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EPOV
As I heard my father hang up I froze. My big brother…
Bella was in front of me still holding my hand was looking anxiously at me waiting for me to speak. At that moment in time…. I had no words.
I called the waiter and asked for the bill, without releasing Bella's hand. I was still in shock and just wanted to leave this place as soon as possible.
Bella was great and patient. Didn't ask any questions or talk while we walked back to the school.
With one arm still on her shoulder I led her gently to the female dorm's access door and that's when she asked
"You're taking me back? Wanna be alone?"
I swear I could hear in her voice all the unspoken questions about that call, and all the sadness on seeing me like this
"No Bella, I was thinking we could go to our little hideout by the windmill, if it's ok with you. I need you now and I need to explain that phone call." I managed to croak out
She simply nodded her head and we made our way to our favorite place in the world, I really hoped I wouldn't ruin our feelings for this place after this talk.
After we sat down on the grass I remembered the bag Seth was supposed to bring and looked around. Hanging on the lock of the door of the windmill was my back pack and I raised myself while Bella reluctantly left my hand. When I came back, her face was a mist of amusement and surprise.
"So what's in the bag? You planned on bringing me here didn't you?" she asked with a shy smile.
"Yes, I did plan to bring you here. I thought you'd like to end the night here, where it all began.
I never thought that I would be talking about sad things though…"
She cut me off and took the bag out of my hand and pulled me down to her making me kneel beside her.
"Edward, life isn't only about the good things. I'm here for the bad stuff too, and whenever you're ready I'm here to listen."
I took a few deep breaths because not only did I want to tell her but I didn't want to scare her too much, but most of all I didn't want this to ruin our night.
"Bella, Carlisle had an accident on the track on the National Race Cup. He was in first place but some douche tried to block his rear wheel with his foot and they both crashed."
Bella was shaking now, and I held her close to make that go away, I didn't want her to suffer.
"I don't know much for now, but he has a head trauma and is an induced coma since they can't evaluate for now how extent the injuries are. My dad was released from duty and is getting the military helicopter back home. Carlisle as a military's personnel's son, got taken to the military hospital. They're expecting me at the military airport here on Green Island at 8am to take off; a car will pick me at 6am at the gates."
This was the part of the conversation that hurt me most. I know my brother will be taken care of, but leaving Bella now, is one of the hardest things I'll have to do in my life. Only, the feeling of leaving her was already messing with my whole body as if I've lost a vital organ. I couldn't imagine the pain I'd go through while we were miles away.
I took Bella's shocked face in my hands and could feel her whole body stiffen. She was probably in shock or even having the same feelings as I was.
"Bella... my love… please understand… my family needs me… I don't wanna leave you now, but I have no choice. It's my brother…
She didn't let me finish. She crushed her lips on mine and hugged my waist with such strength that I almost choked.
She slowly opened her mouth to me and our tongues found each other for the first time. The smooth swirling of our tongues made my heart go off on a racing beat.
My body was shivering as my hands descended to her shoulders so I could push her away for a second.
"Bella, please… be careful love. Don't play with me or else I won't be able to stop"
What the hell am I saying? My brother's in a coma and I'm thinking I can't stop Bella? I should be running from her right now before I do something really stupid. What the fuck is wrong with you Cullen?
Bella looked at me and I saw that shy smile erupt on her face, it was the most perfect resemblance to an angel that I've saw.
"Edward… I love you."
If my heart was racing before, now it was out of control…
"I love you too Bella… so much that the thought of leaving you…"
Again she didn't let me finish. Our mouths joined again with even more passion then before.
Suddenly all the love and passion that had built in the last seven days was unleashed on that one kiss and I shuddered. I knew that if went on I would let my body react rather than think first, so once again I held Bella by her shoulders and looked into those gorgeous never ending eyes if hers.
"Bella, you understand what can happen if we go on like this? I may not have the strength to stop." I tried to warn her.
"Edward, I've just confessed my love to you. I love you and I trust you and I know exactly where we can go from here. Yes I'm a virgin but I'm not innocent. Edward, you're leaving in a few hours and life is too short, so I'd love to spend this night with you… and all that comes with it." She rushed out
She looked so lovely with that shy face that I made a promise right there: I would make Bella the happiest girl in the world tonight and when I returned I'd never leave her again.
