go tonight. And tell them to never talk to me again. God I sound like a 3 year old.

I went back to Faiths while she stayed out and I sat in her room. Her dad was out and I was alone. I turned on the radio and started to cry .

I miss you

Miss you so bad

I don't forget you

Oh it's so sad.

I grabbed the closest sharpest thing I could find. A math compass. I knew exactly what faith used it for. The same thing I was about to.

I held it to my wrist and the memories of me and Edward together began to flood into my mind. All the normal everyday things we had done. I'd give anything to have that again. For him to love me again.

Now you're gone

Now you're gone

There you go

There you go

Somewhere I can't bring you back

Now you're gone

Now you're gone

There you go

There you go

Somewhere you're not coming back

I sobbed harder as I remembered the conversation in the woods when he left me. The pain in my chest was throbbing. And I made another cut, pressing harder .Desperate to get rid of the pain in my heart.

The door opened and Faith came in. I could hardly see her through my tears. She came over and sat with me.

She cleaned up my arm and told me to calm down. We sat there in silence for 10 minutes .And I went back into another breakdown at the next song.

I'm so tired of being hereSuppressed by all my childish fearsAnd if you have to leaveI wish that you would just leaveBecause your presence still lingers hereAnd it won't leave me alone

She pulled me into a hug and began cursing the Cullen's.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're goneBut though you're still with meI've been alone all alongThese wounds won't seem to healThis pain is just too realThere's just too much that time cannot erase.

She left me for a second and came back with a needle and injected it into my arm. I quickly relaxed and we spent the next few hours in a drug induced haze.

I knew the second I stood up that I was really out of it. It was an amazing feeling. Not a care in the world.

We were laughing about something. I was moving really fast. When did I get on the bike?

Faith was ahead of me shouting something about the Cullen's. I realised that we were going to there house.

I laughed ,we both laughed. Why was it so funny?

We got of just outside there house . And I stood staring at it. They probably know I'm here. I cant do this.

"I'm sorry faith I have to go"

I jumped back on my bike .Just as I was about to speed of on the terminator. A loud very voice shouted.

"BELLA SWAN GET OF THAT BIKE RIGHT NOW"

I reluctantly turned round to see an angry Carlisle Cullen.

AN: So sorry it's short but it started snowing again. Thank you so much i had the nicest review EVER .