DISCLAIMER: I don't own Inuyasha. I'm just a fan of the show. All rights to the character belong to its creator Rumiko Takahashi.
NOTES: Thanks for your reviews. Angsty stuff ahead.
CHAPTER VII: HER HIDDEN TRUTH
Kagome released a long sigh and twisted around in her bed. Her limbs felt wobbly and her brain muddled. It felt as though if she'd been in bed for days. Her eyes slowly came open and she forced her body into an upright position. Her room looked different. With steady hands she rubbed her eyes and briefly took in her surroundings.
This isn't my room. She looked down at her clothes and her eyes widened in realization at the hospital gown she was arrayed in. What the heck am I doing in the hospital? Turning to her left she stepped out of the bed quickly noticing an individual seated near the foot of it.
It was a male and he was wearing a hooded sweater. His face was downcast and he appeared to be sleeping. Quietly she tip-toed over to him. "Wake up sleepy-head!" He didn't answer. "Wake up!" Kagome said in a louder voice but he still didn't respond.
She touched his face and tilted his head back. It was Inuyasha. What on earth was he doing here? As soon the thought entered her mind she frowned. It made no sense to wonder why he was in the hospital. She had no idea why she was there herself. Warm eyes gazed down at him smiling. A gentle, beautiful being. "I guess I'll let you sleep." She whispered.
Her feet carried her away from Inuyasha and out of the door of the hospital room. He should've been home by now. The fact that he wasn't caused her brow to furrow and her thoughts to flutter. Hopefully, that arrow didn't damage anything vital. He seemed to be improving the last time they talked. If he had a setback in his road to recovery it'd probably be devastating.
Kagome moved into the hallway with no destination in mind. Her legs felt really stiff and she desperately needed to stretch them. I wonder how long I slept. It feels like my feet haven't been used in ages. My body hasn't ever felt this sluggish. I need to get rewired real quick.
She came upon the hallway's exit and happily went into the cafeteria. A ham and cheese sandwich sounded really good right about now. Her excitement was short lived. The cafeteria was closed for the evening. She released a disappointing breath and watched as a lone worker shuffled fruit into a large bowl. Her eyes gazed upon the colorful treats hungrily.
"Sorry young lady but we closed about an hour ago."
"But I'm so darn hungry. Can I please have something?"
"You should've eaten by now. I'm certain some food was brought to your room."
"Well I don't remember eating. Can you please help me out? I'll take anything."
"All I have left is this fruit."
"I'll take it. It feels like I haven't eaten in days." Kagome smiled appreciatively and accepted the fruit which included one orange, two bananas, an apple and a peach.
She thanked her and walked out of the cafeteria. In a not too far away lounge she found a cozy spot to sit and devoured every piece of fruit. Mmm that was delicious. Too bad it's all gone though. She wiped her mouth and threw away the fruit skins. Then she stretched and shook her legs. They still seemed too stiff. So she decided to move around a bit more.
Her feet carried her to different parts of the hospital. At every stop she admired the beautiful scenery. Her eyes lovingly gazed upon extravagant paintings that hung from wall to wall. A pinch of red here. A taste of blue there. All woven together like a rainbow of infinite dreams.
She stumbled upon the children's wing of the hospital. Beyond its entrance sat a gift shop and to the left an abundance of flora. Quickly, her eyes peeked into the window of the floral shop. Flowers were spread out everywhere. There were roses of nearly every color. An assortment of pink tulips were surrounded by lights. Her eyes roamed about in wonder until they landed on the most beautiful flower there. White lotus blossoms rested upon a bed of greenery in the center of the floral shop. A flirty smile danced at her lips as her heart fluttered wildly. Suddenly, her head filled up with images of Inuyasha. The urge to place one in her hair was so strong.
She left the floral shop and continued exploring the hospital a while longer and then decided to head back to her room. As her feet continued moving her head began to throb. She frowned before massaging her temple with her fingers. It wasn't a painful throb but it was strange that it struck her so suddenly.
A look of utter confusion skirted across her face and she searched her memory bank to no end. There was something she was forgetting but had no idea what. God only knew why she was even in the hospital. The last thing she remembered was talking with Sango and Kagura at the Halloween Dance but couldn't remember anything else.
"I see you're finally up."
Kagome smiled immediately when she recognized the voice. She turned around and walked over to Nurse Matsui giving her a small wave.
"How are you feeling today Ms. Higurashi?"
"I feel fine but my legs are kind of stiff."
"They should be. You've been in bed for ten days."
"What? That couldn't be true. Are you sure?"
"Of course I'm sure. I do work here you know. Are you sure you're feeling okay?" Nurse Matsui asked as she laid the back of her hand upon Kagome's forehead. "Your fever seems to be gone."
"I had a fever?"
"Yes you did and a very high one at that. It started going down two days ago. You had walking pneumonia."
"Pneumonia? How could I've gotten walking pneumonia? I've never had any type of pneumonia in my life."
"That's exactly what your mother told Dr. Yurasai, but you definitely had it. You were drenched in rain when you got to the hospital. Don't you remember?"
Kagome shook her head, her memories refusing to resurface. "The only thing I remember is being at the Halloween Dance at my school. I can kind of remember walking to the hospital but I don't remember why."
"I'm just glad you got here when you did. You were so sick that you collapsed into my nephew's arms."
"Inuyasha?"
Nurse Matsui nodded. "He'd just gotten released and was headed outside when he noticed you near the entrance of the hospital. He opened the door and you literally fell into his arms. Then he carried you in and held you until you were seen by a doctor."
Kagome blushed and looked down at the floor. Her heart racing like a lovesick horse just released to the wild. She pretended to yawn hoping Nurse Matsui wouldn't notice her smiling.
"He's been here every day since you were admitted."
She stared at her in disbelief. "But you said I've been here for ten days. Surely he went home at some point."
"Of course he did but he's also been here every day to visit you. He said he wanted to make sure you were okay but I think it was more than that."
"That explains his presence in my room right now."
"Is that right?"
