The Fifth Halliwell/We're Off to See the Wizard
Season 4
Paige thinks that Cole is still a demon but Phoebe protests.
It's not just the fact that Phoebe knows Cole isn't a demon.
It's not just the fact that Phoebe will love Cole no matter what.
No, the reason why Phoebe refuses to even think about the possibility that Cole is somehow a demon again, is because Phoebe couldn't deal with that.
After all, she and Cole and have through so much—and finally, finally, he was human, and the world was right. At least in her eyes. She couldn't face the chance that maybe, this wasn't meant to be.
It wasn't as if he was an awful person, or someone she didn't love. That was actually the problem—she loved him too much. Phoebe's always gone overboard on everything; especially when it came to her love. And what if she wasn't allowed to love him anymore? What if he really was a demon, and she had to-
She'd already been down that road. It was road she thought she'd never re-visit, especially when he turned human.
She just wanted him to be human. She knew that she couldn't lead a normal life, a non-witchy life; she had come to terms with that. But she couldn't live a life where Cole was a demon. She couldn't vanquish him again. She couldn't deal with the love of her life destroying the other love of her life—the good powers.
And she couldn't turn evil for him—that was out of the question.
But what if he was a demon? She wasn't quite sure she could resist if Cole turned his powers on to her; she was weakened by her love for him. She couldn't leave her sisters and live a renegade life like last time again. She wasn't strong enough to vanquish him; again, she was weakened by her love for him.
And then say she was able to turn him to good again; there'd be no way he'd let her take away his powers again...that whole scenario has numerous downsides to it.
And then-
No. There was too many scenarios, too many chances for things to go wrong.
She just wanted to believe that he was a normal human, that they could make this work.
She understood, though, that she would always love him. Root of her problems or not.
