DISCLAIMER: I own Julianna. All other characters and places belong to Mark VII and NBC Universal.
Johnny looked at Julianna. The look on her face was one of hurt and loss. A look he'd never seen in her eyes before. He thought about her statement. "Transfusions? Wait. You were pregnant? You miscarried," Johnny asked, reaching for her shoulder.
Julianna felt the touch of his hand on her shoulder and she immediately recoiled from it. "Yeah. I've lived with that every single day. I've lived with knowing it was somehow my fault that I lost our baby. Knowing that I should have done something and knowing that if I told you, you'd blame me. Knowing that look you'd have on your face when you found out that I lost our child. I've lived with that all these years, so spare me," she said.
"Where'd Juli go," Roy asked.
"I don't know. Thought I saw her walking toward the dorm. Maybe she's catching a nap," Chet said.
Mike got off the couch and headed into the dorm. He saw Julianna facing the wall and Johnny's hand stretched out like he was trying to comfort her.
"Hey, what's going on," Mike asked.
Julianna looked at her brother and wiped her face.
"Nothing, Mikey. Just tired. Roy ready to show me the squad," Julianna asked.
"Yeah," Mike said.
Without waiting for a reply from Johnny, Julianna headed out of the room.
Mike followed her out of the room, casting a glance back at Johnny. The set of the younger paramedics jaw told Mike that he was upset and Mike wondered if he was going to have to talk to Johnny about being upset with his sister. 'What could have happened in such a short amount of time? They just met, right,' he thought to himself. Mike stopped his sister and looked at her. Suddenly his eyes became as big as saucers. "You know him, don't you," Mike asked.
Julianna could only nod her head.
"High school," she whispered.
"He's the one," Mike hissed.
"Yeah, but it's been eight years, Mike and I don't want to relive it," she said, pleading in her eyes.
Mike calmed down a bit after his sister's plea. "Fine, but he better not hurt you again," Mike said, before stalking off to the day room.
Julianna leaned against the wall and closed her eyes. 'He wasn't the only one that did the hurting,' she thought to herself. This was SO not how she thought her day would go when she left the hospital.
Julianna spent the next 12 hours running calls. She'd been able to grab a few hours of sleep before she headed home for the night. Seeing Johnny after all those years, caused every emotion she had to rush to the surface. She couldn't believe Johnny was back into her life and, if she was going to continue working with Station 51, she was going to have to get used to Johnny's presence. She was going to have to learn to live with all the emotions he brought out in her. Good and bad.
Roy and Johnny were in the squad, heading back from their follow up, when Roy asked the question. "What's eating you?"
Johnny, staring out the window, didn't hear Roy's question.
"Johnny...Hey, Johnny," Roy said.
"Wha...he...yeah," Johnny asked, his attention back to Roy.
"What's bothering you," Roy asked again.
"Oh, Jules, I mean, Julianna," Johnny said.
"Jules," Roy questioned.
"I know her," Johnny said.
"How? Did you meet her at Mike's or something," Roy asked.
Johnny took a deep breath. "No, I knew her in high school. As a matter of fact, Julianna was my girlfriend for all of our senior year," Johnny said.
Roy nearly stomped on the brakes. "She's the girl you mentioned from high school. The one who broke your heart," Roy said.
Johnny nodded. "She left for college without a good bye or anything. I asked where she was, but her parents wouldn't tell me," he said.
"Did you know she was Mike's sister," Roy asked.
"No. I had no idea. Mike's five years older and had already moved out when I met her. I didn't even know they were related until today," Johnny said.
"Did you talk to her? Find out why she didn't talk to you about leaving," Roy asked as they backed the squad into the station.
"Yeah, we talked. Actually, we had a little shouting match this morning and she revealed something life changing," he said.
Roy looked at his partner. "What?"
Johnny took a deep breath and looked at his partner. "She told me she had been pregnant," he said, getting out of the squad before Roy could say anything to him.
Roy was shocked. He hadn't known Johnny knew Julianna and he certainly didn't know he had dated her. Finding out he'd fathered a child with Julianna had been equally shocking.
Roy found Johnny in the locker room, washing his face.
"What happened," Roy asked.
Johnny looked at Roy through the mirror. "Two weeks after she left, she was in the hospital having a transfusion. She miscarried, Roy and I wasn't there. I didn't know," Johnny said.
"So where does this leave you and Juli. I mean, you still love her, right," Roy asked.
Johnny didn't say a word. He wiped his face with a towel and went to his locker. Roy waited for his partner to reply. Roy knew Johnny would answer on his own time.
Johnny sat down on the bench. "Yeah, but it doesn't do either of us a hell of a lot of good right now. There's too much baggage," Johnny said.
Johnny turned back to his locker and tossed in the towel. He got off the bench and headed to the day room and a glass of milk. Roy sat their, flabbergasted at the amount of information Johnny had just revealed to him.
Mike headed out to his car only to be stopped by Johnny. Mike had promised Julianna that he wouldn't say anything to him, but having Johnny seek him out pushed those promises out the window.
"Mike. Wait," Johnny said.
Mike stopped and turned around. "What's up, Johnny," he asked.
"You know about Julianna and me," Johnny asked.
"Yeah. Juli told me everything," Mike said.
"So you know about..." Johnny started to say, to embarrassed to continue.
Mike nodded. "I was there. I stayed with her in the hospital and Juli made me promise yesterday that I wouldn't say anything to you about my knowing. I'm not happy about what you and my sister did, but it's in the past and there's nothing I can do about it. I also believe her when she said that you would have been there, had she told you. I've worked with you long enough to know you're a lot of things, Gage, but I know you would have been there for my sister," he said.
"Believe it. I would have been there if I had known. Thanks for not holding it against me," Johnny said.
"No problem, but if something else happens between you two, I can't promise I'll be as forgiving a second time," Mike said.
They exchanged waves and both headed off to their homes. Johnny knew he wasn't going to get much sleep because he was going to be thinking about Julianna.
