Hello my readers!
I am back with another chapter! And let me tell you, I am loving all this positive feedback! It brings tears of joy to my eyes :')
Now to address the thing on everyone's mind. The end of chapter 6. Well, I am getting a lot of comments saying not to do that, but no worries, I promise that in the end everything will turn out fine. She just wants to protect Jack!
And next, ok, so I haven't heard anything about my story idea, if jack had gone to Japan, PLEASE tell me if you would like me to write it! If you guys don't tell me soon, I am either going to a) just not write it or b) after a while just write it anyways. So please tell me in the reviews if I should write it or not!
I am writing this on a Sunday, so I am not sure if I am going to finish it tonight, or even post it tonight, but I will get it up as soon as I can!
ALSOO! Nothing from BP yet:'( so BP… if you just happen to be reading this, (I would be soooo happy!) hurry up and post the contest results! I am DYING from waiting!
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Time: alright, it is 9:38 pm on 11/25/12. So we shall see if I get this done tonight!
Song: Breath of life by Florence + the Machine.
Okay, I picked this song for multiple reasons. A) I love Florence! She has an AMAZING voice! B) I am listening to it right now… haJ. C) it just seems to fit the story, I don't know how to explain it, I just think that for some reason it does.
Okay, well, lets get started then! I give you…. CHAPTER 6! (pulls back imaginary curtain)
Chapter 6: Games and Broken Hearts
(Kim's POV)
I Just laid there. The whole day. On the floor, staring up at the ceiling. Knife in one hand. Phone in the other. I made it into a game.
Every text from Jack- 1 cut.
Every time I chickened out on telling him to meet me- 2 cuts
Every time he said '"Kim, please"- 3 cuts.
Every time he said "Why wont you answer me?"- 4 cuts.
Soon enough, my arm was covered in fresh cuts. It was so ugly. I was so ugly. I was hurting.
I was going to have to let go of the only thing I was living for. I didn't want to do it. But I was being selfish. He deserves so much better. He deserves someone pretty, someone that people didn't laugh at as she walked down the hall, someone that can be with him whenever, someone that he doesn't have to sneak around with, someone happy, someone popular, someone who isn't a murder, someone that's not me, someone like, as much as it pains me to say this, someone like Donna. And anyways, if I didn't do this, Donna would hurt Jack, or maybe even kill him, or torture him.
Suddenly images of Jack laying crumpled on the ground flashed into my head. I could not let this happen. I could NOT let Donna hurt him. And in order for that to happen, I had to hurt him.
But he would heal. He would heal from this. He would move on, maybe even get back with Donna, he would find someone better than me. Someone better for him. He would heal. He would be okay. While if I didn't do this, she would hurt him beyond healing. You can't heal from death.
Maybe he would always remember me, Kim, Donna's twin sister, the girl he thought he loved.
Would he hate me again? Would he go back to calling me names? I hope not, but then again, it would mean he is over me. Now, I kind of hope so.
The room grew dark. My phone was buzzing non-stop. And I was cutting non-stop. Soon all you could see on my arms were red cut marks, an blood, I was starting to get light headed. I checked the time, 7:09 pm.
I turned my phone off, stood up, grabbed some clothes from my closet, and headed to the bathroom to take a shower.
I washed the blood off my arms, and my back. From the night before. Then, after I showered, I washed the knife, stored it, bandaged up my arms, got dressed, brushed my hair, and headed to bed.
We walked out of the ice cream shop, out into the warm night air of LA.
"Kim, I just don't get how you can not like pumpkin pie ice cream!" the person next to me exclaimed.
"It's disgusting!" I exclaimed "I will stick to my vanilla, thank you very much.
She had a gross look on her face "But vanilla, its just so… plain!" she fake gagged
"HEY! What is so wrong about being plain, I mean, plain is delicious!" I exclaimed, with a huge smile on my face.
"oh whatever you say, sweetheart" we smiled at each other. Riiinnnggg. Riiinnnggg. She pulled her phone out of her pocket. "oh, its your father" She told me, answering it. "Hey honey. Yeah we are having fun. I miss you too!"
"Tell Dad I say hi!" I told her.
"Kim says hi. Okay yeah, I will tell her. Alright, we will see you Monday. Okay bye!" She hung up and turned to me. "Your father says hi, he misses and loves you very much." I smiled and we turned the corner onto an empty street. "You know, I am getting kind of tired of this ice cream"
"Me too" I responded. We approached an alleyway. "Are you thinking what I am?"
