Okay I'm sorry for the delay, but the reviews have been disappointing and I just started classes again ;D bye holidays…
7. Everything's changing.
It was around four in the morning that Chloe woke up with a bit of ache where her wounds had been and hearing the master bedroom's door shut close pretty roughly. She stirred, her heart beating painfully in her chest knowing the marriage had broken, and looked anxiously at the crib where Sofia rested peacefully. The baby just had no idea of how her world was crumbling. Chloe was pretty certain Nina would figure out very fast Beca loved her, and then kick them out of her house. The cheater was never able to keep the house, judges hate cheaters.
She tried to be quiet as she left her bedroom and walked downstairs, where she found Beca already in her underwear, with a blanket that was almost always over the back of the sofa, over her body, while she lied awake on the sofa. Beca smiled at her when she saw her.
"I was gonna crawl into your bed for a cuddle, I may confess" Beca whispered, and in the slurring of her words and the bottle of whiskey on the coffee table Chloe deduced the brunette was drunk "then I thought Nina would kick my fine ass."
"I assume it went terribly?" Chloe asked, sitting on the sofa and putting Beca's feet on her lap. Beca nodded.
"Yup." Beca said "I told her I would always love her, but I felt like it wasn't the same as when we just got married, that I saw her more as my best friend, and less as my lover, my partner. I assured her I care deeply about her and I think we should just be best friends, that we don't work as well as a married couple, and that she deserved someone who worked better with her, that we just have changed with the years and don't connect as good anymore." Beca explained "She asked me if I had feelings for someone else. If it was you. And I told her I wasn't gonna lie to her. That my feelings for you never went anywhere, just got pushed under what I had for her. She was really angry, but I think she just needs time. She cried a whole of a lot and I went with her on a walk, did my best to reassure her she really is my best friend and I hate causing her so much pain, and that I never want to stop being in hers and Bastian's life, being his mom."
"I see… I think you gave your best work, Becs." Chloe assured "She just needs time. And I need to find another home because she's gonna kick us out." Beca shook her head.
"She won't. Once she calmed down I told her it was always me. That you never tried anything with me, that you had respected boundaries and marriage and Sofia and you aren't to blame. She can't help but hate you a little for being the one I want, but she promised she'd be civil and wouldn't kick you out. That you're still her patient and will treat you with the same care and respect."
"I hope so… thanks for talking that out with her Becs…" she side smiled and squeezed Beca's feet. Beca curved her lips into a bittersweet smile "Now that you mention Sofia… Don't you mind her?" she asked nervously. The whole time they were speaking low so as not to bother anyone.
"Mind? Chlo, I love Sofia." Beca smirked "I really do. And if you don't mind I have a son, then I for sure embrace Sofia in the package. Whatever comes along with you I'm in." Chloe grinned.
"I really want to kiss you right now." Chloe whispered even lower.
"Just give me a few days to sign the divorce papers. As you said, we should do this slower. And properly." Chloe nodded.
"Well, I'm gonna go to bed." Chloe pressed her lips into a tiny smile and stood up, putting Beca's feet back on the sofa.
"Good night beautiful." Beca smiled at her, getting comfortable on the sofa to sleep.
"Good night." Chloe looked at the other woman for a bit, and then leant forward, and pressed her lips to Beca's forehead "Rest." Beca nodded, and Chloe went upstairs.
She opened the door of her bedroom and, as she closed it behind her and walked towards her bed, she smiled. The person she had always wanted, loved, the one that had made her suffer so damn much, still loved her. And not only that, but she wanted her.
In the morning, Chloe told Stacie everything and, ignoring Stacie's expressions of surprise and squeals, got ready for a day that promised to be harsh.
"Just be careful Chloe. Don't let her hurt you again okay?" Stacie said over worried while Chloe gave Sofia her breakfast.
"I know." Chloe nodded nervously. Then, yelling from downstairs made them look up and, the second Sofia was back to sleep in her crib, they ran downstairs.
To their surprise, Beca was sitting on the sofa looking down, Nina sitting on the other sofa, and Bastian was pacing around the living room yelling, presumably, at Beca. They were all in their pajamas and Nina looked like she hadn't slept a thing. Stacie and Chloe stood there.
"…I don't get it mom, are you gonna leave us now? What? Isn't momma enough? You need bigger boobs, ass?" Bastian made a pause to breathe "Or is it just that you are fucking stupid?" Bastian yelled on Beca's face. Beca finally seemed to have enough and got up.
"Bastian, shut that filthy mouth up." Beca said coldly. Bastian, surprised, obeyed "I love your mother. But I feel she's not my one, and I'm not hers, like there's something missing. You're twenty, you may have had your girls, but you know nothing about this, Bastian, and even less about marriage." Beca said simply "And I love you too. Your momma is perfect the way she is, she doesn't need to change a thing and I'm not leaving her because she isn't enough. I'm leaving her because I've realized I see her as my best friend, but not as a lover. And I can't change or explain the way I feel, alright? But it seems unfair to me to stay with her when she could be clicking better with someone else. And I'm still gonna be your mom, your momma and I already sorted that part out, and I'm always gonna love you both and care deeply about this family, alright?"
Bastian, defeated, just sat next to Nina and wrapped an arm around her shoulders lovingly. Beca sighed and knelt in front of Nina, rubbing her knees softly. Chloe pushed Stacie back upstairs to give them some privacy, and she observed quietly from the top of the stairs. Nina was crying on Beca's shoulders and the brunette was whispering words of comfort and hugging her tightly. Chloe felt a knot on her stomach knowing how much it hurt to lose the one you love. And even more if your story was as long as Beca and Nina's was.