I grabbed the bag again and took the blanket out. Bella smiled and helped me with it, holding one of the ends while I used the bag as a pillow on the other end. Remembering the Walkman, I searched through the bag for it and saw that Seth had put his mini speakers in the bag to. Good thinking! I plugged them into the Walkman and pushed the play button knowing that Demis Roussos had to say the words for me…
I bless the day I found you
I want to stay around you
And so I beg you, let it be me
Bella stood up and taking one step off the blanket she grabbed my shaky hand and put it behind her back. I took her right hand and we started to swing at the sound of the music…
Don't take this heaven form one
If you must cling to someone
Now and forever, let it be me
We kissed again and I knew that now I wouldn't be able to stop or break the lust
Each time we meet love
I find complete love
Without your sweet love
What would life be
The dancing stopped but the kiss only got deeper and deeper and my hand drifted up and down her back, gently and I felt her tremble.
She dropped my hand and slowly went up my arm to the back of my neck where she gently caressed my neck causing me a shiver that went right to my cock and I realized that now there was no turning back.
BPOV
The shiver I felt coursing through Edward's body made me feel more feminine and in control. Even a virgin can cause this kind of reaction on a man and that extended to all his members, especially one, now harder against my waist… the trigger to the wildfire that consumed all my body once more.
I've never felt this urge before, to strip someone's clothes and feel skin to skin contact, but now it was the only thing I was thinking.
Now one of my favorite song's was on... smoothly reminding me that I had to go on…this night is our first night together and if it wasn't for that call..
I shook those thoughts away. No way I'd let anything ruin this moment, so I closed my eyes and kissed Edward again letting out tongues dance as the song played.
And I swear but the moon
And the stars in the sky I'll be there
I swear like the shadows that's by your side I'll be there
For better or worse
Till death do us part
I'll love you with every beat of my hear
And I swear
A trembling Edward took my face in his hands, while I pulled his body against mine… looking into his eyes I could see the love and passion mirror my own and all of my body was aching for him… for his touch…but he had something else in mind and then he sang to me.
I'll give you everything I can
I'll build your dreams with these two hands
We'll hang same memories on the wall
And when just the two of us are there
You won't have to ask if I still care
Cause as the time turns the page
My love won't age at all
At this point my hands where all over his back and I made a daring move to come to his chest and unbuttoned his shirt. One after another…taking my time… while he looked in my eyes with a glassy, sweet look.
No words were needed… after I finished unbuttoning, I gently went to touch that marvelous chest of his sliding the shirt through his arms and watched it fall. His muscled body was exactly as my dreams imagined with those bronze shadows that made me want to curl them in my fingers. The contact of my fingers on his chest made him shiver again and I felt the heat radiate from his body.
With one hand still holding my face Edward kissed me softly while his other hand went for the side zipper of my dress, on my hip. He then went through the dress and gently caressed my hip with those marvelous fingers, making me shiver. He went even further running his finger between my skin and the band of my panties as my skin burned on the contact.
My fingers ran along his perfect back gently as I felt his goose bumps and shiver even more intensely and ran my fingers through his skin between his jeans waistband form back to front until my hands met again on the front button. I hesitated a little before I unbuttoned the first one and went slowly to the others… so good it doesn't have a zipper, this make me more aroused…
As I went for his jeans Edward was kissing my neck and shoulder and licking the line between them while descending the other sleeve of the dress so gently that I felt my shiver weaken my knees and if not for him holding my waist I would've fallen over. Taking that as an advantage he pulled gently at the dress through my body and it fell to the ground leaving me in only my underwear and I was suddenly embarrassed and tried to cover myself.
Without a word Edward took my arms from the front of my breasts and placed them on his hip. I took the hint and descend the jeans over those sexy strong thighs until they fell. Our body's almost naked, acted like magnets and we hugged each other feeling the skin to skin touch, making it hard to breathe. His skin was so soft yet sharp against my sensitive body that made the ache joyfully unbearable and I felt my whole body asking for more.
He unlocked my bra with skilled knowledge but smoothly and let it fall into my breast holding the piece with one hand and with the other already holding my right breast on his hand and my nipple went hard on his touch and I felt the urge to scream, but what came out my moth was a breathless moan, that made Edward attack my mouth again not so smoothly as before and our tongues fought for control as if I've been doing this forever.
I felt something fall and his fingers here searching for my other nipple torturing both of us by the sound of the growl from his throat.
Suddenly we were on top of the blanket and Edward left me for a second to take his shoes and jeans off. I shook my shoes off as well and waited impatiently for his body to be next to mine again.