She smiled. "one" she counted
My turn "Two"
"Three!" We exclaimed, then we threw our cones into the alley and ran.
"Hey!" Yelled a man's voice. We kept running, and he threw something at our backs. We turned. "You want to say something to me?" The ice cream covered hobo asked.
"We are very sorry" She said, and I nodded.
"What about the girl?" He asked.
"I nodded!" I told him
"Say sorry bitch! That or give me your money, nah, you bitches are probably broke" he insulted us.
"How DARE you call my daughter that!" with that she stepped forward and punched him. Then he pulled out a gun. And I just stood there, wide eyed.
"MOM!" I screamed he pulled the trigger, and she dropped to the ground, and he ran. I ran to her sitting down next to her. "don't leave me. Mommy! Please!"
"I love you, Kimmy" Then her eyes closed, and her breathing stopped. "NO!"
"NOO!" I woke up screaming. I looked around me. It was just a dream.
but it wasn't. it really happened. My mom really died, she was really gone. And if I didn't go through with today, the same would happen to Jack. I couldn't lose anyone else. I would lose him, but he would be alive. He would be safe.
I looked at the clock. 6:45 am. I had to hurry, or I would be late. I went to my closet and put on a black sweatshirt, some light colored skinny jeans, black combat boot, my boot for my leg, and my mothers necklace. I went to the bathroom, plugged my straightened in, washed my face, brushed my teeth, applied foundation on my face and neck (the choke marks were almost gone), applied mascara, then I straightened my hair and braided back my bangs. With that I grabbed my bag and headed out the door, knowing that today was going to be hard.
I made sure to get to school just before the bell rang, ignoring everyone and dodging Jack. I got to class and he smiled at me. I gave him a weak smile and sat down at my desk. I spent the rest of class trying to focus. But it was to hard. He was all I could think about. He is going to be crushed. But he will heal, me, on the other hand, I will always love him.
As soon as the bell rang, I bolted out of class. The next class was pretty much the same. Then on my way to third hour, Donna pulled me aside.
"Are you going to break his heart or not?!" she hissed.
"After school. I promise." I said shyly.
"Good" Then she pushed me away from her and joined her friends. I saw Jack coming towards me. Crap. Luckily I was right next to my third hour and quickly went inside. I caught a sad look on his eyes out of the corner of mine. This sucks.
I sat in third hour, planning what I was going to do. I would run straight to the library. He wouldn't be there. But well, lets say that did NOT work.
As soon as I bolted out of class, I was stopped by the one and only Jack Brewer. The love of my life. My eyes grew wide.
"Walk with me" He said, plainly. I gulped and nodded. He turned and I followed.
We were silently walking in the schools courtyard, when he turned to me and broke the silence. "What's up with you? Why aren't you answering me? Are you okay?"
"Um.." I guess this was going to have to happen a little bit sooner. "Listen Jack" Damn it I was about to cry. I sucked it all in. "I don't love you." I told him. His face fell.
"Wha-What?" he asked. Confused. Sad. Hurt.
"I. Don't. Love. You." I told him. "Never have, never will." I said. Trying to convince him. Trying to convince myself. His face looked so hurt.
"No- No your lying!" He exclaimed. Tears streaming down his face. He was crying. I made Jack Brewer cry. Soon I myself started to sob. His face grew angry. "Did Donna put you up to this?!"
"No, its what I feel. I am so, so sorry. And with that, I ran away from the school. Bawling.
And there you have it! Chapter 7! A tiny little thing, but still! I was not able to finish it last night so I finished it right when I got home! I am going to attempt to post another baby tonight, because I don't know if I will be able to tomorrow because I have practice and stuff like that going on, but I will try!
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And aaaaaahhhhhhh! New kickin it in half an hour!
I cant wait!
Well im not gonna post the time, cuz I already told you the situation, so yall go watch kickin it:) AFTER YOU REVIEW THAT IS!
Oh! And BP pm'd me back! I am not sure if we are doing the collab yet or not but I will tell you as soon as I knowJ okay well, goodbye now!
Glad everyone likes my story! I hope you guys like this chapter! I promise, everything happens for a reason, just trust me. Kim breaking Jack's heart is important to the story and will pay off! Things always get worse before they get better!
Lots-of-love
karissa
