This entire 'part' is from Mikasa's POV. GASP. I will not sit here and assume that I know what these characters are capable of, and that I know them inside and out, because I don't. I doubt anyone really does considering so little is shown about them. All of this is best guessif anything, and my realistic point of view on how they can actually be if they were undergoing these situations. But I will say that I do understand what they are going through because I have been a victim of it in the past. However, I will not state which parts. I also mention before that I'm finally starting to shed light on the subject that I had planned on writing about but fail to do so because I ended up typing so many pages. I can't just get into the subject, it needs to have a proper buildup of justification for it. Much like P5 and P6, it's really twists my insides to write such things about them. Getting into that mind-frame is difficult. It's not an easy walk in the park for me. And I will admit that I even upset me halfway that I honestly had to stop several times much like before. But I do it because I'm an idiot. A determine idiot for no reason. Okay, so maybe I'm just fascinated about the turn of events that I'm curious to see how far I can go with it. Like, seriously who would had thought...
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Mikasa's body starts to shiver, she is getting cold just by laying there on the floor staring at the ceiling like Annie was earlier. Wondering just what she could had been staring at. Answers perhaps. She didn't bother to get up. Not yet. She honestly believes she very much needs to be there, on the floor, on the dirt, because she honestly feels like it; dirt. Mikasa must have honestly given that ceiling her entire attention for a good 5 minutes, and she was nowhere near any answers. The crack on it wasn't helping matters. It was just a reminder of how she feels inside. Broken.Her chest was aching. She closes her eyes for a moment and allows herself to be consume by sadness. The emptiness of it all.

You'll catch a cold.Eren would say. If only if it wasn't for that tone he'd use, she would honestly let those words bounce off her. The type of tone that seem irritated to be taking care of you, that you should know better. The tone that was spiteful with concern masked behind it. Because Mikasa knew that if she were to get sick, Carla wouldn't forgive Eren; and that was the source of his tone, she was his bother person. Like Annie was now hers.

If only it didn't hurt me so.

And she even wondered once deeply if he would be happier with her gone. Life just seem to lose all its meaning. Would Annie be happier if I was just gone? Once more, her heartache worsen. She shakes her head at thatquickly it is just too sad of a thought. It's as dire as the situation outside. Bleak. She just honestly doesn't care about anything at this point. And she wouldn't mind if a Titan attacks right now—and it wasn't because she wants to die, but because that was something she can handle. That is something she is naturally good at. And she knows she will be needed then. But the only thing Mikasa really wants right now was for Annie to need her. To wanther just as badly as her heart wants her.

Annie's body heat vanishes. She is no longer here. Her scent even faded and Mikasa can no longer smell it. On cue, she licks her lips slowly. Just what am I doing?Mikasa knows what she is doing, but it didn't change the fact that she would asked herself that. It is her last desperate attempt to capture anything leftof the blond girl that was with her moments earlier. Her eyes jolted not expecting to still be able to taste her.

The last bit surprised her, she is not expecting to find anything but is very much hopeful that she would—no I needed to find trace of her still—needed like an old man needs a second chance of life on his death bed. Just needed.She quickly makes another face as she fails to realize how this has affect her. Fuck.Devastation overwhelms her. God, I really am stupid. Why would I do that to myself? Her body shiverit is kind enough to snap her mind into focus by sending her another reminder. Using her elbows she rises up and finally turns on her side and rubs her eyes with her free hand.

Gravity is not her friend. She feels heavy and pauses as she looks down on the ground.

'Don't ever say something so cruel!' was the last thing Mikasa said to Annie. It is now echoing in her ears. Irony. At its finest.Because that's what it was. Mikasa couldn't say anything. 'Don't ever speak again', those words cross her mind and she made it her top priority to not forgetit, remembering it allows her to recollect the bittersweet memories of Annie's soft lips had placed on her moments ago, she had been confused by it all, but grateful nonetheless; she can still feel them. That was Annie's kindness. Perhaps.Mikasa just neededto believe that she can even if she didn't anymore.

Delusional. Also at its finest.

'Don't ever speak again.'Once more it echo in her mind as she stands up. Once more Mikasa reminds herself of how broken she feels inside. There is not enough ropes in the entire area to tie her back up. She's badly hurt. Still under the impression that Annie must really hate her to be that cruel to her. Mean perhaps.

But I deserved it. I'm certain. But why did she kissed me like that? To torture me long enough to be reminded of what I can't have? Or was it so she can just whisper those words to me? No. If she wanted to, she could had just whisper it without kissing me—or maybe—

Mikasa has to seriously stop. In the most literal sense as her feet stop moving forward. The only thing she is accomplishing is a massive headache and her heart was racing rapidly as a result.

—maybe she really likes me.These bittersweet words suddenly coming from within and Mikasa allows herself to think that foolish thought just for a seconda small second of a whisper inside her head letting herself be sohopeful that it builds inside so fast that it burst into her eyes rendering herself to tears. Mikasa is at a loss. Her legs are shaking and she starts rubbing her eyes frantically confuse as can be crying once more, but she is certain of one thingjust how much she deeply hates this.

It has taken her a good 10 minutes to gather herself to a presentable state to finally exit the room. She knows her eyes are red. She has to make sure to leave no traces of any more tears down her cheeks, and is grateful that the sun was setting so no one could notice anything really off her. Not like anyone would ask.Mikasa isn't the most approachable person in the league. She is under the impression that many are intimidated by her to justwalk up to her for a quick chat.

