"Dad?" Charlie's face grew more and more shocked as the seconds passed by. "Dad, I'm sorry. Please say something?" It came out as a question. My dad had been speechless for over 5 minutes now, and I was getting worried.
His expressions were various. He went from angry, to furious, to sad to disappointment. Finally, shock.
My mom decided to step in for the first time, "Charlie? What do you think about this news? Talk please." Renee pleaded.
Instantly, Charlie's head snapped towards Renee's direction and he stared for a while. He looked like he was thinking what to say.
"Renee, I don't really know what to think of this. Just give me some time to think. If I answer to you guys right away," he said as his head turned to mine and Edward's – who was standing next to me, constantly reassuring me that everything was going to be alright – direction and looking with sad eyes, "I will not be giving my honest answer, as I will be giving an angry one and not speaking with the heart. I'm a little bit sad and disappointed, yes, because you two kids knew much more than that, that is true, but all I'm asking is just a little time to think about this things a bit more clearly. I don't want to yell at you because of my mood and because of not thinking."
I really didn't think that Charlie was going to take it that way. Now, I was the shocked one. Of course, Charlie hadn't given an answer, but I knew that whatever he decided was for the best.
"Okay Charlie, we will give you time…" Renee started to say but was cut off by him.
"Actually Renee, I need to think alone,"
"What do you mean alone?" Edward asked.
"Yeah, I think I'm leaving for a couple of days." Charlie answered.
"Leaving? What? For how long? Where?" The questions came out of my mouth like word vomit.
"I don't know. A couple of days. 2, 3 days. Maybe a week. I'm not sure," he replied back, unsure.
"Well, where are you going Charlie?" I asked, tears starting to form in my eyes, and finally falling down uncontrollably.
"I don't know, Bells. A hotel, maybe. Maybe Harry's or Billy's. I just need time to think." With that he started heading towards the door.
"Charlie, please, please don't go!" I pleaded, grabbing his arm.
"Bella, I'm so sorry. I'll be back soon. I promise. I love you." He said, as he kissed me on the head and struggling to get his arm away from my tight grip. The tears were unstoppable and my body grew weak. My hand fell from his arm and went to my face, as my knees started to wobble and finally falling on the floor. I was hyperventilating, blaming myself for everything that has happened. I lost Charlie.
Edward knelt beside me and held me against his chest. "Shh, Bella. Everything's fine. Charlie'll be back in a few days. Don't cry, love. I hate seeing you like this." He confessed, his velvet voice becoming unsteady and cracking at the last sentence."
"I'm so sorry Edward," I wiped my eyes and finally got up. The crying was starting to fade until it became sobs. I stood up and saw my mom beside me. She was crying a little too.
"Bella, he'll be back. I promise. He will make the right decision, don't worry. We'll all go through this few days together. We can make it," she assured me, wiping my wet hair from the tears off my face, "I love you, baby. So so much."
"I love you too, Mom." I replied back.
8 days have passed now, and there was no sign of Charlie.
I missed him terribly. Since he left, I had promised myself to not cry in front of Edward or my mom. After all, he had told me that he hated seeing me like this. It wasn't fair that he had to suffer because of my suffering.
I was in the kitchen making dinner for me and my mom, when suddenly the phone rang. I picked it up instantly, "Hello?" I said, as I continued chopping on some onions.
"Bella?" The voice asked back. This voice. My dad's voice.
"Dad," I gasped. "How are you? Where are you?" My questions came together.
"Um, I think we should meet tomorrow. You, Renee and Edward. If you don't mind," he said, unsure, confidence disguising his voice.
"Sure thing. Um… do you want to come over for dinner? I mean, it's your house too,"
"No, no. Let's meet at the diner."
"Okay… I'll tell mom," I managed to let out, as fresh tears were, yet again, falling. Damn you hormones.
" 'Kay."
"Dad?"
"Yeah, kid?"
"I love you," I told him, but there was no answer. "Dad? Dad, are you still there?" And I hear the click of the phone hanging up.
The tears were now coming down like a waterfall. What was my dad going to tell us? Was he going to be reasonable? Why didn't he reply when I told him I loved him?
The questions banged my head like a hammer, and more questions came to my head. Tears, fresh tears, angry tears, sad tears, frustration tears, blame tears, every single negative emotional tear was coming from my eyes.
I kept chopping on the onions and crying, when I heard footsteps. I wiped my tears away, as my mother came into the kitchen.
"Hey, baby. Whatcha making?" Renee asked, cheerfully as she opened the fridge and got some orange juice out.
"Chicken stroganoff,"
"Yum!" She exclaimed.
"Mom, Charlie just called," I said as casually as I could.
"He did?" She asked easily as she replaced the lid on the carton.
"Yeah, he said to meet with him at the diner. He told me that Edward should come too."
"Huh," was all she replied.
"What do you think he decided?" I asked, now turning around and focusing on my mom.
"I don't know, Sweetie. I really don't. But whatever he decided, is was he thinks is best for the family." She told me, lovingly as she hugged my shoulders.
"Yeah, you're probably right."
That night, I called Edward and told him about the phone call. He agreed to come to the "reunion" with Charlie.
I was lying in bed and the phone call was in my head, not letting me sleep. I was really nervous about tomorrow. I needed to know his decision.
