A/N
I am in no way making fun of Autism...It is a very important issue for me and many people I love have it.
This is my first ever FanFic and I would love to have some constructive criticism, but be gentle, please!
I have no beta so excuse the Grammar mistakes
Stephanie Meyer owns characters.
Chapter 7
BPOV
Monday….Worst days ever! You get used to staying up late and sleeping in and then you are right back to have to wake up at 6:30 a.m., take a shower, and pick out clothes to wear for the day. It is quite annoying.
Only good thing about Monday is that I can get my dose of Edward to help with my addiction to him. I swear, going one day without seeing him and I was having withdrawals or something.
I really love him…
Ever since my realization of my love for him I have been on cloud fucking nine, it has been quite the lovely time. I didn't even care when Charlie would talk nothing other than his fishing trip or when the T.V. decided to only have the foreign language channels, and knowing that I would be seeing Edward today was the only thing that made me get up this morning.
I had decided to start to show off a bit more, hopefully getting my beautiful boy to notice me a bit more and as a more than friend type, but hey, I would be happy with just a little friendly flirting right now…
I realized with all the Edward thinking going on that I was doing that I was running a little late for school, so I quickly grabbed my things, praying I didn't forget anything, and grabbed a granola bar and my keys and was off on my way.
I pulled into my usual parking stop, 3 spots over from where Edward usually parked. Do I sound like a stalker yet? Oh well…The jeep was not there yet, so I was little upset that I didn't get to see him to start off my day, but hopefully I can get my alone time with him at lunch. That would make me happy. I started my way to my first period class where there was a test that I didn't study for, shit! Then second period we had to write some dumb paper on our name…third period I forgot my homework, see what no Edward time does to me? Not good things.
I didn't even hear a word that my fourth period class teacher said and I practically ran to the cafeteria, bumming into Tyler on the way and he just gave me this look that I didn't like so I just took off in the direction of the lunch table we all always sat at and then I saw my beautiful boy sitting all alone with his sketch pad. I walked up to him, tapping him on his shoulder making him jump.
I laughed, "Hey Edward."
"H-hey Bella-a, h-how's it go-going?" He stuttered out. Why the hell is he nervous?
"Umm…just some stuff. You?"
"Just thinking about something."
"Care to share?"
"Can I show you something?"
"Yes"
He opened his sketch pad and filled through it and showed me… well me.
He had drawn a picture of me? OH. MY. GOD!
Yes, happy days!
I looked really pretty; the background was really simple so I stood out against it all. It was almost like a photo, just like me, except amazingly beautiful. The sketch was all pencil except my eyes that popped out, they were the only color on the page and he made them look melted chocolate. I felt so honored to have him draw this of me. Well, maybe you should tell him that!
"Edward, this is….AMAZING! I can't say thank you enough. It is so beautiful. Thank you!" I grabbed his shoulders pulling him against me in a hug. I really like how he feels against me. His arms wrapped tightly around my waist and his head tilted into the crook of my neck. Oh wow, this is great!
"Bella, can I ask you a question?" He looks nervous…please, please tell me this is the good nervous thing where it results in happy Bella time!
"O-of course, Edward."
"Would you consider, if you want, too ya know, maybe go out with me to dinner on Friday?"
Oh holly hell yes! This is so going to give me happy Bella time!
"Edward, I would love nothing more than that! Yes, I would love to go to dinner with you!"
"Really Bella?"
"Of course, Edward! Of course!"
He pulled me into a big hug again and I could feel his smile pressed against the top of my head and I blushed into his neck as I buried myself into it. God, am I happy right now.
"I am taking she said yes?" said Alice as she ran and Rose ran up to the table.
I nodded my head as Edward and I moved apart…Are hands were still locked together. They stayed like that all through lunch, as everyone talked about things that never registered with me. I was too involved with the happy smile that was place on his face, how every time he caught me looking at him he would give my hand a light squeeze and his smile would go wider. It really was a beautiful sight.
Our hands never parted as we made our way to the Biology room, we took our seats, I was a little nervous when Mr. Molina went to turn off the lights, but I was still gripping Edward's hand when the lights went off and Edward didn't shake didn't look frightened, he just smile over at me and mouthed the words 'Thank you'. All my insides warmed and I just smiled back at him…I am dating him!
