Morphed


(Stephanie's POV)

Over the next excruciatingly painful hour the professor and Jean explained just about everything to me and Drew and Logan. I was probably the one who was most upset. Not only was i scared and incredibly upset but i was in a lot of pain still too. It wasnt until the guys had gotten me on the bed that i realized how much pain there really was, the morphine was wearing thin.

"WHAT YOU DID WAS STUPID AND IRRESPONSIBLE!!" Scott yelled.

"Scott i know.."

"NO YOU DONT KNOW!! DID YOU SERIOUSLY THINK THAT CUTTING YOURSELF WAS GONNA HELP YOU?!"

"Steph you promised you wouldnt anymore" Drew said to me. The anger and sorrow in his voice broke me.

"I dont know what to do anymore. I love it here i really do. I love you Drew and i love being here with you. I love everyone here and i love being what i am. But not being able to see my family or my old friends...i cant take it anymore. Im hittin the end of my rope. I haven't seen my friends or family in months. I slipped back into the pathetic little weakling i used to be. I hate it. I hate being that way. I dont know what or why but i want everything to be ok again. I can never forget all the horrible things ive done, all the mistakes ive made, all the trouble ive caused, everything went wrong just because of me. All the things ive done that hurt you Drew. Even the little things" I sighed. "Its like all of the guilt and sorrow and anger just broke me into a million pieces"

"Steph" Drew said.

"Drew i still cant get over the little things ive said to you that upset you. And even the other things. I know that ive made you cry and that ive made you hurt yourself and it kills me. Everyday i think about those things" I let a tear slide. I didnt want to cry again but i did. I sat up and the pain made me want to lay back down but after all the things ive done wrong and all the people ive hurt. I deserved the pain. I got off of the bed and pushed past Jean and Scott. Drew watched me with an indescribable look. I stood by the balcony door and hunched over a little as i tried to push my wings out. they twitched inside of me fiercely, i pushed and they seemed stuck. I cringed and pushed as hard as i could. They exploded in a fray of feathers from my back a little blood trickled down my back and i threw my head back in the release.

"Stephanie are you ok?" Jean whispered.

"Your wings have never done that before" Logan said.

"Her body is under a ot of stress" Jean said.

"Someone hit me" I said.

"What?" Logan asked.

"Hit me. Hit me hard"

"I will not"

"Drew!" I said.

Drew got up and stood in front of me. He punched me in the face. A hard all body thrown into it punch. My face burnd and i fell backwards. I cried and whimpered. I waited for it..waited for the anger to build up and i concentrated on fire. The fierce fire i felt in my gut. My body exploded and green flames erupted from inside of me. They engulfed my body as i stood up. I knew what i was doing somehow. I felt the pain disapate and i felt my energy return. I knew that i was healing myself with my energy. I sat down in the chair and dried my tears. I just sat there as everyone stood and stared.

"Ok. im all better, all the cuts and marks gone. Everything. Im better" I said.

"How did you do that?" Professor asked as he wheeled over to me.

"I just concentrated my hate and anger into energy and thought about it" I sighed. "Its not hard"

"St-steph. im sorry" Drew said.

"I deserved it. I deserve so much more pain for everything ive done"

"Babe" He reached out ot me. I took his hand and smoothed his hand with mine just feeling his hand in mine.

"Im sorry Drew" And i pulled him into a tight hug. He held me and it felt amazing to just be held.

In my mind i saw Magneto. He stood smiling at me. He spoke to me:

"Im coming for you my dear"

"No" I said. I looked at Drew and the others. I have to protect them even if it costs me my life.