Miss you guys...love you guys. So here is the update...way over due. Hopefully you love it. If you read my other stories than you know the scoop...if not than I got married. Yay me!!!! L. Kerr
Chapter 7: In Your Arms
Nathan drove in silence. I could see his knuckles become white as he gripped the steering wheel tighter. I glanced out the window, not wanting to disturb either his or my thoughts. The realization of the past 24 hours was beginning to settle over. Had Nathan and Brooke not found me when they did, I could have died. Having survived, I was left with the daunting news about my HCM. I would have to take one pill everyday for the rest of my life. My life would have to slow down and basketball would be just a part of my past. 'How would Nathan feel now with this news? Would he find me weak?' The thoughts that paraded my mind caused my emotions to stir. A single tear escaped my eye and streamed down my face. I turned away from Nathan not wanting him to see me getting emotional.
"I love you, Luke." Nathan said, breaking the silence. I jerked my head at the sound of his voice.
"Nathan..?" I said with an air of uncertainty.
"Luke, I love you. When I saw you fall to the ground, my heart stopped. I held you so tight because I couldn't let you go. I feared that I was losing you. Brooke forced me to think about you and your health. We drove to the hospital, because all I could think about was you. The days I have spent with you have meant more to me than the world. Loving you has been the highlight of my life. I love you Lucas."
I stared into Nathan's eyes and saw tears forming. I could hear the concern radiating from his voice and hanging on every word. I found myself staring at him, unable to speak. Chills raced up and down my spine as I realized that Nathan loved me just as much as I loved him. His hand moved to mine and became intertwined without hesitation. At that moment, I realized that Nathan loved me as much as I loved him.
We drove in silence just enjoying our time together. My eyes gazed and street signs and realized that we were around the corner from Nathan's home. We pulled into the driveway and Nathan leapt from the car. He raced to my side of the car and opened the door for me. I laughed at how gentlemanly he was being.
"Here let me help you." He said in a demeaning way.
I can't believe he just said that. He did find me weak. I trudged past him and instead of heading into the house, I walked down the street. As I glanced back, I saw a look of confusion on his face. It angered me even more that he didn't see how much he hurt me. I left him there to think about his actions as I trudged along the road. I can't be with someone who found me weak or in anyway inferior. With each step I took, I could feel my heart break just a little more. I love Nathan with every fiber of my being.
The cool air nipped at my body and a sharp pain streaked across my chest. I had promised the doctor that I would take my meds before leaving the hospital. I didn't, I figured it could wait until I got home. The doctor also told me to try and live stress-free and her I was putting more stress on my heart. The pain began shooting through my body and stopped me in my tracks. I clutched my chest and fell to the ground. I turned toward Nathan and saw him run to me with the same speed and intensity as the pain in my chest. He held me to his chest as I began to cry. The pain was too much for me. The warmth of his body calmed me down enough to bring my heart rate back to normal. It was then that I noticed how much Nathan meant to me. He was my life, my protector, and my lover. He was the only person who was able to break down every wall I had built up. I snuggled into him and took in his scent. Euphoria took out over my mind and stopped my tears.
"It's okay, Luke. I'm here for you and I'm not going anywhere."
"I'm sorry, Nate. I've been such an idiot. You have given me everything. I want you to know that I love you, Nate."
His breathed hitched and I caught it instantly. He didn't think I would say it, but I knew that it was time. "Are you sure, Luke? I don't mean that…I mean…I love you too."
"I want you to know that I do…I really do love you Nate. Here in your arms I know that no matter how bad it gets your love is enough. Enough to heal my heart…maybe not completely but enough to make a difference."
"Cute." He chuckled, making light of the situation.
Nathan leaned in and gently pressed against my lips. They were soft and gentle the complete opposite of how I thought they would be. My lips melted against his and I clung tighter to his body feeling my body become weak from the lack of oxygen. I pulled away and we got up and made our way to the house. Nathan wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me so close; I thought that we would become one person. I leaned my head against his muscular chest and breathed in a sigh of content. Life may not have been easy for me, most definitely not without its fair share of bumps. But now I know that my life could be okay with Nathan. Would Nate want me to father James? That was the big question. Another question floating through my mind was "how would I be at fathering James?" Not easy questions to ask and definitely not easy questions for Nathan to answer. But hopefully he saw how much I wanted to be a part of his life.
"Lucas Scott, do you ever stop thinking?"
"What are you talking about?"
"You haven't heard the last three things I've said. And you've had that same look on your face since before we got inside."
I looked around and it hit me that we were inside already.
"Well, you asked. I need to sit down and talk for a minute."
