A/n: I'm so sorry its been awhile since I have updated. Between helping my friend with her wedding, grad school, work, and interviews for internships RL is taking all of my time. I did make the chapter long though to make up for making you wait :) I have a question for you guys. A couple of reviewers asked me if there was a possibility that I could write an EPOV of the last chapter or an EPOV in general. Are either something anyone else would be interested in? If there is interest in a EPOV I will definitely do it! Also please leave me some love if/when you have a chance. I love reading all of your comments and feedback :) And as always thanks for all who have reviewed/followed/favorited my story! Now on with the flashback :)
Song inspiration for this chapter: "In my head I see you all over me. In my head you'll fulfill my fantasies. In my head, your screaming more. In my head, its going down in my head"- Jason Derulo, In My Head.
Seattle, Washington
June 2009
BPOV
Standing in my room I fall back onto my bed looking up at the ceiling. I cannot believe I graduated from high school last week. And soon Alice and I would pack up all of our stuff and head to UDUB together. What a crazy last year of school it has been. Especially since meeting Edward six months ago. I sigh. I have to admit that when I met him I was intrigued. He was undeniably gorgeous. Even I could admit that. With his wild sex hair, green eyes, well defined jaw and scruff. And he knew exactly what to say, and what to do to make all of the girls fall for him. But that wasn't the only thing that drew me to him. There was this undeniable pull that I felt towards him since the moment we met at the coffee shop. Telling me that I shouldn't let this one go. And when he first touched me? God I felt like my whole body had been on fire. The heat and the chemistry that I felt between us was something I had never felt before. There was an electrical current that I felt throughout my body. That had to mean something right? But then he just left. Left with barely an explanation. And I was confused. And I could admit, I was a little hurt. Was the connection, the pull I felt towards him one-sided? Did he lose interest because I was playing hard to get, and he knew there were other girls that didn't take as much work? But this is what he did right? This was the kind of guy he was and the way he acted with every girl. I'm sure this was a part of his game. Leaving them wanting more. I had been played. And I had no one else to blame but myself. Because this was clearly the kind of guy he was. And I was ashamed to admit that I wasn't sure whether I was angry with him for all of these games or if it had made me even more intrigued. Because in high school it had been too easy. Guys in high school did not have game. But this guy was older. And he knew exactly what he was doing. I felt every bit the 17-year old girl that I was. I sigh and let my mind drift back to the first time I saw him again after the coffee shop.
I sigh running my hands up and down my dress as I look up at the door of Eclipse, the restaurant I was about to go interview at for my first real job. I was nervous. Despite my confident demeanor in most situations, interviews made me nervous as hell. Probably because it was a lot of pressure. And I had a lot riding on this. I needed this job in order to pay for college. My dad worked as the chief of police and barely made enough to make ends meet. And I barely spoke to my mom so she was out as well. I closed my eyes and let out a deep breath. I can do this; I think to myself. I open my eyes and open the door to the restaurant. Looking around my eyes zero in on a familiar head of bronze hair. My mouth opens in shock when I realize it was the guy who I can grudgingly admit has starred in many of my dreams since I first met him. Edward. There he was leaning on the bar chatting with some busty blonde women, looking just as beautiful as I remembered. He must have seen me walk in because a few seconds after staring at him his head snap up and his eyes look straight into mine. And right then I felt that rush of heat that I felt every time he stared at me. After a moment his stare turned into a crooked grin and my heart stopped for a moment. Damn how could he effect me this much after only just meeting him a week ago? Every time he looked at me I felt this undeniable pull towards him. My body telling me that I needed to be closer to him. I started wondering if this feeling was one sided. Because despite my young age I wasn't stupid. I knew just from the 10-minute conversation that we had that he was a player. And meeting and hitting on girls in coffee shops was probably a regular occurrence for him. Nothing note worthy. So I wasn't going to let myself fall for him. And I definitely wasn't going to let him play games with me. Finally pulling myself from my thoughts I glare at him. Because I then realized that he looked at my application at the coffee shop and knew I was applying to work here. Is that why he just left in the middle of our conversation? Maybe he was just as effected by me as I was by him. The blonde beside him finally notices that Edward isn't focusing on their conversation anymore and looks over to see what he is staring at. When she finally sees me her eyes look me up and down scrutinizing me. Whatever she sees must come up short, or maybe she notices how young I look, because she turns around and starts a heated conversation with Edward. Realizing that I am being talked about I head towards them glaring at Edward the entire way. When I reach them they cut their conversation off and they look over at me.
"Bella." Edward says smiling at me with that crooked smile. I glare at him because I realize that he probably found out my name through his boss.
"You fucking cheat." I say trying not to smile.
He puts his hand on his chest like he is wounded. But continues smiling at me.
"I'm hurt, beautiful that you would think so little of me. But when I want something I do everything I can to get it." He says smirking at me.
I roll my eyes. "Despite your cocky attitude and your obvious charm there will be no "getting me." I say using air quotes to emphasize my point. "So give it up Edward, because I am never going to want you," I say with a satisfied smirk.