Edward walked me too my next class and gave me another hug and went to go to his next class. I didn't even know what was going on the rest of the day, it was just kind of the blur of events that passed in front of my eyes, but the only real thing I saw was Edward and his smile. I could still feel the warming feeling in my hand from when he was holding it. The last two hours of school felt like five minutes instead and I was walking back to my truck with a little pip in my step, getting weird looks from people.
What? The love of my life just asked me on date, people! I think I can be happy about that, Thank you!
I was throwing my bag in my truck hoping to at least get a little glimpse of a Edward when I felt a tapping on my shoulder. I thought it was maybe one of the girls or Edward so I whipped around on my heels to see Emmet.
"Oh, hey Emmet. What's up?"
"Don't hurt him, Bella." He said in a soft voice, he was extremely protective of Edward, even if he was always cracking silly little joke with him, he loved Edward way too much to ever let anything really bad happen to him.
"Emmet, I don't think I ever could. Edward…he means so much to me! I-I love him, Emmet, I could never do anything to harm him, I promise you that!"
"Love, huh?"
"Don't say anything to him, I would like to tell him that."
"Oh come on! I don't have that big of a mouth!"
"Ya, okay" I said sarcastically as I punched his arm playfully.
"Your boy is coming." Emmet said as he pointed somewhere behind me.
I twirled around again, but was this time met with my beautiful boy.
I love you, Edward.
"Don't take too long there, lover boy! We got to take Rosie and Jazz home."
"Go away Emmet" Edward said still looking and smiling into my eyes.
"I just wanted to say bye before you left, so. Bye Bella."
"Bye Edward. See you tomorrow."
"You bet." He hugged me again; I was really loving all these hugs. Now, we just have to get the kiss!
We went our separate ways after that. I knew I had had a smile on my face ever since he asked me out and I don't think I wasn't really planning on losing it anytime soon. If I thought that I had been on cloud nine when realized I loved Edward, well know that I knew he at least liked me even just a little in the same way…well…I was fucking flying! I don't think anything or anyone could bring me down on off my Edward high right now and if they tried too well, they just would not end well is all!
I got home did some of my homework, when I decided that I wanted to make some sweets to help with my happy mood. I always liked to make when I was happy. Happy bakers make good sweets. I had already decided on lasagna and I would tell Charlie about my date on Friday, I knew that my dad would be happy that Edward and I are going out. I think he kind of wanted us to because every night at dinner since I asked about them he has nothing but nice thing too say about all of them, especially Edward. I was also going to call me mom tonight to tell her, it would be the first time that I had talked to her since I arrived in Forks and, this will sound a little mean, I don't really miss her like I thought I was going too. I have plenty people here that are taking care of me more than she ever did. And with the knowledge of who her husband is, Mr. Pig Head himself, I don't know how she would take my liking, loving, of Edward. Not that I gave a flying shit what she thought of him, she has been one the unfortunate to have never met my beautiful boy…her loss, really.
I was putting my brownies in the oven and pulling out the lasagna, whistling to myself when my dad walked in.
"Smells good, Bells, what is occasion?"
"Just really happy, dad."
"Oh well, that's good to hear. Mind me asking why?"
"No, I was going to tell you. Edward asked me out to today!"
Ya, I was happy, I started bouncing up and down, clapping my hands, twirling, and even that high pitched girl scream you hear in movies, all action that I had wanted to do since Edward, my love, had asked me to dinner with him.
I can't get over how amazing that is!
"Wow! Well, aren't you happy? When is this joyous occasion of yours taking place?"
I really did love Charlie; he seemed to be genuinely happy for me.
"Friday night!"
"Oh, good! I have Friday off so I can meet him formally when he comes to pick you up!"
Well, that put a dampener on it…
"Oh ya, great…"
"I will be good, Bells. I promise."
"Oh, I know you will daddy." I wrapped my arms around his neck, but only for a second. With my dad and I if we showed too much emotion with each other it could sometimes get a little awkward.
"Now you better call your mother to tell her of your date. I am sure she will be happy to know about it."