"Yeah. I woke up and found him sleeping. I tried to wake him up but he wouldn't budge. So I left him there rest. It's the least I could do for him. I had no idea I was even in the hospital and knowing he came to visit me every day….He didn't have to do that but I'm grateful for his help."
Nurse Matsui smiled at Kagome. "You're very kind-hearted Kagome. No wonder my nephew loves hanging around you."
Kagome bashfully blushed at Nurse Matsui. "He's just being really nice to me because I pulled that arrow from his chest."
"Maybe, but I can tell he thinks you're a very special girl."
"There's nothing special about me Nurse Matsui."
"Everybody's special Kagome. We all possess unique qualities that make us special. And please call me Miosei. Nurse Matsui is too formal."
"Miosei, that's a really pretty name."
"Thank you. Miroku's dad thinks it's a pretty name too."
"Speaking of Mr. Matsui, I heard he was a doctor. Does he work here?"
"No he doesn't. My husband isn't a medical doctor. He's a shrink."
"That type of doctor."
"Yeah. He's also into holistic practices."
"So he prescribes therapeutic medicine."
Miosei smiled warmly at the young girl. "He also heads Matsui Temple in the Shindazo Harbor. It's near Mt. Masuma which is noted for its calming atmosphere."
"Really? My grandpa has been to Mt. Masuma twice already. He says it's a very holy place."
"It is. My husband took over Matsui Temple after his father passed. It's my husband's inheritance from his father and one day it'll belong to Miroku. It's been in the Matsui family for many years."
"Sounds like a wonderful legacy."
"You're welcome to visit anytime you'd like."
"I'll be sure to take you up on that offer."
"If you'll excuse me Kagome, I need to finish my rounds. I'll stop by your room later. You have to load up on antibiotics."
"Okay. I'll see you then."
Miosei waved goodbye and resumed her duties while Kagome headed back to her room. Talking with Miosei was rather nice. Now if all medical staff were this way there'd be few grouchy patients. Small giggles bubbled from her mouth as her mind wandered to Inuyasha wondering if he was still in her room. He probably wasn't, but she honestly wouldn't mind if he was.
She turned down the hall expectantly. Her face erupted in splendor. Her cheeks reddened with heat. A smile played at her lips all the way back to her room. She was both nervous and anxious to see him, especially after the things his aunt said. Never in her 16 years of living had she'd been so excited. Nothing could calm the thrill of her racing heart.
Here goes nothing. Trembling hands twisted the door knob quickly and she was met with darkness. Inuyasha was already gone. Her excitement was short-lived. A dejected sigh left her lips and her shoulders slumped disappointedly. She'd really wanted to see him. Another sigh escaped her lips before her feet kicked the door closed. Her room looked darker than ever.
She stepped fully inside and walked over to a nearby window to peer outside. The sun was beginning to set. That's why it'd gotten darker. Apparently, it was much later than she assumed. If she hadn't taken a tour of the hospital, perhaps time wouldn't have slipped away so sneakily. Her eyes gazed in wonder as her mind shuffled through thoughts. The loveliness of the setting sun stealing her breath away momentarily as her eyes beheld the most majestic of sights.
Admiring nature's beauty always made her think about God. For human hands couldn't have designed a world breathing such magnificence. She stood there staring through the window. Her eyes entranced by the etherealness of it all. So mesmerized was she by such grandeur that she failed to realize someone entering her room and walking over to enjoy the view beside her.
"I've never seen anything so beautiful." She whispered.
The sun in all its glory seemed to wink at her as it prepared the sky for its departure. Her lips parted to say something more but nothing slipped pass her lips. Only her breath escaped. There were no words in existence capable of describing the enchanting view before her.
The large, burning ball slowly began to dip pass high mountains. Dancing on the horizon it shifted from bright orange to crimson red. The wind howled as nature's haiku echoed in harmony. Like waves of the ocean the sun swayed and swayed descending slowly until it faded away into the night.
Warm alighted chills crawled up Kagome's arm. It felt like somebody was watching her. Her eyes fluttered in wonder before gazing lovingly into the sky. Fluffy white clouds hung amazingly low. They appeared low enough to touch but she knew that was impossible. Yet, her fingers itched to feel them anyway.
Watching the sky like this always made her think of heaven. The world beyond mortality and thinking about heaven made her think of her father. Her father used to tell her so many wonderful stories about heaven. It sounded like a beautiful place. Each time she heard a story about this eternal place it sounded more and more beautiful. Those memories always gave her comfort because she knew her father was in paradise.
One day Dad, I'm going to fly away home to be with you.
Nearly five years had passed since his death and she still missed him sorely. Sometimes it felt like she was all alone but all she had to do was look up into the clouds. The trees swaying in the breeze, the moon illuminating the sky or the gentle winds kissing her face was all she needed to remind her. Her father was gone but his memories were written all over her heart and locked inside forever.
A single tear ran down her cheek as a warm and much larger hand grasped hers. Her eyes continued to look out the window as comforting fingers brushed across her knuckles.
"It really is beautiful isn't it?" He whispered.
Kagome nodded in agreement not realizing who was holding her hand. The person moved closer to her and slipped an arm around her shoulders.
She closed her eyes and smiled. Whoever was trying to comfort her must've been reading her mind. Since Kagome was an equal opportunity hugger she leaned closer in the unnamed individual's arms. Feelings of peace and tranquility bubbled within her and she laid her head on the person's shoulder. She stayed that way for a long time and just basked in the warmth of their intimate embrace. Her body relaxed in contentment and without really being conscious of it her mouth opened and words began to flow.
I was waiting for so long
For a miracle to come
Everyone told me to be strong
Hold on and don't shed a tear
Through the darkness and good times
I knew I'd make it through
And the world thought I'd had it all
But I was waiting for you
Her lips stopped moving and she began humming. Something was tickling her nose and the scent was intoxicating. She inhaled and breathed in the wonderful aroma and her eyes fluttered contentedly. "Mmm…you smell so good."
"Thank you."
"No, thank you. I was feeling kind of emotional. Thanks for comforting me."
"You're welcome…..Wench."
