Bliss is what we had, pure bliss swirling in our heads until we lost it, the bliss that was so rare and we should have been more careful, we lost it.
The nightmares, of faces and people forgotten long ago came flooding back, haunting me with smiles and laughs bitter and hard watching as they said, 'you don't deserve this, you don't, you don't!' screaming over and over at me angry eyes and murder in their voices 'murderer! Murderer!'
Their fingers pull at my skin till it rips at all ends, making me bleed like he did (so long ago), eyes looking at me glossy and confused 'why Danny, why?'
When I wake up screaming night after night, her cool lips calm me down and her soothing voice calms my heart, kissing away my fears until I close my eyes and fall under once again.
Some days, most days I'm afraid I won't wake up, I'll be forever trapped with him (Danny?) the only face that I can't look at, the only face that I both hate and love with a passion.
Those eyes stare at me with whispers of murder on his tongue and he scares me, me who is not afraid of anything, me who can't even kill himself.
"Baby, it's the tenth night in a row, what's wrong?"
"I'm just scared, I know its funny coming from me, but I'm scared of hurting you, that's something I'm afraid I'm going to do."
"Dan, you won't hurt me I'll make sure of that and if you ever do I'll remember to give you a good ass kicking. Now go to bed and stop dreaming."
She's my angel with a smile on her lips as I slip back under but this time all I see is her and no more ghosts.
