Night of a Thousand Kisses
When we enter our first night chamber I am so impressed. It's laid with rose petals on every surface. The bed is made of goose down, the mattresses, the blankets, the pillows, everything! There is even a clear water pond. Not a hot tub, not a Jacuzzi, a freaking pond! With lilies and a little waterfall and stone walls and everything, it's beautiful! And there are scads of candles illuminating the room, their flames flickering red and gold and silver.
There is a tray, with a red colored potion on it and one small glass. I begin to wonder why only one when Mark explains. "It's a chastity drink. It's up to you if you take it or not, I don't mind either way. It's offered to newlyweds if they've ever been with another partner before. If you drink it, it makes you believe for one night only that what you are experiencing is actually your very first time. You would feel everything as if you never were with Jace. It would be, for tonight, as if I were your first. It doesn't erase your memories from before it just takes them away for tonight and you get them back in the morning. It's up to, Clary, whatever you decide." He states with a reassuring smile.
Seriously, the chance to feel while I am with Mark, as if he is the one deflowering me! That has been one of my big regrets going into this, that I don't have that to offer him. "You mean, I can drink this and it will feel like I'm a virgin on my wedding night? Exactly like it?" I ask.
"Yes, which is why I say it's up to you. With the first time comes the pain. You don't have to own that all over again, not for me, not if you don't want to." He smiles. And I've already made up my mind.
"I want to drink it, Mark. I want to have everything with you. And besides, with the pain comes the pleasure and the excitement of feeling it all for the first time, if I have that chance with you, of course I'm taking it silly!" I laugh. And then I go back to wondering why only the one glass. "But Mark, does it only work on brides or something? I notice there's only one glass." And he laughs at me as if I should have known.
"I don't need it, Clary. For me, this really is my first time. I'm still a virgin… I hope that doesn't put you off?" He smiles.
"Really…? Put me off…? No, Mark that's wonderful! But how, husband of mine? You're so darn delicious to look at that I could eat you! How has no woman ever claimed you in all these years?" I ask perplexed.
"Because for my whole adult life, I have wanted no one but you and I wanted… no, needed our first time to be my first time. I must admit I am glad you're drinking that. I had seriously hoped you'd want to." He grins.
"I'm ashamed that I have to drink it in the first place, Mark. I don't necessarily regret my time with Jace because it was a learning experience for me. But I do wish that I still had my purity to offer you." I sigh.
"That's what the drink is for. For all intents and purposes, you will. In fact the mind is such a powerful tool, you might even bleed as if you were a virgin Clary." He cautions.
I smile undeterred as I begin to sip the drink, which is, I might add… delicious! "Well in that case, did they have to give us white sheets?" I laugh and as soon as I am a few sips into the drink, it starts to take effect. I start to feel a bit nervous and a bit anxious. After all, I'm going to lose my virginity tonight. And I mean, I know Mark will be gentle, it's just a slightly frightening aspect still, since I've never done this before.
I wonder what it will be like. I mean I know it will hurt, but how else will it feel? I hope he enjoys me, I know he's a virgin too so, I guess we can practice together, which I imagine will be very fun. "Mark, I'm really nervous. Promise you'll be gentle?" I ask, concern clearly written on my face.
"Of course I will, my Beautiful. I love you so much Clary, my Bride." He smiles and lays me down on the bed. He holds me close and I wrap my arms around him. We don't take off my dress, since it's made of feathers and adds to the softness of the bed. Instead he just lifts it up and lines himself up at my entrance. I am so scared but I am loving this. He asks me with his eyes that it is okay to begin and I nod. Then, ever so gently, though it still hurts like crazy, he pushes himself inside of me.
"Oh Mark, hold me close and kiss me better Baby!" I gasp both from the pain and the pleasure I am starting to feel. He complies and holding me so very close he showers me with a thousand kisses, kissing all my pain away and soon, all I feel is bliss.
All too soon, our first time is over. "I'm so sorry it didn't last longer, we can work on that." He grins sheepishly.
"Don't be sorry, I loved every moment of it and we will be working on this particular activity together for the rest of our lives. In fact, we will have plenty of time to work on it when our seven days of festivities are over. When we go into the forest, can we please make love in all of the places from the dreams you sent me, Mark? Are they all real places?" I smile.
"Yes, my little Love Dove, they are all real places and we can be together in all of them!" He smirks playfully anticipating the prospect of those adventures coming to fruition, so am I.
"Good because I can hardly wait!" I laugh.
AN: Okay admit it Clark shippers, this was the chapter you've all been waiting for...the first night sex! ;-)