Kagome's eyes flew open. "Inuyasha! Wha…wha…what are you doing here?"
He smiled at her difficulty saying a simple word. He was making her nervous. "Of course it's me. Who did you want it to be?"
"Um, I don't know. You could've told me it was you though."
"I could've but you were lost in translation. I didn't want to disturb you while you were daydreaming but then your countenance changed. You looked a little sad. So I offered you my hand and you extended me your voice. Are you feeling okay?" Inuyasha asked with an intent stare to her face."
Her breath stalled in her throat. He had the most gorgeous eyes. They gazed upon her like twin pools of liquid gold. They were beautiful. They were taunting and they were intimidating. She searched for an answer to his question but couldn't come up with anything. Why am I having this reaction to him? A thousand butterflies had to be floating around in her stomach. She looked down at the floor and nervously pulled at thick strands of her hair before wrapping them around one of her fingers.
Inuyasha's ego grew about ten sizes large and Kagome had no idea she was the cause of it. His heart pulsed wildly within his chest as he continued to look at her. He wondered if she knew how beautiful she was. Not just her physical attributes but her personality and mannerisms. He didn't know everything about her but what he felt this very moment completely took his breath away.
Why am I having this reaction to her? He'd befriended his share of beautiful girls but there was something about Kagome that intrigued him beyond measure. There was also something about her that reminded him of someone else. Why do you intrigue me so? As if on cue she lifted her gaze to his.
He was still looking at her. Suddenly, mixed feelings flooded her thoughts. She loved the way he looked at her because he'd actually seemed interested but hated it too because it made her nervous. She didn't trust herself around guys. She had a natural reaction that usually sent them running in the opposite direction. Her eyes quickly went back to the floor.
"I need to get back to my room."
"You're already in your room Wench. You can't get away from me that easily." Inuyasha teased before giving her hand a gentle squeeze.
Kagome looked down at their joined hands and like a jolt of electricity something erupted inside of her. Suddenly, visions exploded within her head as memories resurfaced. Her clothes were torn and she lay naked on the ground. Someone was above her twisting and pulling at her breasts and palming her core. Then she saw a face…His face. It was Koga's.
Feelings of helplessness and despair clouded her mind and she stiffened in Inuyasha's embrace. Koga's voice screamed in her ears telling her he loved her over and over again. Her head shook from side to side in complete horror but the voices wouldn't go away. She went completely rigid and then shuddered uncontrollably.
Inuyasha felt her reaction to his touch and he released her immediately. "Wench….are you okay? Did I scare you?" He asked sincerely, confused as to why her aura changed so quickly.
Kagome shook her head again. He sounded so genuine but she didn't know if he was sincere. She wasn't sure if she could trust him.
He looked at her face thoroughly. She was beyond frightened. Something had her terrified and his youkai demanded he protect her, calm her. One large hand cupped her cheek softly and she flinched. He was gonna have to be extremely gentle with her in this fragile state.
"Kagome…..I wouldn't do anything to hurt you. You saved my life. I feel like I owe you mine. I could never do anything to hurt you honey. You're really precious to me."
Her body continued to tremble. He didn't seem like he'd hurt her but her judgment of character wasn't always accurate. She totally underestimated Koga although his assault to her person wasn't entirely his fault.
Inuyasha touched her hand again and she frighteningly stared into his eyes. She was seconds from erupting into tears and his heart ached for her. That stinking wolf! Now, he knew what had her so scared but he wasn't about to ask about it. She was too emotional. So he decided to try one more thing.
"Kagome? Can I comfort you again?"
Panic set in minutes ago and her emotions were all over the place. Why wasn't her mom or Sango around? Even her Ji-Chan or Sota would suffice. She barely knew Inuyasha. Her mind told her to run away and hide but her heart warned her to stand still.
"I'd never hurt you Kagome. You brought me back from death's door. I owe you my life. Please let me help you. Let me protect you."
She didn't know if was desperation or his reassurance but something pulsed within her after his confession. She stretched a hand towards him and then pulled it back; struggling for the right choice.
"Let me comfort you Kagome. Let me help you feel better."
She didn't answer him. She just looked into his eyes for a long time. Warmth spread from her belly up to her chest pulling her towards Inuyasha. Was it trust? Without another thought her feet moved forward and she fell into his embrace.
Inuyasha held her and she trembled in his hands. His mind didn't need to form any thoughts to her behavior. His instincts told him what was wrong with her. An infuriating growled nearly erupted from his throat. She was too beautiful and gentle a creature to experience so much pain. He'd give anything to see her smile again.
Kagome cried and shook against Inuyasha's chest. Her tears nearly drowned the front of his shirt. It took her forever to get her emotions under control. They were like a boundless river taking away any and every thing in their path. Whenever she stopped she'd just start all over again. Eventually, her tears subsided but she continued to hold on. Her arms clung to him for what seemed like an eternity. When he tried to pull away she grasped him tighter.
"Don't go….Inuyasha. Just….just…hold me." Kagome whispered brokenly before trembling again.
She didn't know why but she felt safe and protected in his hands. The same way she did when her father used to embrace her. She refused to let him go and that surprised her because she never let guys get this close to her. He was different. His touch was a calming balm on her fragile soul. In some ways he reminded her of her father.
Inuyasha brushed Kagome's hair from her face and wiped the dew from her eyes. He was falling for her and falling fast. He didn't know if it was because she saved his life or because he just liked her but it was definitely something.
Something about her stood out from any other girl he'd ever met. He'd thought about her ever since she stumbled upon him in the forest. Now the fascinating creature stood trembling in his arms. He smiled warmly and stroked her hair.
I'll hold you for as long as you need me to. You don't have to be afraid Kagome. You're safe. Here with me.
"Spring is not better than autumn Inuyasha."
"Yes it is Wench. Everything comes back to life in the spring. Everything dies in autumn. If you think about it spring and autumn are just like the cycles of life. Every beginning has an ending and every ending a beginning."
"Oh? So you're a philosopher now?"
"Maybe."
"I still think autumn's better."
