They didn't say much to eachother on the way back to his apartment, but Devan supposed that was for the best. Most likely, if what he thought was going to happen was going to...well, happen, he didn't want the driver of this poor cab to be a witness to his humiliation, or worse.
He could feel Collins's eyes boring holes in the back of his head, arm still wrapped possessively around him in a vice grip so he couldn't go anywhere as he watched Vancouver's sights go by slowly, much to his nervousness.
When the cab finally pulled up outside of Devan's apartment block, honestly, he couldn't get out of that cab fast enough (with a little bit of difficulty as was normal nowadays), seeing Collins pull money out of the corner of his eye before he could attempt to make a grab at his own wallet.
He didn't know whether the red staining that suddenly appeared on his cheeks was from the embarrassment and strain of failing like a turtle to get out of the cab or anger at Collins being there in the first place.
Shivering, he started to make his way towards the block when he felt Collins stop him, only for Collins to press his warm body against him, Devan giving in instastly despite the flip flopping of his heart in his chest as they made their way upstairs to the fourth floor.
Closing the door behind them was just the start, he knew that for certain. It was like the last call at a bar, the curtain falling on a stage. An action. The ending of one thing and beginning of another.
Leaning up against the door, head pressed against the old splintered wood and hunched back turned away from his older brother, Devan sighed, voice emotional as he finally spoke.
"So, get it over with. Say what you want to say. I know you're dying to take a swing." Silence. Then movement.
In a rush, Collins had Devan pinned against one of the many cracked walls, angry tears falling down his face, but instead of abusing him or worse, hitting him, Collins /crushed/ his lips against his younger brother, leaving him breathless.
"Collins, what the fu-" Unfortunately, Devan couldn't get a word in edgewise, all of them being swallowed up by Collins's mouth as it furiously sucked on his. Eventually (and only after Devan was starting to give in), Collins released him, leaving the young boy to lean against the wall, knees weak and chest working overtime, eyes raw. "Collins, what the hell?"
"I missed you so much." Collin's whisper almost made Devan jump as his face was cupped, Collin's hands shaking along with his body. "What-Why, Devan? We could have sorted this out! We could have done something. Worked together. We've always worked together."
"I'm sorry Col, I just-" Devan sniffled, emotions of course, starting to get the better of him. "I'm sorry, I just couldn't...no one would understand, Col. Or will. Mom and Dad won't. The world won't. I just...couldn't let something bad happen because of me."
"Devie, darling…" His pet name made him shiver as it rolled off of Collins's tongue like honey, whispered and delicate. "You still didn't need to run away. We could have figured something out. We were heartbroken when we couldn't find you and now to find you here, like this…"
"Looks bad doesn't it?" Devan had to put in with a sad smile.
"No, Devan, you're perfect." Collins murmured in reassurance. "It's just a bit of a shock to me is all. Didn't expect to see you today either, at the show. Thought I saw things till I saw security hightailing it after you. All of you."
His hands drifted from Devan's face to the bump, pulling him close as his eyes lit up in wonder and awe like his magic caused yother people to do, crading the large mass in his hands and shaking his head. "Wow, Devan….look what we made."
That sentence made the dam that had been filling up inside Devan burst, making him upset and causing tears to trickle down his cheeks as he cried, only to be soaked up by Collin's suit as he folded around him, holding him tightly again in the middle of the room, face buried in his hair and trying to comfort him.
"It's alright Devan, it's alright, I promise. I'll fix this, I promise. I promise you."