I kept thinking about the different things he might've decided. I don't know when, but somewhere in the middle, I fell asleep, and the next thing I knew, I was being woken up by the sunlight coming into my eyes, illuminating my room.
They day passed, amazingly, really fast.
It was 5pm and Renee, Edward and I were sitting on the table, waiting for Charlie. The waitress – flirting with Edward - kept coming, asking for our orders, even thought we had told her that we didn't want anything.
5.10pm stroke on the clock, and I was starting to think that Charlie wasn't going to come.
Suddenly, the bell hanging on the door rang and Charlie came in, looking for us. Once he found us, he approached to our table and sat down.
Hi was silent for a while. His face looked like he was thinking. Hard. His brown eyes were looking down to his hands.
"Uh, Bella, Edward, Renee," he started to say, slowly lifting his eyes from his hands. "This isn't easy." What? "I've been thinking a lot. I know I should be supportive and all about this, but I can't. I will support you, if you need money, don't hesitate in asking, but I won't be living at our house anymore. It's too much.
"Renee," he looked at my mom now. She had a very sad and disappointed look on her face, "this will make things easier for our divorce. I've already packed my stuff. If you need me for anything, you have my number so please call. I hope you know that I love all of you. But it's too much." He said as he stood up and left.
I couldn't believe this. Charlie was leaving. I knew this was going to happen soon, but not soon enough.
I felt Edward's and my mom's worried faces on me. Tears were already pouring down my eyes like a waterfall.
My dad had left. And I would only call him if I needed something. Where was he going?
I suddenly got up from the table and got out of the diner. I started walking towards nowhere in particular.
My thoughts were hunting my mind and I haven't realized that it was cold and raining. A hand suddenly wrapped my arm. I was hoping it would be Charlie, telling me that everything was fine and that he loved me.
I turned around and I say Edward looking at me with sad eyes. The rain hit his hair, making the water fall to his face, and occasionally, it would fall to his lips and he would lick his lips, as if he were drinking the water. So sexy.
"Bella, Charlie's insane if he doesn't want to be a part of our lives and our child's life," he soothed as I stared into his beautiful apple green eyes. "Bella, listen to me. We have a lot of wonderful people in our lives. They will help us. We will get through this. With or without Charlie." He promised.
"Yeah? You promise?"
"Of course. Bella, I would never let anything happen to you or our baby. I love you too much to make both of you suffer," God he was so cute.
"Promise me something. Promise me that you will be by our side every time. Promise me that you'll never leave us. I wouldn't know how to handle it. I love so very much," I confessed. And I did. I did love him. More than anything.
"I promise Bella. I love you more than you can imagine." Right after he said this, his lips crushed to mine. His mouth felt good against mine. He kissed so well. I grabbed his face with my hands and he grabbed my hips. We continued making out until a thunder struck. We broke apart as he pulled me to a hug and started whispering the song 'Blackbird' by The Beatles in my ear.
Blackbird singing in the dead of night Black bird singing in the dead of night Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly Blackbird fly, Blackbird fly Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
all your life
you were only waiting for this moment to be free
Into the light of the dark black night.
Into the light of the dark black night.
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise,
You were only waiting for this moment to arise
My cheeks started to blush and I looked at Edward, who was staring at me with loving eyes. What was with him?
"Edward? Edward was going on?" I asked, a little hint of happiness touching my voice.
"Bella, I'm absolutely in love with you. I've always been. You made me feel welcome when I came into your world. I love you, so very much." He confessed.
Tears started to form in my eyes. I was shocked.
"Oh, Edward. I feel the exact same way. I can't believe this is happening."
"I can't either,"
The rain started to slow down and we stayed outside, with Edward eventually giving me a peck on the lips.
My mom came outside and told us she was leaving.
We told her that we would go out for a little while and clear our minds.
We were in Edward's silver Volvo and we were going to somewhere I didn't know.
We suddenly stopped in the middle of the road, next to the woods and we got out.
"Close your eyes," Edward ordered me. I did as I was told, and Edward, just in case, covered my eyes with his hands.
He led the way until he said "Okay, open them."
Oh. My. God. The meadow was absolutely wonderful. It was open and had lots of violet flowers starting to bloom in the long green grass.
He grabbed my hand and took me to the center of the meadow. He sat down and I lay next to him, Edward embracing me with his arms.
"Look," Edward said, as he grabbed my finger and pointed to where he saw the blackbird. "Every time you see a black bird, I want you to think of the love we feel towards each other. Our love. Our child. Forever."
I turned my head around and stared into his eyes. He leaned down and kissed me on the lips once again.
Right then, I knew that everything was going to be okay. With or without Charlie. I knew I had the best support I could ever wish to help me with my pregnancy.
Right then, I couldn't wait for my life with Edward to start.
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Playlist:
Kick Ass – Mika
Jorge Regula – The Moldy Peaches
La Barca – Jambao
Burnin' Up – Glee Cast
Blame It On The Boogie – Jackson 5
Flirt – Pussycat Dolls
Amiga – Sin Limite
Jessie's Girl – Glee Cast
Cuarto de Milla – El MC Caco ft 100%
Hay Que Calor – El Dipy
El Fantasma – Arbol
Stereo Love – Edward Maya ft Alicia
We No Speak Americano – Yolanda Be Cool
Ours – The Bravery
Danza Kuduro – Don Omar