"That's a matter of opinion Higurashi."
"Did I give you permission to use my family name? Call me Kagome and Kagome only."
"Whatever Wench."
"Don't ignore me Takahashi or I might just put another arrow in your chest."
"You wouldn't dare."
"You're right I wouldn't but only because I'm not a violent person."
"So you're a lover not a fighter? That what you're implying Wench?"
"No! I'm neither and neither are you Inuyasha."
"That's where you're wrong Kagome. I'm both lover and fighter."
Kagome grabbed a pillow from her bed and hit him with it. "Be a good boy Takahashi." She giggled.
Inuyasha laughed at her. "I'm a good boy. Are you a good girl?"
"All day every day."
"I know you are because you're my angel."
Kagome frowned and looked down at the floor. "Could you not do that?"
"Could I not do what?"
"Call me an angel?"
"Does it really offend you?"
"I just don't like being called it. I'm not perfect or supernatural. There's nothing really special about me. I'm just an average 16 year old girl who loves to write poetry. An angel possesses way more than what I have to offer."
She just didn't see herself that way. She felt damaged, dirty and broken. She could put up a good front when she wanted to but the people who really knew her, knew the real Kagome Higurashi. An angel was something that she'd never be.
Inuyasha stared at her. It felt like she was hiding something. Something that made her feel unworthy of praise. What could she possibly be hiding?
"Okay, I won't call you Angel again."
Kagome shifted nervously before walking over to the same window she and Inuyasha looked out of last night. "Thank you Inuyasha. And thank you for being….with…me last night. I was out of it yesterday. I'm really glad you were here. I don't like being alone. It can be really scary sometimes."
"I know the feeling." Inuyasha said as he joined her. "Being alone can be one of the scariest feelings in the world. Laughing but no one to laugh with. Crying but no one to wipe your tears away. Loving but no one to give your love to."
Kagome gasped and nodded in agreement. "What would be the point of having emotions if you didn't have anyone to share them with?"
"Is that why you're sad Kagome? Because you feel alone?"
Am I that visible? Do I always have to wear my heart on my sleeve? Her lips quivered as her thoughts became reflective. She had no idea how to answer Inuyasha. She wanted to let him into her world but didn't want to regret it later. Nervous fingers quickly grabbed at her hair before twirling it about her index finger.
Inuyasha watched her with great intensity. Dear Kami! She was so beautiful even when she wasn't trying to be. The way she played with her hair or looked down at the floor when she was nervous. Her admiration for nature's simplicities. The depth of her spirituality. She was nothing short of an angel and he longed to know the secrets of her heart. He slowly reached down and took her hand into his own. It felt so perfect there like it was meant to be there.
"You don't have to be alone anymore Wench. If you ever need me…..From my mouth to Kami's ears."
Kagome gave Inuyasha's hand a gentle squeeze. "You're a really good friend. I appreciate everything you've done for me. Thanks for letting me lean on you last night."
"I'd do anything for you." Where did that come from?
Kagome frowned at him. "Stop saying that."
Inuyasha moved closer to her. "You saved my life Wench. I told you before that's something I'll never forget. I owe you my life. There's nothing in the world you could ask of me that would ever be too much."
She blushed hotly and looked away from him.
"You're something else. Do you know that?"
"Excuse me?"
Inuyasha tapped the center of his chest. "Whenever I look at you….you do something to me here."
Kagome gasped. "What?"
He laughed nervously but continued speaking. "I feel a strong connection to you. I know it's strange but I can't help it. I've never met anyone like you."
Kagome's heart thumped wildly in her chest as her eyes gazed upon him nervously. Why are you saying these things Inuyasha?
"You have a kind heart and you're spiritual. I'm not even a real spiritual person but you make me want to be one."
"Inuyasha! Stop it! You're embarrassing me."
"I'm just being honest Wench."
"Stop joking Inuyasha!"
"I'm not." He admitted before grinning flirtatiously. "I really like you."
Her cheeks became even redder and she forced her eyes to the floor. Inuyasha smiled knowingly.
"It felt really good to hold you last night even if it was just for comfort sake."
She was stunned. She wondered if Inuyasha was interested in her but she didn't think he'd flat out admit it. They hadn't even known each other long but oddly enough she did feel a connection to him. Maybe it was because of the way they met.
"Inuyasha?"
"Yeah?"
"Are you saying all this stuff because I helped you in the forest that day?"
"No I'm not."
"Are you sure? I don't need bold declarations. It's enough that we're friends."
"Look at me Wench."
Kagome continued to look down at the floor before hesitantly gazing out of the window.
"Look at me." He almost whispered as he grasped her hands.
Her eyes wouldn't leave the window. Inuyasha released them and moved closer to her. He was making her so nervous but still she enjoyed his nearness. She felt him move and her eyes immediately fell shut. What the heck is he doing?
Inuyasha touched her hair and smoothed several strands into his palm. Their touch was like intoxicating silk on his skin. With skillful hands he wrapped them around his index finger.
Kagome bit her bottom lip and shivered. Why was he playing with her hair?
"You smell good." He whispered; his voice falling deep into a lower pitch.
The sound stuck a nervous chord inside Kagome's belly and she shifted closer to him.
"Like gardenias." He muttered. "They possess a very potent and intriguing scent."
She nodded in agreement falling under his mystical spell. Her aroma shifted from nervous to something altogether enticing. Inuyasha wiggled his nose and smirked.
"A lot of people like the smell but it just doesn't do anything for me." A mischievous smile played at his lips and he laughed mirthfully.
The spell was broken and Kagome slowly opened her eyes and pushed Inuyasha away. He continued laughing at her.
"I thought that would get your attention."
"You arrogant jerk."
"Well you wouldn't look at me. I had to say something."
Kagome rolled her eyes. "So? Do you really like gardenias?"
"No I don't." He replied and received a hard nudge in return. "But it's obvious you do. So keep wearing it."
"Oh I will! Especially around you."
"Now that's my Kagome. You do what makes you feel good."
"Shut up Inuyasha."
