I walked into the room and spun around as Austin shut the door behind me, I stopped and looked around as he flicked the light on I frowned looking at the mess. My top draw was open exposing all my bra's and panties I looked up to his him looking around when we had come up before the light had been off.

"sorry its a mess I couldn't be bothered to clean it." I said dropping on my unmade bed Taylor had left fang in here so I reached over and tossed him on the make shift bed side table.

"it's okay I don't mind." he said leaning against the door.

"you can sit down you know." I said sitting up and smelling my hair.

"I know just waiting for you to decide what you're doing." he said smiling at me.

"I need a shower." I said getting up and pulling my shirt off Austin cleared his throat and stepped around me and sat on the bed.

"need me to come in?" he asked playing with his hands.

"what good would you be you cant even look at me without a shirt." I snapped grabbing my towel and heading to the shower.

I sighed heavily as the hot water hit my face and ran down my body I wanted so badly to hit the wall or to hit something. I'd only known him for a few days and he was leaving again in two months so why was I so angry? I guess it was what I deserved Blake even said so. I turned around so the water ran down my back I had my hair up so it didn't get wet as I had shower.

The smell of vanilla bean and sandalwood filled the shower as I washed the smell of beer and the day away. I stepped out of the shower and grabbed my towel feeling a little relaxed I dried myself and wrapped the towel around me just as the door opened.

"someone's in here." I said turning around to see James standing in the doorway.

"sorry I didn't mean to I thought it was empty." he said looking around then at me.

"knock next time." I said holding the towel around me as I walked past him he put his hand on my shoulder and pulled me back.

"I'm really sorry about earlier in the kitchen," he said leaving his hand on my arm.

"you should be apologising to Taylor not me." I said shrugging his hand off but he moved with me and put his hand on the wall to stop me from walking out.

"can you tell her?" he asked leaning down to look at me.

"no you need to now let me go." I said trying to push his arm away but he pushed his body against mine pinning me against the wall.

"what's with you two girls the other night you wanted me and now you don't." he said the smell of beer was heavy on his breath.

"you're drunk." I said trying to push him off me.

"so are you." he said leaning in to kiss me the bedroom door I ducked under his arm but he grabbed the back of my towel I gasped as he pulled me back I reached out to grab the door frame but missed.

"seriously mate what the hell is your problem." Austin said standing in the door, James let my towel go I lost my grip and hit the tiles.

"the hell is your problem always fucking popping up like some perve." James said trying to grab me again as I picked myself up off the ground Austin stepped forward and grabbed my arm and pulled me to him, the force of his grip on my arm was so tight I grabbed at his hand to try and loosen his hold as he pulled me out of the bathroom away from James.

"you're the one cornering women every chance you think you have." Austin said taking a step towards James making him take half a step back.

"Austin forget it." I pleaded trying to get him to let go.

"come near Taylor or Mackenzie again and I'll make sure you regret it." he threatened James as he literally carried me by the arm back into the bedroom and slammed the door behind us.

"you're hurting me!" I cried as he stopped and looked at my arm where his hand was. He let go and walked past me and sat on the bed with his head in his hands.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you." he apologised I rubbed my arm and stood next to the draws.

"why did you do that?" I asked softly as my arm thumped as blood flow came back to my arm.

"he was going to hurt you." he said looking up at me but instantly looked away I looked down and saw I was still in my towel, I reached into my draw and pulled out a pair of pink lacy panties . I slipped them on under the towel as I looked around for my shirt. "he'd already hurt Taylor I didn't want him to hurt you."

"I could have handled myself you didn't need to step in." I said grabbing my batman shirt I slept in and dropped my towel.

"he had the height and size advantage don't be stupid." he said inspecting his fingers I stepped over my towel and stood in front of him.

"if I needed help all I had to do was scream." I said softly still holding my shirt.

"can't you just be grateful you didn't have to scream for help?" he asked finally looking up at me before realising I didn't have a shirt on he looked away again. I rolled my eyes and put the shirt on and stepped away from him to pick up my towel.

"you're leaving in two months anyway so what does it matter." I said hanging my towel up over my open draw,

"who told you?" he asked I turned around and looked at him he was finally looking at me now that I have some clothing on.