Edward's hands were so shaky that he couldn't manage to take his jeans off so I put one hand on his and looking him in the eyes took his hands from him. As he lay down, the pale moonlight brushed his body and the sight was the sexiest one I've seen ever. With both his hands behind his head I could see the smirk on his face and all my embarrassment disappeared leaving only lust. Enjoying the feeling I slowly took the last piece of clothing that remained and took a deep breath at the sight of that perfect body, which was all mine… knowing that from now on I would never talk back to Alice like I used too.. This man's body is so perfect that I wished I could look at him forever. Worshiping his body I placed small kisses on his legs, going up, my fingers leading the path that my lips and tongue followed. Although a little uncomfortable doing so, I took his hard cock and kept kissing my way up he arched his body at the touch of my tongue growling… and that sound went right to my center… as if I wasn't wet enough…. I actually enjoyed the feeling of his cock in my hand, it felt right.
Leaving my fingers stroking his cock gently I kneeled by his side and went up to his chest, placing small kisses and licking every spot I could. I didn't know if he was pleased enough but I was! Taking my time I went to his earlobe and bit it gently swirling my tongue gently on his ear and suddenly he took my hand from his cock and turned me onto my back. Laying me down so was half on the grass half on the blanket, then I realized where we were and I panicked. I looked around but saw no one… we were behind the windmill near the shore so unless a boat went by we couldn't be spotted… but Edward saw the hesitation on my face and asked.
"Love, you want us to stop?"
I couldn't answer, such was the emotion stuck in my throat so I grabbed him and kissed him, making sure that in that kiss he got my answer…
Without leaving my lip,s his hands went up and down my body with gentle touches that made me tremble and a moan escaped from my throat that echoed in his mouth with his growl…again…
His lips left mine and I felt the loss…until he went down over my chin, neck and collarbone kissing, licking and when he got to my nipples the ache was so unbearable that I arched my body to his mouth, wanting, needing more…he didn't disappoint and took each breast into his mouth and sucked them. My whole body went on fire and inside of me an explosion of feelings went through me tip to toe and I panicked and stiffened at his next touch.
"Bella, Love, You ok?" Edward asked with an alarmed tone. Then looking into my eyes he smirked. "Isabella Swan you're so perfectly innocent… You can't even imagine how much I wanna show you much more."
At the sound of his words, I'm sure I blushed… innocent…virgin... but not ignorant and now that I think about it… I smiled. "Show me everything Edward"
He attacked my month with such a rage that it frightened me but as soon he realized my shock he eased the kiss. With his perfect fingers he went up and down my body smoothly and my body shrived all over… when his lips went on me again I held onto the blanket expecting another explosion, but he went on almost ignoring my breast… he was going lower and I thought for a moment I was glad it was summer season. Edward kept kissing my stomach, guiding his path with his fingers and before I could breathe he kissed my inner thigh and instantly I felt the urge to close my legs as a reflection of some sort, but he had other ideas and went to my center kissing gently while holding softly onto my knees. If I died at that moment, I would have died the happiest woman on earth. I had and instant explosion when he sucked my clit. My arms where aching from the strength I used grabbing the blanket to make sure I wouldn't scream so when Edward took my fingers and intertwined with his I was surprised but relieved for sharing one more touch with him. He kissed my lips gently and as sore as they were for biting so hard it felt nice then without any warning, I felt my body being invaded… a hard invasion as he looked in my eyes seeking for approval… I closed my eyes waiting for the pain Alice spoken about it but it never came. I felt whole, complete and full. For once I felt that everything was in place and this was the most perfect moment in my life. Edward eased himself slowly in to me and still no pain… I was so worried about the pain that I forgot to breathe.
"Bella, relax, breathe with me. I promise I'll go slowly. Breathe my love and enjoy"
He kissed me again and eased once again slowly but I wanted more. Even if the pain would come I wanted all of him inside me and I raised myself to him. He saw right then that I was giving him permission that he could go on and our body's joined as one as he moved in a slow pace but our hearts beating faster.
Sensing my imminent climax Edward covers my mouth with his and the only sounds were our heart beats and moans until I stiffened again while the fire burst inside of me. I wanted too scream his name but he wouldn't let my mouth, while his last stroke took him to his own fulfilled need. He kissed me forcefully and I forgot about my sore lips, my aching arms and my body relaxed.
We took our time just looking into each other's eyes still as one and suddenly Edward raised himself making me feel lost with the absence of his touch.
He didn't say a word and I was embarrassed and feeling that I might have done something wrong although everything felt so right.
After a few minutes I couldn't keep the embarrassment away I went for the dress. What if he regretted this? Maybe I forced myself on him… after that call I only wanted to be with him, make him forget his pain for just tonight, but maybe it wasn't the right time.
Edward turned to me while I was getting my things together and I saw in his face a mist of concern and sadness that went right to my eyes and I looked down to avoid him seeing my tears.
"Bella, my love… I'm sorry…"
He's sorry? What the fuck?
I grab the dress and my underwear and was raising myself when he pushed me down again.