He smirked at her again. "I meant what I said earlier and not because you saved my life and I feel indebted to you."
Kagome looked up at Inuyasha and didn't look away this time. Was he referring to his feelings?
"I can't help the way I feel Wench. Hope that doesn't scare you."
Slowly, he returned her gaze. He sensed her nervousness but she refused to look away. He also sensed her fear. It was difficult to miss.
"You don't have to be afraid of me Kagome. I'd never do anything to hurt you."
Inuyasha moved closer until he stood directly in front of her. She started to turn away from him and he touched her face. Her lips parted and she trembled slightly.
"Don't look away." He whispered before moving even closer to Kagome.
He pressed his cheek upon hers rubbing against her skin affectionately. The gesture both innocent and intimate. They were so close that she could smell the sugar from his breath. He'd probably eaten some type of candy before coming to see her.
Kagome smiled and closed her eyes before resting her head upon his chest. She could hear his heart beating. The sound like arousing drums thumping on her soul. The sound pulsed wildly fascinating her; beating as fast as her own. Before she could move away he embraced her.
Her belly quivered nervously as feelings of anxiousness caused her knees to tremble. It seemed like whenever they were together nothing else mattered. Like nobody existed but the two of them. There was nothing like being held by her Inuyasha.
Her Inuyasha? Where did that come from?
She leaned away from him a little and placed her hands on his chest. His heart felt as if it was gonna to run right through her palm.
"Would you like to have it Wench?" He joked.
She ignored him as her hands felt for his scar. Her mind wondered how it looked now.
As if reading her mind Inuyasha lifted his shirt so she could touch it. "It's almost healed completely."
"I just wondered how it looked." Kagome said bashfully.
"You can touch it. It's not going to bleed."
Without hesitation Kagome gently placed a single palm against the scar.
"Is it still painful?"
"No, but I do have to be careful and not bump into anything."
Kagome traced his scar with her finger. "How long do you have to keep these stitches in?"
"About four more weeks. That arrow went in pretty deep. I'm grateful you were able pull it out though."
A heated smile painted Kagome's lips and Inuyasha found himself sexily grinning back. He stared at her lips. What would it feel like to kiss you? She had the most lovely and inviting mouth. When she noticed him staring at her lips she quickly looked away. She wasn't ready to do that yet. They both were so caught up in their thoughts that they didn't hear the door swing open.
"Hi honey!" Mrs. Higurashi said as she entered Kagome's hospital room.
Inuyasha and Kagome froze where they stood.
"Kagome? What's going on?"
Kagome's eyes went from the floor, to her mother, and then back to the floor in the matter of three seconds. She was so embarrassed that she couldn't say anything.
"Umm, umm, Mrs. Higurashi, it's not what you think." Inuyasha tried to explain in.
"Kagome just wanted to see my scar. That's why she's feeling on my chest."
Kagome gasped and backed away from Inuyasha.
"That didn't come out right. She wanted to see how my scar was healing. So, I lifted my shirt so she could touch it."
"Inuyasha, quit while you're ahead." Kagome blurted out in utter embarrassment.
"Just go! I'll explain everything to my mother."
"Okay. I'll see you later."
"Sure thing."
Inuyasha waved goodbye to Kagome and exited her room.
"Would you like to sit down mom?"
"Kagome Higurashi!"
"What?"
"Don't you what me young lady! Why did you have your hand up that boy's shirt?"
"It's not what you think mom."
"Then explain to me why you had your hand up his shirt."
"I just wanted to see his scar."
"It looked like to me that you were doing more than seeing his scar."
"Okay, I touched it."
"Why did you touch it? Did he tell you to?"
"No he didn't. I remember how it felt when I bandaged him up in the forest. I just wanted to see how it was healing. It was a really deep wound, almost close to his heart. I guess I was just curious."
"Well, don't get too curious honey. You know what happened to curiosity, don't you?"
"Yeah I know. Curiosity killed the cat."
"And don't you forget it."
"Mom that's just a silly old proverb. It doesn't even mean anything."
"It may be silly to you but there's some truth in that old saying. Every avenue that's unfamiliar to you, that you're curious about, doesn't need exploring. I was your age once, so I know what most teens are thinking about."
"Mom I'm a little too old for the birds and the bees. And besides, we had that conversation a long time ago."
"That's true Kagome, but you were a child then. You're almost an adult now. And I'm willing to bet your mind is working a whole lot different than it did then. Many children your age are exposed to things that can have damaging effects on them. They're curious and they like to explore things they're not familiar with. And a whole lot of times their curiosity gets the better of them. Ultimately, it leads to mistakes? But you can't tell them anything, because they think they're adults. Which in a sense they are, but they're young adults. However, this doesn't mean they're capable of making adult decisions."
"Mom?"
"Yes honey?"
"Why are you telling me all this."
"Well, you're 16 Kagome. I just want you to know you can come to me, if you ever need to talk about anything."
"Oh My God! I don't believe you!"
"You don't believe me about what?"
"You think I'm fooling around!"
"Why would you say something like that Kagome?"
"Because you saw my hand up Inuyasha's shirt. I told you it wasn't what you thought it was. Why don't you believe me?"
"I do believe you honey. I just want you to be honest with me. If you want to talk to me about anything I'm here to listen. I don't ever want you to feel pressured into doing anything."
"Why don't you just come out and ask me what you really want to know?"
"What on earth are you talking about Kagome?"
"You know what I'm talking about. You want to know if I've been with someone. And the answer is no. I'm not even comfortable with my own body. How would I look trying to let someone get that close to me? I'm not comfortable in my own skin. I can't believe you'd think that I'd be having….I can't even say the word."
"Kagome believe it or not, but that's the last thing I want to talk to you about. I already know you haven't been with anyone. I know you want to do things that every other 16 year old does, but your innocence was stolen away from you. And because it was stolen, you have mixed feelings about boys. You don't want them to be like that creep that took advantage of you."
Kagome grew quiet. Her mother had brought up the only subject she hated talking about. A subject she didn't like talking about to anyone, including her mother. And she especially didn't want to talk about it right now, because she'd have to acknowledge what happened at the Halloween Dance, which was too fresh in her mind.