"I over heard you." I said stepping over some clothes to stand in front of my mirror and took my hair out.

"I only got the call today, I was going to tell you tonight after we went to bed." he said pulling his shoes off leaving his socks on I watched him in the mirror as he pulled his shirt off and tossed it on the floor with my clothes.

"why its not like we're in a relationship or anything." I said combing my fingers through my hair I had left my brush in the bathroom I wasn't confident enough to go back out there in case James was still in the bathroom.

"it wouldn't be fair of me to just up and leave if anything did happen with us Kenz." he said getting up and standing behind me as I watched him in the mirror.

"you are going to up and leave anyway." I said turning around to face him, he was leaning against the end of the bed his jeans hanging so perfectly the way his pyjamas did.

"that's why I wanted to tell you now." he said moving his hand to the side of my face. "I'll only be gone six to eight months tops."

"how long were you gone before?" I asked shivering a little as I leant back against my vanity moving away from his hand as much as I wanted to lean into his warm my anger over ruled my drunken mind.

"about two years." he said dropping his hand back down and sighing.

"so nothing will guarantee you'll be back within six to eight months." I stated rather than asked him as I tilted my head to the side.

"I wasn't going to ask you to wait for me." he said grabbing my hips and pulled me to him as I kept shivering.

"that's right because we've only known each other like what literally two days." I said trying to ignore how much I wanted the man in front of me.

"look how about we see where this goes then in two months we decide then?" he tried to compromise I felt my heart drop I looked away from him to the window, it was the plan Taylor and I had made was flying out side listening and laughing at how stupid I was. I sighed and relaxed leaning into him as his arms wrapped around me.

"I guess so." I said softly closing my eyes and listening to his heart beat.

"that's good enough for me." he said kissing the top of my head like he had when he arrived tonight. I pulled my head away from his chest and took his face in my hands forcing him to look down at him. His hazel eyes stared back at me as I stared into his, I leaned forward and kissed him softly and pressed my forehead against his our noses touching. He kissed me quickly stealing a kiss making me smile.

"there's the smile." he said smiling himself.

"shut up." I said blushing slightly sliding my hands from his face to his shoulders.

"make me." he said going into steal another kiss I turned my head slightly and he caught my cheek. His hands moved up my back pulling my shirt up slightly. I turned my head back to face him and kissed him gently biting his bottom lip he held me tighter against him as his tongue came out to play claiming my mouth and making me weak at the knees, I moaned softly pressing my chest against him as I wrapped my arms around his neck, he moved his hands down my back leaning against me as his hands grabbed my butt and picked me up as he stood up, I wrapped my legs around his waist to hold on tighter as he walked around to the side of the bed and somehow managed to lay me in the middle of the bed with our heads at the top of the bed. I unwrapped my arms from his neck as we kissed and moved them under his so I could put them on his waist, he broke the kiss and looked at me as I licked my lips and tried to catch my breath, he smirked a little and kissed me again making me lose my breath again.

I needed him, I wanted him so badly I moved my hands from his waist as I loosened my legs and slipped my hands between us he lifted himself up off me a little as I reached for his jeans I managed to unbutton them before his kiss left my lips and moved to my exposed me.

"Austin." I moaned breathlessly as he brought his hand down and started pulling my shirt up. He suddenly stopped and pushed himself up to look down at me I squirmed under his eyes as I reached for his jeans again he sighed and untangled himself from me and sat back.

"I cant do this." he said rubbing his face I scrambled to sit up and grabbed his hands.

"do what?" I asked holding his hands in mine the best I could.

"this, I feel like I'm taking advantage of you." he said pulling away from me and moving to the side of the bed. I crawled up behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist and kissed his shoulder.

"if I didn't want it I would have said no." I said softly kissing his shoulder again, he put his hand on mine and sighed deeply.

"just, please stop." he said softly his thumb slowly circling the back of my hand. I sighed and pulled away from him.

"I'm going to get a drink." I said climbing off the end of the bed and walking out taking a deep breath as I shut the door and walked down stairs I looked up and saw Ben making a sandwich he glanced up and saw me walking towards him.