I see a flash of hurt on his face, and I can't help but start to feel guilty for what I said. Before he can respond though I hear a throat clear and I look over at the blonde next to us. Damn I forgot she was there; I think to myself. She is looking between us with her eyebrows raised probably trying to figure out what was going on.
"I'm Rosalie. Let's go into my office and get this interview over with. Edward quit flirting with the poor girl, and get back to work," she snaps and then starts walking towards her office quickly not even bothering to look back to make sure I am coming. Damn I must have pissed her off, I think to myself. And I really needed this job. Just as I open my mouth to apologize she turns around and glares at me.
"Are you and Edward fucking?" She asks me in a biting tone. My mouth opens in shock. The nerve of this girl. I did need a job but I was not willing to bite my tongue while this girl who doesn't even know me judges my character like this. Just as I am about to open my mouth to respond she continues on. "Look Edward was trying pretty fucking hard to convince me that you should be hired. And he only does things like that for his own benefit. So again are you fucking?" She asks continuing to glare at me.
"Not that it is any of your fucking business but no we aren't fucking," I spat out. "Despite my age I am not stupid. I am not like those other women and I definitely will not allow myself to be treated that way by him. Or by you for that matter. Thanks for the interview but I don't think I want to work for someone who doesn't even know me and can question my character like this," I say angrily standing up. I am walking towards the door ready to give Edward a piece of my mind for ruining this for me when I hear Rosalie calling me.
"Wait Bella." She sighs. "Listen I'm sorry. Please sit down." When I finally do she continues. "It's just that the last thing I want is to hire you just to have you quit in couple of months because Edward has broken your heart. Because that is what he does. Believe me this has happened before."
I wince when I realize my thoughts about him being a player when we first met were accurate.
"You seem like a nice girl so I'm going to give you a piece of advice. I love Edward. He is practically like a brother to me. But he is dangerously sexy. And he will break your heart if you let him. So don't fall for him. And don't give in to him. Because you seem like a relationship type of girl. And Edward will never be that kind of guy."
I'm not sure whether I should be upset that she thinks I am weak, or flattered that she is looking out for me. Despite this I hate when people think that they need to take care of me and look out for me. With my dad being gone all of the time for work, and going on long fishing trips, and my mom not being in the picture, I have had to take care of myself from a young age. So I would never be ok with anyone thinking I am too young to take care of myself.
"Look," I sigh, "I appreciate your concern. But I can handle Edward myself. And trust me when I say that nothing will ever happen between me and Edward. Trust me I have known enough guys like Edward, and I am immune to their charms." I get up out of my chair thinking I have blown my chances of getting this job.
"Wait Bella!" She says stopping me in my tracks. When I turn around she continues. "I like you Bella. And my initial thought of you being another member of Edward's airheaded harem seemed to be wrong. Plus, no one has ever stood up to me before. A lot of girls seem to be scared of me," she smirks.
"Can't imagine why," I mutter to myself, and she smiles in return.
"Your "I'm not going to take anyone's shit" attitude reminds me a lot of myself. And I like that. So I am going to hire you. But don't make me regret it." She says returning to her harsh business like tone.
I look at her in shock. I never expected to be hired after cussing at her, and telling her off.
"Wow thank you. I promise you won't regret it."
"I better not." She says filing away my resume and shuffling paperwork as she is talking to me. Thinking she is done I start heading for the door.
"One more thing. Report back here tomorrow at 8am sharp. Don't be late. Oh and you will be trained by Edward." Then she looks back down at her paperwork and flicks her wrist dismissing me. I open and close my mouth indecisively. Wanting to argue but also not wanting to lose my job already. I knew I was already on thin ice from talking back to her earlier. When she notices that I am still standing there she looks up raising her eyebrows at me questioning why I am still there.
"It's just that I thought you said you didn't want anything to happen between us but your kind of throwing us together. Wouldn't it be better if we stayed away from each other?" I ask nervous that she is going to tell me off.
She studies my face for a second and then responds. "You know for someone who says that they have no interest in Edward and won't fall for his games you sure are eager to not spend any time with him." She says raising her eyebrow at me. I open my mouth to respond but she interrupts me and sighs.
"Look as much as I don't want to throw the two of you together, and as much as it pains me to say, Edward is the best we have." She says rolling her eyes and smiling at me. Its obvious that she loves him but she knows that a compliment like that would make his overinflated ego even bigger. "He knows how to charm, as you have already seen, and he rakes in big tips. And as much as I would like to train you myself I don't have the time. So you'll report to Edward tomorrow." She says with a finality in her tone. I know its no longer up for discussion so I nod my head and walk towards the door.
"Oh and Bella?" She calls out. I turn around. "If you ever tell him that I said he is the best we have I will kick your ass." She says smiling at me.
I smile back and say, "Don't worry the last thing I want to do is make him even more cocky then he already is." She laughs as I walk out the door. As I am walking towards the entrance I hear Edward call my name. I am still pissed at him for almost ruining my chances so I roll my eyes, and continue towards the door ignoring him. He catches up to me though and grabs my arm. And once again I feel that electrical shock. I close my eyes and groan in frustration. Will that feeling ever go away? I ask myself. I turn around and look at him.
