Ellen: POV
I took the whole weekend to recover from my first heterosexual sexual experience. I took a while when I was with Marcy (as I call her in private), too but being with Mal was different.
It was gentle. Not like we were in a closet at all. He was really tender and even though it hurt when he was finally in, it didn't hurt as bad as I thought. It just took me a while to adjust to his size.
Both he and Marcy whispered nice things to me and brushed my hair back. They were really loving. I couldn't believe it. She seems hard but I know she's really ooey gooey on the inside.
After, Mal went to get napkins so Marcy could clean me up. She's the one who told me to take it easy for the next few days.
I mostly slept Saturday and Sunday. I throbbed down there but I felt good about the decision I made. I was as close as I could be to Mal and I'd get a baby out of it.
I dragged myself out of bed this morning to get breakfast. Most of the girls were really quiet, too. I think it's sinking in what we did.
After breakfast was classes. I tried to do my work but I just stared at Marcy the whole time. I was excited to be pregnant together. I still don't know what she said to get Mal to not wear a condom but I went mushy inside at the thought.
She said she wouldn't help me but she did. That has to mean that she cares. Right?
I did my work whenever our teacher looked at me but as soon as she looked away, I'd daydream again. I thought about the future and a time when all three of us could be together.
I didn't know how that would be possible but I wanted it. I loved them both. In fact, I wanted to tell them but I didn't know how. I wanted it romantic but the dance was the least romantic place.
Maybe I could take them to a closet and say it? It'd be more private. Maybe I should write it in a letter? We exchanged letters all the time. But I wanted to see their faces.
It was getting me nowhere. The bell rang and we went to lunch. It was still quiet. I tried to stick close to Marcy but she just picked at her food before leaving.
I wanted to follow her but I knew she wouldn't like that. So I stayed with our friends until lunch was over.
Then I went to see Ms. Pillsbury. I couldn't leave Sly's. Not right now. So I had to get Ms. Pillsbury on my side. She'd understand love. All the girls say she's in love with Shue.
I knocked on her door.
"Come in!"
I came inside. "Hi, Ms. Pillsbury."
"Hello, Ellen." She smiled at me.
I liked that she was a redhead like me. It made me feel like we were connected. I took a seat. "I wanted to talk to you about being here."
"Yes! This is your last week! How do you feel?"
I sighed. "Not good." Marcy said the best lie was a version of the truth. "I don't feel like I should leave."
Her eyebrows raised. "Really? Why not?"
"I think I have a lot more to talk about. With why I did what I did. I don't feel like I'm completely rehabilitated."
She looked really surprised. "But you passed your tests. You said you understood where you went wrong and why you'll never do it again."
"I was wrong. I thought it was about the move but I don't think it is. I think it's something wrong with me."
Her eyes softened. "Oh, Ellen."
I bowed my head. "I feel wrong."
"I'll recommend you stay for four and a half more months. But you should know, she's staying here a lot longer."
I raised my head.
She gave me a knowing look. "You should make these months count. She's in here until she turns eighteen. I can't keep you in here until then."
I blushed. "It's not just her."
"I know. But it's mostly her."
I nodded. She was right. "Thank you, Ms. Pillsbury."
"You're welcome, Ellen. I expect you to have sessions at least once per week now that you're staying."
I grimaced. "Right. Okay."
She smiled softly. "Young love."
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Mercedes: POV
I was a mess. I kept thinking about what we did. Did we really get pregnant on purpose?! Who does that?! Marcy was right!
But on the other hand, we'll have babies. I, for one, will smother my child with the love I never received. I think I should know how not to raise a child based on what my parents did.
I'm going to be a better mother than mine ever was.
I looked over at Lucy. "What do you want?"
She breathed deeply. "What?"
"What do you want? A boy or a girl?"
"Mercy, it's nighttime. Sleepy time, Sissy."
I smiled. "I can't sleep. We're going to have babies. Isn't that exciting?"
"If we're pregnant. It might take a few times."
"Well I enjoyed trying."
She giggled. "Finn was… excitable."
"You've had sex enough to help him."
"I really will. He's worse than Streisand was her first time."
I burst out laughing then shushed myself to not wake up anyone else. "Big A wasn't the best either. But she was eager to learn."
"Not Streisand. She's so stubborn. But I like to think I broke her out of that."
I smiled. "You a mess."
"But you love me."
"Of course I do, Sissy. Nobody else will."
She laughed. "Oh wow! Thanks, Mercy!"
"You know I'm kidding, Sissy. You are completely lovable."
"I know."
I laughed. "Modest!"
"Marcy says it's for ugly people."
"She's Satan."
"Don't talk about my sister!"
I giggled. "Her horns are hidden by her hair."
"What about her tail?"
I giggled harder. "She wraps it around her waist."
Lucy giggled so hard, she was turning in her bed. "She is red!"
