A/N Sorry about the wait for an update...Ive had a busy weekend. Hope you enjoy the new chapter....
Disclaimer:Althouh the actions throughout this story are a creation of my own.. i sadly had borrowed the characters from someone else.
First Kiss and Then Some
EPOV
I walked Bella to her front door. She was pretty much silent the whole ride home short of the whimpers she was making. In the past few weeks that I had been exposed to her she seemed like the head strong kind of suffer in silence type. You know… never lets you see them cry. I ached for her, this guy had broken her spirit and I was too afraid to try and comfort her.
I could tell however, that she was suspicious of something. The way she eyed Carlisle and I. The way she kept glancing at my arm expecting to see blood somewhere. Blood and cuts that she would not see.
"Um Edward my purse is back at school with the keys in it. There's a spare on top of the doorway. Could you get it please?"
She sounded so spent. I just wanted to hold her my arms and let her sleep. Sleep with me. Forever.
I had never seen the inside of her house. It was so homey. I followed her into the kitchen and she sat down at the table. I didn't want to leave her just yet. I needed to stall.
"Would you like me to make you some tea Bella? My mother says it calms nerves or something."
I wasn't lying. My real mother had said that to me. Bella lifted her head off the table and stared at me with pleading eyes.
"Thank you Edward. Im going to go and change."
I watched her walk out of the kitchen. I hadn't paid much attention to what she had been wearing. The cerulean dress clung to her tight body. My pants started to feel tighter and I got mad at myself for not being able to control my urges. I wanted her. I wanted to touch her soft skin and kiss her lips…But I knew I couldn't.
I wouldn't. There was too much at stake and I could never hurt her. I resolved myself to leaving her here with her tea and her perfect body and enchanting eyes and delicious scent. The shower turned on and I smiled to myself as I thought of her slipping her dress down to the floor and standing in the bathroom in all her gloriousness. If only I had x-ray vision...
BPOV
I felt like I could smell Mike breath in my hair. I just wanted to wash away this entire night. Well not the entire night. Edward was here with me. He was downstairs in my kitchen making me tea. He had insisted on driving me home instead of his father. He had saved me and held me. Protected me. And if im not mistaken he had almost kissed me in his fathers office. This had to mean something right?
However I couldn't help but think about the things I had seen. Something was different about his family. I had been hanging out with Alice for weeks and had never seen her so much as drink water. They were never in school on sunny days and their skin was always so cold… Not to mention how perfect they looked. Maybe they were like science experiments gone terribly awesome. And Edwards arm. I saw it go through the window. Im not crazy but he didn't have a scratch on him. And Mike flew into the car…
All this thinking was giving me an even worse headache. I was wasting time that I could have been spending with Edward alone for once standing in this shower trying to tear apart the most perfect man I had ever met. I couldn't call him a boy. Not after the way he had acted tonight, no he was the most perfect man.
I stepped out of the shower and wrapped a towel around me. I opened the bathroom door and walked right into him. Why was he always lurking outside closed doors????
"Damnitt Bella Im sorry. I..I.. You were taking so long… I thought maybe you had fallen… passed out or something." He was standing there with tea in his hand stammering. I was standing there in a towel looking at him. OMG. I was only wearing a towel. My knees started to shake. No one had ever been seen me like this.
EPOV
She was just standing there in this dinky little yellow towel looking up at me with her big doe eyes. I was rendered speechless. She looked ravishing. She had brushed her hair down in a cascade of brown waves around her perfect face down to the creamy skin that was flushed red from the hot water of her perfect breast peeking up at my from her towel. It was much the corset affect. He cheeks were flushed red and my throat starting burning. I felt like I could snap right then and take her in my arms and sink my teeth into the creamy skin of her neck.
BPOV.
He just stood there staring down at me. And I couldn't help but blush. You could cut through the tension between us with a knife. He exhaled and his cool breath washed over me again making me dizzy. I couldn't think straight, I just wanted to climb on his perfect body and kiss him. Run my ringers through his messy hair. Have him touch me. Kiss me back. Press me up against this damned wall. My body was starting to get hot as we stood there staring at each other, neither of us moved or spoke. His eyes went dark like the first time I saw him but there was something different about it.