"Bella wait, what's wrong? Did you not get the job?" He asks furrowing his eyebrows. "Give me a minute and I'll go in and talk to Rosalie. I told her how much you deserve this job." He says seriously.
I yank my arm from his grip and glare at him. "Edward, despite what you might think I can fucking take care of myself. I don't need your help. And your help", I say in quotations, "almost prevented me from getting the job in the first place. So will you please stay out of it? I am not some young naïve girl who needs saving ok? So why don't you focus your energy on one of your groupies."
"What do you mean my help almost prevented you from getting the job?" He asks, his face scrunching up in confusion. Damn, I hate that fact that he almost looks cute when he is confused. I sigh shaking the thought from my head, focusing on the anger instead of the undeniable chemistry and attraction between us. At least on my end.
"Rosalie," I spit out, "thought we were fucking and that's why you were trying to convince her to give me the job. Literally the first question she asked me was, "are you and Edward fucking?" And she told me she wouldn't give me the job because you were going to break my heart in a few months and I was going to quit." I rush out realizing now I should have kept my mouth shut when I see the anger in his face.
"Bella she had no right- "
"But she isn't wrong, is she Edward?" I say interrupting him. That's the kind of guy you are. And according to her you have done it before."
"She need to learn to keep her damn mouth shut," he mutters to himself running his hand through his hair.
I sigh realizing I didn't want to get off on the wrong foot with him. Or cause any trouble between him and Rosalie. Because in order for this to work we all needed to be able to get along. "Look it doesn't matter what she said. I am not looking to date right now. I have too much on my plate, and I cannot afford to lose this job. So can we please just be friends? I ask him pleadingly holding my hand out to shake his hand.
He looks at me and runs his hand through his hair again sighing. Then he shakes his head and smiles grabbing my hand and says, "friends." I smile back at him ignoring the ache in my stomach at how easily he agreed to be friends with me. But I knew it was for the best. I needed this job and I wasn't going to let this attraction ruin it.
"I will see you tomorrow," I say smiling at him. And before he can say anything else I turn around and walk out the door.
I am pulled from my memories when I see Alice running into my room. She jumps up on my bed screaming "Happy birthday bitch!" Then tackles me in a hug.
"Al can't breathe." I say feeling like I am suffocating from how tight she is hugging me.
"Sorry I'm just so excited! Finally, your 18 and we can go out and celebrate your birthday the right way!" She says excitedly jumping up and down on my bed.
"Allie calm down." I say putting my hand on her shoulders. "What do you mean we are celebrating the right way? I thought we were just going to have a small party at your house?"
She rolls her eyes at me. "Bella you only turn 18 once! We have to do it up big! And I was talking to Rose last week and she got an invitation to the club opening at New Moon! So I told her that your birthday was this week and she said she would get us tickets for your birthday!" She says excitedly. Alice had started coming to my work complaining that she never got to see me anymore, which was probably true, and her and Rose struck up an easy friendship.
I freeze when I realize what this means. "Al why would you tell her when my birthday was? You know I don't like to make a big deal out of my birthday."
"Like I said you only turn 18 once! And everyone is coming; Rose, friends from school, most of your friends from work"- She cuts off when she sees my face. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing," I say looking around my room trying to fight off the nervousness that I was starting to feel. Did that mean he was going to be there? Despite his insistence that he was ok with being friends, Edward had continued to hit on me and ask me to hangout every chance he could get. Always claiming that we would just being hanging out as friends. But honestly, I didn't trust myself, or him for that matter, enough to risk hanging out with him outside of work.
She sighs. "Look Bells I know its your birthday but please go along with this! It'll be fun! You have been working your ass off all through high school and now its time to let loose and have fun. I am doing this for you! Plus, there will be a ton of hot older boys coming." She says excitedly. And that is exactly what I was afraid of. That a particular hot older boy would be there. She looks at me studying my face.
"Bells what is going on with you and Edward?" She asks realizing what has me so hesitant. Damn she is way too perceptive for her own good. And apparently she has been talking to Rosalie way too often.
"What are you talking about? There is nothing going on between me and Edward. I have made that clear from the beginning." I say looking away from her and tidying up my room.
She rolls her eyes at me. "Bella I have known you since we were little. I know you better than anyone, and I know when you have feelings for someone. Why can't you admit it? Besides you deserve to go out and have fun with a guy. Even if it doesn't end up going anywhere."
I sigh tired of having this conversation with everyone. All of my friends see the attraction we have and keep insisting that we should at least hook up. "Al I work with the guy. I am not going to mess that up by starting something with him, and then making it awkward to be around him everyday at work when things don't work out. I need this job and I am not about to screw it up for some meaningless fling." I say frustrated that I am still trying to convince other people, and myself I have to admit, that this wasn't a good idea. "Besides I don't like him like that. He is a cocky asshole." I say and Alice looks at me disbelievingly. Wow when did I turn into such a bad liar? I think to myself. "Can we just drop this for now please?" I ask pleadingly.