I pressed my fingers to my mouth. "We better stop before she knows we're talking about her."
"She'll kill us!"
"I don't wanna die! I have a baby to protect. Maybe."
She giggled again. "Do you feel better?"
I stretched my hand across the space between our beds. She took my hand. "Yes. Thanks, Lucy."
"You're welcome, Sissy."
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Annie ran into the cafeteria Wednesday, looking bothered.
"What's going on, Big A?" Shank raised surprised brows.
"I have good news and bad news." She sat down.
"What's the bad news?" Marcy asked.
"Don't you want the good news first?" Annie sat down.
"Nope."
She sighed and looked down at her fingers on the tabletop. "I got my period."
I wrapped my arms around her as the other girls cooed. "Awww!"
She sniffled. "It's not fair. I really want a baby."
"As of last week." Marcy made a face.
"But I still wanted one. I love Noah. I didn't think I'd ever love a boy."
Marcy sighed heavily. "Then I suggest you try again."
She brightened and I shot Marcy a grateful smile. "I'm sure you'll get pregnant the next time."
"Actually that's the good news. I'll get a chance to try again this Friday." Annie said.
"How?" Snix lifted her chin. "We just had a dance."
"I was getting supplies from the nurse when I heard Sly talking about it with someone. She said she hated how Shue talked her into having a dance every week since we've been so good. She said she didn't think we deserved it."
"She would." I rolled my eyes.
"Who cares what she thinks?" Marcy frowned lightly. "She shouldn't have agreed to it. You got your chance to do it again. Gonna get your red wings?"
Annie blushed. "Do you think he'll do it?"
"He look like a freak." Snix snorted. "He'll do it."
I shot her a glare. "Don't talk about our man!"
"Is he your man?" Marcy wondered. "How many of you DTRed?"
"Mike and I are of course in an exclusive relationship." Shank bragged.
"Artie and I are in a relationship." Britt-Bratt said.
"Shane and everyone knows he's my man." Z went next.
Reagan blushed. "I think everyone knows I'm with Az."
The rest of us looked around. "That's it?!"
"Having babies with guys you're not with…" Marcy shook her head.
"You're not technically with Mal!" Lucy bit off.
"Yeah but I don't wanna be with Mal. And I don't wanna be pregnant."
"Stop saying that!" I snapped. "You want to be with Mal!"
"No, I don't. You want me to want to be with him."
I growled.
She shrugged.
"You really don't want to be with Mal?" Elle Woods asked.
"Why would I?"
"He's the father of your children."
"So?"
I could tell that messed the redhead up. "But-?"
"Not everyone wants a romantic relationship."
Z raised her hand. "Seconded!"
"Motion passed!" Snix slapped the table.
"Guys!" Reagan cried out. "You have to!"
"Why? Because a woman isn't complete if she isn't hanging off somebody's arm?" Marcy questioned. "It's 2010."
"I know a woman completes herself. But isn't that life's greatest joy?"
"No."
Reagan pouted. "That's not fair!"
"Life's not fair, sweetcheeks." Snix sneered.
"Life's a bitch and then you die. The only thing worthwhile about living is experiences and the people who go through those experiences with you." Marcy said.
"Motherhood is an experience." Elle Woods brought up. "Who are you going to go through it with you?"
Marcy stood up and left.
"What'd I say?" Elle Woods stood up, too.
I gestured to Lucy and we stood. "We'll go see."
"Can you tell her I'm sorry?" She sat down.
"We will." Lucy promised.
We hurried after Marcy but were losing sight of her quickly. She was walking too fast. We finally caught up to her in the rec room.
It was empty since everyone was at lunch. We walked up to her as she stood in front of a window. I think we surprised her. Which is weird. She and Mikey were the ones who snuck up on people. That's why we call her Shadow.
She jumped when we touched her back. When she turned around, I could see she'd been crying.
"Oh, Marcy, what's wrong?" I tried to hug her but she wouldn't let me.
"Leave me alone." She kept pushing my arms down.
"Elle Woods didn't mean to hurt you." Lucy told her.
"Hurt me?" Marcy looked confused. "She didn't hurt me. Why would she think she hurt me?"
"Because you ran out!" I frowned.
"Because I feel like being alone when I'm weak!"
"You're not being weak. Everyone deserves to cry."
"I'm not crying." She looked away.
I swept a finger over her wet cheek and held it in front of her face.
"Leave me alone."
"Marce, what's wrong?" Lucy demanded.
"None of your business."
"I'll tell Mikey."
"Who he gon whoop?"
"We'll tell Mal." I threatened.
She drew herself up with a glare. "You make me sick."
"Be a human for once!" Lucy yelled.
"Just because you only show your humanity when you're screwing Streisand doesn't mean you're better than me."