"Love, don't get me wrong... sit down please."
I couldn't take any more!
"Edward, I'm leaving… you said you're sorry but I'm not, so before I get to that part and feel sorry I'll leave"
Edward shook his head and with a smile, still concerned he took the clothes from my hand.
"Bella, listen. I'm not sorry for what happened… It was the most amazing thing that has happened to me! The feeling of your body on mine, your touch, your kisses, made me go beyond happiness. I can't describe it." his face was glowing with the moonlight and his eyes were shining with emotion
With the remains of my rage I had to ask in my upset tone.
"So if you're so happy, why are you sorry?" that's when his face fell again and I got that guilty feeling for being so rough.
"One of the first things I should have thought of …when I brought the blanket was that this could happen… I should have been prepared for this and wasn't and for that I'm sorry."
Maybe it was my gaze at him or the missing question that make him explain himself. "Bella I should have used a condom, knowing that you are…were.. A virgin and I suppose you don't take birth control pills"
Condoms! Alice is gonna kill me! She repeated that so many times and I forgot it too. Oh shit! Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! Now I get the concern look on his face…
"Bella, please talk to me… say something…"
No, Isabella Swan, you. Are. Not. Gonna. Think. Anymore. Stop.
"Edward I was here too… Even as a virgin and without the whole knowledge of how wonderful making love can be… I knew also I should take precautions, or at least tell you to make them. I didn't. So there's nothing for you to be sorry for" I raised a finger and silenced his lips as he started to speak
" Edward, this is the most important, happy, unforgettable night of my life so far and I refuse to ruin it with worries. Whatever happens I'll think of it in due time..."
"We will think of it on due time Bella. We" He hugged me from behind and my world was perfect again.
I leaned on his shoulder looking to the moonlight on the sea.
"Edward, I love you. Thank you for making this night so special my love."
Without facing me but placing a kiss on my head he held me even harder.
"Bella you are my life now and I swear by this moon, these stars and the sky I will always be here. I'll build your dreams and take them as mine and will fight every day to make you the happiest woman on earth."
I closed my eyes and with a sleepy voice I said" You've already done that tonight" and I let the sleep come, feeling safe my love's arms.
EPOV
Stupid, Stupid, Stupid… It was all I could think of… how did I forget the number one rule on a date like this? I ruined my memories of this special night with my stupidity… and there was no turning back… But what a night! In my life I've never felt like this… whole, completed. Like my life before this night something was always missing and now… everything's in place. I let my thoughts go back and not even with Tanya had I felt like this. I thought I loved her, but now I'm sure I didn't. Tonight was the most unique experience of my life and holding Bella in my arms while she sleeps makes it even more special.
I love her so much that, knowing that I have to leave her breaks my heart in million pieces.
I'll get you for this Carlisle! If it wasn't for you…
I regret right away my thoughts. My brother had an accident and is in a coma and all I can think is I wanna beat him up? What kind of a brother am I?
The kind of brother that is holding his most precious possession in his arms right now and doesn't wanna let go of."
Good, now I have an inner voice that talks back to me ..Great. I should go to sleep.
But I can't. I have to take this moment and save them for when we're miles apart.
Gently without making any sudden moves I took a look at my watch. 5am! I'll have to wake Bella, so I can grab some stuff before the car gets here.
I kissed her check and the reaction was precious. She shook her head as if I was a fly. I kissed her again and then she raised her hand but I grabbed her first before she slapped me.
"Bella, love, it's time to go…"
"Ummm, just a minute"
I smiled and turned her face to mine. Her eyes were closed but she had a smile on her face that made my smile even wider. I kissed her lips calling her name again.
Her lips respond faster than her eyes and the love and passion of our night were more awake then her…
"Bella, I really have to go babe. The car will be here in an hour..."
She open her eyes slowly and kissing me said "Good morning my love"
I laugh at that and squeezing her even more kissed her nose. "Good morning my sunshine" and without any warning I stood up still holding her. We almost fell again when I raised her by her waist and turn her around. "I love you Bella!"
She laughed and grabbing my hair forced my head back and kissed me on the nose. " I love you too Edward"
We grabbed all of our stuff and hand in hand headed to the female dorm.
Felix, heard us and turned his back to us, while we said our goodbyes and hugged each other in a never ending embrace…Bella crying while I fought my tears.
We kissed once more and I promised to call when I arrived at the hospital to let her know about Carlisle, and then left her and our fingers were the last thing to touch before I turned around.
This was one of the hardest things I had to do… I was crying and my whole body was already missing her shaking and making it unbearable to walk straight
How was I going to cope being away from her?
God.. I love that girl!
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