She looks like she wants to argue but nods her head. Then she gets a spark in her eyes and I know she has another idea. "James is going to be there." She says smiling at me. I sigh and roll my eyes. I have to admit that James was hot. But he was like a cocky less attractive version of Edward. Plus, after countless attempt on his part to flirt with me we finally got to a place where we could be friends. Edward hates him though. And that's made it a lot easier for me to like James. I roll my eyes and throw a pillow at her head. She laughs and then looks at me sighing.
"Bells I can uninvited Edward if you want me to. But he is bringing Alec and I really like him." She says looking anywhere but at me. "I don't want to be selfish, and it is your birthday. So if you really don't want him there I understand." She says looking down and picking at the thread of my bedspread.
I sigh. I know that she really likes him and this is her opportunity to talk to him. Plus, she would do the same for me if she was in my position. "I guess I can put up with him for one night," I say rolling my eyes. She looks up at me excitedly, "Are you sure Bells? It is your birthday."
"Yea, its fine. Besides there will be plenty of guys there right? I doubt I will have to even be around him." I don't know whether I am trying to convince her of this or myself. She nods vehemently.
"Bells I promise, your going to have a great night! And we are going to find you a hot guy to flirt with so you can forget all about him." I smile at her. "All right let's get ready," she says excitedly clapping her hands together.
We head to Rose's apartment an hour later, both Alice and I telling our parent's that we are staying at our friend Jess's house for the night. As we walk into her apartment we hear the music blasting and see Rose pouring tequila into shot glasses.
"Hey girls the cab will be here in 5 minutes. So let's down some tequila shots and get this party started! You guys can crash at my house tonight." We nod our head and move towards the kitchen.
After several shots of Tequila, we all head to the bar. When we get there there is a line stretching all the way down the street. Rose of course struts her way to the front, grabbing my and Alice's hand as well, and talks to the bouncer. He looks her up and down and then grants her access not even looking at her ID. They talk for a second but when he looks back he waves Alice and I through as well. Alice giggles grabbing my arm. "Men," she says rolling her eyes.
"Thank god for Rose," I say rolling my eyes with her. She stops me and looks me in the eye for a few seconds.
"You don't see your self clearly do you?" She says looking at me.
"What the hell does that mean?"
"Bells the only reason he let us in was because he saw you there. Rose was trying to convince him to let us in but the second he looked at you he didn't even bother asking for our I.D.'s." She says seriously. I roll my eyes at her pushing her forward. "Your crazy Al," I say thinking she is trying to make me feel better. She rolls her eyes back at me knowing I have never been good at taking compliments.
"She's right you know," Rose chimes in hearing the end of our conversation. "More than half of the guys at work have a thing for you. It drives Edward crazy." She says rolling her eyes.
I suck in a breath at the mention of Edward. He can't really be jealous right? And he wouldn't have anything to worry about anyways. The other guys were just being friendly, and welcoming the new girl. I laugh it off thinking she is just trying to make me feel better.
"Whatever guys, let's go get drinks," I say feeling like I need to change the subject. As I am walking up to the bar Rose pulls me away by the arm.
"You really don't know do you? She asks looking at me unbelievingly.
"Know what?" I ask her wondering why she is looking at me like that.
"How he feels about you,' she says looking at me in shock.
"Rose what the hell are you talking about?" I ask shaking my head in disbelief not really wanting to believe that Edward is who she is talking about.
"You both are so damn clueless," she says shaking her head. Before I can respond I feel a tap on my shoulder. Looking over my shoulder I see an extremely good looking guy smiling at me nervously.
"Hi, I saw you come in and I was wondering if I could buy you a drink." He says smiling at me.
I turn around fully to look at him and smile. He is tall with brown hair and blue eyes, and most importantly he didn't act like a complete jack ass when he was introducing himself to me. It definitely wasn't something I was used to. Realizing Alice was right and I needed to have a little fun, I smile at him and say, "Of course." I look over at Rosalie and she is smirking at me like she is proving a point. I roll my eyes and follow the guy to the bar.
"My names Nick by the way." He says smiling at me and leaning against the counter.
"Bella," I say smiling back at him. He seemed to be a nice guy and exactly the kind of guy I needed at the moment. Someone I could flirt with and have fun with without any complications. I look around for my friends and notice that my friends from work have already joined our group. I see Edward who is of course surrounded by three girls practically groping him. He is smiling at them and flirting, seeming to enjoy all of the attention. I roll my eyes and focus my attention back on Nick.
