i know its been a hell long time but forgive me for i have been busy with life! anywho here it is!

"Nessa , honey? Please wake up for me."

My eyelids did not want to open at all, the seemed to heavy and burned. But I fought threw it. My glasses were off but I could still see Nana and Graps sitting on both sides of my bed.

"am I in the hospital? " the blue and white checkered gown matched the white checkered floor and blue curtains.

"sweetie, please relax. You fainted and luckily someone got to you in time. " Nan's wrinkly hand covered mine.

"what did your father tell you, sweet pea? " Grandda's voice was in it's robust stage.

"notihng, alrihgt. Just drop it. " I rached for th eiv in my arm but they smacke dit away.

"Vannesa, he had to tell you something horrible. He's the reson why youre here! " Grand dad had stood up and marched around the room. His posture reminding me of dad, reminding me of what he told me.

"Ms. Gomez? " the female doctor walked ove rto me and smiled softly at me.

"may I speak to you alone? "

"yes, my grandparents were just leaving. " my Nana walked grandfather out , whispering to him while he kept looking back .

"… "

"please Call me Nessa. "

"alright Nessa …I've overlooked your records ove ran dover again and you're perfectly healthy….."

"I understand I fainted but maybe it was just a fainting spell. Can I go home? "

"Nessa, Fainting randomly isny normal or healthy. "

"but you said im completely healthy and I still fainted. "

"I did say that but we did find that your blood pressure os through the roof. Something nobody in the state of Washington has ever seen for someone your age. There's inflammation in your chest which we are lucky to have found soon but your stress has taken over your body. "

"the inflammation , its not life threating, is it? "

"no, usually when theirs inflammation in the chest it happens because you've been hit in the chest hard. Kind of like a bruise. We can usually get rid of that with some medication but the stress doesn't help. "

"okay… " I cant believe what she was telling me. Me, in the hosipal and sick. I, Vannesa Gomex never missed one day in school. Not one!

"I will only let you out of here, if and only if you promise me to take a week off work and your studies. And relax. There will be no working out or shopping. Im sending you to bedrest. "

"but I enjoy doing errands and… "

"Nessa, I understand that you like certain things but I believe its your best wishes if you stay in your home relaxing. That way you don't get any distractions. " she wrote down on her notepad.

"I'll be back with further instructions. "

I laid there, just looking at the ceiling. I couldn't have this, im invincible. I never get sick. Are you fucking kidding me, there had to be a mistake.

After changing into my clothes, had injected me with a muscle relaxer. The shot hurt like a bitch, I swear I felt the needle enter my vein with my liquid just sliding through. The sudden sleepy stage took place and it looked like both my eyelids were closing and opening . My headache turne dinto a migrane and I couldn't even look straight without wanting to fall over and give up. Nana had helped me with my clothes, while Gran dad helped me walk down the hall. Until I felt like I was going to faint and slipped away form his arms and down the closest wall.

"I cant do this. " I felt like crying, I felt so helpless.

"now, I don't believe that shit . This is coming form a girl who grew up all by her fucking self . didn't take shit form no one. Over came eveyr damn obstacle that came her way. " Granddad looked down at me

"yeah, but look where I'm at now. Im sick and told to relax for a week because I cant handle anything. Im weak. "

"no, your human. " you could say what you want but Nana's smiles always work. They always showed me everything was koay.

"I don't know what he said to you but you better believe it Nessa. For chirst sakes, he better pray that my shoe doesn't go far up his ass that it ends up leaving his body out of his mouth! "

"Steve! Watch your mouth! "

"that's the god damn truth ! " Granddad retorted

A soft chuckle reputed from my numb chest. Grandpa always had a way of speaking. He ha dto ttone it down over the years. Nana had heard me use some of those colorful words and asked Grandpa to tone it down. It didn't help but he does watch what he says now.

"NESSIE! " Granddad and Nana both looked down the hall where Jacob quickly sprinted down. Right behind him two security officers chased after him. But it was two late. He wa sby my side in less then 5 seconds.

"Jacob? "

"oh god Ness, what happened to you! I leave your side for a couple of minutes and you end up in the hospital! I asked for the day off at work to be here. " Jacob had kneeled down by my side. His face just inches away from mine. My eyes counting the oil and grease stains on his face and arms. His mesmerizing eyes on the bandages of my arms where iv's and needle spots were just at.

"Nessa, who is….. "

"who the fuck are you! " grandad looked skeptical . Nan didn't even wack his arm when he cursed. They just looked at Jacob amazed.

"Jacob Black. "

"I know who you are ,black. I've known you since you were a small boy! " grandda dlooke dlike he wa sfuming. But the realization Nana's face made me beam. She covered her mouth in awe at first then shook he rhead.

"Steve, this is the young man that's taken our Vanessa out these past few weeks. " she looped her arm around his and laid her hea don his shoulder.

"you dating my grandaughter , Black? "

"yes, sir. I'm sorry I didn't ask you first….

"is he treating you with respect? " Jacob closed his mouth while Granpa interrupted him. I only nodded and laid my head back onto the wall.

