So how badly do you guys hate me right now? i am honestly and truely sorry that it has taken my FOREVER to update. i have had some major writers block and i had no idea how to write this chapter. so i just locked myself in my room and this is what i came up with...i hope you like it and i am sorry for the mistakes, hey im only human. so i hope you like it and i pinky promise that i will update this story on Wednesday, April 27, 2011. scouts honor! :)

Disclaimer: Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight, I own my bad writing and extensive collection of beatles merch.


BPOV

When I was little I always had this dream that my prince charming would come and sweep me off of my feet. I dreamt that we got married, had children, and lived happily ever after. However, in my childhood, even then I knew that was never going to happen. I knew that prince charming didn't exist and if he did then he would never like or love me. Even at a young age I knew no one would ever love me because I was fat. I have all those kids who teased me to thank for my current mentality.

There was one little shit, pardon my French, in particular that I remember the most. His name was Jacob and for some reason he hated my guts. I remember in second grade I was all alone playing in the sand box and then he just came up to me, kicked sand in my face, and left. I had no idea why on earth he would do that but he did and it left me in tears. The next day he came up to me and told me that he no one liked me because I was bigger than the other kids. What he did then left me in tears as well, but worse than the first time. I then went up to him and asked him why he was doing this and he said, "because I can." That left me so confused that I had no idea what to say afterwards. He then just laughed in my face, called me fat, and walked away. And yet people still wonder why I am the way I am. Go figure. But because of kids like him my life was hell and I will never forget what they did.

But now that I am in my room listening to all the things Edward just said to me, my mentality might change in spite of everything I have ever gone through. I mean is it possible that my prince charming is out there after all? That he might have gotten wrong directions or got lost, but now he found me? These were one of the many things going through my mind as I sat on my bed with Edward across from me awaiting my reply.

So I just sat there soaking up what Edward had just said. Thinking that there was no way that he could have been describing me. I really want to believe what he just said was about me but I knew that it couldn't be because of my past. The way he describe her was like he knew her his whole life and could remember everything about her. In the same way it also seemed like the girl he described was me because I have all of those characteristics. I mean, how many girls out there like the Beatles and hang out with him all the time? I'm the only girl he really hangs out with, aside from Rosalie and Alice but Alice already likes Jasper so he couldn't be thinking about her. Then again, he was still so very descriptive about his type. But I knew that he doesn't like me that way, so I just played it off like nothing to make it seem like I wasn't hurt that he didn't like me.

"Wow Edward that's pretty descriptive, are you sure you are going to find the girl that fits all of those requirements?" I asked with a laugh

"Why yes I do because I am looking at her right now" Edward said while looking into my eyes

"Wh-what did you just say?" I said with a skeptical expression on my face

"I said I am looking at her right now, the girl that is everything I want and need. The girl who is the coolest person I know, who is beautiful, funny, smart, and who has excellent taste in music. The girl; who I am always with and who I always want to be with. Bella I am looking straight at her." He said while leaning in closer to me

"B-but why me? Why do you want to be with plain old me when you can have another girl?" I asked with questioning eyes

"I chose you Bella because you are the only girl who sees me for me. Other girls only go out with me because of my looks but not the real me. You see past my looks and you see the true me, the person that's funny, smart, and sarcastic. You never once tried to make a move on me or thrust yourself upon me. Also, because you are the most beautiful girl I have ever met. You're smart, funny, and sweet. I have never met a girl like you before and I hope I will never have to again because I have you. I love the way that you're shy and sweet to everyone you meet. You never ask for anything but you always try and help others out. I know that we have only known each other for more than a week but I just feel like I have known you forever and that you're the one for me," said Edward.

By the time Edward was done talking I was in tears. No one has ever said that to me before and coming from him made it all more special. I then flung my arms around him in a hug.

"Thank you Edward no one has ever said that to me before" I said.

"You're welcome and I meant every word," said Edward

We stayed there hugging each other for a good 5 minutes and while we were doing that Edward kissed me on the forehead and began to rub my back in small circles. I then pulled away and looked into his eyes to see complete love in them, for me. Then I asked with a smile, "so what took you so long to tell me this?"