For several hours Nick, and I continued talking eventually rejoining our group. I introduce him to all of my friends, sans Edward, who had disappeared somewhere, probably doing god knows what with those girls that were all over him earlier. All of my friends take an instant liking to Nick, and I know he could easily fit into my group of friends. As I got to know him I realized he would never be boyfriend material. But he definitely seemed like someone I could hangout with and could eventually help me forget about a certain bronze hair sex god that I haven't seemed to be able to forget about since the day I met him. Damn this tequila for making me think about Edward, I think to myself. He wasn't Edward, And I had to admit. The whole time I had been talking to Nick I had been looking for him. And this pissed me off. Why couldn't I get him out of my head? Being with him would be stupid, reckless, complicated, and…amazing. I finally let myself think that last word. Finally, being truthful to how I really feel. All I wanted to do was say fuck the consequences and be with him. I don't know whether it was the alcohol or what it was, but suddenly I didn't care how complicated my relationship with Edward was going to be. I mean didn't Rosalie say he had feelings for me? Maybe we could make something work after all. Feeling brave from my alcohol induced haze I was just about to excuse myself and tell Nick that I had to go find my friends when I see Edward return with his arms wrapped around a girl I didn't recognize. And just like that I remember why starting something with Edward would be a bad idea. Because he was a player. Who couldn't stay with the same girl for even a single night. And I know that if I opened myself up to him he would only break my heart. So instead I focus all my energy back on Nick. He is someone I think I could eventually have real feelings for and I was ready to explore that. I am interrupted from my thoughts when I feel Nick get close.
"Do you want to dance?" Nick asks whispering in my ear. I turn away from Edward and look at Nick smiling.
"I would love to." He smiles at me and wraps his arms around my waist as I put my head on his shoulder. When I feel a familiar electrical current I look over and am not surprised to see that Edward is staring at me. I roll my eyes at him and turn my face focusing on the gorgeous guy I am dancing with. When we pull our faces apart Nick looks down at me and puts a piece of my hair behind my ear.
"Your gorgeous, you know." He says his hand traveling from behind my ear down my neck rubbing his thumb over my pulse while his hand was behind my neck.
I look down and blush. "Thank you," I say. He puts his fingers under my chin lifting my head up and starts to lean in. I realize that he is about to kiss me, and while I can think of a million reasons why this would be a bad idea, Edward being right there for instance, I decide to just let myself feel, and have fun despite the consequences. When we break apart I look over and see that Edward is still staring at me. But this time his eyes look dark and angry. And it all becomes too much. He looks like he is seconds away from imploding, the force of his rage threatening to put a damper on the mood for the entire night. And I start to feel guilty. Like maybe I was playing games with him too. I worry now that I have allowed him to infiltrate himself too much into my life. Because his anger shouldn't be able to effect me like this. And I didn't want to start a fight. Not tonight. But instead of exploding like I thought he would he clenches his jaw and is able to reign himself in. Suddenly, his face clears and he looks me in the eyes a smirk forming on his face. I look at him worriedly, not understand what is about to happen. He looks back over at the girl he is with and lifts her chin to his kissing her long and hard. And I am hurt, and devastated. Because I know he is doing this purposely, trying to hurt me. And I would never do that to him. I look away, and suddenly, I start to feel the effects of the alcohol hit me. And all I want to do was cry. I knew that I needed to get out of there. I am able to hold in my tears and look back at Nick trying to force a smile on my face when he calls my name. Before I can excuse myself though I feel a tap on my shoulder.
Both Nick and I look over and see…Edward. Of course why am I not surprised. He is looking at both of us so damn beautiful and…angry.
"Can I talk to Bella for a moment," he says glaring at Nick. Not even bothering to wait for an answer he pulls me by the arm and the next thing I know I am being dragged into the hallway. Looking up and getting ready to tell Edward off for pulling my arm like that I look into his eyes and see that they are still dark and angry. And the words I am about to say get caught in my throat.
"Who the hell is that guy?" He asks angrily his chest is heaving up and down and his are hands clenched into fists. "You certainly don't waste any time do you" He says bitingly.
I look at him in disbelief, not believing that his first words to me all night were so angry and hurtful.
"What the hell is your problem?" I ask confused as to where this is coming from.
"I don't have a problem. It just seems like you more than happy to talk to any guy that'll give you any sort of attention," he spits out angrily.
And what the hell is that supposed to mean?" I ask even more confused.
"I just don't get you. First Brady from work who I heard you went out on a few dates with even though you told me that you wouldn't date anyone from work. And then the guy tonight? You certainly get around don't you?" he asks smirking at me but at the same time looking pissed off.
I look at him confused and hurt, not understanding why he was saying this to me. He had never talked to me like this before. He had never been so rude and hurtful towards me.
"Really Edward? Your going to go there like you have any right to say anything to me? You are a fucking hypocrite. You can't even stay with the same girl for a single fucking night," I spit out. And when his face turns into a smirk I realize I played right into his hand. He wanted me to be jealous, and I just proved that I was.
"Jealous, are we Bells?" He says continuing to smirk at me.
I roll my eyes at him and turn around to walk away. I was tired of his games and I wasn't going to play anymore. He grabs my arms and spins me around. He opens his mouth as if he was about to apologize. But I suddenly, didn't want to hear it. What right did he have to talk to me the way he did? How dare he judge me when he doesn't even know me? I hold my hand out to stop him from speaking.
"No, I don't want to hear it." I say angrily. "I don't know what your problem is but you don't get to do this, Edward." I say yelling at him. "You don't get to take whatever is bothering you out on me. I am not your fucking punching bag. I didn't do anything to you so whatever is bothering you obviously isn't about me. So you yelling at me isn't fair, and I don't deserve it."