"Marcy, we are your sisters. We're on your team." I grabbed her hands. "We'll never tell what you say. You know us, our family. It's us vs. them against the world."
"Us vs. them against the world." Lucy echoed.
Marcy sighed. "It just got to me. I don't even get to go through motherhood. Not for another two plus years. I'm stuck in here while my kids are in the outside world. The twins are going to be in school and I'll still be stuck in here. I miss everything."
I wrapped my arms around her. "You are a good mom. You might not be there for them right now but you will one day. You keep reminding me we have set dates to get out. Just keep your nose to the grindstone and you'll get out on your eighteenth and be free."
"This is why we did this, Moppet." Lucy added. "So you won't go through this alone. This pregnancy pact is for all of us but mostly to support you. We're here for you."
"Thanks." Marcy muttered. "You can stop hugging me now."
"You need to be further along so you can be nice!" I swatted her.
"You can't hit me! I'm pregnant!"
I giggled. "I could be, too so you can't hit me back!"
"I'm going to be the most beautiful pregnant woman ever!" Lucy declared.
"Whatever!" Marcy and I teased.
We all dissolved into giggles.
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Puck: POV
I couldn't believe we were having another dance so soon. But Shue said we earned it so I'm keeping my trap shut. Anytime I get with my ladies is a good time.
After getting dressed, we piled on the buses and drove down the road to Sly's. By the way, I finally met that lady. She's a cold bitch. A real fucking devil. Shue might be a touchy-feely guy but I'd take extreme niceness over pure evil any day.
Anyway, we made it to Sly's and we got off the bus to go to the room. The girls were waiting as soon as we walked in. Usually we had to wait for them but they were right there.
I don't know how to describe the next part. It was like a scene from a nature show. Like when the lion sees the zebra is getting tired? Those girls fucking pounced on us…
Nearly every girl in the place picked a guy. Some made them dance while others left. Our girls frowned as they looked at their friends.
"So what's this about?" Chang asked.
Mama shrugged. "We have no idea. There's been talk but no one's told us a thing."
"That's weird." Wheels said. "It's like they all decided boy was their favorite thing in the world."
"At least dick." Mini Mama lifted a shoulder. "I know it's one of mine."
Have I said how much I loved this chick? Most of the shit that came outta her mouth was fucking hilarious. She was like a dude trapped inside a hot girl. Wasn't there a movie like that? Point was, she made me laugh on the regular.
Little Chang wrapped his arm around her waist. "You better not like any dick but mine."
"I like every dick but yours." She pushed him away.
Chang was a bad brother. He bent over to laugh. It came from his gut.
Mama and Shank hit him.
"You know you like my dick." Little Chang ignored all of them.
"There's things I like about it." Mini Mama looked at him.
"I don't know if I should take that or not."
"It's not gon get no better."
"I'll take it!"
Snix laughed. "You are my hero, Shadow!"
"The sign of the devil comes three times. Where's the third Satan?" Wheels asked.
Snix turned to him but he just grinned. "Are you calling me Satan?"
"You are." He didn't care. "Rearrange the letters in your name and you get Satan."
"You will never get this again!"
"I don't want it now."
Mini Mama closed her eyes and leaned against Evans. She finally let out the laugh building and it was everything. Mostly cuz I was laughing with her.
Chang lifted his hand for a high-five. Mama hit me and him and gave her sister a glare. "Stop laughing! He didn't mean that!"
"I meant it." Wheels was making my fucking day.
Britt-Bratt hit his arm. "No, you don't! You love San!"
"I what?!" He looked at her like she was crazy.
Snix (fuck that, I'm calling her Satan from now on!) glared at him. "I don't need you to love me!"
"Good. Cuz I don't."
Her fists balled up even as Britt-Bratt crossed her arms. "Artie! Take that back right now!"
"Don't take it back, Artman!" Mini Mama shouted.
I was with Mini Mama. "Stand strong, brother!"
Chang fell out laughing, Az Karofsky right behind him.
"Guys, stop it!" Mama set her hands on her hips.
"What do you want me to say, Britt?" Wheels sighed deeply. "She is consistently rude to me, she doesn't like me, she's constantly putting me down, she's fucking you even though we're supposed to be in a committed relationship. What am I supposed to love?"
"Ooh!" Mini Mama clapped. "Good points! Good points!"
Little Chang grinned like he wanted to laugh but Mama's face said that was a bad idea. "Stop it, Marce! Those are not good points!"
"Actually-" Z hunched her shoulders. "She is a real bitch to him. He's got to really love Britt-Bratt to put up with it."
"I would have had to learn how to walk just to stomp a mudhole in her." Mini Mama high-fived her.
"But she loves Britt-Bratt, too and she can't stay away from her." Reagan pouted.
"So he should suffer?! Emmett Till didn't have it so rough and they *lynched* him!"
Streisand frowned in confusion. "Emmett Till?"
