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This story will eventually have a HEA, so please be patient as I get my characters into position. There will be extreme adult subject matter, drama, talk of abortion and angst; please be advised.
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Edward and I were together every day and after a couple months; we became closer to each other. I wasn't that scared little kid anymore. Yes, Edward was still a man in my eyes and I didn't think that would ever change. But, he had a way of making me feel so comfortable around him that I never had to worry about not being myself. He accepted the wild, crazy girl that I was without an argument to change; he had to have liked me that way. Hell, I was still trying to figure that part out.
In the back of my mind, I always thought that I was in love with Edward. Ali told me using her 'psychic abilities' that he would love me too. However, I hadn't admitted it aloud to myself. It was a Friday night and I was getting ready to go out. The six of us were going to see a friend of mine and Ali's. They were in a band, 'Breaking Dawn', one of our good friends Jessica was the singer, Mike played bass, Tyler guitar and Ben on drums. Ali and I had always gone to their shows. Now, Edward, Jasper, Emmett and Rosie were coming with us. They had been to a few over the past few months, but things would start to pick up with their shows. We were basically their groupies.
I had told Renee about our relationship, I had to after running into Lauren on the first night. Knowing that Lauren wouldn't be able to keep her fucking mouth shut. It wouldn't surprise me if that wasn't the first thing she said to Renee on Monday morning at work, but I wouldn't have been surprised if hadn't already called her from the bar that night. Ugh, she's still such a jealous bitch; I can't understand why he can't see it. Renee is not thrilled about the relationship but there is not much she can do I am an adult and so is Edward. She tried pulling the "not under my roof" bullshit, but I then reminded her I pay her rent so it is my roof too. I didn't know for sure but I think Renee was planning on coming up to the bar that the band was playing at. She was friends with Mike's mom, and a couple other people we knew were going also. This would make for an interesting night.
The bar wasn't too crowded when we got there; this was a new place they were playing. It was normally a country bar but it had a great dance floor; a necessity for Ali and I. They also had the high table and chairs, so much better than regular tables, especially when drunk. Renee did show up but had her happy face on in front of everyone; she really could put on the act when she wanted too. A few people from the office that Edward and Renee work with were also there, along with the bitch. I was not going to let her anywhere near him tonight that was for sure. I was staking my claim. Everyone mingled and got along really well the drinks were flowing, so were the shots. The 'love' word, weighed heavy on my mind. I knew the band had gotten Jessica a cordless mic for her birthday, God help us all. At least the cord kept her wild ass on the stage. They had also been practicing some new songs and I knew they were gonna play them tonight. Jessica sang Janis like it was nobody's business, and Janis' songs were the most special to me, especially now. I knew one of the new songs she was going to sing and I really couldn't wait for Edward to hear it, it was really the first song we had ever talked about.
Edward and I were beyond hiding our relationship. I was a little nervous with the people from his work bring here since some of them had known me for years, but I got over that. I had to good of a thing to let someone of no importance ruin it. He came back to the table with a beer for both of us and Emmitt brought a tray of shots, good Lord that boy would kill me. Edward moved his stool so I was still sitting on mine and him on his but I somehow ended up between his legs. I loved to just lay my head back against his chest so I could feel his closeness to me.
"Are you having fun tonight?" Edward whispered in my ear.
"Of course I am, I with you."
"Even though all the people from my work are here," he looked at me with that questioning face.
"Yes, let's show them all you belong to me," I said as I crawled around on my knees on the stool, to place a not so gentle kiss on his lips. I loved the way his lips felt. When we separated I caught Lauren looking over at us out of the corner of my eye. I blew her a kiss over Edwards shoulder. It took everything in me not to hop across the tables and beat her ass. I just couldn't figure out her problem. Edward never said anything about her, so I really didn't bring it up. I was not in the mood for her shit tonight though.
The shots Emmett had brought over were some of our favorite Jager and Pucker. We had them lined up in rows and downing them while singing and dancing around the table. The dress I had on showed my tattoo that I had that matched Ali's on my left thigh and the other one I had on my right.
"Bella, you are driving me mad this dress is too short," Edward whispered into my ear as I took back another shot. He ran his hands along my thighs where my tattoos are going a little too high for being in public, but I really didn't care. Then across my stomach where my eternity symbol tattoo and first piercing was. He loved my tattoos...and piercings all three of them.
"Bellie, come on! Let's go dance," Ali was pulling me out of Edwards's arms with Rosie hot on our tale. There really was not a song that I didn't like that they sang and it was a huge variety that they covered. We were dancing to 'Black Velvet' a great song, slow and sexy. I knew it was coming to the end of the first set when Jess announced they were going to play a new song before they took a break. We didn't know what it was so we walked back to our seats, with more shots in front of us the music started. I downed it quick so I could sing along, so happy they finally decided to do a Heart song.
"I hear the ticking of the clock, I'm lying here the room's pitch dark…" I smile at Ali "…I wonder where you are tonight, no answer on the telephone," all us girls sang the song word for word. Edward was standing over by the bar now watching me. I was watching him too, that didn't bother me anymore. As I kept singing along we never let our eyes part.