He looks at me for a moment and then shakes his head bitterly. "Yeah, your right Bella it doesn't have anything to do with you." He says laughing sarcastically. Then he turns around and walks away. Where the hell did this come from? He has a million girls that flirt with him every day at work. And he had girls hanging off of him all night tonight. What right does he have to be upset that I am talking to one guy? I shake my head even more confused then I was the first day I met him. I go back to the bar in search of Nick not wanting to go back to my group of friends and have to deal with him. Before I can find him though I am stopped by Alice.
"Bells what the hell happened?" She asks worriedly. I just saw Edward stomp off, even more angry then I have ever seen him, and Rose and Emmet were following him. Did something happen?"
I really didn't want to start crying but I knew I was about to. "I just," I say sniffling, "don't get it." I was getting ready to tell him how I feel about him, but before I could he pulls me by the arm and says all of these mean things to me. Basically calling me a fucking whore," I say now full on crying, "and I did nothing to deserve it. Anyways he is one to talk right? He has countless women all over him all the time! And he probably hooks up with all of them. How can he call me a whore when he does exactly what he is excusing me of doing?" I spit out now getting angry. "I mean what the fuck? What right does he have to treat me this way?"
Alice looks at me worriedly. "Bells, Rose is right, you and Edward are both fucking clueless," she says shaking her head. But then something dawns on her and her face lights up. "Bella what exactly were you going to say you felt about him?" She says obviously only catching the beginning of my long rant.
I roll my eyes at her because she seemed to be all for Edward and I getting together. "Nothing it doesn't matter let's get back to everyone." I say. Not even bothering to wait for her answer I walk back to our group. Rose and and the man I assume to be Emmett have returned without Edward. He must still be off pouting about whatever seemed to have crawled up his ass, I think to myself bitterly. Emmet sees me and smiles. He then comes over to me and lifts me in his arms spinning me around. When I look around I see Edward has returned and he is glaring at Emmett and me. His eyes focusing on the fact that Emmet's arms are around my waist. I mean really? I think to myself. Isn't this your best friend? I roll my eyes and then focus on Emmet noticing he has set me back down.
"You must be the infamous Bella. I have heard a lot about you." He says smirking with a twinkle in his eyes. I look at him confused but before I can ask him what he is talking about Rose slaps him on the back of his head.
"Don't listen to this big oaf." She says rolling her eyes. "We are all about to head back are you ready?" She asks me raising her eyebrows. I am confused for a moment but then I realize she is talking about Nick.
"Let me say goodbye to Nick really fast then we can head out," I say. And I am not going to lie I was hoping Edward overheard and was pissed. And when I look over I see that I have accomplished what I wanted. He looked as pissed off and hurt as I was. I never wanted to play these games with him, but I wasn't going to sit by and let him say such hurtful things to me, and play me the way that he was. I smile and walk over to Nick quickly telling him that I had to leave. He asks me for my number and I oblige, happy to meet someone that I could potentially enjoy spending time with. And maybe even start dating, since he will be staring at UDUB next fall like me. He kisses me on the cheek and I feel Edward's heated glare on me the whole time I am talking to Nick. When I walk back to the group Alice pulls me by the arm.
"You knowww the guys are all coming back to Rose's place right?" She says in my ear obviously slurring her words. I roll my eyes annoyed that I would have to continue to deal with Edward. But I was determined to ignore him, and not let his moodiness interfere with my birthday. Besides there were still plenty of guys that I could flirt with and hangout with.
"Al its fine." I say rolling my eyes and pulling her back to the group. We head back to Rose's house all of us drunk and wanting to continue the party. When we get to Rose's place everyone breaks into groups, most of them trying to hook up after drinking copious amounts of alcohol. Rose and I are making drinks happy to watch everyone try to hook up with each other. Emmet had to go home so that he could work early the next morning so we were both alone. Rose bumps my hip playfully and says, "Stop ignoring everyone and get back out there. There are tons of guys that are eyeing you right now wanting to talk to you." I roll my eyes looking out at the crowd. I see James eyeing me out of the corner of his eye while he is playing beer pong with Alec. Although I have no interest in him romantically he has become a good friend to me, once I was able to get past his cocky exterior. If only Edward could stop acting like a cocky asshole we could maybe manage to be friends too, I think to myself rolling my eyes. I head over to James, and when he sees me he wraps his arm around my shoulder. "There's my girl", he says laying a kiss on my forehead. I push him away a little and roll my eyes at him. He still tries to push the boundaries of our friendship even though I told him I wasn't interested. Edward must have heard his comment because surprise surprise, his head lifts up and glares at James. I turn my head ignoring him. He needed to get over whatever was bothering him because I wasn't going to deal with it anymore. After James and Alec finish their game, James asks me to be his partner. Edward says he wants to play and teams up with Collin, an annoying kid from our work who always likes to get in the middle of everyone else's business. As we start the game he decides to speak up and I know this isn't going to end well.
"So Bella, what happened between you and Brady?" He asks smirking knowing exactly what he was doing. Edward was about to throw the ball but was caught off guard by the question and he throws it, completely missing, and allowing the ball to ricochet off of the wall.