I went over to the kitchen phone, the lasagna still had to cool and Charlie liked changing out of his uniform before we ate, so I would have enough time to inform my mom and then have an excuse to get off in case she said something inappropriate.
"Hello?" Ahg, why did Phil have to answer the phone...
"Hey Phil, its Bella. My mom there?"
"Oh, hey Bella. Ya, just one second let me get her for you."
I heard him yelling for my mom to get the phone.
"Hey baby girl! How is everything?"
"Great mom! I am actually calling to tell you I have a date this Friday with a boy I have been crushing on since I got here."
"Oh, really? Who? Who?"
"His name is Edward. He is really great!"
"Oh good, tell me about him"
"Well he is super tall, like 6'4", has amazingly green eyes and he is really nice and funny, he is Autistic, but you would never know, because he is just so great, ya know?" Gushing I know…
"Autistic? Like retarded?"
Do you see what I am talking about?
"No, like Autistic…not retarded, mom!"
"Are there no other boys for you to date, sweetie?"
Oh no she didn't
"I don't want to go out with another boy, mom! I really like Edward, he and his brothers are the greatest boys there! Everyone else just sucks!"
"Well, date his brothers then or are the retarded too?"
"Autistic, mom, Autistic! Not retarded and his brothers are my friendsthey have girlfriends whom they love very much! I cant believe you are acting this way and saying these things! You should be happy I have a date, dammit! You are my mom!"
"I am happy you have a date, but why does it have to be this boy?"
"You know what mom…dinner is ready and I don't want to talk to you right now so, bye!"
I slammed the phone back on the hook, I was so mad! She is my mother, mother, the woman you gave me life and should be supportive and happy with everything I do and choose. And calling Edward retarded? What kind of shit is that, exactly? She doesn't know him! She most certainly does not get to say those kinds of things about him! And if I ever let her have the fucking privilege to meet him if she says one crude thing in front about him will be livid with her, even more than now.
"Went well?"
Charlie…
"Ya, can't you tell?"
"You okay? I could call and talk to her if you want?" Charlie didn't really sound too happy to have to call and talk to my mother, but I know he would because he loved me. But, I still wouldn't make him do that…
"No dad, its okay, but thanks. You ready for dinner?" I voice had dropped and I didn't sound as happy as I did before, don't get me wrong I was still enjoying my stay on cloud nine, but now I wasn't really floating…thanks mom!
"Ya, let's eat…you can tell me how Edward asked you out and how so very excited you are!" Charlie put his hand on his hip and talked in a high pitch girly type voice.
I was laughing so hard I was crying while cutting the lasagna, not that great of an idea for someone like me.
During dinner I had a very so not common girly moment where I told my dad basically a play by play of every moment leading up to and after Edward asking me out and he just sat there, smiling at me paying attention.
He made me feel a lot better after my talk with my mother.
I really am happy I moved here….
I went to bed that night, smiling to myself, just thinking of what Edward had planned for the date…I didn't really care what we did, simple or extravagant, as long as it was he and I the date would be the greatest in all fucking history.
EPOV
It was Thursday night and I was getting ready for bed. My date with Bella was tomorrow and I was counting down the seconds till I got to pick her up at six. I had planned the whole thing out and I prayed to god that it was not going to rain…that would be my luck though, right?
This week had been quite fantastic. Every time I saw Bella I would greet her with a hug and sometimes we hold hands as we walked to class together, people always gave us weird words and would laugh when they saw us together, but they could not knock me down. I felt solid. Whole. Happy.
I lay in my bed; staring up at the ceiling, really starting to get the nerves that a first date brings…will she like the restaurant I take her to? Will she get sick from any of the foods that I buy her? What if she decides she would like to finally kiss me, will I have a panic attack or will she puke all over my face? That would be great! Are these nerves normal? I mean like I have never been on a date, well duh, but were the fears a common thing with all guys or was this just another thing to add to my freak show list? Maybe I should have talked to Emmet and Jasper a tad bit more…No! This is your time, Edward! Even if you do kind of fail at it, this is your thing. She is the love of your life…Nerves don't matter, she is Bella. She will like whatever you take her to do. Because that is how she is with you. So shut up!