"the most respect I had ever received. "

"well then, Jacob I hope you can come have dinner at our place sometime. "

"I'll be glad too. "

"can you guys stop the chit chat, im fucking dying right here! "

"come on! " in one lift, Jacob threw me against his body bridal style .

"where are we headed ? " Jacob looke dback at my grandparents.

"our house, I've set the room up already. "

"no, please no. he's more lickely to show up there! "

"she's fucking right. Plus I don't want her to be there when I kick his ass! "

"who's ass? "

"no ones, shhh."

"her dumbass of a father! " Jacob's stared right at me. But I didn't have time to fight with him. I just snuggled up aginst his chest.

"let's take her to the apartment. He doesn't know she's there and she's more likely to rest. "

"Jacob, darling. Are you able to take her in your car? "

"yes, mam. "

"alright, how about we meet you two there. "

The warmth radiated a lot from my neck. It felt good and caused my body to shake. A soft purr spilled out of me and it wasn't until the deep chuckle made me open my eyes.

"didn't mean to wake you. "

"it's okay. " I yawned. Jacob sat on the edge of my bed watching me like a hawk. Ignoring his observant stares I looked outsode the door to see f my grandparents where anywhere near.

"your grandparents left an hour ago. Im here to make sure you have everything you need. "

"im good, thanks. " his knee began to bounce and I noticed his hands clecnhed.

"are you going to tell me what happened? "

"there isn't much to say, plus I don't think its your business to know. "

"IT IS MY BUSINESS! YOURE MY GIRLFRIEND AND YOU ENDED UP IN THE HOSPITAL! HOW THE HELL ISNT IT MY BUSINESS! "

I'd never seen Jacob mad so to see him furious scared the hell out of me. The veins in his neck were practically bulging out . The way he shook , just like a phone an vibrate. I don't understand why he's so upset. He doesn't care.

"you don't care, you don't care about me. " I was too tired to yell back, to fight with Jacob. So my voice just came out a small whisper. A very horsed pulle dout whisper.

"I care about you way mor ehten I care about my own life. It pisses me off that you cant see that. "

He didn't move away from the door. He just stood there pleading with his eyes.

'it's hard for me to tell you, it's always hard for me to tell anyone. "

His speed brough him to my side in less then 5 seconds. His hands cupped my cheek for the while. I turned my cheek and held back the tears. No one sees me cry, not even Jacob.

"but im not just anyone, Nessie. I'm your boyfriend, the one that's hopelessly in love with you. I don't care how cheesy that sounds but its thr turth. I'd do anything for you. I love you."

His chest was home for me, as much as I wanted to keep our distance, emotionaly, I couldn't. Jacob had this thing about him, one im sure others saw. But he ha dthe ability to make you open up. To see the light and the postive. Even if somebody did go down in flames, even if that person feels liek they lost pride.

"my dad came today, he came to visit me. I nevere really told you but my dad and I don't necessarily get along. For years he's judged me and what I've done. He never really encouraged me to go to school, he didn't care enough .he knew that he'd marry me off to some guy and my life would be set. I'd be this housewife like my mother and help pass along his dna. I didn't want that,Jacob. I hate my father so much , the way he made me feel, he told me I was worhtless, never amount to anything. "I should've aborted you" "I hope you die a slow painful death" those were my fathers goodbyes when I left to school. He was nevere drunk , he never smoke. It wa sjust him, grandma says he only knows hate. A long time ago dad borught home a guy…. "

"for what? " Jacob had looked me straight in the face.

"someone to marry. I wa sout of school and , as grandpa says, I was fertile enough to be knocked up. I didn't like Charlie, he wa san idiot. The image of dumbass. Dad got too upset and the fight escalated. Our fights usually started out verbally but they usually ended up physical….."

"I'll kill him! "

"it surprised me when he came, he gave me up months ago, I don't talk to my mom or siblings because of him. "

Jacob wiped away the tear that escaped my eyes. Slowly kissing the route it was traveling down.

"what did he talk to you about? "

I kissed Jacob once on the mouth but stopped when he asked me. I tore my gaze away form him and toward my wall.

"you promise you won't judge me for what he thinks? "

"I promise. "

I held myself together and took sometime to compose myself. I didn't want to hurt Jacob, I didn't know how he'd react to it.

"he found out about you…. he doesn't want me with you and he came to talk to me about it. " I let out a soft chuckle bebore kissing Jacob's neck over and over again, until I got to his ear.

"what did he say about me? "

Pushing me away form his body, Thr black orbs periced my skin until I felt him plead with his soul.

"he said you wernt good wnough for me, which is why I disagreed. He then said you wer eonly with me because of what I achieved. That you were only usuing me. Are you? "

"I would never use you, Ness. I love you, soo much. I know it's early but you got to believe me that I love you with all in sincerity. And youre dad's right, im not good enough for you, I will never ebe. But if you choose me then im good with it. As long as youre in my arms , my life is complete. "

I was in hysterics crying, the tears rolled down my face and I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I pulled his shirt to get him closer and rubbed my face into his chest.

"you don't know how amazing that makes me feel. "

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