"that's how you sleep?" Ben asked me as I walked into the kitchen behind him to look in the fridge for a cold bottle of water but the fridge was empty.

"no I sleep in a bubble naked wanna watch?" I asked closing the fridge and moving to the cupboard to grab a bottle of water from the bottom of the cupboard.

"you have a bubble you sleep in?" he asked taking a bite of his sandwich and tossing the butter knife in the sink.

"yea and when I'm horny it glows." I said winking at him as I turned around opening the bottle.

"I need to see this." he said smiling at me as he took another bite of his sandwich.

"you better clean the stuff you use." I said motioning to the bench as I turned away from him and walked into the lounge room to see what they were doing I saw James laying on the floor next to Cameron.

"aren't you meant to be in bed?" Cam asked looking up at me from the floor.

"Na she doesn't sleep in a bed she sleeps in a bubble." Ben said walking past me nudging me with his elbow as he walked past stuffing the last of his sandwich in his mouth as he laid on the lounge he had claimed, I winced as pain shot up my arm I put the lid on my bottle and rubbed the spot where Austin had grabbed me. Sam reached over and pressed a button on the controller pausing the TV as he laid on the other lounge above Cam and James.

"what are you watching?" I asked pushing Ben's feet away as I sat down on the lounge.

"Wet hot American Summer" James said I nodded and avoided his eye contact as I picked at the label on my bottle.

"are you going to be doing that talkie thing or?" Sam asked I looked up and frowned at him.

"rude much," I said getting up and flipping him the bird as I walked back up stairs.

"way to go." Cam said hitting Sam with a cushion he was using for a pillow.

"shut up." Sam said hitting Cameron back with his pillow, I sighed and walked back in the bedroom. Austin was standing up he had his shoes back on he was pulling his shirt back on when I closed the door.

"what are you doing?" I asked staying at the door as he pulled his shirt down and grabbed his phone, wallet and keys from the bed side table.

"leaving." he said simply filling his pockets.

"you cant you've been drinking." I said leaning against the door opening my bottle of water and taking a sip.

"I haven't had anywhere near the amount you've had, I'll be fine." he said taking a step towards me his car keys in his hand.

"you've still had too much to drink." I said putting the bottle of water on my draws and folding my arms over my chest.

"you cant hold me hostage Kenz I'll just pick you up." he said sounding serious.

"why do you want to leave?" I asked biting back my anger.

"just doesn't feel right being here right now." he said folding his arms over his chest.

"so let me get this straight, after we agreed to see how things go and start to see where things go, you stop it all and now want to leave." I said trying to keep my cool I dug my nails into my arm where Austin had grabbed me, it was going to bruise so badly my bone actually hurt.

"I'll come back another time." he said shifting his weight he was starting to get impatient. I rolled my eyes and grabbed my water and walked around my side of the bed.

"fine see if I care." I said instantly regretting the words.

"so that's it? We're just going to give up just because I wont do something that I find wrong to do in this situation." he said turning his eyes on me as I sat down my back to him my chest was starting to hurt.

"yup, why not saves time in two months." I said wiping away a tear I didn't even know had formed. Blake was right I was better off alone I was nothing but a pathetic piece of crap that wanted more than I got out of life.

"I guess it does." Austin sighed and walked to the door I felt my chest tightening why was he taking so long to leave, he wanted to go anyway he was better off leaving before anything serious happened. I grabbed my pillow and hugged.

"are you okay?" he asked still watching me from the door.

"fine." I said taking a deep breath to calm myself down a little I rubbed my forehead and reached for the ibuprofen I had sitting next to my phone. I opened the box to see I still had a full row, hopefully I'd be more successful this time, the pain of losing people was too much to bare.

"I'll call you tomorrow if you want." he said opening the door as I popped a pill out.

"don't bother." I said as the door closed my body shook with every breath I took, the sound of the door closing echoed through me. "it's better this way." I said my hands shaking as I opened the bottle of water and grabbed the first tablet I had taken out and placed it on my tongue.

"what are you doing?"