I curled on my side, my blanket clutched to my chest. I hated this part…the waiting to fall asleep just so that I can wake myself and everyone else in the house up with my screaming. I should just not ever sleep at all. My family would get better rest and then I wouldn't be afraid of the dark just because I am afraid that the dream will become a reality. It is one of my biggest fears.
I always fall asleep eventually though.
And the dream always comes…
Except this night…
This night I dream of Bella. With me.
I awoke to the sun shining through my gap between my curtains. The smell of muffins wafting up through the hallways and up the stairs to my room. I was still a little confused about not having my nightmare last night…I always had had it. Every night like fucking clock work.
Not last night. Last night had just been a simple normal dream that anyone could have. It was just Bella and I curled up together on a couch, a book in her hands as I rubbed her feet. Something that could happen in real life, something so simple, something so not scary or upsetting. Just a normal dream a guy can have when he is in love with a girl.
I through on a shirt over my sleep pants and walk to my bathroom to brush my teeth, shave a little in the shower, pick out some clothes and threw them on, I had planned on changing before my date with my queen, so I just wore a normal grey shirt and jeans.
I walked down the stairs, still think about the dream, when I walked into the kitchen.
Everyone stopped what they were doing and turned to look at me. I guessed they realize there was no screaming or waking up either…
"Morning son" said my dad
"Morning my baby boy!" said my mom
"Morning Edward" said Alice
"Bro" Emmet always like simple things…
They all said their normal morning greetings with a weird and curious tone to their voices.
"Morning everyone and no I did not have the nightmare last night." I knew what they all wanted to know anyways so I just wanted it out of the way.
"Well yes, son. We did realize and we were just curious as to what you dream or maybe do before you fell asleep last night that had you not having the nightmare?" asked my dad in his 'doctor voice'.
Bella did
"I-I am not exactly sure."
Alice snickered. She knew. And so did my mom with the little smirk on her face said, while my dad and Emmet just shrugged.
See! Women mind readers!
I ate breakfast while my mom talked about what dress she was going to where and what she would do her hair like. The topic of my date with Bella had come up countless times at this table so I decided to give it a rest for now. I was too happy and nervous in my insides to talk about anything.
I said goodbye to my parents and Alice and Emmet and I all got in the jeep and headed out to pick up Rose and Jazz. The car ride that normally took 15 minutes seemed as if it was only seconds before they I saw the blonde sets of hair climbing in.
"Hey Edward! Excited about tonight man?"
I felt the blood warming in my cheeks and I nodded my head to Jasper.
After the 'awe's' from Rose and Alice died down, nothing seemed to register in my mind, everything was just speeding in front of my eyes. I remember the question that were asked me I remember answering them, I remember saying 'present' during attendance, my history lesson, my math lesson, Spanish class, and my music class, but everything was still passing by. I remembered what I learned and what was asked of me, but I honestly couldn't tell you a thing other than the basics. I understood everything the teachers were saying, but it really did not register in my mind. I just did the motions that I was used to, thing I did every day, walking from class to class and finding my seats, talk the needed things from my bag.
And it was all because the one thing that really did register, that wasn't speeding was the image of Bella Swan.
I know it sounded a bit girly to say that she was all I could clearly think about without a distraction, but I really didn't care because it was true. There was not a second, since the time I woke up, that I have not seen her eyes, her hair, her lips, her cheeks, and her face as a whole, flash before my eyes.
I was doing some kind of a jog so I could get to the cafeteria quicker than I normally did, even though I knew that Bella would not be there for at least five minutes more. But I kind of figured that I would have to prepare myself so that when I did see her the smile that I knew would go and cover my face would not actually be to big where it would tear my face, that would not be a way I would want the day of my first date ever and the first date with the love of my life to go. Not at all how….
"Hey Edward!"
There she is!
"Hey Bella, how has today been?"
"Oh, it has been a little fast pace for me today. How about you?"
"Same. Umm… I was thinking I could pick you up at six tonight?"