I glare at Collin, "Not that it is any of your fucking business, but we went out on a couple of dates and we both decided that we were better off as friends," I say. Feeling uncomfortable my eyes meet Edward and I'm faced with a look of sympathy and maybe jealousy? That can't be it right?
"More like you decided," I hear Collin mutter under his breath.
"Excuse me?" I say getting angry.
"The way I heard it Brady was completely into you and you blind sighted him by telling him you just wanted to be friends. "Tell me Bella," he says tilting his head sarcastically, "do you make a habit of stringing guys along." He says now full on smirking at me.
I glare at Collin fully ready to kick his ass, when Edward chimes in. "That's just the way she is Collin; Edward says smiling at me. "She makes guys think that they have a shot, before she decides to move on to the next one." I look over at him, and while I shouldn't be surprised that he would be so cruel like that, I am. I really thought we could be friends. But from the way he was acting I knew that would never happen.
"I mean look at my poor friend James," he says sarcastically patting him on the back and putting his arm around his shoulder. "This guy has had a crush on her since the day he met her, but of course she wouldn't even give him the time of day. Telling him she just wants to be friends. But yet she still lets him wrap his arms around her and kiss her." He says now full on smirking. James angrily pushes Edward's arm off of his shoulder and moves into the kitchen. I walk over to Edward and slap him. And the smirk he has quickly leaves his face.
"You are a fucking asshole"; I say almost in tears. Then I turn away and walk towards Rose's bedroom. I walk into her room and shut the door. Pacing around the room so fucking angry and wanting to cry. How could I have ever thought that I could have feelings for such an asshole? I think to myself. I must be so stupid and naive to think that I could be different and that he could have real feelings for me. Because he obviously doesn't care about anyone's feelings but his own. I continue my pacing when I hear a door open and thinking its Alice I turn around and see…Edward. I sigh.
"Edward I don't want to hear it. You fucking made your point when you called me a whore and humiliated me in front of everyone. And do you realize how much of a fucking hypocrite you are?" I ask now full on yelling at him. "You say that I am a tease, and I string guys along? What about you? You let girls think that they have a shot with you, only to sleep with them and then never call them again." He looks down at the ground, and I know that I have pegged him. "Tell me I'm wrong Edward."
He looks up at me, sad, desperate, and maybe pleading? "I'm sorry Bella ok? I'm sorry for what I said." He says raising his voice back at me sounding just as frustrated as I was. It sounds like he is being sincere, but I'm not sure because I know how much of master manipulator he is. "You just don't get it. You don't get how fucking hard its has been for me. Seeing you with other guys. And then you tell me you wont date me because we are coworkers, and then you go off and date Brady? What the fuck was that?" He spits out at me. "After that what you said kind of goes to shit don't you think?" He says. "I mean really how do you think that fucking makes me feel?" He says frustratingly running his hand through his hair. After a few seconds I answer him.
"He wasn't you," I yell at him finally deciding to be honest. "I thought I could date him because he was easy and fun, and there weren't real feelings there. But I told him that we could only be friends because he wasn't you." I say looking away from him not wanting him to see me vulnerable. But I can't fucking do this anymore Edward." I say frustrated and at the end of my rope. I turn away from him and head for the door, not wanting him to see how I feel. Once I reach the door I turn back around once more ready to tell him off and then get the hell out of there. "I am not going to allow you to fucking play games with me anymore. And I am not going to allow you to fuck with me and make me into one of your whores," I spit out. Then I turn around and put my hand on the door knob. Before I get the chance to open the door though he spins me around facing him. I look up and he looks pissed. Even more angry than I have ever seen him. Before I have the chance to say anything he pushes me up against the door, lifts my chin and kisses me forcefully. Full of lust and determination. I gasp but get over the shock quickly kissing him back just as forcefully. As we kiss I feel that ever present heat and electricity pass between us. Although I know that this is only a temporary thing I know that I want to make it last for as long as I can. We break apart and he leans his head against my forehead.
"Don't ever call yourself a fucking whore again," he says grinding into me. "I want you," he says in my ear. "But tell me to stop and I will." And I am torn. Because I want him so bad that my body aches for him, but at the same time, I cannot forget that he hurt me. But right then I decide for now that I am going to let myself feel and fuck the consequences.
"I want you too Edward. I am tired of trying to fight it."
At this declaration he moves forward pushing me back against the door with his hips and kisses me hard, my head banging against the door. He then lifts my arms up above my head holding them with one hand and the other hand goes to my hip as he pins me to the wall with his hips.
"And I want you Bella, he exhales in my ear as if it took a great strength to admit it. "I have wanted you since the moment I met you in that coffee shop." He looks into my eyes, searching for what I am not sure. But instead of answering him I kiss him forcefully just as determined as he was. As we kiss our tongues fight for dominance both of us wanting to be in control. We break apart and he kisses down my neck to my collar bone. His other hand that isn't holding my arms travel down my dress, finally stopping along the hem line.