"what I should have done." I said lifting the bottle to my lips the cold water filled my mouth as I swallowed the first tablet. I put the bottle down so I could get at the tablets easier, I pooped the rest of the row out and picked up the second and third one I tilted my head back to drop them into my mouth but something pushed me forward the tablets fell out of my hand and landed on the floor. I moved to pick them up but an arm wrapped around me and pulled me away from the side of the bed.

"let me go." I said calmly trying to get back to the side of the bed to finish what I started.

"why?" he asked holding me tight against him.

"because I'm sick of hurting!" I said my anger bursting out as I grabbed for his hands to pull them apart so I could get away.

"stop pushing people away then!" he growled in my ear I dug my nails into his and forcing him to let go, I moved to the edge of the bed and stood up turning to see Austin had done the same only he was looking at his hand where I dug my nails in.

"I don't push anyone away they all end up leaving." I wiped away a stray tear that had fallen.

"you aren't the only one with problems Kenz." he said shaking his hand and looking at me,

"no shit Sherlock, weren't you meant to be leaving?" I asked folding my arms over my chest wishing he'd just go.

"so you can finish whatever you started?" he snorted and rolled his eyes. "yea I'll leave and wait for a few days then call only for Taylor to tell me the girl I took a chance on killed herself after I left." he pulled his phone and wallet out of his pockets and put them on the bed side table with his keys.

"like she'd answer your call anyway." I said rolling my eyes and turning away from him there was a whole bed between us there wasn't any way he'd get to me without me slipping past him.

"she couldn't ignore me if I turned up." he said slipping his feet out of his shoes and pulled his shirt off and throwing it at me. I looked down at the tablets and open bottle of water. My head was spinning slightly one tablet wasn't enough even with the amount of alcohol in my system.

"it wont be too hard to forget me." I said trying to think of how many I could get down before he grabbed me, I wouldn't have a chance he was faster than I was.

"I tried to the whole bloody night after I helped you at the concert!" his anger was getting the better of him as well, "when I saw you walk to your car I spent twenty god damn minutes debating with myself about going up to you."

"maybe you should have listened to the part of you that pulled the other way." I said grabbing the bottle of water I saw him tense up out the corner of my eye, I took a sip and grabbed the lid. The temptation was sitting right there I already had the water.

"don't do it, please." he said softly watching me closely. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

"it hurts too much." I said as tears fell as I fell against the wall struggling to hold the bottle up right, Austin climbed across the bed and took the bottle from me and put the lid on tightly.

"I know." he said putting the bottle down and took my hands and pulled me to him, I fell against him my head hitting his shoulder he shuffled around slightly and moving my hips pulling me down to sit on his leg as he ran his hand up and down my back as I cried on his shoulder.

I had run out of tears and was slowly slipping in and out of sleep Austin noticed and pulled me back a little to look at me.

"do you want me to stay?" he asked he put one hand on the side of my face holding me up as he pushed the loose strands of my hair behind my ear. I brought my hand up and rubbed my eyes as they started to hurt. "Kenz."

I let my hand drop into my lap and sighed heavily as I looked at him. The worried look he wore on his face and the intensity in his eyes made mine wet with tears again, he wiped away a fallen tear with his thumb.

"if you want to." I said weakly fighting back more tears.

"I want you to tell me what you want." he said looking into my eyes I looked down and picked at the corner of my thumb nail.

"I want you to stay." I whispered looking at him a flash of relief crossed him face as he let out a long breathe like he'd been holding it waiting for me to answer. He pulled my face to him and kissed me softly.

"alright I'll stay." he said moving his hand from my face and slide his arm behind my knees and picked me up I gasped and wrapped my arms around his neck as he stood up.

"what are you doing?" I asked as he walked us around the bed.

"I'll sleep that side." he said laying me down I let go of him as he pulled the blanket up and over me.

"are you working tomorrow?' I asked as he walked to the door and flicked the switch off.

"not till tomorrow night. Why?" he asked shuffling around in the I rolled over to face the window as he slid into bed next to me, his leg brushed against my knees as he moved around a little to get comfortable.

"I was just wondering." I said softly as he moved and slipped his arm under my pillow forcing me closer I moved closer resting my head on his chest I brought my leg up and put it over his. I frowned a little at the feel of his bare leg against mine, I moved it up slowly his right hand moved under the blanket and stopped my leg from moving any further up.

