For my Meow readers,
less than a year ago something terrible happened to me. To put it as simply and as clinically as possible this is what happened.
someone I had trusted and thought a friend told me he fell on hard times and lost his house and his job. He had two young sons. I told him he could stay the weekend.
he never left using guilt tripping and emotional blackmail and even a demand for rent in an effort on my part to chase him out failed.
he started abusing me mentally emotionally physically and sexually culminating in rape.
This has damaged me on many levels. I have severe PTSD, anxiety, depressiion and have contemplated, and even attempted suicide in the last 8 months. I can't bring myself to write Meow at this time due to the non con and dub con elements that have playfully but very obviously laced the series. I also can't bring myself to write the cheerful happy banter when I already use that as a mask in real life so people can't see how destroyed I am by what has occurred.
i was already having trouble writing these elements when I started but I had mostly healed from my childhood abuse and meow was my way of subtly expressing my emotions and how I deal with bad situations using humor. Needless to say the new wound is too raw as opposed to the 23 year old would from before.
if I do end up continuing this it would be on my time. Do not ask me for updates on this please. My writing died out slowly as a result of life getting to me and this is an attempt to help me reclaim life and see it as worth living.
also to those who will inevitably send me hatful messages because of my decision, because there are a few of you who have been utter ass wipes to me in messages: unfollow me up favorite me delete my stories from your favorites I don't care but if you dare flame me for my reaction to domestic violence and rape you won't like what will happen.
I am truly sorry to you who have waited years for my story updates. You all astound me with the love you show my works and you deserve much enter than what I have given.
i want to thank and apoligize to you. I hope I will be able to give you the update you all deserve one day but at this time it just isn't possible.
