If you could read the Chapter 5 again, that would be great because I changed it. It's not the same at all. I found the original chapter I had written, so I replaced it. If you don't, you might not exactly understand what's going on here. Sorry. Hope you'll like that chapter. I'll update more often from now on.


When I met Thomas in his room, the only thing I wanted to tell him was that I loved him. Josh made me realize it. After freaking you out by saying he wanted to kiss you over and over. Mmm, yeah. I almost ran into him to hug him. Surprised, he backed off asking if everything was all right. I shook my head no. He took me in his arms and lay on his bed with me by his side.

"Tell me," he said.

I looked at the ceiling.

"You were right about Josh," I told him.

Thomas suddenly sat up straight, glancing at me with a look I had never seen. "Imma kill this guy!" he exclaimed. He was so angry. He got out of the bed, standing near to it as he wanted to put more distance between us.

I stood up too. "No, Thomas!" I said, freaked out.

I had never heard such of things coming out of his mouth. He tried to take deep breath but it didn't look like it worked. He started to punch everything, except me. I didn't know what else to do, so I almost jumped on him to hold his hands. To keep him away from breaking everything in the room.

"Thomas! Stop! Thomas! Stop it!" I screamed.

He looked at me and saw how panicked I was. He stopped to resist and let go, and fell on the bed, his head between his hands. He was almost shaking when I sat down near to him to comfort him.

"Don't…," he said as a warning. I didn't listen to him. I was just trying to be there for him just like I'd like him to be for me. He finally calmed down and it made me understand he had a problem with anger. I decided not to mention it in case he might get mad again.

"You okay?" I asked. He nodded, slowly like he was shy. He looked at me and his beautiful blue eyes showed me how sorry he was for this. And I knew he wasn't only sorry for this little crisis. He was more than sorry, maybe for things I didn't even know myself or things I couldn't understand.

"It's okay," I said.

He half-smiled. It was already late and it was time for me to go to my room. Thomas didn't want me to leave but I had to.

"Good night," I told him as I was kissing him. He kept me close to him like he never wanted to let me go. Wish he never let me go.

He whispered in my ear, "Good night, Reed. I'll dream of you."

I looked at him in the eyes and said, "I love you."

He looked a bit surprised but he answered, "I love you, too." And he kissed me another time. And then I left. I was almost flying. I had told him! And he had said it back to me! Oh my God I was so excited.

I came into my room with a happy smile. So happy that even Constance tried to know what was going on, "Why are you smiling like this?" she asked. I was pretty sure she knew the answer but looked like she wanted to know all the details, probably to gossip about it later with girls that were way more popular than she would ever be, but I didn't mind. At that precise moment, it felt like I wouldn't mind anything.

I smiled, "I think I'm in love."

She smiled too and sighed. "You're so lucky, Reed, you found him, you look so happy with him," she confessed. I felt touched by what she said. Right, Thomas made me so happy. It was like nothing else could destroy my joy.

"He makes me more than happy," I said. I was thinking of him, of all the things he had said. He was just more than amazing. I had that dumb smile on my face for so long.

I finally went to sleep. Next day, when I woke up, I felt high. I couldn't wait to see Thomas. When I came to the cafeteria, I noticed the Billings girls were already there. I didn't know if I had to join them or not. I decided it was better for me not to so I sat down at a lonely table after taking some food to eat. About five minutes later, I saw Noelle coming. She sat in the chair in front of me. "What you doing?" I asked her.

"Why don't you sit with us?" she asked back.

"Because she eats with me," Thomas's voice interrupted her.

Noelle looked at her and she stood up. Then, she glanced at me, "You better join us, Reed." That wasn't an advice it was a threat.

I decided to stand up for what I thought was right and said, "Don't hope for me anytime soon." Her face became so mad I thought she was about to slap me. But she just walked away.

Thomas sat down in front of me, impressed, "Wow, I thought you wanted to be friends with them."

"I do, but I don't like how they treat me," I said. Like I was shit or piece of garbage.

Thomas nodded and took an apple to bite in it. I started to eat too. My eyes met Ariana's and I looked away. Her eyes made me feel awkward.

"Seriously, what's going on with you and Ariana? She looks at me like she wanna kill me," I said.

"Maybe she should try; just to see what I'll do to her," Thomas answered, quickly. I wasn't even able to smile. There was some sort of mystery I didn't even know where it came from.

"Stop thinking about Ariana and me, will ya?" he said.

I nodded, "I'll try."

He half-smiled like he didn't believe me. I looked up to the sky and then back to him. He was eating his apple and he wasn't looking at me anymore. "I gotta go, see you later," I said suddenly before walking away, without even kissing him goodbye or waiting for him to say something back.

I went out the cafeteria and walked to a bench in a lonely place and let myself dropped on it. I didn't know for how long I stayed there but people came after a while. They couldn't see me because I was hidden by some trees but I could hear their voices.

"I thought we had agreed on what to do," a voice said.

"We did, but maybe I liked doing it and I wanted to do it again," the other voice answered.

It couldn't be true. I decided to listen to the rest of the conversation before showing up.

"I swear to God I won't touch her, I was just kidding."

"You better …"

"I'll never do this to you and you know it."

"Yeah… I hope she'll stay with me forever. Like, I think I might really be in love this time…"

"Not like with…"

"Just don't even say her name. Me and her we're over."

"Yeah, right just look how she looks at you. And tell me it's over!"

"It is over. Anyway, I'll find her later and explains her you weren't serious so she'll still be your friend."

"All right but if she ever finds out that we planned the fake rape just to bring you two back together, she won't be so happy."

"Yeah, ya right but how is she gonna find out?"

That was more than I could handle. I showed up, surprising both of them and said, holding back my tears, "Too late."