"maybe another night, just not right now okay?" he said softly kissing the top of my head.

"what are you wearing?" I asked moving my leg off his and rolled on my stomach to look at him in the dark, he tried to put my head back on his chest but I slipped out of his hold and sat up on my knees, I pulled the blanket down but sighed as it was too dark to see.

"come here." he chuckled his hand on my back as he pushed me gently towards him. I put my hands on either side of his head on the pillow to stop from falling.

"what? I can ask, you didn't bring anything with you." I said trying to think to try and remember.

"what does it matter?" he asked his hand moved from my back to the back of my neck.

"curious cause you seem so organised." I said remembering how clean his house and his bedroom had been.

"I didn't get a chance to drop in and grab some pyjamas after work." he said leaning up and stealing a kiss. I frowned and pulled away from him and leaned over grabbing my little LED cube and turned it on, he'd pulled the blanket up to his waist when I lent over I frowned at him and leaned over him as I put the cube above the bed balancing it on the bed head and the wall so I had both hands free. I grabbed the blanket and before I could pull it away from him Taylor screamed I let the blanket go and turned to go see if she was okay but Austin sat up and pulled me down.

"she's fine now will you just stay still." he said forcing me to lay down pinning me with his leg.

"cheater." I said trying to wriggle out from under him. He laughed I smiled a little as the colours changed making his face more visible before we were plunged into darkness from the red. He leaned up and grabbed the cube.

"you actually use this as a light?" he asked looking at it he moved a finger and we were in darkness again, he switched hands and leaned over me putting the cube back on the bed side table.

"it works for me." I said smiling I arched up into him as he moved back, he stopped I could imagine him frowning at me in the dark.

"Kenz don't make it harder then it already is." he whispered he had leaned down closer to me as I relaxed back into the bed.

"it doesn't have to be." I whispered leaning up and kissing him, he groaned burying his head into the pillow beside my head. I pulled my left leg out from under his and slowly moved it up and down his leg.

"I want to so badly believe me I do." he said softly into the pillow.

"then what's stopping you?" I asked turning my head and kissing his cheek softly.

"my morals." he said simply I sighed and stopped moving my leg.

"we can do other stuff though?" I asked as he lifted his head off the pillow.

"how about we just sleep." he said rolling on his back away from me, I sighed and grabbed the blanket and rolled over so my back was to him.

"sleep it is then." I said making sure he heard the disappointment in my voice. He rolled over pulling me back against him.

"don't be like that." he said kissing the back of my head, I rolled on my back his hand resting on my stomach.

"I know I'm sorry." I apologised picking his hand up off my stomach and played with it.

"it's okay just being close to you is enough for me right now," he said putting his head next to mine so we were sharing a pillow.

"you sound girlier than me." I said moving my head over slightly so his forehead was against the side of my head.

"I'll show you how girlie I am you just wait." he said I laughed out loud the hand I was playing with shot out of the blanket and covered my mouth, "shh its late." he smiled as I pulled his hand away from my face.

"don't make me laugh then." I said pushing his legs with mine, he pulled his hand out of mine again and grabbed my leg and moving it over his as he tangled his legs in mine.

"this is comfy. Don't judge." he said moving his hand up my thigh and resting it on my stomach.

"Austin." I moaned softly into the darkness I felt him twitch against my hip.

"since the night you stayed in my bed I was hoping you'd let me share a bed with you again." he whispered in my ear softly I put one hand on his as I slipped my other hand under the pillow.

"the first time I woke up and you were there I was a little freaked out." I whispered back moving his hand down to rest between my hips. "the second time I didn't feel like I wanted to leave you as much." he moved my shirt up I caught my breath as his pinky finger slipped under the top of my panties.

"I'm glad you didn't bail on me." he said softly I bit my lip and closed my eyes as I felt him get harder and his hand moved a millimetre lower.

"so am I." I said breathlessly just from his small actions.

"last night made me miss you so much." he groaned softly moving his hand down my panties I gasped as he touched me. He groaned again moving his finger down touching every part of me.