"Kagome, come sit with me." Mrs. Higurashi said as she sat down on the bed.
She hesitated for a moment before walking over to sit with her mother.
"I know you don't like talking about what that guy did to you."
"You're right, I don't and I don't want to talk about it right now."
"I know it's painful but I need to know something."
"Mom, you know I don't like talking about that." Kagome said in a broken voice, on the verge of tears.
"I know sweetie but I worry about you so much. These days I worry about you more than I ever have. You have pneumonia and you've never had pneumonia before. I still don't understand how that happened after the dance. You were so sick. I didn't think you'd recover this quick. Why were you even in the rain anyway? What happened to Koga?"
"I don't want to talk about him mom."
"Did he do something to you?"
"Mom, I don't want to talk about him."
"I don't care! I was at home waiting for you to come home from that Halloween Dance and you never showed up. And then, I got a phone call from Sesshomaru telling me you were in the hospital. And then I get here and Dr. Yurasai tells me you have walking pneumonia. Don't tell me you don't want to talk about Koga. Because I know something happened between you two. Your dress was nearly torn completely off and you had bruises on the both of your arms. What did he do to you?"
Kagome looked down at the floor and trembled.
"Did he try to rape you?"
"Mom, why are you doing this?"
"I asked you a question."
"Mom!"
"Did he try to rape you?"
"Stop it mom!
"Did he try to rape you, Kagome?"
"No! Yes! I don't know! I don't want to talk about this! Why can't you just leave me alone?" Kagome emerged from the bed and walked back to the window. "I don't want to talk about that stupid dance."
"Honey, if Koga tried to rape you, then we need to press charges against him."
"He didn't rape me mom. God! Could you just leave it alone?"
"No! I won't leave it alone. I'm your mother and I love you. I couldn't help you when you were 12 but I can help you now. Soon as you get well enough to leave the hospital you're gonna to press charges against Koga Naginata."
"I'm not pressing charges mom!"
"You most certainly will young lady!"
"No I won't! You can't make me do it!"
"Kagome you're going to press charges whether you like it or not."
"I didn't get raped. So there's no need to get the police involved. Why get them involved when nothing happened?"
"He assaulted you! So stop saying nothing happened."
Kagome shook her head and glared at her mother.
"Look honey, I know you're scared. I get that, I totally understand."
"No you don't mom! Don't you understand that if I press charges against Koga we'll go trial?"
"I don't care! Monsters like Koga need to be prosecuted."
"Yes they do, but what about the victims? Koga's mom and stepfather are rich, filthy rich. They'll be able to afford the best lawyers. I can't go up against them. They'll dig into my past. I just know it. They're going to find out what happened to me 4 years ago. Then everybody will know about my personal life. I don't want to relive that pain again. I refuse to."
"Kagome-
"He's a demon Mom!"
Kayame Higurashi's eyes widened in disbelief and stared at her daughter. "He's a what?"
"You heard me Mom. He's a demon. Koga Naginata is a demon."
"But…but…how?"
"How do you think?"
"Are you sure?"
"Yes. It turns out that grandpa's fairytales aren't fairytales."
"Oh Kagome….I wish you hadn't found out this way."
"I wish you would've straightened me out when I said they weren't real. Ever since I can remember grandpa has always told me stories about angels and demons and ancient symbols. I never believed any of that stuff mom. I never had a reason to until recently. Imagine my rude awakening on the night of the Halloween dance. One of my good friends turned out to be the big bad wolf.
"Oh…my poor baby."
She shook her head again. "I can't press charges against him mom. He's a rich demon. There's no way I can win against him."
Kayame pressed her lips together and continued staring at her daughter. The girl was heartbroken and absolutely right. If they went up against the Naginata family, there was no chance they'd win but she had to do something. Kagome was her baby girl and she'd walk through the gates of hell and back before allowing someone to harm her again and get away with it. With a mother's loving touch she cupped her daughter's warm cheek. "I love you Butterfly. Please don't ever forget that."
Kagome nodded and trembled; tears falling like pools from her eyes. Her mouth fell open but words would not come. Her aura was in complete turmoil and there was no way she was departing her emotional rollercoaster any time soon.
"Come here."
She fell into her mother's embrace, crying an endless river. Her tears dripped upon on her mother's shoulder. It had been a long time since she felt this hurt and broken. Her mother never seemed to understand her but deep in her heart she knew her mother only wanted to help her.
Kayame patted her daughter's back soothingly in an attempt to calm her but she wouldn't stop crying. So, she started humming the words to her late husband's favorite song. Her hands continued to stroke and sooth her daughter as she cried out achingly frustrating tears.
After a very long while Kagome finally began to calm down. Her mother continued humming What A Wonderful World into her ears. The song always calmed her. Her mother had the voice of an angel. Hearing her sing was like cooling winds to her bruised heart.
Her tears eventually subsided as feelings of comfort blanketed her from the inside. It felt like someone was watching her again. She couldn't help but smile as her body relaxed to the sound of her mother's voice.
Many people thought she had a nice voice too but it wasn't as good as her mom's. She fondly recalled her mother singing to her as a child. It always seemed to make everything better. Before she realized it her mouth began humming along. After they finished the song she gave her mother a tight squeeze.
"I love you Mom."
"I love you too honey. You mean the world to me…..you and your brother."
Kagome trembled and hugged her tighter. They didn't agree on most things but there wasn't anything they wouldn't do for each other. No matter what they went through they always found their way back to each other.
Kagome closed her math book and yawned. She'd been sitting in the dining room for the past four hours doing homework. It was almost six o' clock in the evening. Her mother, granddad and Sota were out grocery shopping and she was trying to finish homework. It'd been a whole week since she'd been released from the hospital. But she hadn't gone back to school yet.
She wasn't really sure she'd be able to go back either. She couldn't face Koga. It hurt too much to mention his name or even think about him. He was her friend and he betrayed her in the worst possible way. If she had to face him again…she'd lose it. With tired fingers she scratched her head and stood up.