EPOV
She wanted me as much as I wanted her. I could see it in her eyes. In fact I could smell it. The scent of her arousal was as sweet as her blood and I couldn't take it anymore. I was trapped. I couldn't will my body to turn away from her like I knew I should. I sat the tea down on a table that was next to her and put my other hand on her waist. Gently. Slowly. She's fragile. She didn't pull away as I had expected her to. She took a step towards me. The movement sent another wave of her scent over me. The whole time her eyes never left my face. My mouth pooled with venom as I felt myself hardening at her gently pressing her body to me. I swallowed hard and pushed her waist away knowing she would feel it through my thin sweat pants. I didn't want her to think I was a creep like Mike. But at this moment I couldn't help it. I was torn being wanting her and wanting her. I looked into her eyes and if felt like a lifetime had passed. She finally parted her lips and when she spoke I cold not deny her…
BPOV
I couldn't take it anymore. I had felt him against my thigh and I knew I wasn't mistaken. That was no flashlight in his pocket. He was staring at me with lust dripping from his eyes and oh God I wanted him, I didn't care about what had happened to bring us to this point. That seemed a lifetime away. This felt right and good and why was he taking so long to kiss me? He pushed my waist away from his and the absence of his hardness against me angered me. I wanted to feel it. I crashed my hips back into his and he blinked once.
"Kiss me Edward."
He wrapped his other arm around my back and grabbed a handful of my hair. I staggered back into the wall and I thought back to my dream again. Only this time it was right. His mouth was pressed against mine and I parted my lips to invite him in. His tongue dove into my mouth wrestling with mine. I brought my hands up to his face. I grabbed a fist full of his hair pressing his lips to me more. His taste absolutely amazing. It was like sweet honey and it was driving me mad. I was losing control. We stood there pressed against each other feverishly kissing in my hallway. It was like we had been waiting for this forever.
EPOV
Her taste was far better than anything I could have imagined. I tried with all my might to keep control of myself but was so hard. I kept leaning into her more exploring every corner of her mouth. I wanted to taste her everywhere. I brought my hand from her waist and picked her up. He legs hung like dead weight but she was so light and perfect in my arms. She detached her lips from mine and took in a long gasp of air. I turned in the direction of her bedroom and pushed the door open with my foot. Bella kissed my lips again and then my face. I could feel her perfect round breast pressed against my chest and damned the fabric that was between us keeping me from her warm skin. I laid her perfect body down on her bed. She pulled me on her top her biting her bottom lip playfully. I wanted that lip.
BPOV
Edward laid me down on my bed. Our bodies separated and I couldn't stand having him away from my any longer. I bit my bottom lip and I pulled him closer. He stopped moving and his arms stretched out at my side. He got on his knees in between my legs and touched my hair. He touched my face and his finger moved slowly across my bottom lip. God he was sexy, the way he was looking at me was making me so hot. I could feel the throbbing sensation and wanted him to touch me. But he just kept looking into my eyes. I grabbed his wrist.
His cool skin felt so good against my overheated body. I just needed him to touch me. I dragged his hand down the middle of my chest. His fingers flexed against the towel over my breast. I continued to push it down my stomach. I couldn't look up at him. I was too embarrassed but I needed it. I was sooo hot! I lifted my leg on the side of him and the towel fell down revealing my thigh. I stole a quick glance at him. He was staring at it. He took his other hand and touched it so gently. I took in a gasp of air at the cool sensation of his fingertips against my skin. I had never done anything like this before. But this would be it. Tonight Edward Cullen and I would make love and it would be beautiful.
I kept pushing Edwards hand lower and then he froze. It was as if he just realized what I was doing. I looked up at him scared that he hadn't meant to take things this far. Please don't reject me. Please don't realize who you are in this room with and walk away. He brought his hand back up to my face leaned down and kissed my lips. My body was literally shaking with desire for him this point. I wanted to jump inside his skin. Damnitt Edward don't stop. Please don't stop. You don't know how badly I want this.
He turned my face exposing my bruised face to him. That's it. He was turned off now. Reality and set in and this perfect moment was over. "Bella, My Bella" he whispered in my ear. The sound of his voice… oh god...you could have knocked me out with a feather. It was so sensuous the way he said my name. He kissed my face again and brought his lips back to mine. He body fell against me and our lips locked again. His hands reached down and grabbed my ass pulling me closer to him. My hands flew under his shirt clawing at the skin on his cool back. He was so hard like marble. And then I felt it pressing between my legs. Oh yes he was hard!