"don't, stop." I pleaded with him as he slipped a finger deep inside me.

"you're so wet." he whispered I turned my head catching his lips.

"you did this." I moaned as his thumb rubbed my clit

"I know I'm sorry." he said slowly pulling his hand away and out from my panties. I groaned and curled into him, he kissed my forehead his hand coming back to rest on my hip. I tried to fight a yawn off but it slipped out.

"I don't want to sleep." I groaned as he started playing with my hair.

"why not?" he asked softly.

"because you have to go home tomorrow." I complained yawning again.

"it's okay I'll be here with you all day and I can come over again when I can." he said softly kissing my forehead again. The dark was claiming my body and mind.

"I don't want you to go." I whispered softly as I sunk away into darkness.

I stood in the kitchen wearing my pyjama shorts and a singlet sipping on my coffee, the house was still pretty much asleep, Ben was awake but he stayed on the lounge falling in and out of sleep I'd offered him coffee but he shook his head and nodded off.

I looked up at towards the bathroom and I hear Kenzie's door open and Austin walked in there wearing nothing but his briefs I smiled he'd already forgotten where he was or he just wasn't awake enough yet. I turned away and walked to the kettle and turned it on and grabbed a mug from the cup board and stood near the kettle till I heard the toilet door open again. I walked back over to my spot on the bench as I heard Kenzie's door shut softly and Austin appeared at the top of the stairs in a pair of jeans. I could see the appeal that Kenzie found.

"is that coffee?" he whispered walking down the stairs.

"mhm the kettles just finished and I got you a mug out." I said sipping my drink, it was starting to go cold I'd been up for about half an hour listening to everyone sleep.

"seriously going to have to keep you around." he smiled rinsing off the teaspoon I had used and made his own coffee.

"you and Kenzie sleep alright?" I asked turning around and leaning against the bench as he grabbed his cup and put a little bit of cold water in it before putting the hot water in.

"yea I guess I didn't realise how messy her room was till I woke up and nearly tripped over." he said putting the teaspoon in the sink, as he leaned in the corner next to the sink.

"yea she's a messy one unless some thing's bothering her." I said running my fingers through my hair.

"can I ask you something?" he asked sipping on his black coffee.

"sure what's up?" I asked watching him, he didn't seem any taller than the other guys but he defiantly made you feel his presents.

"has Kenz ever tried to commit suicide?" I almost choked on my coffee as his words reached my ears.

"what did she do?" I asked putting my cup down.

"she sort of just lost it last night I mean it was sort of my fault I was going to leave then she just popped a bunch of tablets." he said scratching the back of his head, I sighed and folded my arms.

"once in high school and when she was with her ex, I don't know the full details about that one." I said hitting the bench, "she promised me she wouldn't do it again damn it!"

"I don't wanna cause trouble between you two." he said nervously which was a little surprising coming from him.

"no it's alright it probably a good thing I moved in." I said looking up to the stairs as Kenzie appeared at the stairs.

"morning, is Austin there?" she asked rubbing her arm as she walked down the stairs.

"yea I'm here." he said taking a step towards her as she reached the kitchen but I stepped out in front of him and slapped her as hard as I could knocking her back.

"Jesus fucking Christ Taylor!" she yelled at me as she looked up at me from the stairs.

"don't you fucking dare!" I yelled back at her as she got to her feet her cheek was red and half glowing.

"what's going on?" Ben asked jumping the lounge he reached to help her but she pushed him away.

"I didn't do anything to you!" she shouted tears swelled in her eyes and fell, I felt my own eyes swell up with tears.

"Austin told me." I said walking to her and pulled her into a tight hug the hurt look in her eyes as she looked at Austin before she broke down in my arms.

"Kenz." Austin started to say but Danny walked out of my room by now everyone was awake and wondering what was going on.

"what'd I miss?" Danny asked looking down at us as we fell to the ground it broke my heart hearing Kenzie cry.

"dude go put some clothes on." Ben said to Danny who grinned like an idiot and walked back into my room.

"you aren't leaving me. You hear me Mackenzie." I said smoothing her tangled hair.

"it wouldn't stop." she mumbled between sobs.

