Nikki's Notes 12/04/2015
Sam's POV
I was in a dream I had to be, this was crazy, this angel… she was my… and if we mated we would be…
She said "Sam sit down you look a bit pale."
She was right I felt like I would never truly understand what I felt for her but she was meant to be with Lucifer. Was she just as evil and malicious as he was? But at that moment as I looked up at her and into her eyes I saw kindness and fear, raw and alive. After everything Dean and I have been through in the past 8 years, for me to finally find the girl of my dreams, and she came with a past that I didn't know if I could deal with. She was ancient, and her siblings were so evil, but I couldn't deny how I felt about her.
"Sam its getting late and I think your perfectly safe here, Ill take Cas with me back to your place and we will reconvene in the morning about what this all means and what we should do."
That meant her and I would be alone all night in the same apartment and I would have to do my best to not sleep with her… great.
"Sounds good guys, I'll call you in the morning."
As they left, I closed the door and locked it. I turned to her and saw tears streaming down her face and her back shaking.
"What's wrong?"
"I just can't believe I found everything I wanted in this human life, which of course is you, and because I wasn't told about this whole thing, we either have to decide whether we want to become one or have to stay as far away from each other as possible. I just want you for as long as I am allowed to exist."
I couldn't believe how weak she sounded and so defeated she was, she had spent all this time searching for me, waiting for me and now here she was. She had me and yet if I were to not choose her, she would be heartbroken.
"I want you just as bad, its just this isn't normal for humans, we don't just become infatuated with one another and then tether our souls together. Humans usually date for a long period of time and then they get engaged for a bit then they get married, and then have kids and do their best to spend the rest of their lives together. So I'm not saying that I don't want to be bonded with you I would just like to take some time to get used to a relationship with you."
I thought it was fair to ask, so she said "Okay sounds fair."
We decided it was time to go to sleep I was totally exhausted and she seemed the same way. As I underdressed down to my boxers, she took off all of her clothes without a second thought and climbed into her king sized bed.
"Uh, Nicolette, this whole not bonding thing would be easier if you weren't lying naked next to me all night, not that you aren't gorgeous, but a man can only have so much self control when it comes to you."
She looked up at me and seemed confused like she forgot she was naked and just simply rolled her eyes before she hopped out of bed and put on a silky purple nightgown. I liked that she thought I was silly for this request, and chuckled as I lowered into her incredibly soft mattress. We didn't touch at first but I felt her shiver so I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her into my chest. I feel asleep so quickly, I hadn't even realized it.
Nicolette's POV
I had never had a problem with being naked, but Sam didn't want the temptation. I almost had to giggle at the fact that he couldn't resist me. He had his arms wrapped around me as he drifted off into sleep. I could tell he was out because he got so heavy. I went over the whole day and what Castiel had said about if one of us dies after we mate then the other also dies, unless its by Sam himself or me. What Castiel did not know is that I could not be killed, not by my brothers or sister, only by father himself could we be destroyed. All of the sudden Sam's arms tighten around me so hard I thought he was trying to suffocate me, but then he started to scream. I had no idea what was going on or what was causing him pain, but after giving his body a once over to the best of my ability considering the hogtie I was in. I decided the pain must be internal, but after using my grace to heal him he was still screaming and now he was holding me so tight, I couldn't breathe, he was going to kill me. I did the only thing I could think, I kissed him to see what was going on, hoping it would give me some clue as to what was going on. As I put my lips against his, it felt like my skin was on fire and I saw Sam being tortured by Lucifer, I ran towards them to stop this but found that no matter how hard I ran I was not going anywhere. This was useless, I pulled my lips off of him grabbed his arms and pried them off of me, straddled him and screamed,
"SAAAAAAMMMMMM"
His eyes flew open and he was covered in sweat, he bolted upright and his nose was at the same level as mine.
"What's going on, why are you on top of me? Are you okay? Why were you screaming?"
I looked at him in exasperation, he had been the one sweating and suffocating me and yet he was acting as though I had done something wrong.
"Sam, you were having a horrible nightmare, you were almost suffocating me, I kissed you to see what was wrong and I saw… well you know whom I saw, and I couldn't get to you so I screamed and you woke."
He looked around kind of disorientated, "I'm sorry babe… Oh I mean Nicolette… Listen I feel horrible can we please go back to sleep?"
"Yes of course… good night Sam Winchester."
2 months Later…
As I walked into our apartment, I was hit with the scent of my favorite food, eggplant parmesan. I knew my amazing soul mate was making me my favorite dinner after a long day with Castiel. Castiel had taken over heaven in my place and we were doing our best to clean it up and restore order. Dean had made the permanent move to San Fran to be closer to Sam and I. He took Sam's apartment and Sam moved in with me. We are getting closer to becoming soul mates and sealing the bond. We have had to remain abstinent this whole time, but I can tell the time is coming. As I walked into the kitchen and saw Sam cooking away, I said
"Hello my love, how has your day been so far?"
"Great babe, Dinner is almost done."
I went back to our room and put on a silky night gown, it was the color of a beautiful sunset, orange. His favorite color, as I was washing my face I heard Sam say
"Nicolette…"
I replied "Yes Sam, is everything okay?"
He replied "There is someone here at the door… Would you mind coming out…"
I was so tired and didn't feel like seeing anyone but Sam, but I walked out to see a young woman sitting at my counter with short mahogany hair, looking down at her fingers.
I said "Hi is there something I could help you with?"
She turned around and I took in her features, I recognized them almost immediately… Katarina?