"That's perfect…Charlie wants to meet you formally and he gets home at five, so he can prepare himself." She reached over the table and grabbed hold of my hand; I wouldn't let it go until I had to now. My hand was quickly warming with her touch and we just looking into each other's eyes, not saying anything, just looking and smiling at each other. She was the one to break the silence, but not out eye lock or touch, "So where are you taking me exactly tonight?"
Well she won't get all the details
"I was going to take you to a little restaurant I like to go to when I am in Port Angeles and another little spot that is a favorite place of mine. Sound good?"
"Ya, I would be happy with anything we did." She put an empathized the 'we' in her sentence and it put a warm feeling in my stomach. I love that liked my company as much as I did with hers, it made everything just a lot better.
Mike and Tyler walked by our table again and I heard them snickering at how Bella and I were staring at each other and holding hands. Bella heard to because her eyes shifted to wear they were standing, breaking our gaze, and she gave them this look and even though it was not directed towards me, but actually defending me, it still kind of scared me.
My girl is tough!
Not your girl yet…tonight maybe…but not now.
Well thanks inner voice for that.
"I hate those guys. Promise me Edward to not ever listen to what those ass hats have to say, okay?"
"I promise you, Bella, this week and hopefully the weeks to come, they have not said one thing that has bothered me like it used too." I wanted to tell her that it was because of her that nothing was bothering me, but I thought that maybe tonight, on our date, when it was just us and none of these other people whom would like nothing more than to interrupt on any moment that I shared with Bella to be near me when I did. I wanted tonight to be special and calm. Not having any of the people that liked to torture me around will be extremely nice. This will be the first time Bella and I have hang out outside of school and I was nervous that she wouldn't like the non-school guy, who wasn't as shy or quiet, but actually liked to talk and put his sense in on everything. First dates were meant to kind of show off right?
"Good Edward, because not a single word of it true."
"Thank you, Bella. Mean a lot to hear." Especially from you…
She smiled softly at me and her cute little blush began to warm her cheeks.
"What's happenin'?" Emmet….
"Hey Em, nothing. Edward was just telling me about out date tonight." Bella squeezed my hand a little when she said this. I smiled at her; it made me happy that she was excited for the date. That she actually did like me and wasn't doing it for pity or obligation, she actually liked me. It was a marvel concept too me, that this beauty, this queen, could possibly like me. Alice said the love was in Bella's eyes and I could sometimes see her love reflecting itself into my own, but I was content with her just liking me as more than friendly right now, while I made her love me, maybe more than she already did, with my own love for her.
"Edward, you better not have given her all the details! You, I, and Rose worked really hard on this so she would be surprised and then you go and ruin it all!"
She was about to slap the back of my head, one thing Alice really hated was a ruined surprise that she had worked on and when it sometimes happened she went deadly.
"Hold on there Alice", Bella grabbed Alice's hand before it made contact with my hand, "Edward told me barely anything, just the time he was picking my up, that he was talking me to dinner, and somewhere special to him…that is all you evil pixie."
"Oh well good then."
I mouthed 'thank you' to my queen and she just smiled at me again, her smiles were like gold to be me. I saved each memory of why she smiled at me and what it looked like when she smiled, her eyes would light up and her cheeks would turn pink, I treasured each one this I had caused.
Lunch went on and on like it always did, Bella and I talked to the others but mainly to each other about silly little random things, I was still wanting to know every little detail about her, I don't think I would rest till I knew everything, whether it was important to her or not, I wanted to know.
I wanted to know what she loved doing on the weekends, what she was scared of so I could protect her from it, the places she had been and wanted to go. I wanted everything with her. Good and bad, happy and sad. Everything
God, I am sounding like I am getting ready to marry her…
Not yet at least, let's get through the first date before we think of marriage….
That sounds like a plan that would be good to stick too
Bella and I were walking hand in hand on the way to biology right now and it made me hope with all my being that tonight would go well so that we could continue the hand holding. I like the way it felt to have a connection with her, even in a simple form like hand holding.
Biology, like lunch, went on like it always had since Bella had shown up in my life. We were always sneaking little peaks at each other and would either blush or smile sheepishly when we caught each other's staring. And then I would Bella to her next class, still holding her hand by the way, give her hug goodbye. We didn't really ever get to see each other after school, my art class always would run long and Bella's truck would be pulling out of the parking lot by the time I got there.