"what happened?" James asked Austin put his cup on the bench and walked over to us I looked up to see James shrink back behind behind Sam and Cam.

"come on we need to talk." I said pulling Kenzie with me as we walked out the back.

"what's going on?" I asked after we had been sitting in silence in the sun for five minutes.

"I don't know everything was good the I over heard you guys talking." she sighed leaning back in her chair more as her shirt slid a little further up her thighs.

"talking about what?" I asked trying to not get burnt.

"him leaving in two months." she said putting her hands behind her head.

"is that why you lost it?" I asked moving my chair slightly out of the sun she looked at me sideways and smiled the red mark from my hand was extremely noticeable now.

"no we worked it out." she said looking away from me as she said it, I believed her when she said they'd worked it out but I wasn't convinced she was okay with the end result.

"so what's wrong?" I asked it would have been easier looking inside her head but I didn't have the technology to do it so for the moment giving her the twenty one questions, she sighed and put her hands in her lap.

"everything just hit me all at once after James and the bathroom and stuff." she said glancing at me I looked at her confused.

"what happened with James and the bathroom?" I asked looking over my shoulder feeling like someone was watching me only to see Danny disappear from the door.

"he cornered me sorta like you in the kitchen but Austin stopped him told him if he didn't stay away from me or you he'd live to regret it." she said sitting up in her chair and leaned forward resting her elbows on her knees.

"and it brought back all that shit with Blake. I'm going to kill him." I said getting up

"just leave it alone please. Everyone will be gone by tonight." she said relaxing back into her seat as I sat back down.

"yea about that, is it okay if Danny stays?" I asked looking at the ground and watched an ant run around.

"its your house too." she said putting her hands back behind her head.

"is this going to be like in the car the other day?" I asked she was using the same tactic to distract me while I was busy thinking.

"no I've just," she sighed and closed her eyes. "I was over whelmed the alcohol didn't help and I was weak. What happens in two months if this becomes real? What happens if he doesn't come back." I sighed heavily and rubbed my face,

"you're trying to plan for the future and if what you and he have is real then when he leaves it'll hurt but even if it doesn't work no matter how it goes you're going to be in pain." I said resting my elbows on my knees.

"I know but I just I'm scared." she said opening her eyes and looking at me.

"you should be you try that again and I'll kick your ass so hard you wont sit for a week." I said smiling at her.

"yea, yea." she said waving a hand at me.

"is Austin staying again tonight?" I asked standing up and stretching in the sun.

"Na he has work tonight." she said getting up with me and walked inside as one of the neighbours walked out.

"alright so it's you, me and Danny for dinner tonight." I said smiling hopefully she let me cook this time. She stopped at the door and turned around stopping me in my tracks.

"let me guess you wanna cook" she said putting her hand on her hip.

"please?" I asked clasping my hands together,

"well I guess if its bad there's still the left overs." she smiled and turned walking inside but stopping as she looked in the kitchen.

"what?" I asked walking in and closing the door behind me.

"is nothing sacred" she said groaning and walking away. Sam was standing in the kitchen with a fork frozen in mid air.

"I was hungry." he said innocently looking around, I started laughing and followed Kenzie into the lounge room as she dropped on the lounge.

"looks like you don't have a back up option." I said sitting next to Ben who was looking through Netflix.

"you shut up." she said pointing at me.

"why are we shutting Taylor up?" Austin said walking in the front door his phone in his hand.

"Sam ate the left overs." Kenzie complained as he walked around and sat beside her his arm resting behind her on the lounge.

"it wasn't just me!" Sam said walking around the corner frowning with a mouthful of food.

"yea but you're dumb enough to get caught." Ben said looking up and laughing making Sam turn and walk back into the kitchen.

"where's Danny?' I asked Ben as Kenzie held out her hand for the controller as his match finished.

"dunno he cam and James are probably in the bus." he shrugged glancing at me as he watched Kenzie mess around with guns and stuff.

"you guys brought the bus?" I asked leaning back to see if I could see it.

"yea well Danny said he's staying tonight as well, I don't think Kenz wants us all through her house." he said winking at me.

"just leave my food alone." she said concentrating on the TV.

