Part Seven
Song Used is Lean On Me by Bill Withers
A/N Thanks for all the reviews. I really appreciate it. To be honest, I thought I had separators in the story already. I guess I accidently got rid of them when I was reformatting. I will try to keep a closer eye on that.
"Quinn," Rachel began turning to look at the blonde.
"Wait, Rachel. I know we need to talk. I really want to. Just give me a minute. I have a lot to say."
Rachel nodded.
Quinn took Rachel's hand in hers. "I know you want to know about the note but I should start at the beginning. Why I tried and everything."
Rachel gulped and gave Quinn's hand a light squeeze.
"I spent years trying to figure out who I was. As I started to realize who I was, I started to realize I'd go to Hell."
"Quinn," Rachel started to tell her that would never happen.
"No, Rach. Please let me finish."
"Okay."
"I realized that I was gay, Rachel. That isn't okay in this family. This strict upbringing. I thought God hated me."
"God doesn't…"
Quinn laughed "You just have to get your words in don't you?"
Rachel just smiled at her. Then she pretended to zip her lips.
"I need to tell you something about being in the coma. I know I am skipping ahead but this is important."
Rachel nodded.
"I met my guardian angel. I know it was her. She said that God is okay with me being gay."
Rachel pulled Quinn into a hug. "Of course He is. He made you that way."
Quinn held on to Rachel. She wasn't even going to comment about Rachel speaking again. As Quinn pulled away from the hug she looked at Rachel. "But I didn't know that when I tried to take my life."
Rachel took a deep breath.
Quinn pulled both of Rachel's hands into her own. "I was afraid, Rachel. Of how my family would react. Of how my friends would react. Of how you would react."
"Me?" Rachel raised her eyebrows. "Quinn, I have two gay dads. Why would I be bothered by it?"
"I tormented you for years Rachel."
Rachel stared at Quinn. She gave Quinn's hands a soft squeeze. There had to be more to that. There was no connection between being gay and tormenting Rachel. Not as far as Rachel could tell.
Quinn let go of Rachel's hands and looked away. "I tormented you because I had feelings for you. I couldn't control how I felt so I thought I could control how I reacted around you." Tears were pouring down her cheeks. "I thought if I was mean to you then…"
Rachel put her hands on the side of Quinn's face and pulled Quinn's face towards her. "Look at me."
Quinn looked at Rachel while Rachel wiped away the tears with her thumbs. "Quinn, I understand why you did it. I do." She pulled Quinn into a close hug.
Quinn held onto Rachel. Her body was shaking from crying. Rachel just kept holding her. "Quinn, I always knew you never hated me."
"I could never hate you."
Quinn rocked back and forth in Rachel's arms. Rachel held Quinn until Quinn stopped crying and her breathing calmed down.
"Do you forgive me?" She asked as she pulled back and looked at Rachel.
"Of course. So is there more you want to tell me?"
"I wanted to die because living hurt. Seeing you with Finn all the time, missing Beth, being gay, not being able to talk about it… It was all too much to bear."
"I am so glad you are going to therapy. Promise me you will come to me if you feel like that again. Please. Promise me. I don't want you to hurt yourself again."
"I promise."
Rachel wanted to tell Quinn she liked her too but she didn't think Quinn would really be ready for that. Friends first. She smiled at Quinn. "So nice choice in movies."
Quinn laughed. "I wanted to ease into my confession."
"Ease? You might as well have hit me with a rainbow painted board that said 'I'm GAY!'"
Quinn laughed. "Shut up!"
"You shut up," Rachel said grabbing a pillow off the couch and smacking Quinn with it. She wanted to take away from the seriousness of the talk. It seemed to work since Quinn tackled her and started tickling her.
"NOT FAIR!" Rachel yelped trying to get away from Quinn.
"Like it was fair for you to blindside me with that pillow?" Quinn arched an eyebrow.
"That was most definitely fair. I was simply trying to…"
"Rachel!"
"What?"
"Shut up!" Quinn said smacking Rachel with a pillow and running away.
"Rach, you are gonna come hang out tomorrow, right?" Quinn asked standing at the door as Rachel got was about to leave.
"Of course, Quinn. You know I am always just a phone call away, right?"
Quinn nodded. Rachel pulled her into a hug. "I'll see you tomorrow Quinn."
Rachel drove home with a smile on her face. Quinn Fabray liked her. That made her absolutely giddy. She was able to hold Quinn. It felt so right. One day she was gonna tell Quinn that the feelings were mutual. Some day. She pulled into the drive way and walked in the house with a smile plastered on her face.
"How were the movies?" Hiriam asked.
"Excellent daddy! We had a great time."
Hiriam smiled at his little girl. "What did you two watch?"
"But I'm A Cheerleader and Imagine Me & You."
Leroy looked at his daughter. "Why those two?'
Rachel shrugged. "Why not? They are great movies."
It was not time to tell her parents about Quinn's confession. Normally Rachel would be posting a myspace video on a Friday night. She wondered if she still should. She logged onto myspace and saw she had a message.
You better still be posting a video.
She laughed as she read the message from Quinn again. She messaged Quinn back.
Okay I'll post a video. This song is especially for you.
She set up her webcam. Her smile was huge as she put on the music and got ready to sing.
Sometimes in our lives
We all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know there is always tomorrow
She was grinning. Now that Quinn was okay. There always would be tomorrow.
Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
She definitely would need someone to lean on and she wanted Quinn to be that person for her. Rachel didn't really have any friends.
Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For noone can fill those of your needs
That you won't show
She was so glad Quinn showed her today what she was feeling.
You just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on
As she sang she thought of Quinn. She thought of how Quinn leaned on her.
Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help carry on
For it won't be long
Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on
You just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on
If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me
You just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on
Call me (If you need a friend)
Call me (Call me)
Call me (if you need a friend)
Call me (if you ever need a friend)
Call me (Call me)
Call me
Call me (if you need a friend)
She posted the video and started going through her emails. Within a couple minutes she had a comment. She clicked it.
That was beautiful, Rach. It was from Quinn.
Rachel smiled. She had a compliment on her myspace from Quinn Fabray. She changed into her pajamas and climbed into bed. Her cell went off. She picked it up and read the text. Thanks. That meant a lot to me.
She sent a text back to Quinn. I'm glad that you liked it. I meant it. You can always lean on me.
Sweet dreams, Rach. See you tomorrow.
Sweet dreams, Quinn. Tomorrow for sure.