After my time with Bella the rest of school went on like the time before Bella had, nothing registered completely. Just another blur before my eyes. My one constant was Bella face.
I was home now, staring into my closet, trying to find appropriate first date wear. After feeling like a total girl, I had probably spent more time than Bella did to do her entire look, I had settled on my dark blue button up and black jeans and my nice dress type shoes that I hardly ever wore and slicked back my messy hair, I figured I was ready. I just had to get Alice, Rose, and my mom to approve before I could.
"So? How do I look?"
"Do a little spin so we can get the 360 look!" Demanded my mother, twirling her pointer finger in the air to show exactly what she wanted.
I did as asked, the quicker they said I was good, the quicker I could get to Bella's.
"I approve" nodded Rose
One down
"Me too, you look so handsome Edward. Bella will be swooning at your feet." Said my mother as she pecked my cheek with a kiss.
Two down…
Alice stood up and started to circle me, her finger tabooing against my chin, she was definitely the hardest to get an approval from when it came to clothes.
"Well, considering you picked this out on your own I will have to approve but I still think you should have let me help you still."
"Then I would still be in my room right now. Thanks sis!" I kissed her cheek and went to grab my car keys.
I hardly ever drive anywhere, but the boy is the one who should be driving the girl around, so I will have to start driving more if all goes well tonight.
The drive to Bella's seemed to drag on unlike the rest of the day that had just sped by. I was also getting nervous about meeting her dad. I had of course met Chief Swan before, but not as his daughters date so I don't know if he will be as friendly as he was all the other times had met him.
I pulled up to her house, taking a few calming breaths before I got out of the car and walked up to the door and knocked several times. It was a minutes before I heard footsteps on the other side of the door and it was opened, showcasing my queen. Bella was wearing a light blue dress that hugged her body extremely nicely and black high top Converse shoes with blue laces. Her hair looked like it did in that photo that Rose had sent me last week, soft curls framing her face. Her lips were light pink and her eyes had light blue eye shadow on her eyelids and her already thick lashes were looked even thick as she look up at me.
"Hi" she whispered.
"Hi, you look beautiful." That doesn't cover it.
"Thanks, umm Alice and Rose helped." So this is where they disappeared to this afternoon.
"Come on in Edward." She clear the doorway and I walked through, calming myself a bit more as she led the way to where I assumed the living room where Charlie was.
"Dad? Edward is here."
"Oh, hey there Edward."
"Hello Chief Swan"
"Call me Charlie, Edward. I am not in uniform and my guns are all locked away so no need to be afraid. Right now."
"Dad, be nice."
"I am. Curfew is midnight okay? Edward you have the same curfew, correct?"
"Yes, Charlie."
"Great, midnight. Have fun kids."
"Bye dad"
"Have a nice night, Charlie."
He nodded his head as Bella grabbed my hand and pulled me toward the door.
"You look really handsome, Edward." Said Bella as I opened up her door.
"Nice car, too"
"Thanks, for both things you said, the car was a hand me down from my dad, so."
"So is mine, you just have a newer model."
The drive continued with easy conversation, music and movies, and other first date type topics, I had talked to Alice about what those were already, came up and we discussed them easily. Never a pause, never awkward, just smiles and laughs.
When we arrived Bella Italia, I asked Bella, "You like Italian food right?"
"I love it!"
"Good! I love this place."
We walked up the steps and through the doors, the hostess led us to our table that I had reserved, this place could get pretty busy so want to make sure we would not have to wait for a table.
Conversation continued from the car, more details to her that I stowed away in my mind. Parts of unimportance were revealed of me but I could see that she treated my stories like I treated hers.
Of great importance.
"So where are you taking me now?" asked Bella as we walked out of the restaurant. She started to head towards my car, but I grabbed her hand and began to pull her in the other direction.
"It is not far at all"
"A park?"
"Not just any park." I told her as I walked us over to my favorite bench in the entire place, you could see everything from this spot.
"I used to come here when I was younger, the hospital I go to is down the street, but anyways anytime I had one of my checkups, my mom would take me to Bella Italia and then she would take me here and I would play and act and feel…normal, I guess, for a few hours. This is probably one of my favorite places in the world just because of the nice memories I have of it."