"Na it's okay we'll go see some places and stuff," he said getting up and walking into the kitchen, I sighed and laid down.

"I get off work around two tonight, you want me to come down?" Austin asked as Kenzie sat up facing the TV more.

"no it's okay you'll be too tired to drive all the way down." she said glancing at him and smiling , he frowned and gently stroked her cheek that I'd slapped.

"alright as long as you're sure." he said looking up as Danny walked in the front door leaving the door to slam shut.

"isn't that like offensive or some shit?" he asked looking from the TV to Austin,

"what do you mean?" Austin asked as Danny walked around and picked my legs up and sat down,

"well cause you've been over in the war zone and probably shot someone and we're all just sitting around playing a war game." he said rubbing my legs I rolled my eyes as he looked at me and grinned.

"its just a game." Kenzie groaned as she got killed. "are you serious it didn't even hit me!"

"depends on who you ask really I wasn't in the thick of it like some of the other men I know." Austin replied sounding so cool about it I wanted to kick Danny for making things awkward.

"so have you killed anyone?" Danny asked sounding curious.

"Oh my god Danny you cant just ask someone that." I said digging my heel into his thigh Kenzie burst out laughing,

"yeah Danny and on Wednesday's we wear pink." she said wiping a tear from her eye. I smiled and held back a giggle as it just clicked.

"what?" he asked looking at her genuinely confused.

"nothing it's okay." I said rubbing Danny's leg with my foot.

"but seriously like have you?" he asked turning back to Austin ignoring Kenzie and I.

"It's different there patrolling the streets, everyone's on high alert." Austin said frowning "you mess up some one or you could die." everyone was quiet I wasn't sure if Kenzie had been listening she seemed too busy concentrating on the TV frowning.

"ah Kenzie you're out of milk." Sam said walking around wiping his mouth, Ben started laughing which made Sam start.

"you know where the store is go get more." she said not even looking up.

"ooh if you're going down town can you grab some salt and vinegar chips please." I said getting up off the lounge and walking up stairs to grab my wallet.

"but I don't know where I'm going" Sam said anxiously looking from Kenzie to me as I walked out of my room.

"should have thought about it before you raided the fridge." I said opening my wallet and taking five dollars out and holding it out to him.

"but it wasn't just me." he said pointing at Ben, he probably would have pointed at Cam and James if they had been inside.

"Take Ben with you then." I said as Sam sighed and took the money from my hand.

"wait what?" Ben asked from the kitchen.

"it's alright I'll go." Austin said getting up as Kenzie's match ended.

"no they did it they can go." she said grabbing his hand and pulling him back down but he didn't move.

"it's okay I honestly don't mind, they'd take longer to do it anyway." Austin said smiling as he pulled her up. "I need my shirt." she groaned and dropped the controller on the lounge.

"fine only because I still haven't gotten around to washing your other one." she said as he nudged her along.

"anything else you need just write a list" he said to me as he picked Kenzie up as she was moving too slow.

"HEY!" she yelled as he walked up stairs. When the door shut Danny stood up and looked at the front door.

"what?" I asked grabbing a pen and a piece of paper.

"James really does have a reason to shit himself then." he said and laughed as Cam and James walked in the door.

"seriously! You may have just brought up a bunch of shit for him!" I whispered at him so my voice didn't echo.

"I genuinely wanted to know especially if he threatens one of my band members and best friends." he said shrugging I rolled my eyes and turned back to the paper and wrote a few things down.

"he did deserve it though." Ben said picking up the controller and playing where Kenzie had left.

"Piss off Ben." James said still standing by the front door with Cam.

"the fact you acted like a complete douche when you were a guest in the house and you still haven't been kicked out on your ass."I said sharply holding the pen out towards him. "show some fucking respect." he frowned at me and folded his arms over his chest.

"alright got that list?" Austin asked walking down the stairs, I held it up for him to take.

"I'm going too." Kenzie said following him but walked to the back door for her shoes.

"my car or yours?" he asked taking the piece of paper and putting it in his pocket.

"yours make it easier." she said grabbing her phone and putting it in her back pocket. James opened the door for them as they walked out.