Too Good To Be True
A/N I'm back! Sorry I disappeared for almost a year. I'm not gonna give up on this story just yet but the updates will probably be slightly random. Hope you like this chapter. EDIT: I'm fixing some grammar issues as I go along and I'll try to edit the earlier chapters. :)
Disclaimer: I own nothing except the plot.
His eyes were piercing through me and it looked as if the colour was draining out of them. Gone was the beautiful amber I was infatuated with, all that remained was a hard coal that frightened me even more than one of Charlie's glares. A rumbling began, shaking the entire room. Was Edward growling at me? The sound increased until he finally pounced. Jasper and Emmett became no more than a blur as they pulled Edward out of the room. That's when I noticed that I was bleeding, a cut must have opened up or something.
Carlisle came next to me to inspect the wound while ordering the others to eyes fell upon the wound and travelled along my arm revealing one of my best kept secrets. His expression turned to one of pity and sadness pulling my arm out of his grip I went into the bathroom connected to the room I was staying in. I needed to get out of the room and come up with and explanation. A thousand ideas popped into my head but none were good enough to work against a talented doctor such as Carlisle.
He followed me into the bathroom,a sense of urgency in his step, I took a moment to stop and inspect the still bleeding cut. The rough jagged edges stood out amongst my pale skin yet still granted me the same morbid sense of satisfaction the little neat red lines usually brought. The stream of crimson was still flowing it hadn't slowed at all and it wasn't going to if I didn't do something about it. I searched the cabinet above the sink until I found what I was looking for. I pulled the small first aid kit out and began disinfecting and bandaging up my arm struggling a little as I only had one hand available. Carlisle came over and silently took the bandage and finished wrapping my arm. He opened his mouth to say something but a glare from me put an end to that, I wasn't in the mood to hear another "we can help you if you let us" pitying speech. I deserved everything I got and this is what I get for being a little slut.
Carlisle left the bathroom, leaving me to clean up and change out of my blood soaked clothes. There was no way I was gonna be able to sleep after that nightmare, it's as if that night was happening all over again. I felt another flashback about to come over me but I held it back by stepping into the searing flow of water exiting the shower head. It stung and I welcomed the sensation with open arms. the water became a pink as it flowed over my still bloody clothing. I had no energy to take them off and I felt the feelings of the days earlier events come over me and soon became too much as a sank to the ground and began crying, sobs shaking my whole body.
I stayed like that until the water became cold and my lips turned blue. I can't let the Cullen's know anymore than they already did. I hope Carlisle wouldn't say any thing and as long as he didn't I was safe from discovery. Until then I guess I best just try to sleep and prepare myself for the day ahead of me. I needed to get home in a few days so i could clean up and Charlie might decide to send one of his friends to 'check' on me, if he discovered that I wasn't home he would kill me and the Cullen's. I was putting them at risk by just being here, I can't have anyone else get hurt because of me and my fucked up life.I grabbed my i pod and my earphones putting a playlist on shuffle and laying down in the bed. Goodbye began to play and I thought of the current situation I have been placed in.
It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
Maybe I'm to blame
Or maybe we're the same
But either way I can't breathe
Either way I can't breathe
All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way
I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive
Cause everything we've been through
And everything about you
Seemed to be a lie
A guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate you
Or hate myself for letting it pass by
All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way
All I had to say is goodbye
We're better off this way
We're better off this way
And every, everything isn't only
What it seemed so hold these
Words that you never told me
It's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye
Goodbye
Bye
I had to stop listening after that. The thought of losing the only friends I have had in a long time was too much for me. But it was for the best, they wouldn't be associated with the freaky emo chick and they could be safe from Charlie. At least they were safe. Tomorrow I would pack my stuff and leave before any of the others woke up. I would do my best to avoid them and ignore any attempts they made to call or text me. It will be as if I had never met them. That's the best way.
A/N Seems like its been tough on Bella. I swear there will be a happier chapter soon and I'll try to update every other week. I have a new PC so the typos should hopefully be minimal. I have a lot of ideas for this story and if I get enough time I'll even try to write another fanfic. I might have another chapter out this weekend as well. Thanks for reading and please review.