"Well I wanted to find the perfect moment. I was going to tell you last night but I chickened out" he said while lowering his head

"Why did you do that?"

"Because I thought you were going to reject me"

"Edward," I said while lifting up his head to look me straight in the eyes, "I would never, ever reject you. If anything I should be the one afraid of being rejected"

"Why would you say that? You are the most beautiful girl I know, inside and out"

"to you it may seem that way. But to others I am just some ugly and fat waste of space"

"well I never want you to believe that ok?" Edward said while cradling my face in his hands

"Now that I am with you I'm starting to believe it less and less" I said with a smile

"Good because you are none of those things that they say" he said with his lopsided smile

He then began to lean forward closer and closer to my face. I knew what was coming, but yet I was still thinking that he wouldn't do it. But then I felt the soft caress of his lips on mine and then I felt the pressure he was exerting on my lips with his. I wonder if he would sense that I have never been kissed before and that he is my first. I had no idea what to do so I just kissed him back with the same intensity. I guess I was doing something right because then he started to push me back so that I would be lying down and he slowly climbed on top of me. I then felt his lips part and his tongue slip out and lick my bottom lip. I opened up my mouth and felt his tongue explore my mouth. I didn't know what to do so I just let my tongue touch his and I felt and heard him moan. I guess I kind of know what I am doing after all. But he then grabbed my left leg and hitched it up on his hip and I could feel the bulge in his pants. I panicked and pushed myself away from him.

"Oh my God, Bella, I am so sorry! I didn't meant to, I got too carried away and I'm so sor-"

I stopped him with a soft kiss and said, "It is ok, you don't need to beat yourself up over it. It was just a little too fast for me"

"But still I am so sorry Bella. It will never happen again" he said with pained eyes

"I never said I didn't want it to happen again," I said with a sly grin, "I'm just not ready for it right at this very moment"

"Ok Bella, just let me know when I am going to far ok? I can't help myself when I am around you"

"How did you keep yourself in check the other times we were together?" I asked with curiosity

"Well I just thought about Jasper in a Speedo and all those dirty thoughts went away," he said with a laugh.

"wow," I said while laughing, "I guess you don't have to do that anymore"

"How is that?"

"Well now you have free reign to kiss me whenever you want without having to put those thoughts away by thinking of your brother"

"really? So I can kiss you whenever and around whoever I want?"

"Yes you can"

"Even in front of Charlie and Renee?" he asked.

"ok maybe not them but anywhere else is fine with me" I said with a smile

"well then I guess with my newly given opportunity I shall put it in use right now" he said with a sly grin.

He then proceeded to kiss me for what seemed like 5 minutes but in reality was 20 minutes. The reason we stopped was because Rosalie called Edward and told him that me and him should go over there and hang out or do something because Alice was already there hanging out with Jasper. So we then got up off of my bed, got into my car, and left for Rosalie's house.

"So what do we tell them about us now that we are…..actually Im not sure what we are. What are we Edward?" I asked while turning into Rosalie's house and turning off the car.

"Well I would consider us boyfriend and girlfriend, that is, if it is ok with you?" he asked with hopeful eyes.

"Well of course it is ok with me," I said with a big smile, "there isn't anything else I would ever want more than to be your girlfriend"

"Great," he said with a smile, "so we are officially a couple"

"I wonder how they are going to react to us being together"

"I have a feeling that they already know and that they are going to be grilling you for details," he said with a laugh.

"Well as long as I am not alone in this one and you are going to be there right by my side it will be ok" I said with a smile.

"Always and Forever babe"

We then got out of the car and Edward held my hand as we approached the door. As Edward was lifting his hand to knock on the door it was flung open by a shocked Rosalie and Alice who then proceeded to rip me off of Edward and tug me all the way up to Rosalie's room and lock the door. They then made me sit in the middle of Rosalie's bed, look at each other and say simultaneously, "spill!"


And again i am really sorry for the extemely late update. please review and let me know what you want to see happen in this story or ideas you have for it, the help is greatly appreciated :D