Chapter 7-

Two weeks later.

Seattle Grace Hospital

Derek sat staring down at the coffee in front of him but that wasn't what he saw he was back in the old home of Meredith Grey when the most important kiss in his life had ended.

Meredith's reaction had startled him to say the least, she'd literally jumped from the sofa out of his arms and ran up to her room locking the door firmly behind her before he'd even had a chance to draw breath. He'd sat outside the door pleading for her to come out and talk for over an hour but her only response had been muffled sobs except for one sentence

"You have a wife and I have… I have a …"

He knew then he should of told her about him and Addison but he doubted she would of even listened to him she was in no state to hear his marriage as from this morning was over, she would of blamed herself and the last thing he wanted to cause was anymore pain. In the end Christina had managed to persuade him to leave but by the time he got there first thing the next morning she'd gone back to wherever she had come from, they weren't giving that away either and he was half crazy with worry. She had returned for the funeral looking so pale and distraught that his heart had broken for her, but with her four friends constantly at her side he had had no chance of getting within speaking distance of her. Then it had been the same old story she'd gone again and he was left here out of his mind and wondering what the hell he'd done wrong. He knew he'd felt all their old passion and love in that kiss and that she felt something a lot like love for him still but their must be something else going on in her life.

"I have a… I have a…" But what did she have, there certainly wasn't a husband as she wore no ring and Christina would have happily told him that so what the hell was it?

"Derek are you okay?" The Chief asked and looking dazed Derek frowned

"Shouldn't I be asking you that?"

"But I'm not the one walking around in a dream, your existing Derek not living!"

"How can I? Tell me how to live without her again, how you can live when you have no idea why the women you love left you or even where she is?" and to this the Chief had no answer.

Boston

Meredith Grey sat cross legged on her sitting room floor playing with Cameron, toys surrounding them on all sides.

"Boat Mommy?" His chubby fingers held up the toy ferry boat she'd brought back with her, Cameron had fallen in love on sight even insisting he slept with it clasped tightly in his hands.

He was the image of his father from his curly chocolate brown hair to his mesmerizing blue eyes now shining with happiness at having his mommy all to himself, but he had her stubborn chin along with the famous McDreamy charm that made him irresistible to her. Just like his father she thought with a sad smile, it had seemed so natural and right for them to kiss but reality had returned with a smack. She loved him still she had known that but it wasn't just her that could be hurt and most of all how do you go about explaining he has a son she had purposefully kept him from knowing about. It scared her to think of him hating her and then there was Addison, she did not want to be a home wrecker…

"Fone," One hand tugged at her sleeve the other pointing to the ringing handset.

"Sorry Cam, mommy will get it!" She balanced the phone on her shoulder leaving both her hands free to carry on with his game.

"McDreamy is now McDivocee…" Izzy squealed down the phone before she had even had chance to say hello.

"What??" Meredith was unsure whether she was hearing right.

"McDreamy signed, McWife signed… They're all done Mer! Addison is even dating McSteamy…"

"Oh?"

He's free finally he's free could this be it could this mean???

"Meredith say something, you love him right you have too???" Izzy sounded impatient and Meredith nodded though Izzy couldn't see "I never stopped…"

"Well then here's your chance for your McLife, oh Mer don't give up on it now! It doesn't have to be just you and Cam any more!"

"I can't Izz, its too late and though its killing me there is just too much water under the whatever!" Meredith finally said already in tears after a long silence.

"But Mer can you be happy without him???" Izzy's voice was now full of concern and Meredith sighed through her tears "Il just have to try."

Putting the phone down she let the tears fall unchecked as Cameron with the same worried look his father would have used he hugged her

"No cry Mommy, no cry!"

Seattle Grace Hospital

Izzy found Christina, George and Alex eating lunch.

"Okay we know you two hate McDreamy for what he did to Meredith but we have to do something…"

"Why?" George and Christina asked together

"Because Meredith is broke and though we hate it he is the only person who can fix here this time cos we can't!"

"So little Miss Sunshine what do you suggest me, Bambi and Evil Spawn do?"

"I haven't got that far yet but we've all been there from the start of this so it's up to us to fix them cos they can't seem to do it on their own! If not for him we do it for Meredith and Cameron…"

"Well?" Alex looked to Christina

"She's my person… I'm in! But get this straight I'm only going along with this for Meredith!"

All three of them stared at George "I don't get a choice do I?"

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