"Look it up if you want to hate humanity."
Wheels smirked. "I'm not saying she's unlovable. I'm saying she's not concerned with me loving her."
"You don't know that!" Satan snapped.
"And now we hear from the devil herself." Mini Mama held her fist up to her mouth as she leaned on Evans, who chuckled.
Satan glared at her before swinging to look at Wheels. "You have no idea how I feel."
"Let me guess." He wheeled up to her. "You're gay but won't come out. You're completely scared of what people will say so you whore around because "hoe" sounds better than "dyke". You're in love with Britt and won't admit it so you "allow" her to have me because you feel I'm not real competition.
You think it's the perfect plan. You can have her when you want her and stay in the closet until you feel comfortable. As much as I think you should come out when you're ready, you're going to lose out on someone really special fucking around and playin games.
She won't wait forever and someone like me, someone who's not real competition? will snatch her up and make all her dreams come true."
It was dead quiet in our corner.
Suddenly Mini Mama started a slow clap. Z joined, Chang and Little Chang joined, Az and Karofsky joined. I joined. Satan ran out.
Britt-Bratt glared at Wheels. "That was really mean! I can't believe you would say something like that! She's a really great person who deserves love! Why can't you just love her?!" She ran out after her girlfriend.
"Who says you don't?" Mini Mama had a shit-eating smile on her face.
"I don't." Wheels sat back.
"Sure. That's why you devoted so much time studying her pysche and getting her down pat. Those aren't observations of someone who hasn't paid a drop of attention to somebody."
"I never said I didn't pay her attention. I said I didn't love her."
"But you're lying."
"I am not!"
"You love her. Just admit it."
"We all know." Chang shrugged.
Wheels' jaw dropped. "What?!"
"You talk about her as much as you talk about B-B." Evans rubbed the back of his neck.
"You keep fucking her even though she, as you say, only lets you put the tip in." Az inclined his head.
"You actually talk to her at these things." Little Chang leaned against Mini Mama.
"I'm being gallant!" Wheels bit off.
"There's courtesy and there's interest." Chang's mouth twisted. "You love her."
He looked blown away. "Damn."
"Yay?" Mama looked uncomfortable as shit.
He made a face. "I guess that means I gotta apologize?"
"It'd be nice."
"That's crap!" Mini Mama burst out with. "He told her the truth!"
"But it was colored with his love."
"The truth is clear."
Mama wiggled her nose. "You're just unromantic!"
"Don't you dare apologize to that vampiric bat!" Mini Mama pointed to Wheels.
"But if I love her, shouldn't I be nice to her?" Wheels scrunched up his face.
"Hello?!" She gestured between herself and Little Chang.
Little Chang grinned. "You know that means you love me."
"Okay, bad example."
"Nope! You said it! I love you, too."
"Tell her, don't tell her; not my problem."
I think she's mad she lost… I smirked.
Wheels sighed. "I think I know what I gotta do."
We watched him wheel out.
As soon as he was gone, Chang nearly fell over laughing. "He lit her the fuck up!"
Mini Mama high-fived him. "Like a fucking Christmas tree!"
"Yeah but we shouldn't laugh." Evans said. "He really hurt her feelings."
"That bitch ain't got feelings!" Mini Mama and Z said at the exact same time.
Az and Karofsky fell out laughing.
"I swear." Mama was too fucking done with them.
Kick caught her eyes and they made tiny faces at each other until they turned to me as one real fucking creepy like. They opened their mouths but I cut them off with a shake of my head. "No."
Mama pouted. "You don't even know what we want!"
She had to be ignoring her brothers falling down laughing.
I shook my head again. "I can tell it's something I don't wanna do or give my opinion on."
"He's got you there, Big Sis." Mini Mama pointed briefly.
Mama waved her away. "You'll like it! I guarantee it!"
"I don't believe you." I said.
"Is the honeymoon phase over with already?" Little Chang joked.
Mama gave him this ugly ass glare. "Shut up, Mal!"
He grinned.
"If I were to love you, this would be why." Mini Mama waved her finger to gesture to all of him.
"You like bad boys?" I grinned.
"They do get my motor running."
"It could just be me." Little Chang said.
"Say that again." Elle Woods spoke up suddenly.
Little Chang shrugged. "It could just be me?"
Elle Woods looked at Mini Mama.
Mini Mama gave her this look that I knew well. Well not all of it. Some of it was confusing but most of that look was "let's fuck!".
"That's weird." Kick said low before raising her voice. "Noah, we need to talk. It's very important."
Finn leaned over. "They want to talk about your relationship. You don't actually talk."
The fact that he said that and he whispered made me want to laugh so hard but I got myself under control. "Alright. Let's talk."
"In a closet." Kick pulled at me.
Finn gave me the "see?" look.
I grinned and let Mama and Kick pull me out.
