Peter still thought negative on starting this new ministry, even though it might take a while for the new ministry to grow. He's still praying to God about it, but still doesn't understand where this is coming from. Of course Jesus kept telling Peter not to give up and start thinking positive, and he would be there with Peter from the first day. He wasn't so sure about that now.
Yes, he's still reading the Bible. He doesn't even know how start writing his messages to this new ministry. Of course he knew once more that God only knows this and none of us do. And God has plans for Peter, but all he has to do is figure it out until the door is ready to open when His timing is right.
What Peter wanted to do is try to get ideas on what location would be good to start this ministry. He still prefers being the follower and not the leader. He'd have to get used to the other way around, and that would take time. How much time? Peter didn't have any answers to that thought.
It's not yet quite time to have another talk with Jesus. He's probably doing something else right now, he told himself. If he doesn't talk with Jesus again today, it's okay.
Instead, he ended up opening the Bible he had in front of him. He flipped it over to Matthew once more. When he talked with God at the beginning, he did start off with Matthew, and now it was time to go back to it. Here's what he's reading now:
The people dwelling in darkness
Have seen a great light,
And for those dwelling in the region and
Shadow of death,
On them a light has dawned.
Again Peter still was starting to think on this Scripture he just read. Like Peter just remembered when he talked with God earlier, He has plans for all of us, whether we believe in Him or not. What sort of plan does God have for his ministry? He wasn't so sure how to get ideas, and he isn't worrying about that right now.
Yes, there are people all over the world who are in darkness right now and are doing their best to find the light they need.
Peter has kept praying for these people who are living in darkness and would want to see light in their lives like we are. For those who don't believe, Peter told himself, they need to get out more often and figure out what's going on and start believing and find God.
At this moment, there was light in Peter's house. He's always had light in his whole lifetime. Now he had a question that popped up:
For those who are in heaven, is there light in the afterlife? Of course we know that there is never light if you receive hell when you die or choose to have light when your time is come.
Peter had a good question there, but he wasn't so sure if he believed about having light in Heaven. Probably is because it's for people who have followed God from the time they were born.
This was a question Peter would bring up once he runs into Jesus again. Maybe he could try to find him now, so he left his house and started to look for Jesus.
As usual, Peter was able to figure out where Jesus is. This time he found Jesus Christ hanging out at a lake, talking with some woman. About what? Maybe what he and Jesus had been talking about recently? He had a good guess, but it wasn't any of his business to find out. It's not his conversation, he knew.
He joined them both and stood not too far away from them. He wasn't far away to catch a little bit of the conversation, but not every word. He did ask himself what they were talking about. Again, he knew it wasn't his business to find out unless Jesus brings it up without him asking.
Jesus hadn't yet saw that Peter wasn't very far away to wait his turn to talk. He's just letting Jesus and this woman take their time on conversation.
Peter didn't bother guessing the conversation that was going on now was about his conversation with Jesus about having light in this new ministry that God has planned for him. Or they could just be talking about something else. He liked that thought better.
Peter walked away for a while so he could pray to God. He remembered that last time he did that, Jesus was not very far to hear his prayer. It could happen again this time, but he didn't seem to care either way. This probably was a good idea so Jesus would give him an idea or two.
So he got on his knees and began to pray.
"Father in Heaven, please hurry up and open this door so You can help me start this ministry that You have chosen for me to begin. I still do not know what Your plans are, but I am still having trouble thinking positive on this whole thing.
I don't know if Your Son Christ Jesus has been talking with You on the same subject as I am or not, but You can let Him tell me and share ideas with me. That would be helpful.
Whatever You have planned, I will do my very best to figure it out and follow what You want me to do. I don't even know the first message that You want me to preach to the people You have chosen to follow me.
I do understand it takes time for You to make that sort of decision when You want somebody like me to start this ministry and figure it out. Please keep staying by my side and help me figure out how to open this door You're planning on.
Some of us aren't very good at being patient. I'm one of them I know. Right now, I believe I am listening to the Devil on the negative thoughts and not listening about the good thoughts like You want me to. Please help me stop thinking negative whenever I try to do something in order to be continuing to be Your disciple in the future. In Your Name, Amen."
When he closed the prayer, he felt a sneeze coming. To him, it looked like Jesus was starting to join him. That did catch Jesus's attention because of the sneeze, and that told him Peter wasn't very far away.
"Bless you, Peter."
"Thank you. I don't think I need to blow my nose or anything, if that's what You're trying to do."
"No, I'm not. I didn't know you were out here this morning. What made you think that you wanted to talk with me again that made you look for me?"
"Well, I was reading some Scripture a while ago, and it made me think and ask that question to You and see what Your thoughts are," Peter answered.
"What's the question?" Jesus asked him.
"My question is for us who will be going to Heaven when our time comes, does that mean there will be light when we go to Heaven?"
"That is a very good question, Peter. Of course there is light in the afterlife, I would like to believe since we are God's followers. Does that make sense to you?"
"I think so. I just finished praying not too long ago."
"That's good to hear. That's all we can do is talk to God, right?"
"Yes, but I'm still having trouble to stop think negative and go with the positive."
"I'll continue to help you improve on that," Jesus told his disciple.
"Thank You and I know that You will be with me from now on."
"That's good. Are there any other questions that you have for me that made you come to me?"
"I can't think of anything right now, but if I ever do, I will look for you. This was the only question that popped in my mind at the minute. That's why I thought when reading the Scripture," Peter answered.
All right. I'm going to leave you now and I feel there is somebody else who wants to talk with me now. Sorry to make the conversation short."
"That's okay. I know what to do when I have more questions for You."
Then they both went their separate ways.
Peter prayed silently about this new ministry God has chosen for him not to make any mistakes once this door opens. He hoped this would happen shortly.