"Oh Edward, that's really nice and kind of…sad."
I nodded.
"Can I ask you a question?" I knew what kind of questions she wanted to ask and I was okay with that. I wanted her to know everything.
"Ask anything, I won't be offended by anything you ask." I looked into her eyes; I wanted her to see that I really meant that, I didn't care what she asked I would tell her the truth because I knew she would not be judgmental about anything.
"How do you handle everything so well? I don't know if I could always be so happy like you always are."
"I don't really pay attention to them anymore. It used to bother me a lot more because I used to listen and really believe what they said. It still hurts sometimes, but it is more that I am just over being the joke of the school and town. It bothers me more about what everyone has to say about my family that pisses me off more than anything else. They don't know any of us, never tried to talk to any of up and it was my entire fault just because I could not have been a normal kid like everyone else, like Emmet or Alice and Jazz or Rose…you. I just stick out because I talk and act funny. I can remember weird things that don't matter to anyone, I am just…a joke. I have hardly any real friends, other than you, my family are all I have and they are kind of forced to like me, they would never admit to that though. Bella, I just wish sometimes that I was normal…for you."
I turned and looked at Bella, she had tears streaming down her slender face. You made cry asshole!
"Bella, no, don't cry, pleas-"
"Edward," she interrupted me, "Edward you are too normal! You are the normal one in this world full of freaks! Hell, I am a freak compared to you! You, Edward, are what everyone should want to become, you are caring and laughing, sweet and funny. Good natured and Kind hearted! Edward, you are normal for me, I love the way you are with me. You make me so happy. There is not a single thing I would wish to change about you! Nothing!"
"Really, Bella?"
"Of course, Edward."
I smiled at her, it was the kind of smile that most certainly would tear my face apart, but I didn't care. She loved being with me. I made her happy. Me!
"Edward, could you kiss me, please?"
I could feel my heart start to flutter. I really want to kiss her.
I am going to kiss her.
We started to move towards each other, slowly. Our eyes shooting between the other eyes and lips. And then her soft full lips were pressed against mine, moving in sync with mine. My arms, that were sitting dumbly at my sides, went to go wrap themselves around her waist and her left hand went to grab my shoulder and her right went to play with the hair on the nape of my neck. She tasted so sweet, her hot breath washing over my face, her amazing strawberry scent overtaking my senses. Her mouth began to open and I snuck my tongue out, going on instinct, and was met with her tongue also slipping into my mouth. Our tongues tangled together and I heard her moan, yep moan, into my mouth which made me groan in return.
Wow
"Wow…" Bella whispered as we pulled away from each other and placed her head against my chest. Our hands and arms were still in place, wrapped around each other.
"You really mean a lot to me, Edward."
"Bella, I feel as though you are my life now."
She hummed against me, cuddling her head more into my chest and I tightened my arms around her waist.
"Bella?"
"Edward?"
"Will you be my girlfriend?"
"Am I not already?"
I kissed the top of her head, wishing it was her lips, but I didn't want to break our hold on one another, it was just so perfect. I was so content and happy right now with her in my arms. She made me feel like a man tonight. With her words she really made me feel normal.
With her I was happy.
With her I was normal.
With her I was in love.
A/N
Okay, so that is the longest thing I have ever written so I hope you all liked it!
I actually interviewed my boyfriend on how he felt before our first date because I wanted to get all the emotions right for a guy. So if there is a guy reading this I hope I got that right! The first date, well the park part anyways, was what he and I did on our first date and it meant a lot and I thought it was really romantic so I wanted to include that part in Edward and Bella's first date too.
I really wanted the date in Edwards POV because it was really about him opening up to Bella and how he feels about everything he goes through. Being teased relentlessly for so many years can really take toll on a lot of great people and Edward I wanted to show that if you just know what people say is not true and you are a good person who is very normal and just plain great, that you will be okay.
I am sending a lot of love to everyone who has shared their kind words and have added my to their favorites or alert lists. I feel very honored that people like my story enough to review and add to the lists! So Thanks to everyone!
Next Chapter: Sunday 4/10/11
Penny
