I'm writing this as I lay down on a hospital bed and you're out there cleaning up my mess.
Jinx again, of course. It's always Jinx. But this time, she crossed a line. She tried to get to me through you, by harming you. I would never, ever let that happen as long as I breathe. Because I love you. And because lately I've been really fucking stupid.
I've been avoiding you after the Christmas Eve incident. I know I hurt you and I'm deeply sorry for that but that was never my intention and you know it. I was simply trying to sort my feelings out and also give you some space to figure out what you really wanted. I wasn't sure if this was just one of the games your drunk self was trying to play or if you've felt the same as I did. Because I've known you for the past five years Cait but I could never possibly read you. On the other hand, I'm a very easy book to read, ain't I?
However, as mentioned, I thought you were simply drunk and it was probably if I never confronted you about it, which was stupid, but I never had a stable relationship with anyone so I wouldn't know how to deal with a situation like this. And I didn't want you to have your job risk, especially for me. I couldn't do that to you, ever. So, I let you hurt while I played dumb, which was pretty fucking stupid from my part.
But when Jinx broke into a rampage again and tried to harm you, I told myself; 'Screw this. For Cupcake'. And y'know, I still thought it was worth it because I knew that I loved you. I fell for you a long time ago, slowly and steadily, and I fell really hard. Both literally and figuratively.
I hear someone coming. It could be you. I'm finishing those lines before I hide the letter away. I still don't want you to know, not yet. It's not the right time.
Yours truly, Vi
