First: Thanks to Vicky Chan and thanks again to feefee223!!

Second: In this chapter, the flashback will be write so: Flashback.

Third: Allen has about nine years in those chapters.

"You want to be alone? Start to think of that... sometimes, people, don't have anyone. Sometimes, people, are alone. It isn't better to have someone, even if this can bring some sacrifices?"

5- Two's feverish dreams part2: His nightmare one more time

I...

You're sorry? I don't care. It was better if I leaved you where I found you. You're only a burden.

You're wrong... He thought silently, shivering at the coldness of the place, sitting in the only spot where the snow wasn't falling.

I don't care about you, go away.

No...! Why was he doing this to him?

Go away, Allen, go away.

But... I'm alone... He hadn't no one to go, no place anymore to call "home".

I already said that I don't care. Go away, I don't want you anymore.

But the only thinking of being alone made him shiver again ...no...

...don't want you anymore...

"N-No!"

Stupid monster... you're only this: a monster. Go away, I don't want you.

"W-Why!?" Little Allen screamed, finally broking out into tears "W-Why no on-e wa-...nts me...!?" He cried "Wh-y am I... alo-...ne?" And he rested his head on his knees, shaking no only for the chilliness, covering himself with his own arms to hold the warmth that wasn't anymore with him "I hate th-...e l-life!!" He yelled "Die is bet-... ter!! D-Die i-...s better!!" His closed while his teeth was clenching, maybe praying that something would take away his pain... Why no one wants me...? Why am I alone? Why my parents... He sobbed... Why Mana...

Why you...

"Allen, you know I'm not your real father, right?"

I thought you will be... a father...?

"Why they didn't want me... my parents?"

"Sometimes the people are afraid"

"Afraid? Of what?"

"You're too young to understand..."

I was too young!? I know... I always know that this arm...

"Aah!! Look at him! Look at his arm! He isn't human!"

They were afraid of me...

"Allen, don't be sad for what they said! They're just idiots!"

"B-But...!! Th-...ey s-said... they sa-...id... I'm not hum-...an!!"

"The people, sometimes, don't want to see beyond your appearance..."

And you...

...you...

"You're n-not diff-...erent!!" Why are everyone scared of me!? Why am I born with this arm!?

Why I can't be a normal child!?

Why am I a monster!?!?

"Mana..."

I hate you...

No, I doesn't...

I hate...

Me?

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"Damn! The snowfall is worsening..." Muttered Lavi, sharing with Lenalee a worried look: they were looking for Allen from about two hours, after he ran away at Mana's words but... they couldn't just find him and neither his younger version.

"Where could he be? I'm so worried..."

"I hope he doesn't meet any Akuma..." And at these words, like the image of what could happen ran through their mind, their speed increased, as their anxiety. Alone, into this blizzard with the risk of encountering Akuma because of the Innocence... he was in a serious danger.

"Lavi! We find him!" Lenalee suddenly yelled, a hopeful smile already on her lips, pointing at the image in front of her. They saw a glimpse of white hair... the tiny child was sitting in the only place covered by a little roof, where the snow couldn't touch him, but he was shivering extremely.

"He's the little one..."

"Why is he here?" Lavi looked puzzled "Why is he here!?" Repeated the girl, worry was walking through her words "He's..."

But the boy understood, when finally they approached him.

He was awfully pale, almost white like the snow; his azure eyes unfocused in front of him. He was shuddering, and the slightly traces of old tears were still evident on his cheeks. His mouth was opened, vaguely forming ghosts of words... but he was talking too much noiselessly to understand.

"Is he feverish...?" She asked, giving an apprehensive look at her friend.

"Maybe... damn! And we can't even touch him...!!"

"Lenalee, Lavi...?" A feeble voice talked behind them.

"Allen!" They turned back, finding their friend looking at them with heavy eyes.

"I was looking for..." He shivered "...you two"

"Us too... Are you okay?"

He swallowed, trying to ignore the pain inside his throat "I'm a little tired..." He tried to take a step, but miserly slipping on the cold ground; he fell.

"Allen!" Lenalee was already at his side, worried "Are you okay?"

"...my head..." His eyes closed themselves, frowning at the ache.

She put an hand on her forehead, knowing that he... "He has fever..." The exorcist told Lavi "We must take him somewhere else! We must find a place where we could make up a fire..."

"But the child...?"

Lenalee glared at him "He's only an image, even if he'll die, we don't care"

"You don't notice, don't you?"

"What?"

Lavi smiled a little "A couple of days ago, you remember little Allen fell and he got hurt at the right knee?"

She nodded, puzzled. What he was trying to say?

"Well... Allen didn't fall and we didn't combat Akuma that day, right?"

"Yes..."

"But the right knee of Allen was bleeding"

She stopped, understanding "You're trying to say that maybe they're connected!?"

"Allen wasn't ill this morning, and neither when he ran away" He looked at the already unconscious boy "But the little one was ill! And now the older, too!"

"But..." Her heart seemed to end its life, and a scared chill went through her "If it's true..."

"Yes, if it's true... if little Allen will die, the older one will die too"

"It's not possible!!"

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In the first time, he didn't feel sorry but while the time was dieing... outside, the snowfall was worsening, and even inside the house was so cold that his breath was visible... and Allen is here. He thought, finally feeling the aching touch of the regret inside his heart.

Why did he slap him? Why did he say those damned words?

No wonder why your parents thrown away you...

Thinking about it, he felt bad at how he was been terrible with the poor child. He didn't merit this... Just the knowledge of being abandoned by your own parents wasn't beautiful. And everytime being called a monster...

Damn me... his only fault was to have a strange arm.

Allen... How did he feel, when even the only one who loved him... thrown away him? To know to be alone, to be lonesome in a big world where no one wanted you, where the people screamed at you when they saw your arm... and feeling like a walking monster.

"Damn me..." He irately dried a little escaped tears "I must find him"

He walked away...

no, he ran away, leaving even the door opened.

"Allen!!"

Well? It took me exactly two hours to write that...

Anyway, I don't understand one thing... after being cursed by Mana, Allen's eyes became red?

And wait for the final part of chapter 5 "Affection..."!!

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