That was enough work for now. Her math book was placed into her book-bag before she went to the kitchen to get a snack. She grabbed two bananas and walked into the living room. Dr. Yurasai told her she'd lost close to fifteen pounds while in the hospital and she could definitely tell. Most of her clothes were too big for her now. She desperately wanted to put the weight back on. Her body felt too thin.
Let's see what's on TV.
She flipped channels for about five minutes. Then finally decided on watching local news. She peeled one of the bananas and quickly ate it. Savoring every bit of the fruit, she hurriedly ate the second one. When she was done eating, she went back into the kitchen and discarded the banana skins.
As soon as she made it back to the living room the doorbell rang. It couldn't be her mother. It usually took her about three hours to complete her grocery shopping and she hadn't been gone a full hour. Quickly, she walked over to the window and peered through it. It was her best friend.
"Hi Sango." She said after opening the door.
"Hi Kay. Can you have company?"
"Yeah, come on in."
Sango smiled and walked into the Higurashi home and Kagome locked the door afterwards.
"I meant to come see you earlier but I've been under the weather."
"Yeah, I know. Bankotsu informed me you had the flu. How are you feeling now?"
"I'm good but what about you? You had walking pneumonia."
"I'm alright Sango."
"Are you really?"
"I'm fine."
"Have you talked to Koga since-
"Don't even say his name."
Sango gave her best friend a concerned stare. "Well there's my answer. And by the way, I haven't seen him either. He and his sister haven't been in school for about two weeks. I think their parents are worried about what you're going to do. Even his sister and Bankotsu have broken up. But she keeps calling my house begging me for your telephone number."
"Why does Abi want my phone number?"
"Who Knows? She's probably trying to get her brother off the hook but that won't ever happen. He's going to pay for what he did to you."
"Sango forget it. The Naginatas are not worth my breath."
"You're going to press charges aren't you?"
"Sango please!"
"You know I'm not going to drop this conversation. So you might as well tell me exactly what happened between the two of you."
"There's nothing to tell."
"Yes there is. Koga tried to rape you."
"I don't know that for sure. He wasn't himself."
"Don't make excuses for him. He forced himself on you."
"It wasn't entirely his fault. That thing was controlling him. I told you that. Just leave it alone."
"So that's it! You're not gonna do anything? You're just gonna let him get away with what he did to you."
"He didn't rape me. So I really don't see the point of this conversation."
"Why do you do that?"
"Why do I do what Sango?"
"Why do you let people mistreat you? You worry more about everyone else's feelings instead of your own. You can't keep letting people take advantage of you."
"I don't let people dog me Sango and there's nothing wrong with having compassion for someone."
"There's a fine line between compassion and fear Kagome. You're not having compassion for Koga. You're afraid of him. You can' let him get away with what he did to you."
"He didn't do anything to me. How many times do I have to say that?"
"He sexually assaulted you!"
"You don't know what he did to me Sango. You weren't there with us."
"I don't believe you Kagome! You know what Koga did to you and you're acting as though if it isn't a big deal. What if he tries to do it again? Have you thought about that?"
"He won't do it again."
"How do you know he won't? Because he's your friend? Friends don't put their friends in uncomfortable situations. Friends don't take advantage of friends weaker than them. And they certainly don't rape them. You have to press charges against him. You can't give him the opportunity to do it to someone else."
"I won't do it. I'm not gonna press charges against him. He didn't rape me and I honestly believe he never intended to. It was that accursed jewel warping his mind. Besides, I kind of led him on."
"WHAT!" Sango screamed to top of her lungs. "Are you that afraid of him? Don't tell me you're blaming yourself for what happened? You're the victim Kagome not Koga. You didn't ask for him to violate you. Please don't say this whole thing is your fault."
Kagome turned her back to Sango and moved away; putting distance between them.
"Don't shut me out Kagome! I'm your best friend and I wanna help you."
"Then why don't you let me decide what's best for me? I'm so sick of people saying they wanna help me. Don't you think I've thought about pressing charges against Koga? But what good would it do? His parents are filthy rich demons. They can afford the best type of lawyers for him. I've never been to a demon court. Until recently I had no idea they existed."
"It doesn't matter. You have enough evidence to get him convicted."
"It does matter Sango. If we go to trial my past is gonna get dug up….and…and everybody will know I was raped four years ago. On the same day that my father died. I can't go through that." Kagome mumbled on the verge of tears.
"I'm sorry, Kagome. The last thing I wanna do is bring up painful memories for you. But you have to understand where I'm coming from. I just don't want Koga to attack someone else. Monsters like him and that guy that raped you belong in jail. They need to be prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law."
"I know that Sango but it won't change anything. I'll always remember what happened to me."
"I feel so sorry for you."
"I don't need your pity Sango. I'm tired of talking about all this. I don't wanna talk about Koga! And I don't want anybody knowing I was raped four years ago!"
"But Kagome!"
"Drop it Sango! I know you wanna help me, but right now I just wanna be left alone!"
"That's not what you need Kagome!"
"Stop telling me what I need! You don't know what I need!"
"Maybe not, but I know you need to talk to somebody about it."
"WHY? So I can remember my father's death? So I can remember I was the cause of it? Can't you understand how difficult this is for me? I can't talk about it! I don't wanna remember what happened on Halloween and I certainly don't wanna remember what happened when I was 12!" Kagome pressed both of her hands to her face and yelled. "OH GOD! I can still feel his hands pounding me and stabbing me!"
"I understand. You must feel-
"No you don't! You have no idea how I feel! Nobody does! You weren't held captive inside of a dirty old building! I never thought I'd see my family again….crippled and lying on the floor, waiting to be murdered….broken and empty with your soul spilling out and nothing to fight with!"
Sango moved closer to Kagome and touched her shoulder. This was always difficult for her to talk about. Not just because of the physical pain, but the emotional pain as well. It hurt too much to think about because it was the last time she saw her father alive. Her mind searched for the right words to say to her.
"You didn't die Kagome. You fought your way through the whole time. That proves how strong you really are."
