Summer-
The next day, I woke up next to Logan. My head was on his bare chest and arm was around me, holding me in place.
My phone went off, and it was Justin's ringtone.
What I did last night finally hit me. The guilt hit me, too.
"OH GOD."
Logan opened his eyes, he smiled at me. "Hey."
"Oh my gosh." I stood up, pulling the sheets with me, wrapping them around me, which revealed Logan's still naked body.
"OH... my gosh."
"Oh hey thanks." He smiled, looking down at himself.
"Not that, well yeah, but no! Logan! I have a boyfriend."
He frowned, standing up, he quickly put on his boxers. "You don't regret it, do you?."
"You were drunk, I didn't know what I was doing-"
"Are you coming up with excuses? Summer, when I came to your house last night, I was hung over, I wasn't that drunk anymore, I slept it off at the party. After I took a shower I was very aware of what was going on. I wasn't drunk. Maybe buzzed, but a buzzed Logan knows what the fuck is going on."
"Justin doesn't need to know that though."
"Fuck Justin!"
"Yes! I should've been fucking him! Not you!"
He looked at me hurt.
"But, not that it wasn't great.. it's just that.. I wanted my first time to be with the man I'm in love with."
"But you do love me. And I love you."
"IN LOVE Logan. IN LOVE!"
"Well... I am in love with you, Summer. And I know you're in love with me, too. You said it last night."
"You're hung over. You have no clue what you're saying." I accused him.
"Yeah, I'm a little hung over. But not enough to know I do love you Summer. A lot. I think I've always been in love with you. Cause if I wasn't, I would've gotten rid of you a long time ago. And I wouldn't be standing here right now. I never stay the night after sex."
He had a point.
"You need to go now.."
"You're kicking me out?"
I nodded, "I guess so.."
"Well that's to bad." He looked threw the drawer I let him have and he pulled out sweats. "Cause I'm staying." He smiled and me. "Nice body, by the way." He winked at me, and walked into my bathroom.
I quickly put on my PJ's that I was supposed to be wearing last night. My phone went off again, with Justin's ringtone. I grabbed my phone, biting my lip, I answered it.
"Hello?"
"Guess what?"
"What?"
"I got a record deal."
"Huh?"
"I got a record deal."
"What do you mean?"
"Well I didn't get one yet. But fingers crossed. I posted these videos of my singing on YouTube a while ago and I've been posting them, and someone saw them, and liked it. He flew out to see me yesterday, and we talked and we're going to go see some record labels around the US and hopefully one likes me enough. But the bad news is I leave in 2 hours. So I'm outside to say goodbye."
"For how long?"
"Depends."
"You were supposed to start school tomorrow though.."
"I know, baby. I'm sorry, when I get back I'm going."
"Okay.."
"Come outside."
"Okay, give me 5 minutes.." I hung up.
I sank to the floor.
I need to pull myself together and fast.
I quickly brushed my hair and teeth.
I walked downstairs, preparing myself.
I felt Logans arms wrap around my waist. "Get rid of him." He whispered in my ear seductively.
"Stop it.."
He kissed my neck. "I'll be waiting." He made his way up to my room.
I opened the door.
"What's wrong? You look like you saw a ghost."
"I really wish that was the case."
"Is this about me leaving?"
"Uhh. Yeah. I guess so." I looked down, avoiding eye contact.
"Can I come inside."
"NO!" Logan yelled.
"Is he in your room?"
"Uhh, yeah. He was so drunk last night. I always let him sleep here when he's like that so he wont get in trouble."
"That's not normal for someone who has a boyfriend, Summer."
"Please.. don't Justin..."
"Sorry.."
"I didn't even know you sang."
"Yeah, I was going to tell you, but I didn't think it mattered."
"Well.. it did. It does."
He put his hand under my chin, making me look at him. "Is something wrong?"
"Yeah, actually. You're leaving. And I'm going to miss you."
He kissed me. "Don't worry. I have my phone and computer. We can text, call and VC each other. It'll be like I never left."