They counted half an hour and went back downstairs, to have breakfast. Nina had left to work, Bastian wasn't in the house either, and Beca was alone giving some sips to a coffee mug.
"Hi." Chloe sat next to Beca with her own coffee -Beca had made for everyone- and put an arm around Beca's shoulders. Beca smiled and supported her head on Chloe's shoulders. Stacie sat close.
"Well Mitchell, you should come to Canada too." Stacie joked and Beca giggled softly. Chloe smiled hugging the brunette closer and kissed her forehead.
"Feels like shit doesn't it?" Chloe whispered kindly.
"Kinda." Beca answered "Although they must be feeling ten times worse."
"You know, actually, Stacie's idea isn't that bad." Chloe commented suddenly, looking at Stacie, who raised her eyebrows surprised "I'm tons better, Sofia is alright, I should go back to Canada. London is nice, but not my place, and Nina could sure be thankful about us leaving already. You should come too, Becs. What are you gonna do, stay here? You gotta move out anyway." Beca grimaced a little and sighed.
"Chloe, my job's here." Beca reminded her.
"Come on Becs, you can perfectly well work from home." Stacie said "You send them your jobs, and skype allows online meetings."
Beca seemed to think about it for a while.
"But what about Bastian? British Columbia is hella far away from him…"
"Becs, your son lives in Harvard most of the year, what's the difference? Now he can come travel to Canada every time he feels like it and stays for as long as he wants." Chloe suggested. After a few seconds, Beca nodded.
"Alright. Let's go to frigging Canada." Beca rolled her eyes and smiled.
As days passed by, things at the house got softer and better, and Bastian seemed to have forgiven Beca after one weekend they spent outside, just the two of them, and by the time they came back Bastian was laughing with her again. Nina also seemed slightly more in peace with it, but Chloe still avoided being in the same room than she was alone.
One afternoon Chloe was sitting on the garden grass with Sofia on her lap. Stacie had gone shopping and Chloe had decided Sofia needed some fresh air, and since the garden was so big and so pretty, she decided Sofia would be alright there. The garden had a bunch of trees, flowers, bushes, and also, Chloe's favorite thing, a pond filled with colorful carps.
"Look Sof, it's so big!" Chloe grinned seeing how Sofia squealed and moved her limbs quickly when a carp swam closer to them. She wasn't afraid, Chloe could tell, because she did something like a laugh when it happened "You're getting biggie too." Chloe passed a hand lovingly over the little redheaded hair the baby had, and kissed her face lovingly "We'll be going to Canada soon, so you can meet grandma and grandpa. That would be great, don't you think? Yeah."
"Hi." Chloe turned around and saw Nina nervously coming and sitting next to her. Nina smiled removing with her thumb some saliva that was coming down Sofia's mouth "Enjoying the fishes?"
"Yeah, we love them." Chloe answered "Listen, Nina, I'm sorry. I never meant to come and turn your life upside down, and you've been so good to us…"
"Don't worry Chloe." Nina shrugged "I like you and Sofia. You make this house warmer and less quiet, which I love. And you help with the house tasks. What happened between you and Beca, it's not your fault, or hers even, one can't help the way feelings work, no matter how much our brains want to manipulate them."
"I guess." Chloe reached a hand and squeezed Nina's thigh in an affectionate gesture "I really hope you find someone who really connects with you as well as… well, as I feel Beca and I do. Because it feels amazing. It doesn't matter if you date them or not, like, I connect just as well with my mom, and I can tell having a person with whom you just connect so well in your life is always awesome. Regardless of the type of relationship."
"Yeah, it is…" Nina nodded slowly "When it's like souls had already met before." Chloe nodded "I just want her to be with you. I know it has always been you. What we had was special but what you two had… that's beyond special. And she's always gonna be my best friend and I'll care deeply about her but well… things have to fall back in piece. Talking about that, Beca commented she's planning on moving to Canada with you, once we finish the divorce paperwork." Chloe nodded.
"You know, getting a change of air or something." Chloe commented "I'm from Vancouver, my parents have a ranch there, just an hour from the beach. It's an amazing place. And I was thinking in spending a few years with Sofia there, I don't know how long, but you and Bastian are both invited any time. There's space for everyone."
"Thanks Chloe." Nina nodded and stood up "Well, I gotta get up and meet with my lawyer. Tell Beca to give me a call when she wakes up from her nap will you?"
"Sure." Chloe waved her bye with Sofia's little hand.
After a while Chloe decided to just lay on her back over the grass and take a bit of a sunbathe with Sofia on her belly, and soon she heard steps and saw Beca lie down next to her and make some noises to Sofia's entertainment.
"Hi." Beca whispered staring at Chloe "How are you?"
"Great." Chloe answered sincerely "Nina wants you to call her."
"Yeah, she left a note in the kitchen, I already called." Beca said "So you two spoke?"
"A bit, and everything is cool between us."
"Great." Beca kissed Sofia's head "Aren't you cute little thing?" Chloe smiled looking at them. It was all going to be great. After a few moments, she looked at Chloe again "So I called my dad, he decided he shouldn't come while we're in turbulent waters over here. So when we leave, he'll come and see Bastian and Nina for a few days, and then he and Bastian will come to Vancouver to see us a few days, if that's alright."
"Sure, good plan." Chloe nodded with a tiny smile "Everything will be just fine." Chloe assured, squeezing Beca's thigh with one hand, tenderly.
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