I realize the characters are Ooc right now, but it has a purpose, they will go back to being themselves. ~~Enjoy
EPOV
Pam and Sookie left shortly followed by Crystal and Andréa, when I came back in. The two of them knew the conversation that was going to happen between my 'mother' and I. As she slowly descended the stairs.
Everyone else sat silently while I chose to hold Maria's gaze. Maria was someone I considered as a mother, she was the mother figure in this crazy family and had adopted me into it.
Her pale blue eyes were unreadable. She looked like a statue with no particular emotion, rather many different emotions. She was old, and she looked it maybe about the age Sookie had described her grandmother. Her hair was a faded red in lose curls around her head. She sat up straighter and cleared her throat, "Eric, did you mean what you said?"
"Yes."
"Then this is the girl whom you truly want to spend life with. You know what you said." Yeah I damn well did. I might have only said 'I love her' out loud but Maria read my mind, I had been saying a lot more directly to Raven, I loved her and I wanted her in my life for a long time. I said I wanted to shred the fuckers after her into millions of pieces, only I was too afraid of losing her, these thoughts are only ones I would share with Raven and Maria, and maybe Pam.
This was the first time I admitted it, even to myself, and it was scaring me how much this girl whom I spent a while with, doing something only she knows with her and I couldn't remember a thing, but since then I've been in love with her. She'd been in my mind in my dreams, which I rarely had but lately they were through out the day.
I couldn't stand feel like this, and I damn well didn't want to go into this. But I had said it and I wanted her safe.
My family was so dramatic; it was like we were a soap opera family.
"Yes Maria." I replied my eyes never leaving hers.
"Then tell us about her." She said back getting comfortable and smiled, what the fuck did you get yourself into Northman?
"Of course."
"How did you meet her?"
"Bill." I spat the name not intentionally, just out of habit, "she was looking for any information on two girls who had been murdered. They happened to be Fangbangers and both had stopped in my bar." I paused, "she was interesting, and I was obviously interested in anybody Bill was with."
Okay, nobody in the room liked Bill, and they all understood why I thought like this, Bill had fucked up royally and he was also an asshole. "Anyways, after meeting her I learned she was a telepath. That only piqued my interest even more. But as I told you about Longshadow, I needed her help and the more she was around the more interested I got. But something happened to me, with a damn witch." At this Raven got up and left, I didn't know why, "she erased my mind and according to Sookie I was running down the road toward her house, she took me in during that time, and I haven't a clue what happened between us. But I still feel like something happened, and since then my attraction to Sookie became something more."
"Son, do you have a clue how your face lights up, well how you light up, when talking about her?" Maria seemed happy, which meant I had gained her approval. Which also meant this part of the conversation was done. Thankfully.
"So how are we going to take care of these people?" Arion asked, he had been sitting in the corner silently, "I don't like them taking my sister and I want them killed."
"And I happen to like Sookie." Clarice added; agreements went around the room.
"I don't know who they were, I know they weren't in Fellowship uniforms."
"But they were, our Fellowship is different."
"The way you say it makes it sound like you're a part of it."
"We were, before they learned of vampires and kicked us out." That didn't make me feel any better, "Eric, call Pam back. I must retire for the evening, I would like to meet this girl tomorrow night." Maria said, "goodnight children."
Pam, come home.
Yes master, as you wish. Her reply was instant.
30 minutes later they were back, "Sookie can we talk?"
"I need to rest Eric. I'm not feeling well." Was her instant reply and she went upstairs.
"Pam, what's wrong with her?" I snapped towering over her.
"I don't know." Her voice sounded, well troubled, "she's not herself. Just let her rest and maybe just maybe she'll be okay. She's a bit, um, confused I suppose, by some things she's feeling. She'll be okay."
I backed away from Pam, "I'm going to sleep then." When I got upstairs Sookie was curled up in my bed, not asleep, but pretending to be. I crawled in beside her and didn't speak.
"What did you need to talk about Eric?"
"You need to rest."
"I just wanted away from everybody."
I sat up, turning her to face me; I had her full attention. "Sookie, I love you. I still don't know what happened during my time at your house and right now I don't care. I just, I want to be with you. I want to protect you, and I never want to hurt you. I-I don't know when I started feeling this, but I had never had such strong emotions for anyone. Never."
She didn't speak, why wasn't she speaking. Oh god. Why did I do this?
"Eric, I love you. And I want you to remember what happened. But you were completely different, somewhat, and I'm not sure if I'm in love with you, or in love with the you that lived with me."
I felt a pain in my chest, what the hell?
"I want to learn about you, this you, not the you that lived with me. I know some things, but I want to know everything. I want to be part of your life." The pain dulled and I felt a huge relief, "for a long time." She sat up and kissed me softly, I wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her into my lap. She broke the kiss, curled up in my lap, and started to fall asleep.
I moved so both of us were lying down and joined her just as the sun began to rise, that had been easier then I thought.
I feel asleep with, what I'm sure was, a dopey ass grin on my face and I didn't care.
