Chapter 7
Ste's point of view
"Jesus Brendan! What are you doing here? Get out will ya. "
I shouted at him, he never moved; his eyes wild he looked like he was possessed.
"Brendan go NOW"
but still, he didn't leave he just continued looking at him, I quickly got up and moved away from a worried looking Jacob.
He pulled up his trousers and the next thing I knew Brendan was pulling him out of the cubicle. He looked so unhinged it frightened me, I knew that unless I stepped in Jacob was about to get the beating of his life.
I tried to move inbetween them but it was difficult, he had hold of him so tight; I turned to him:
"Brendan please just let him go, please!"
He looked at me, tilted his head and released him; I think he saw the familiar look of fear in my eyes.
"Get out of here Blondie, now!"
I couldn't believe it, what was he doing here anyway? I was angry at him, how dare he do this to me! He never wanted me, he left so what was all this about?
I tried to be calm but I couldn't, I started to shout at him, I told him I was sick of him and his games and that I wanted him to leave me alone.
"You don't mean that Stephen"
He sounded upset but I didn't care, he just barged in on me giving another bloke head; I was embarrassed – I just wanted him to go. He told me that he wanted to speak to me and that he'd come here because he didn't want to leave it this way between us.
He said he was sorry, that he loved me still. But I couldn't listen to him anymore, it hurt me too much. He came over to me closing the space between us pleading with me to listen to him.
I'd only ever seen him like this once before and that was the first time he told me he loved me. My heart was beating faster, butterflies in my stomach. I could feel I was starting to weaken as I looked in those eyes of his.
Luckily Doug entered the toilet breaking my weak moment, asking:
"Ste are you okay?"
"Yes Doug, I just wanna go though, can we?"
With that I looked at Brendan who at this point was looking at the floor he makes me feel guilty like I've done something wrong. I know that walking away from him is hard, but I've got to do it.
"I can't do this anymore Brendan"
"Stephen don't go"
I turned from him and walked out of the toilets, on the outside I was fine but on the inside I was dying.
Brendan's point of view
He was shouting at me to get out, shouting at me to go; does he honestly think I'm going to leave him with Blondie so they can fuck in some club toilets? Real classy.
I really thought Stephen was better than that, maybe I don't know him as well as I thought. I couldn't help but stare at him, I could feel I was shaking I was about to lose control; all I wanted to do was get him away from Stephen.
I pulled on him, yanking him out of the cubicle; I knew I was going to hurt him. How dare he touch what's mine?
Stephen tried forcing his way inbetween us, He begged me to let him go; I did as he asked, he looked so scared and I never wanted to make him look like that again.
I told Blondie to get out, it was a good job he listened otherwise I wouldn't have been able to control my temper, he asked for it!
I tried talking to Stephen but he didn't wanna know; he told me he was sick of me, that he'd had enough of playing games; but I wasn't playing games – not this time anyway.
He'd just been with another man and still all I wanted to do was touch him. I moved over to him closing the space between us; I wanted to kiss him, feel him in my arms I wanted to tell him I was sorry, that I still loved him, that I was ready for this relationship but I never got the chance.
Doug came in asking if he was okay, Stephen told him he wanted to go but I didn't want him to go; I wanted to be with him, I need him – doesn't he get that yet?
I asked him not to go but he did anyway, Stephen makes me feel so many things, things I'd never felt before. This is all new to me; he wears his heart on his sleeve but I don't, why does he continue on punishing me by not even giving me the chance to explain?
If he's not going to listen to me, then I'll have to show him exactly what he means to me.
Doug's point of view
I couldn't believe this was happening, poor Ste. He came here for a break, to forget Brendan and now he's here basically stalking him and even I'm helping. Brendan was really angry when he stormed off; I did follow him but I didn't want to let him know that I did so I still kept a bit of a distance.
I stood by the toilet door, I didn't go in straight away; I didn't really want to see Ste kissing the face off someone, but then I suppose neither did Brendan.
After a little while the guy Ste was with came rushing out, he looked flustered and not very happy; I gave Brendan and Ste a few minutes, then I entered the toilet.
They looked really close, almost like they were just about to kiss, a strange feeling crept over me and I didn't know how I felt about seeing them like that.
Ste pulled back from Brendan telling me he wanted to go, that was fine by me, I didn't want to be here with Brendan anyhow.
I could tell he didn't want Ste to go, but he had no choice, I suggested to Ste that we go to a bar and get a drink before heading back to our hotel, he seemed reluctant at first but agreed in the end; he looked so upset and deep in thought like a thousand memories had flashed before his eyes and it was too much to take.
I wanted to put my arms around him, make him feel better- but I didn't, I couldn't, it would only complicate things further; for me anyway.
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