Bittersweet
Sick and Tired
By: Chibi Ra Chan
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She slammed her bowl down.
The entire table stopped to stare at her with confusion. Her mother glared daggers at her in an attempt to shut her up but it was in vain. Both her little brother and Soon to be step sister also stared, not really understand the entire situation.
"I'm not stupid! God I'm so sick and tired of all the adults in my life treating my like I'm 4. I know damn well that it isn't a 'happy accident' that our families keep running into each other. Okay, I'm not blind. Don't keep lying to me.You don't have to snake around my back, hoping that I'll warm up to these people and it'll be okay when you get married and that we'll be one happy family!" She stood up and threw her napkin at the table and looked toward Ren, who was also staring at her, but not with confusion like the rest, his amber eyes showed her that he understood completely.
"Anna, honey, we can talk about this later when there aren't so many-" Her mother tried to keep the embarrassment from her face but it was nearly impossible with half the restaurant staring at you and listening to your personal affairs, it became a task in it's own. She went to grab her daughter's wrist but Anna had quickly pulled it away.
"What are you embarrassed mom? I'm sick of always giving away the things I want just so you can be happy. Not once have you tried to listen to what would make ME happy. It's always you! I'm tried of it. Maybe I want to be happy for once!" Anna turned to Mr.Tao who was listening honestly and unlike the others, with an open mind. "Sir, it has nothing to do with you, I'm sure that any girl would be happy to be your daughter but I'm just at my ropes end and I can't take it any more."
And with that Anna raced from the restaurant and into the raining night. As soon as her Daughter was gone Mrs. Kyouyama began apologizing on her behalf. "I'm terribly sorry about that, Anna's been a little, unstable, since her father left. She gets a little ahead of herself, and things like this happen."
Ren dropped his fork and rolled his eyes at his father and that woman in disgust. Standing up and jumping from the round dinner booth, he nodded at Jun, who smiled, and glared at Mrs. Kyouyama with contempt. "No, it's you who's unstable Anna's the only one who has a clear perspective here."
He ran after her.
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When he caught up to her she was trying (and failing) at hailing a cab. The rain still pour over head and thunder echoed through the night.Shaking his head and took of his jacket and put it over her shoulders.
She turned and looked at him with a look that clearly stated 'What are you doing here?'
He took her hand walk her over to some coffee shop that had a covered outside dinning area. "Come on let get something to eat" She smiled weakly and pulled him into a hug. If there was no one else in the world who understood her, she'd be alright as long as she had Ren by her side.
Pushing herself up of her tip toes she kissed him softly and honestly, which he returned with the same feelings. It was wrong maybe, but it felt so right.
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Dear diary,
I am going to hell when I die.
I am in love with my soon-to-be step brother.
It's horrible I know, but I can not help it. My mother told me that Mr. Tao finally proposed to her and that she said yes.It doesn't surprise me very much but nothing mom does anymore. She wants me to be her maid of honor, fat chance. It's like my entire outburst meant nothing to her. But really I do not care.
For the longest time I felt that I was the one who was wrong, that me being in love with Ren was something that I would have to get over, but now looking back I know I was wrong only in thinking it was my responsibility. I went out with Ren long before my mother decided to seduce his father. I was the one who fell in love, and I was the one who tried to hide it for the sake of her.
Not anymore.
I don't care if anyone finds out, I don't care if they call it strange, I just don't care. It's my life and my heart and I'm free to give it to anyone that I want.
Funny, awhile ago I thought that Ren and I were complete opposites but I know that I was incorrect, because when it comes down to it, we're both exactly the same.
To people who are sick and tired of being sick and tired.
/Anna/
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Owari
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A/N: Um yea if that was kinda strange, then I'll explain. Um the idea is that Ren and Anna like eachother, but their parents are dating and about to get married. Yeah I know, odd. ButI like this idea a lot and I was deeply inspired by the book 'If We Kiss' By Rachel Vail. It's a great book. Please read and review.
Forever and Eternally,
--Anna