"That doesn't prove anything. The only reason why I made it out of that building was because my father sacrificed himself for me. He died that day and I did as well. My innocent, adventurous free spirit is gone. The real me died inside of a 12 year old girl. I've tried desperately to get her back but she's gone forever."
Kagome's eyes became misty as her belly trembled uncontrollably. It felt as though if something cold was grabbing for her heart. It was strange and nearly unexplainable. Her eyes fluttered wildly and she looked upon her best friend brokenly
"I want my life back Sango! I want my dad back! I want my family back! I want my childhood back! I want….my…my….virginity…back! I want my innocence and youth back! I want my old life back! Why can't everything be the way it used to be? I want everything to be the way it used to be!"
A distressed sigh moved pass Kagome's lips and she covered her eyes and wept sorely. Her life was spinning out of control and she didn't know how to fix it. Unwanted images bore heavily upon her mind and she longed for comforting relief. She needed help but was afraid to ask for it. Nothing ever seemed to be enough.
Sango reached to embrace her but Kagome swiftly backed away and ran upstairs to her room. She attempted to go after her but was halted by the ringing doorbell. It was probably best if she'd just let Kagome blow off some steam for a while. Without answering the door she opened it only to find Miroku along with Inuyasha on the other side.
"What are you doing back here so quickly Miroku? And why is your cousin with you?"
"I went over his house after I dropped you off here and he wanted to hang out. So I brought him with me. He wanted to make sure you and Kagome were okay."
"Yeah right. He followed you here because you told him you had to pick me up from Kagome's house."
"So? What's the big deal Sango?"
"You should've called first Miroku."
"I did call. You didn't answer your cell phone."
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to miss your call."
"It's okay. It wasn't intentional."
"Where's Kagome?" Inuyasha asked as he peered beyond Sango.
"She's in her room and I don't think she wants to be disturbed."
"Is she alright?" Inuyasha asked with an intent glare towards Sango.
"She'll be fine but you guys should leave."
"Are you sure she'll be okay?"
"I'm positive Inuyasha. I'll call you guys if we need anything."
"Okay, I'll call you later." Miroku said before touching Sango's hand.
Sango bit her bottom lip and blushed. Inuyasha nudged Miroku and laughed. She waved goodbye to them as they turned to leave. Her heart wildly fluttered about within her chest. Darn that Miroku. He made her feel the strangest things. She watched him and Inuyasha walk towards the car they arrived in.
"Sands?"
Sango turned around quickly when she heard her best friend's voice.
"Who's at the door?"
Inuyasha stopped in his tracks and turned around. That was definitely his Wench. He'd recognize her voice anywhere. His eyes looked around eagerly for her. "Kagome?"
Kagome frowned before pushing the door aside and coming to stand next to Sango.
"Inu…Yasha."
Immediately their eyes met and suddenly no one existed but the two of them. There she was…his Wench. He hadn't seen her for a full week and drove himself mad thinking about her. Thank Kami that disgusting wolf hadn't tried coming near her again. He shoved his hands into the pockets of his jeans as his lips curved upward in a mischievous smirk. He couldn't take his eyes off of her.
She was wearing a yellow sweater and gray sweat pants. Her hair was pulled back in a ponytail at the nape of her neck. She looked absolutely beautiful but he could tell she'd been crying again. Her eyes were red and puffy. Sadness radiated from her aura in waves. Poor wench looked so broken. He wished they were alone. He'd be wrapping her so tight in his arms. She needed to be held and he was just the man to do it. They stared at each other for a long time.
Miroku and Sango watched them quietly. Brows furrowed in wonder as lips twisted in amazement. Their attraction to one another was apparent. Through the ongoing staring match Miroku managed to lock gazes with Sango before silently gesturing her to step out of the way. She nodded briefly and quickly moved aside to join Miroku beside his car.
Kagome shifted her feet nervously as Inuyasha slowly came closer to her. Their eyes were still locked and refusing to look away. Nothing could break their trance. Only two people existed in their world. A small but enchanting smile slowly lit Kagome's face.
"Hi Inuyasha."
"Wench." Inuyasha whispered.
Kagome blinked back tears and Inuyasha's heart began to pump faster inside his chest. She told him repeatedly to stop calling her that name but whenever he said it her heart would just smile. It was crazy and she couldn't understand why he was so adamant about using the archaic term on her. But the word always seemed to spill from his lips so affectionately. It was like silken caresses upon her skin. She shivered pleasantly before wrapping strands of her hair around her index finger.
"Come here." Inuyasha whispered.
Kagome's eyes fluttered as her feet moved about hesitantly.
"Come here Wench." His voice dropping an octave in a caressing purr.
Her belly quivered nervously but she pushed her feet forward and fell into his embrace. His arms moved across her back and inched their way up her neck threading her nape. He removed her finger from her hair. Then tugged at her ponytail playfully.
"Are you okay?"
Kagome nodded sincerely. She was okay, now that he was here. He had no idea his close proximity affected her. Her pull towards him was deep and intimate. He made her feel so safe. "How did you know I needed you?" She barely whispered.
Instead of replying he slid a large hand between the both of them and simply patted the center of his chest.
Kagome flushed hotly and lifted her brow. "You must have a really beautiful heart Inuyasha." She stepped out of his embrace and looked up at him. Her fingers itched to feel his hair. Without a second thought she pulled a few strands and rolled them around her fingers.
Inuyasha closed his eyes and rumbled contentedly. He sounded like a dog. Kagome smiled warmly and embraced him again. A slow smile danced upon his lips at the innocent gesture. He and his Wench stayed that way forever.
If only they could freeze this moment in time.
This chapter contains lyrics from A New Day. I hope you guys liked reading this chapter. It was quite a bit emotional but I hope you still enjoyed it. I just want to thank you everybody whose reading my story and submitting reviews. I appreciate the love and support. I have many chapters already typed for this story but they seriously need to be tweaked before I upload them. Anyway, if you've enjoyed this chapter please submit a review and let me know what you think. THANKS!
