Chapter7, Sing for Me
Hotaru looked up at the one that embrace him in his sleep. Slowly, he released himself from the tight hug and gathered his clothes in silence. He dressed himself necessarily before opened the door and closed it behind. Without turned his head back, he leave the house. And Haruka behind.
#1 Sing Me Farewell, That Sweet Sounds of the Past Days
Hotaru felt sore, both body and mind. He made too much mistakes in these past hours.
He thought that he would disgust after having sex with black winged tengu. That he felt otherwise, perhaps because he did it with Haruka. This makes it the first.
The second, he thought that by leaving Haruka, he would feel better which in reality, he felt worse. But Hotaru knew that if he didn't do it, he would never be able to leave him.
His steps felt hard as his body aching from the previous activity, and tired too. But Hotaru couldn't rest yet, for he should reach another temple or at least far enough from Haruka. He didn't want to be discovered by him, not wanting saw his handsome face anymore. Furthermore, his sad face.
He didn't want to explain anything to his beloved tengu, that he couldn't be with him. But the woman that his family decided long time ago, to be married with.
Hotaru's step stumbled as his feet stepped over another. He fall face first, only to lift it again and continue to his destination. It was from some direction that he heard the flapped wings, Hotaru closed his eyes, arranged reason to reject the tengu in his mind. He didn't think that Haruka would found out this soon.
Then the sounds of rustled wings approached him.
"Ho'chan, what are you doing here?" ask the owner of the wings.
"Hakutsuru!" Hotaru call it in relieve.
Hotaru made it to the nearest place where he could rest for a moment, cleaning himself and maintain himself some kind of protection so that no youkai, monoke, even tengu able to saw him. Then the scarlet eyed man continue to walk to Shirasaki temple.
#2 It Always Remember Me the Live of the Love
It has been four days after Hotaru left when he finally reached his destination. Short discussion with the head of temple and their marriage's procession will held in a week.
And the day would come soon for Hotaru.
That night was colder than the previous night, and it still become colder the following night.
That night was the last night before the sacred ceremony will be held tomorrow.
That night, Hotaru wonder why he kept thinking of Haruka.
When he appeared to be cheerful that day, his heart cried. When he supposed to be happy, he felt hollow and empty.
"May I sit here?" ask the soon to be bride as she stand near the man.
"But it's cold outside. You can get cold," Hotaru concerned.
The woman looked at him directly, through his eyes. At that time, he was so vulnerable with any mental attack, but he let her penetrated his mind. He believed the girl, more than himself. But instead of pursue the matter further, the woman smiled wisely.
"It worked the same for you," she said then fixed her gaze at starry skies.
They enjoyed other's presence just like that.
"Does it hurt?" asked Nodoka while pointing his lithe finger vaguely to his heart.
Hotaru thought for a while before smile morosely and nodded, "Hurt a lot."
"Then why?"
Hotaru took some times before closed his eye lid, "I don't know, Nodoka. I'm not even sure this was the right thing."
#3 Beloved of My Heart, You are My Soul
Haruka confused when he woke up and couldn't felt Hotaru's presence anywhere. He searched him down since then, to the hills and valleys, inside the forest and still not able to find him. It almost two weeks now, yet Haruka still not heard any news about him.
Haruka ever met the crane youkai and other youkai the false monk befriended with but none of those creatures help him. He had gone to some villages that close to the temple they used to live at.
Sugino worried about his tengu friend, the black winged tengu never this attached with something before. From his point of view, the black winged tengu seemed insane. He neither rest nor sleep. Not caring for his being at all.
He afraid that the black winged tengu will soon completely lose his sanity. Sugino had talked to crane youkai, the one named Hakutsuru. The crane said that the human with scarlet eyes has decided not to go back to black winged tengu for reason that it didn't know.
From that information alone, Sugino tried to find out what was happen so he also searched the human, only to find him married with girl in white kimono. Sugino was lost at words, he knew that the black winged tengu would be more furious. And it's beyond his thinking what would the black winged tengu did when he's mad.
That is, when Sugino was about to leave the place, his path blocked by black wing that spread wide against the grey darkened sky. His face was mixed of many negative feeling, made his figure darker than ever.
Sugino noticed how his claw grew and spark of electricity emit all around his floating body.
#4 Beloved of My Heart, Sing Fast
It happened in a blink of eye when Haruka appear in front of the newly wed couple. His figure was contrasted everything at that shrine. His clothes ragged, the color now was color of earthly mud and dried blood, his anger was so visible that none dare to getting closer to him.
The head priest and other people tried to calm the raging tengu to no avail as the dark and tall creature came closer to the scarlet eyed monk.
"Hotaru…" Haruka hissed between his now sharp fangs.
Hotaru felt so sad. He never knew that his selfishness turned out so bad that it hurt the tengu he dear most. That Haruka turned this drastic, that he turned him down and torn his heart.
"I found you…" his tired eyes locked with the other ones.
"But…" Haruka turned his gaze to the woman stand beside the sandy white haired man, he knew this girl, "You… that woman."
Hotaru stepped between Haruka and Nodoka. He afraid that Haruka might harmed her.
"I'm sorry Haruka, I shouldn't met you in the first place. I don't want anybody to hurt you more after what I did but…"
Nodoka noticed how the winged creature's eyes widen while she heard nothing was spoken by her husband. The tengu glance at her one more time before leave them.
Haruka flew cutting the wind, anything to ease the pain in his heart but it didn't help him slightly. He hit himself to big tree and fall to the ground. Then he lay there for God know how long.
Murmurs of the spirits and other being that residence at the forest were loud for him to hear. Most of it pitied him, angered him more, and Haruka never been a creature which could tell wrongs from rights. He has heart, he has instinct, and he was lost of his sanity.
Okay, what do you think about this chapter, i know that it's rather sad that they must separated. But don't hate me for writing such cruel story, believe me that i will give them the best ending i could write. Now, review?
