A/N I want to dedicate this chapter to CAMIMAE707 for being a great reviewer and to xforeverxedwardsx for reading through this before i typed it up :D

Chapter seven

On the way to the dorm Bella tried not to look at Jasper too much but she could feel his eyes boring into her every now and then. Neither of them spoke but she could tell he wanted to ask so many questions. They finally reached Bella's dorm and she slipped in heading straight to her drawers to get a new shirt. "I'm just going to bandage it and change my top."

"OK,if you need any help with the bandages just tell me." He said while going over to Alice's bed.

"Sure, Sure." She headed into the bathroom and as usual got her box out but instead of needing the blade she took her shirt off and looked at the damage. One of the larger cuts that had scabbed had been torn open and Bella sat admiring how the cut looked, it wasn't as neat as when she did it herself but it still looked beautiful like the others. She realized that since the fall her mind had been empty of the usual negative feelings. She felt good, even the stares that had been trained on her all day couldn't dispel the power and release the cuts created. She got out the freshly cleaned towel and a bandage ready she set about cleaning the cut as she would normally after using her blade,she applied disinfectant and after cleaning and bandaging the cut she put the clean top on that she had brought in with her. She headed out the bathroom to where Jasper was sat waiting, she had a feeling he was suspicious, well who wouldn't be. He was still sat on Alice's bed when Bella left the bathroom. When he saw her he stood up. "Everything Ok now?"

"yep, all cleaned up." As Bella reached for her bag she noticed she had chosen a top that had been recently washed and looking at it realized her mother must have been the one to wash it. Now for most people the fact that her mother had washed it wouldn't be a problem but Bella's mum had been known to shrink clothes. And as she reached for her bag the sleeve shrank down her arm and at the same time Jasper glanced at her arm. His eyes widened in surprise. his mouth was hanging open in shock. Before he could say or do anything Bella sprinted to her drawers and grabbed a different top and ran to the bathroom to change, again. When she came out again Jasper had managed to reign in his surprise. But the look on his face now was worse. It was a mixture of worry and pity. That was one of the worst things since people found out. They pitied her. She didn't want their pity. She wanted everyone to leave her alone. Before she could say anything to him, he spoke first. "Why?" That one word made Bella's anger evaporate. She had never really had to explain 'why' on her own. When her parents found out,she had Cassie to help explain. Her parents had explained to both schools and Bella had refused to speak the one time her parents had made her go to a psychologist.

"If i tell you, you've got to promise not to tell anyone at all including Alice."

"Why can't they know they're your roommates?"

"Because, like you just did and still do, they will pity me and that is the one thing i can't have. I already get it from the teachers at this dumb school?" Bella was starting to get angry again but Jasper's calm attitude seemed to keep it in check.

"The teachers know?" His eyes widened again at the new revelation.

"Of course, why do you think they've let me sit where i want, with you guys all the time. They've been told to make it easier on me." She grimaced at her last statement.

"Oh." Was Jasper's brilliant response.

"So, are you going to tell me, i promise not to tell anyone without your permission first." Bella sighed."Ok,in my last school,my friends convinced me to go to a party at someone's house. I lost them while they went to get a drink, and then one of the 'players' at the school dragged me into an empty room before anything happened i managed to get away from him but someone saw me leave the room and the rumour spread and everyone started thinking i was easy and making my life hell. Calling me names like slut and one day at home when all the names and problems were running through my head i accidentally cut myself. Looking down at the cut, it looked beautiful and simple. It helped as well, i felt normal again without the negative feelings and the voices chanting at me in my head. It was all from a little cut." Bella wasn't sure what his reaction to her story would be but what he said surprised her. "That's why you were so distant at the meal and around school. You seemed so wary of everyone except for Rose and Alice. You especially looked scared when guys walked close to you."

"I did." She hadn't noticed how she acted around other people.

"Yeah, errrm i was wondering if it doesn't sound rude or anything, can i see your arms properly?" Bella's eyes opened as wide as Jasper's had been earlier at his question. No one not even Cassie had wanted to see the extent to which she had done to her arms.