Chat?Mikasa finds that hilarious. She was never a good conversationalist to ever be up for a chat. Words aren't my thing.And she is reminded that that was perhaps what got her into this predicament in the first place. Maybe if I had said how much I like her, maybe then it wouldn't had been so awful. Right?Mikasa finds that she had no acceptable answer to that. Her chest is still aching, and she knows that she was best to adapt to it, because it wasn't going to leave her side anytime soon. This is how you'll learn your lessons. This is how you'll become an adult and stop being so foolish. You can't do 'adult' things and render yourself a child and cry when it doesn't go your way.

Mikasa things angrily at herself. Interestingly enough, she feels like she is playing the older sister role to herself. Words of wisdom. Words she probably could have save for Eren if he needed them. But I need them.What Mikasa understands from her inner monologue, is that she has to do something. Anything. It doesn't matter if it is the wrong thing, cause right now she honestly has no clue on what that entitles, she just needs to get a reaction from Annie. Anything to let her know that she is still here.

Searching for you. But that something is out of her reach, she starts to feel uncomfortable, and it's starting to nerve her as she realizes that making her way back to the dorms is actually taking forever. This can't be normal.She finally comes to that conclusion as she starts to see the effects it's having on her; she still can't decide if thinking about Annie is the cause of it. She picks up the pace and allows herself to ignore anyone around hernot wishing to be stop. She really can't put her finger on it, and now her temperature was rising from within. There are 2 trainees that notice that something is wrong, and Mikasa ignores their whispers on that matter. It's none of their business! Mikasa's pace quickens. She feels her body start pulsating. She really can't figure out why. She knows that she ate something earlier. But that can't be it.

Still with no answers, not even close, her condition takes a turn for the worst. And the last thing she wants is to do is draw attention to herself that getting to a secluded area is a most. At this point running to make her way into a smaller empty path between two buildings nearby just getting out of view. Her footing quickly becoming rash as she comes to a sudden stop feeling dizzy all over. Panting at this point, trying her best to find a resolve for this. Still, it's not any better and she knows something is seriously wrong. Inside she feels a burning sensation, and it's making it way upwards to her entire bodygradually intensifying it around her neck.

And for a minute she wants to scream out his name, so he can come and safe her. That maybe he'll know what to do. Suddenly Mikasa is enrage with such anger inside recollecting earlier events that made Annie snap. She's now snapping.She starts to hate herself, this was the lowest of the low. This is not the time to be thinking such stupid childish things! Am I being punish for being stupid? Is this my crime for falling in love?

Mikasa starts panicking more than ever as her eyes fill up with tears and believes that she's going to die. Just flat out collapse on the floor leaving a lifeless body behind. Right now. Away from it all. Away from anyone that matters to her. Her heart starts beating furiously as she starts burning inside. Her throat starts aching, she's starts gasping for air, she feels completely out of control, and suddenly a cold sweat covers her, her chest pounding louder and louder. Pulsating in her ears. Her hands begin shaking as they struggle to remove her scarf completely. How many layers? How many? Just how many?!Her mind is panicking, she can barely focus on a simple task. Out of frustration she violently rips it apart yanking it off her neck letting out a cry.

She quickly collapses on the floor hitting it with her knees as she's struggling to gasp for air feeling an incredible cold sweat consume her. She was hunch over, her entire body was shaking, both hands on the ground gripping on to her scarf. Never in her life did Mikasa ever believed for one minute that her heart will harden at the sight of her scarf. For the first time ever, she seriously felt like she was choking with it. What in God graces was I thinking wrapping it around that many times!?She questions angrily as her neck throbs profusely.

Mikasa fails to realize that she has just experience a severepanic attack. And it's something she isn't going to soon forget. Her shaking body will be wise to remind her of that.

You're ignorance led you to believe that you were about to die and you didn't wish to make him part of that experience—for him to not die with you. Had you wanted to you could had. So why did you removed the scarf Mikasa? Why did you?

Mikasa turns her attention up to the sky inhaling as much air as possible sitting on her legs, failing to notice that she is very much doing what Annie has done before her. Only there is no ceiling. No cracks to remind you of terrible present things, no limitations but the deep blue sky. And for a moment there, Mikasa's sadness reaches its peak.

Yes. Why did I?She questions softly to herself.

Nothing in her life is making any sense. Eren is a subject she can always make sense of, and the fact that she has no acceptable answer for that is extremely troubling to the point that her entire focus is now shifted. Her mind is seriously somewhere it has never venture before, and as much as she doesn't wish it to linger there above all places, it must in order to move on. To find answers.

If you can't even answer the basic things, what can you say about your life? How can you define that anymore?Her void inside is just getting depressingly bigger.

How can I expect to understand Annie, if I can't even understand myself? Yet I demand something that I don't even fully comprehend.

'You expect me to give myself fully to you but you won't to me?'That is what she said. Crying nonetheless. But she said it. Annie was ready to give me her all. No—allowing me—to take it all. And I go and do something so stupid out of sheer vanity to be protected. I can't even give Annie anything since I don't understand it. I really am a coward.

Mikasa smiles softly still staring at the sky, allowing all of her mistakes overwhelm her. The error of her ways. Even if they make her heart ache, her throat swelling up in pain, she knows that this is how you learn from your stupid mistakes. It's how you stop being a coward. You face them all and let them sink in.

Once again:This is how you'll learn your lessons. This is how you'll become an adult and stop being so foolish. You can't do 'adult' things and render yourself a child and cry when it doesn't go your way. Because stupid girls get punish.