CHAPTER Seven: The Loneliness Sets In

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Shuichi laid in his bed, staring at the ceiling "Why am I like this?" he took a long drag of his cigarette "I pushed everyone I care about away… I wish I understood what I was doing before I was alone." He exhaled the smoke "I was only for so many years… I don't know why it's bothering me now…" he rolled off the bed onto the floor, on top of all the letters everyone had written him. He pressed his face against the cold floor. "Guess it's a little too late to apologize." He picked up a letter from Eiri. He studied his elegant handwriting, remembering the times he'd sneak into his study before bedtime…

"Didn't I tell you to stay out of here?" he glared.

"But I'm going to bed, I wanted to say goodnight." He pouted sweetly.

Eiri massaged his temples "Whatever, you've already broken my concentration."

Shuichi moved Eiri's wastebasket so he could sit on the floor next to him, he jokingly batted his eyelashes "I could break your concentration for real."

"…Like you have a chance of pulling me away from my work." He smiled slightly, running his fingers through the boy's soft hair.

Shuichi nuzzled into his hand as if he were a cat. "Yuki?"

"What?" he looked down at him.

Shuichi stood up "Goodnight." He kissed him gently on the lips "I love you."

Yuki just turned back to his work.

Shuichi swallowed hard "I really did think he didn't care about me… He never verbalized it, but now that I think about it, really think about it, he showed it so subtly. After a while he moved the wastebasket so I could sit beside him. He didn't really cook before we started living together, afterwards, he cooked almost every night. He couldn't tell me he loved me, so he showed me." Tears flowed from his eyes "I was the problem… I really am stubborn, Yuki."

He stood up, wiping the tears from his face. He grabbed his keys and ran out the door.