"O.....K" Warily, while watching Jasper's reaction, Bella started to roll up her sleeves while avoiding catching any of the marks. She kept going until both her arms were bare all the way up to her shoulders. Bella distinctly heard Jasper's sharp intake of breath as the light hit all her scars, the healing cuts and the few bandages she had. He seemed at a loss for words. Finally he was able to say something but his question made her question just how sane he was. "How many are there, do you know?" She decided that since he was the first one to act so calm on finding out and seeing the extent of her arms that she wanted to tell him. "Well, on my left arm there is roughly about 30 and on my right there is around 35. Why do you want to know how many? Everyone that has found out has either looked at me in disgust or as if I'm crazy. Why are you so calm? I don't understand it." She was getting worked up, so much had happened today and it was starting to catch up with her.

"Calm down Bella, would you prefer me to be looking at you with either of those looks. As to why i wanted ti know how many, well it's because I'm trying to see how much what happened has affected you. And I'm always calm so why would i be any different in this situation? But you need to calm down, sit down on the bed and take deep breaths." Jasper led Bella to her bed, sat her down on the end and watched her until she had calmed down. "Better?"

"Not really but i think we should go to our next lesson. Could you help me with my sleeves?"

She was still thrown by how Jasper had taken the situation so calmly but she was glad, she don't know how she would have been able to cope with school if he had acted like everyone else. The only person who had come close to reacting like Jasper had been Cassie and she'd still cried and started asking her questions non-stop."Sure I'll help but tell me if i hurt you." Slowly and carefully Jasper lowered her sleeves back down her arms."Are you going to be alright on your own in your next lesson?" Bella was still wary of people but was less so of Jasper and she was happy he was concerned.

"I'll be fine. I'll try not to fall over again." Jasper's smile at her attempt at making a joke caused Bella to smile back at him. It felt good to be smiling again without having to force it. Jasper led Bella to the door of her next class which was Philosophy and Ethics. It was this class that Bella was worried about. She didn't know anyone in this lesson and she would be forced to sit by complete strangers. Reluctantly Bella went up to the teacher and introduced herself. She noticed the all too familiar glance at her arms that she had seen all day off the teachers. Sighing she was directed to a table that was occupied by a boy and girl so Bella would be able to sit on one side of the table without having to worry about her arms being hit or sitting next to a stranger. the two people who were already sat at her table seemed nice enough, they told her that they were called Meya and Kaleb and throughout the lesson Bella came to realize that they were a couple. They were a cute couple that Bella could tell just from looking at how they acted around each other that they were happy together. They were easy to talk to but again Bella was wary of letting her guard down around people. The lesson went quickly and all too soon it was time for her to head to her last lesson of the day. Biology with Emmett and Edward. She left the room after a swift goodbye to Meya and Kaleb and slowly made her way to her biology room. Entering the classroom, she noticed more pairs of eyes turned in her direction than usual. News obviously traveled fast in this school, the teacher acted the same as every other teacher had that day. He directed her to a table with Emmett,Edward and another guy she didn't know sat at the table. She sat on the available seat next Edward and across from Emmett."Bella, this is Jacob, Jacob this is Rose's and Alice's new roommate Bella."

"Hey" Jacob said in a deep husky voice.

"Hi" Bella replied in a near-whisper. Luckily no one commented on how her voice was so quiet and shook on the one word she had managed to force between her lips. The lesson went by quick and before she knew it, it the end of the school day. On the way out the room she walked next to Edward and they were talking about anything and everything when she found herself falling forward, but before she came into contact with the floor she felt a strong hand catch her wrist and pull her back onto her feet. Edward had been the one to grab her wrist as she fell. "Thanx" she said while she could feel the blush painting her cheeks a deep red. "Your welcome,just watch where your walking , it helps." He replied as he turned to continue walking out the door. Bella noticed a girl glaring at her while glancing at Edward's back walking away. Bella wondered what could have made this girl have such a strong reaction to her but paid it no more attention as she followed Edward out the door. When she left the room Rose, Alice and Jasper were waiting outside the door for her Emmett and Edward. Bella was happy to see that Jasper had stuck to his word as none of the others were looking at her any differently. Jasper himself was also looking the same as before the geography incident.

"We're getting take away and we're going to watch some movies,is that Ok? How was your first day? What take away do you want to get? Were you Ok in the lesson by yourself,if not one of us could transfer to your class?"

"Alice, Alice let's get back to your dorm room and then you can bombard poor Bella with your questions." Jasper put his arm around her shoulder in an effort to stop her bouncing up and down so much. She truly looked like a pixie when she acted like this. As a group they all made their way to the girls dorm.

A/N This is an extra long chapter as requested by CAMIMAE707 I will try and keep them all this long but it might not always happen :D but i hope you enjoyed reading!!!!