"You don't know how long I have waited, and I was gonna tell you tonight, but my secret is still my own…" I was in love with him "….and my love for you was still unknown, alone," There was no way I was going to tell him, but here I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with Edward Cullen. I dropped my eyes as soon as that thought entered my mind, what the hell is going to happen if he doesn't love me back? I looked back over at him quickly to see him walking toward me and that's when I saw Renee's face. She knew.
She knew this relationship I had was not just an infatuation with an older man like she was hoping, or me clinging onto someone who could not give me anything I wanted back in return. She knew I was in love with him and I was going to pay dearly for it. I needed to get away from her and out of her house if this was ever going to work with Edward; she had too much control over me. I was an adult for God sake why couldn't she let me live my life and be happy with whom I wanted to be with. I couldn't go live with Ali. Jasper had moved Ali and her girls in without a blink of an eye; he treats those girls like his own. I was really happy for here. I just hope she didn't fuck it up. She is different with him, they work. I couldn't let Renee ruin my night I was having too much fun.
Edward got back to the table just as the band went on break, of course so he would be able to question me about the song. He leaned over and kissed me just as Lauren piped in.
"So Edward, you know the company Christmas party is next month who are you bring with you as your date?"
This bitch was going down once and for all, I had had enough. I stood up on the foot rest of the chair which I really didn't have to do because she was all of five feet to begin with plus she was so chunky, why Ali and I referred to her as an Oompa Loompa. I tried to leap over the table to grab her but Edward got a hold of me around the waist first, I got a hold of her hair though and I wasn't letting go. I pulled her about two inches away from her face.
"Listen bitch, if he takes a date it is going to be me; I don't know what your obsession is with him. I know you want to fuck him, but he is MINE, do you understand me. I don't want to see you talking to him or even looking at him again or I will rip your fucking face off. Understand," it came out as venom but it felt so good.
"Bells, I have to use the bathroom come with me," Ali grabbed my arm and pulled me with her.
"I will cut you bitch," I was yelling as I was dragged away by Ali.
Ali turned around to look at Lauren who was still standing there speechless smoothing down her hair. She put her fingers to her eyes then pointed them back to her, just to let her know we were watching. We got into the bathroom and not a minute later Rosie came barreling in gasping for air holding out pack of smokes. Ali lit up two, and handed me one.
"That was the funniest thing I have ever seen in my life, you made her cry. Bwahhhhhhhhhh."
Rosie had Ali going now; I was just too pissed still. Here I am in love with a man who might not love me back and this girl is fucking stalking him. I calmed myself down enough to start to find the humor in it.
"He's gonna flip, when I go out there, he has never seen that side of me."
"He actually thought it was sexy as fuck Bella, you have nothing to be worried about," Rosie reassured me.
I will for sure hear it from Renee since she's her minion or something. We walked out of the bathroom just as the band was taking the stage, thank God for small favors. No one could really talk to me now. I got back to the table and Emmett had a shit eating grin on his face.
"Bella doesn't like to share I see…" that got him a smack in the back of the head. We all burst out into a fit of laughter at that point I guess it blew over. Jessica started talking, so we all quieted down to listen to her.
"If this was not such good friends of yours, I would drag you out the back door and fuck you against the wall. That was the hottest thing I have ever seen," Edward said to me planting a deep kiss on my lips. The only response I had was to kiss him back. At least he was not mad at me.
"This is another new song, and it goes out to a very special person. You will know who you are," she winked in our direction and I just giggled. She started to sing the first song that Edward and I had ever heard together. He looked at me and laughed. Even if it was not a complete song the first time, it was still a special song in my mind and I knew he would love it.
Jessica hopped off the stage and started walking towards us we were all singing along with her not a word missed. She got to me first and pushed me out of the way to get to Edward, I was kind of shocked at first but the cordless mic and Jess, something was bound to happen. She then got to Edward and straddled him on the chair, he was laughing and I was too. I was not worried in the least; she was to in love with Ben to even have that thought in her mind.
"When he started sweet talking to me, he'd come and tell me everythings alright…" she was rubbing all over him now "…He'd kiss and tell me everything is alright."
She hopped off and moved her way back to the stage. She knew not to press her luck to much or they would take her new toy away.
"Can I get away again tonight," she bellowed. With all of us in the background, the night continued the same. We had so much fun and no more temper tantrums we thrown by anyone, namely myself. Jessica did get Ben a little upset or another patron did. When the drum stick came flying off the stage and nailed the guy in the head that was dancing a little too close for his liking, it's was safe to say she stayed on the stage the rest of the night.
Everyone said their goodnights and I was staying with Edward that night again, I never felt so safe in his arms. Once we were in his car he asked if I would go to the Christmas party with him. Not only would I have to face Lauren again, but Renee would be there because she planned it along with everyone they worked with them including my uncle and they would all know that we were together.
"Absolutely, there is nothing I love more than being with you," that was as close as I was going to get.