I nodded, "Okay."
"It's going to be fine." He hugged me.
"I sure hope so."
"Well, I better go finish packing. Wanna come help me?"
Logan-
I didn't expect Summer to come back upstairs. She's probably going to leave with Justin. I heard the door close. I sighed.
Then her door opened, "Hey I thought you'd be with Justi-"
"Don't talk." she was pulling off her shirt. Summer crawled on top of me, kissing me and pulling off my sweats.
"What are you doing?"
"I want you." She whispered in my ear.
I felt my heart begin to beat fast. I was actually kind of nervous. I never have sex sober.
But I kept my swagger on and did my best. Which felt better than my usual.
I wasn't sure if it was better because I actually love Summer, or because I'm sober so I know whats going on.
She just sat there when we were done.
"That was great!" I smiled, pulling her close to me. "Stop it." I told her.
"Stop what?"
"Over thinking it. You're not a bad person. You're not a slut. You're not going to hell."
"But Justin-"
"Doesn't satisfy you. And I do. Plus we love each other."
She shook her head. "It's wrong. I need to stop. We have to act like this never happened."
"Summer, we had sex twice. In less than 24 hours. Maybe we could've acted like it didn't happen after the first time. But we're both 100% sober now. So, theres no turning back now."
"I know." She put her hands in her face. "And this time I came onto you."
I smiled, "Yes, yes you did. And that was very hot by the way."
She looked at me before rolling her eyes. "Whats wrong with me?"
"What do you mean?"
"I just can't stop thinking about it."
"I told you." I laughed.
She laid her head on my chest. "Yeah, yeah, yeah. Shut up, Lerman."
"So I need to know.."
"Mm?" She looked up at me.
"Where do we stand? Like.. us."
"We're just friends Logan."
"Well now thats justa big bag of bull shit." I stood up, facing her.
"Logan, I have Justin."
"But he doesn't have you." I smiled at her.
"Yes he does." She crossed her arms.
"Says the one in my t-shirt." I licked my lips, "I'm hungry, I'm going to your kitchen if you need me."
Summer-
I watched Logan walk out of my room.
His scent was still with me. And I liked that.
I just don't know what to think anymore. I can't hurt Justin. Even though I already did. He's never going to talk to me again if he finds out. He pretty much came to California for me.
Why am I being such a whore? Logan has that affect on you.
Not that Justin isn't hot, because he really is good looking. But Logan has this certain sex appeal toward me and it makes me weak in the knees.
"What did you get yourself into, Summer?" I shook my head.
An hour later, I finally got myself ready and went downstairs.
"Where are you going?"
"We're going to throw the softball around."
Logan-
I looked at her up and down. She was in her softball pants and school softball shirt.
"I don't have my glove.."
"We can go get it, c'mon." She put her softball bag on her shoulder and walked out.
I quickly followed her. "Why the sudden erge to play?"
She bit her lip. "Because throwing the ball around helps me. It calms me and helps me think."
I brushed a piece of her dirty blonde hair behind her ear, placing my hand on the nape of her neck. I looked into her beautiful eyes. "I'm here if you need to talk, Summer. You know that right?"
She nodded, "It's just not going to be the same."
"Why not?"
"We had sex Logan. I feel weird around you."
"Weird? Like you want to rip my cloths off at all hours of the day weird?"
She laughed, walking out the door. "Something like that."
"Summer wait," I grabbed her arm, "I don't want things to be awkward between us. You're my best friend and I'm still your best friend. Nothing's changed."
I could've sworn I saw her eyes water, but she walked passed me before I could tell for sure.
Once we got my glove, we went to the park. She was throwing with all her strength. For a girl, Summer is really good. Some of her throws hurt my hand, but I got over it.
We didn't talk once the whole time.
After about 30 minutes, she randomly walked away. I followed her.
She sat by our tree. The tree we would always come and talk about our problems with each other.
I knew some deep things were about to be said, I just really hope it's what I want to hear.
