Demi looked at the girl in her arms and pulled her closer. "I would have gladly given up my Grammy if God would have given us our baby back. You have no idea how much it hurt when they told me the news or when I saw the broken look on your face in the hospital Selly," whispered Demi.
"I know," Selena responded quietly.
Demi rushed to Selena's room still dressed in her outfit from the Grammy's with mascara running down her face. She reached Selena's bed and felt her heart break at the broken look on Selena's face. She took Selena's hand in hers, but Selena pulled it back.
"I lost our daughter. I couldn't give you what you wanted the most. You wanted to be a mom and I messed that up," said Selena in a voice barely above a whisper as tears rolled down her face and she looked away from Demi.
Demi shook her head and reached for Selena's hand again. "It wasn't your fault sweetie. These things happen. There was nothing you could have done to prevent it. You did everything right, please don't blame yourself," begged Demi.
Selena refused to look at her. "Did you win?" she questioned not wanting to talk about the baby anymore.
"Yes, I did," whispered Demi. Suddenly, winning a Grammy meant nothing to her. She just needed to make her girl feel better. They had to work together to get over the pain of losing their baby girl.
Selena came out of the hospital a couple of days later and Demi did everything to cater to her every need, but Selena didn't want to talk to anyone. No one could get through to her. In her mind she had failed as a woman. She was unable to give her fiancé a baby. She was worthless and Demi deserved so much better.
She finally decided that the best thing she could do for Demi was leave. Demi needed to find a woman that could give her the baby that she always wanted. She packed her bags and called her mom asking her to pick her up, but refused to give her details. Selena set the bags down and looked at Demi who was coming out of the kitchen with wide eyes as she noticed Selena's bags.
"Are we going on a trip?" questioned Demi trying to ease the tension.
Selena shook her head as tears rolled down her cheeks. "No. I'm leaving Demi. I'm so sorry that I wasn't able to give you a daughter. I saw the replay of the Grammy's. You dedicated the award to our daughter, the daughter that I wasn't able to give you. You'll find someone that you can form a family with Demi. You deserve it. You're the sweetest most kind hearted person I know and you deserve so much more than me," said Selena as she picked the luggage back up and opened the door.
"Sel don't do this. We can get over it. Together we can get through anything. Please don't walk away from me Sel. Don't walk away from us," pleaded Demi tearfully as she watched the love of her life stand at the door to their condo with a luggage in her hand.
"I'm sorry Dem. I do love you, but this is too much. I can't handle it. I'm not what you need. I wish you the best and that you find someone that knows how to put a smile on your face," said Selena as she walked out closing the door behind her.
Demi dropped onto the floor. "You put a smile on my face! You make my life complete! I love you Selena!" she screamed knowing that the brunette had walked out the door for the last time.
"I'm sorry I left Demi. I thought that I was doing the right thing, but I realize now that I was being selfish. I felt so guilty that I didn't stop to consider that I was going to hurt us both more by leaving. There was so many times that I nearly got on a plane to come apologize, to beg you to take me back and give us another chance, but I was scared that you had found someone else. When I heard about your accident I thought that I was too late and I promised God that if he saved you I would spend my life showing you how much I love you," explained Selena.
Demi looked at the love in Selena's eyes and reached over to wipe her tears with the pads of her thumbs. "No one can ever replace you Selena. Losing our daughter was hard, but losing you nearly killed me. It sent me on a downward spiral because I didn't want to live. I didn't have a reason to. Waking up without you by my side was too painful. Countless girls passed through my mattress, but none spent the night. They were just meaningless fucks in an attempt to fill the void that you left. I will always love you," whispered Demi.
Selena looked at her with hope filled eyes. "Can you forgive me? Can you give me another chance? Give us another chance?" asked Selena.
Demi cupped her face and leaned in for a kiss. She was wordlessly telling Selena that she was forgiven. "And I'm sorry about Jenna. I was scared Selly, of how easily we fell back into routine and how right it felt to make love to you. It freaked me out. I was afraid to give my heart to you again and have you walk out on me. I should have never brought her into our home," apologized Demi.
"Our home," whispered Selena resting her forehead against Demi's.
"Yes baby, our home," replied Demi with a smile knowing that they were going to be okay.
Suddenly Selena jumped up and pulled Demi up with her. "Let's go eat before Dallas eats all the spaghetti," she declared pulling Demi towards the door.
Demi's eyes widened. "You left Dallas alone with a pot of spaghetti? I'll order a pizza," said Demi reaching for her cell phone.
They got into the kitchen and Selena's jaw dropped open. Dallas hadn't bothered with plates. She was sitting on the table with the pot of spaghetti in front of her as she happily ate. Her face was covered in tomato sauce and she looked like a big kid. "Dallas Leigh Torres! That was for all of us!" exclaimed Selena with her hands on her hips.
"What! I thought you would be too busy eating my sister to care," replied Dallas with her mouth full.
Demi glared at her as she ordered the pizza for Selena and her. "For your information, Selly and I were talking," said Demi as she walked behind Selena and wrapped her arms around her waist.
Dallas grinned at them. "I take it that you two worked everything out. About time. Now Demi and you can move back to your house and I can have a bachelorette pad," said Dallas before she went back to her spaghetti.
Selena turned her head and looked at Demi questioningly. She had assumed that Demi had sold their old condo.
Demi shook her head no and kissed Selena's cheek. "I couldn't sell it. It held too many memories of our life together and a part of me hoped that you would come back," explained Demi.
Selena turned in her arms and captured her lips in a heated kiss.
"Get a room! Better yet go to your own house!" yelled Dallas although she was smiling. She loved seeing her sister so happy and something told her that Selena wasn't going anywhere this time.
Demi flipped her off without pulling away from Selena, but finally the doorbell announcing the pizza's arrival made them pull apart.
Demi paid for the pizza and walked into the kitchen to grab a couple cokes. "Come on Selly. Let's go to our room and watch a movie. Dallas can stay here with her beloved spaghetti," said Demi sticking her tongue out at her older sister who was too busy with her food to care.
"Keep it down tonight. I don't need to hear Selena moaning my sister's name!" called out Dallas as the door closed.
Demi was about to open it to go beat the crap out of her, but Selena pulled her in for a kiss. Killing Dallas could wait decided Demi as she set the pizza down and wrapped her arms around Selena.