I wrapped on leg over his back pulling him towards me more. I just needed to feel him. He growled against my lips and pushed himself more onto me. I gyrated my hips into him. His growling was driving me wild. Edward pushed my face sideway trailing kisses along my jaw line and kissed my neck ever so lightly. He stopped and it was like he was inhaling me. His hands were on my waist pushing me down into the mattress. The pressure kind of hurt but the way he was drinking me in I didn't care. I wanted him to kiss my neck again. Kiss me again and never stop just keep moving south. I pressed my body onto his bringing my neck to his lips. He kissed me again. I moaned into his shoulder "Edward..Oh my god Edward. And then he just stopped. He pushed himself away from me clearing my room. His back pressed up again my dresser. "What the hell?"
EPOV
I could feel the blood coursing through her veins beneath my lips. Her body pressed against mine and it took every ounce on my self control not to rip that stupid towel from between us and just pound into her. The way she was pressing herself against me, I could barely contain myself. She pressed her neck to my lips again wanting me to kiss her. Stupid girl. You have no idea what you are doing to me right now. My body felt like it was being torn in half but I kissed her, her scent was intoxicating me and I couldn't stay away. But I would only kiss her. I would not allow my teeth to graze her skin because if I did she'd be done for. But then she moaned my name and for a second I almost faltered I had to get away.
I pushed myself away from her my back slamming into a dresser. I head it crack. She looked up at me bewildered. I fucked up. Fuck. Fuck. Shit. She got up on her knees and held the towel around. Her head was cocked to the side in confusion. "Edward…what… how did you…" She sat down and just looked at me like she was trying to figure me out. I wish I could read her mind, it was driving me crazy.
"I can't read your mind Bella, what are you thinking!" I yelled at her.
"You can't read my mind? What do you mean you can't read my mind? Why should you be able to?"
She looked angry. I had expected her to be scared. Throw something at me. Run screaming in to the street naked (although I can't say I wouldn't have wanted to watch that). But she just reached her hand out to me. "Talk to me Edward. What. What's going on?"
"You wouldn't believe me if I told you."
"Try me."
"It's best that I don't say anything. I'll just go. I won't bother you again. I will tell Alice to stay away from you too. I don't want to bring you into this."
"No!"
She looked wild for a minute. Like she would hit me or something. I wanted to laugh at her; she was so cute when she was angry.
"Edward, im not stupid. I figured out that you and you family are different. I just don't know why. I need to understand. I need to understand who I'm falling in love with."
"I...I can't Bella. I can't just tell you."
"Well you're going to have to tell me something or I'll just ask Alice! She'll tell me."
"No, she won't!"
She moved from the bed and walked over to me. I couldn't understand why she wasn't afraid. She grabbed my hand and held it over her heart.
"Do you feel that Edward? It's my heart . And it's yours. I swear what ever your secret is I'll carry it to my grave. "
"That what im afraid of"
"I would never do anything to hurt you Edward. Or your family. Ever"
She was saying she wouldn't hurt me and here I was afraid I would hurt her.
"I will tell you Bella. I want to tell you. You have the right to know. Just give me some time please. Give me some time to figure out how."
I kissed her fingertips and she smiled at me.
"Is it that bad?"
"Kind of yea."
"Okay Edward. Can you just answer one question for me though?"
"Yea, what?"
"Did you know something bad was going to happen to me tonight? Did you know that Mike was going to come after me in the lot? Its...Its just that Alice said you weren't going to come to the dance… and... and you like... you just came out of nowhere."
"That's two questions."
"Just answer!"
I didn't know how to answer it without her having more questions so I answered as simple as I could.
"No. No I didn't know. "
"Then why... Why were you yelling at Alice. You were yelling like she was supposed to know. "
Ugh. There was no getting out of this. I would just have to tell her now.
A/N.. Soooo Here comes the big confession. I had a I really hard time figuring out how i was gonna get it out of him which it part of the reason it took me so long to update...
As i always ask.. Please drop a lilttle review for me... They are an encouragement to keep going and let me know if there is anything you wanna see happen... after the next chapter the smut will commence full blown so for all you people just looking for naughty bits... you will be pleased... Also check out my other story Once Bitten... thats nothing but smuttness.....