After rubbing his thumb along the edge he finally stops teasing me and he lets me go, lifting my dress over my head. His mouth then reattaches itself to my neck licking and sucking. He reaches his arms behind me and unclasps my bra releasing me. Quickly his kisses move from my neck to my chest and he takes my sensitive nipple in his mouth working it expertly. I arch back and moan and he whispers, "God you taste good." I respond by allowing him to bury his face in deeper wrapping my fingers in his hair.
His hand then travels down my stomach reaching my underwear. He rubs his fingers on the outside of my underwear a few time until he feels that I am wet. Then he dips his hand inside plunging his fingers in and out of me a few times and I gasp. After a minute his fingers release me and I hiss at the loss of contact. He then releases my nipples bending down with his hand at my waist and he kisses me down my stomach to my underwear. He kisses my sensitive spot and I moan. He looks up and smirks knowing exactly what he is doing. He then pulls my underwear down my thighs and takes them off. He kisses back up my body until he reaches my mouth. This gives me the opportunity to lift his shirt up over his head. I then start kissing down his jaw to his toned chest. My teeth graze his nipple and he lets out I grown. I repeat my movements, sucking and kissing his throat, while unbuttoning his pants, and sliding them down along with his underwear. I stop kissing him for a second and look down. He is hard…and huge. And when I look up at him he smirks.
"See something you like?" He asks me cocky and so sure of himself. I roll my eyes at him pushing him back up against the other wall wanting to take some control over the situation. He then, probably sensing I was ready to pull away, pulls my waist into him and grinds against me causing me to moan. Not wanting to let him take the control again I put my hand on his toned stomach and push him back a little create space between us. He looks down at me questioningly. I smirk back and wrap my fingers around his cock pumping him, then I put my thumb on his tip gathering the pre cum and spreading it along his length. When I look up his eyes have rolled in the back of his head and he leans his head back against the wall his hands gripping my waist. When I hear him starting to swear and moan I speed up my hands knowing he is seconds away from coming. But instead he lifts his head back up and releases my hands from his cock. He then puts his hands on my waist again and turns me back around so I am leaning back up against the wall. He puts my arms above me again. Then his lips reattach to mine. I should have known he would continue fighting me for control. But this felt too good to stop.
He then bends down to his pants pocket grabbing a condom. He tears it open with his teeth, still holding on to my arms, and slides it on his length. He kisses me again down my neck biting me hard. And I gasp. He continues kissing my neck while he slides his fingers down my body down to my clit. He rubs my clit expertly knowing exactly what he is doing. I come quickly from his expert fingers, and he smiles as he is kissing my neck. Without any warning he releases me and then lifts me up slamming my back against the wall again. Ignoring the pain, I quickly wrap my legs around his waist. He lines me up with him, and before entering me he whispers, "Are you sure?" He asks me looking uncertain. And just like that a switch was turned. And all the anger I had felt towards him was gone. Gone was the cocky self assured man that I knew. He was replaced by something I have never seen in Edward before. Someone sensitive and unsure of himself. I nod my head. That is apparently all of the reassurance he needs because he thrusts into me roughly. I let out a quick gasp of shock at his quickness and he buries his head in my shoulder and whispers, "Damn, you feel so good," he mutters, "just as good as I thought you would feel." I smile and wrap my fingers in his hair playing with the ends. Allowing him to move inside of me and set the speed. He continues alternating between kissing my neck and nipping at my ear all the while thrusting inside me quickly. Both of us start muttering a string of curses and declarations at the intense feelings that this brings out in both of us. After awhile I hear him curse and grunt and I know his orgasm is coming. It is probably the hottest thing I have ever heard come out of a man before.
"Oh fuck, shit Bella, this has never felt this good," he grunts out. "I'm going to come." I look down at him and watch his face as he comes. His eyes flutter closed and his lips purse and I have never seen anything so beautiful. I follow closely behind him never having had such an intense orgasm before. He is definitely the best I have ever had but I knew I could never tell him that. When we both ride out the last of our orgasms, I sit there for a moment looking into his eyes. Realizing I have been there for too long I release him and slide down his body. I then start looking for my clothes avoiding his eyes. I knew what was about to happen. After all he could barely be with the same girl for more than one night. So before he could come up with an excuse to get out of there, and before I could feel rejected, I decided to get myself out of the situation. I was coming up with an excuse to leave when I am saved by a knock on the door.
"Bells are you in there?" Alice asks me from the other side of the door questioning, probably wondering why I have disappeared for so long.
"Coming," I rush out quickly throwing the last of my clothes on and look back to see how far along Edward is in getting dressed. He looks back at me confused, wondering why I have avoided looking at him since we had sex. I turn back around when I see he is dressed, not wanting to deal with the fall out right now. I smooth down my hair and my clothes opening the door. When I see Alice looking at me and then back at Edward smirking, I know we have been caught. I roll my eyes at her and grab her hand pulling her out the door of Rose's room, and shutting the door before the whole party knew what Edward and I were up to.
End Flashback
A/n: Are you guys still with me? Didn't expect that right? Let me know what you think! And if you would like an EPOV. Thanks again for reading :)
