I've been having a real hard time lately and writing this story and reading all your reviews and feedback has been an amazing help so please, please take a minute and leave your feedback and/or suggestions. I hope you all are enjoying the story so far, I went quite a bit awayfrom the show in some parts to explore Alison a bit more, she is a fascinating enigma.

Alison called Shana to get an update on the girls, that's how she found out about Spencer being admitted to Radley. Shana told her about the welcome home party that was being held at the Lodge at Thornhill. Something didn't feel right about this, why not have, the party at Spencer's in the barn. Alison grabbed her red trench coat that she normal wears when she's in Rosewood and leaves the warehouse for Thornhill.

As she's making her way up the path to the lodge she can smell smoke. She takes off running toward the source. As she comes up over the hill she sees the lodge is completely engulfed in flames. This can't be happening?! How is she going to get everyone out on her own?

She hears a familiar voice from somewhere behind her, "Ali!" Thank god it's Shana!

"You've got help me get the girls out!" Alison begs tears threatening to spill. She has to stay calm.

"Let's get in there then," Shana yells as she pushes her way in through one of the side doors. Almost immediately they are surrounded by smoke.

I have to find Emily, I can't lose her. Alison is frantically trying to find Emily but before she can find her she sees Shana carrying her out in a fireman's hold. "Thank you so much Shana."

Shana knew how much Emily meant to Alison so she just smiled at her and said "grab Mona she's right beside my leg.

Alison knew she was nowhere near as strong as Shana so she grabbed Mona by the ankles and drug her out of the burning building as quickly as possible. She knew Aria and Hanna were still in there, she saw them both as she was pulling Mona out.

As she got closer to where Shana had set Emily down, she saw Shana headed back in. "I'll grab Aria if you can get Hanna!"

"What about Spencer?" Alison yelled out to Shana, she hadn't seen her anywhere in the Lodge.

"Last I saw her she was in the woods with Toby!" She yelled before running back in.

After Alison got Mona situated she headed back toward the lodge to retrieve Hanna. Shana came out holding Aria like a rag doll. "I'll set her with the others; I should take off before they come to. Will you be ok?"

"I got this Shana, thanks again. You are a good friend." Alison saw guilt or something flash behind her eyes. She shook it off; she needed to get Hanna out before it was too late.

As she laid Hanna down next to Aria she leaned over her to see if she was still breathing. Hanna's eyes fluttered open and looked directly at Alison's before they closed once more. It was time for her to leave before one of the girls saw her when they were completely awake. She turned and headed toward the woods chancing one more look behind her as she saw the four girls coming to. Once she saw Emily was sitting up and talking she ran off into the night.

The next time Alison talk to Shana, Shana told her that someone named CeCe had been asking her a lot of questions about her.

"CeCe Drake?" Alison asks Shana. She missed CeCe desperately; she had become incredible close to CeCe during the summer they spent together in Cape May. They had shared so many childhood memories and so many secrets that summer. They also caused a lot of trouble that summer as well.

"Yeah that's her name, how does she know that I knew you?" Shana asks with worry lacing her voice.

"Remember that summer I spent with my family in Cape May? We got really close and I told her about the summers we spent in Georgia and all the trouble we got in." Alison said with a hint of laughter in her voice. She had a smile flash across her face for a brief minute thinking about simpler times.

"Tell her I want to see her." Alison decided she could use another friend as Noel had been MIA as of late.

"OMG Ali!" CeCe runs into the little crappy dinner they agreed to meet at and grabs Alison in a huge bear hug.

"CeCe…can't…breathe…" Alison gasps out. CeCe lets Ali go with a tear in her eyes.

"It's so good to see you CeCe; I've missed you so much."

"This whole lifestyle on the lamb thing looks good on you Ali!" CeCe says looking Alison up and down. "Love the dark wig and red trench, you're really working it!" Leave it to CeCe to find the silver lining.

"So how are you doing girlfriend? I've missed you so much, when I found out you were alive…" CeCe takes a shuddering breathes, "It was like a miracle."

It felt like old times, to Alison, being there with CeCe and catching up. Alison missed being able to just be herself and not be constantly on guard. Before CeCe left she gave Alison her number and told her, "Call me if you ever need anything or just need to talk sweetie, love you Ali."

"Love you to CeCe!" Alison said giving her one last hug before leaving the dinner. CeCe had always felt like a big sister to her, and with Jason never really being there she filled that void for her.

Over the next few weeks Alison meets with CeCe a few more times at the dinner.

"So what's up with Americano, I thought she was in love with you? I mean she practically worshipped the ground you walked on!" CeCe seemed extremely irritated about Emily.

"What are you talking about? Is Em okay?" Alison asks feeling a lead weight settle into her stomach.

"I saw her getting all close and personal with pigskin! Can you believe that?! I thought you scared that bitch off!" Alison flinched at the horrible nickname she'd given Paige coming out of CeCe's mouth.

Emily was still with Paige; her heart was breaking all over again.

CeCe saw the change in Ali's demeanor, "are you okay Ali?"

Alison tried to shake it off and gave a weak smile, "yeah, I'm fine."

CeCe could tell there was more to it, "Ali sweetie, I know you better than that. You know you can tell me anything."

Alison took a deep breath, she had to talk to someone these feelings were eating her alive. CeCe had been there for her through so much. "It's just…I've been having these strange feelings…." CeCe was focusing all of her attention on Ali with a hint of concern on her face.

"Go on Ali." CeCe tells her with no judgment just curiosity covering her features.

"Well… I have these…um... these feelings for Emily that I don't quite understand?" Alison starts out stuttering over her words and then spills the rest coming out in one long word.

"Ali do you love Americano?" CeCe asks with love in her voice. Alison was expecting her to look at her like she was damaged or revolting.

"I like guys CeCe, I'm Alison fucking DiLaurentis I don't LOVE." Alison was desperately trying to build her walls back up. "You've been around my family, we don't do love, we do fear!"

"I don't even know what love would feel like?"

If it felt like falling into the abyss like she feels when she's without Emily, then maybe. No stop that Alison now you're just being a stupid child. She heard in her mother's voice.

CeCe grabs Alison's hand from across the table. "Ali if you do love Emily it's ok. You will always have my support. CeCe flash her, a genuine smile that causes a slight dimple under her left eye.

"Thank you CeCe." Alison says as she gets up from the table and pulls CeCe in for a hug before leaving the dinner. "Love you CeCe!"

"Love you too Ali!" CeCe says with a smile and a small tear in her eye.

It felt good to talk to CeCe about Emily; it felt like a weight was off her chest. If CeCe didn't freak out by her revelation about her mixed up feelings for Em then maybe she could sort through her feelings without so much fear of the unknown.