7. The Deal
Renesmee's POV
So, basically life sucks. I finally get what I thought I wanted, but it doesn't really feel good. Okay, it doesn't feel good at all. Nahuel and I were walking back to the house, with me feeling basically like crap. My heart and my head were seriously at war. I was trying to tell myself that I had wanted a relationship and that I should just give Nahuel a chance while the pain I was feeling in my heart seriously threatened to crush me.
Nahuel was holding my hand and swinging our arms. Seriously, I don't think the guy could have been happier. We were almost to the house when I pulled my hand free.
"We're keeping this a secret, remember?" I asked, trying to put on a convincing smile.
"Oh right." He said smiling back.
"So you know that you can't think about it, at all. My dad is just going to read your thoughts and then we're both busted. Understand?"
"Yes, ma'am." He said seductively.
Whoa. Serious weirdness. I was pretty sure that Nahuel liked me a little more than I had thought before. Perfect.
We walked into the house and Jacob had joined my family on the couch. He was sitting next to Emmett and Jasper and the three of them were talking sports.
"Jake!" I half shouted with a smile plastered onto my face.
"Hi." He said a little slowly. He looked back and forth from me to Nahuel and I could guess what he was thinking.
"Where is everybody?" I asked.
"Rose, Alice, and Esme went out shopping. Your parents are back at home. Cleaning or something." Emmett snickered.
"Gross Emmett." I said rolling my eyes.
"Where have you been?" Jacob asked.
"Hunting." Nahuel answered a little short.
Jacob raised his eyebrows again looking back and forth between Nahuel and me. I walked over to where he sat on the couch and sat down by his feet.
"Where have you been lately?" I asked trying to make the conversation lighter.
"Just out patrolling." He said.
"Oh." I smiled up at him. He was very easy to smile at. He smiled back, almost twice as big and pulled me up on his lap like a little toddler.
"Do I get a baby bottle?" I asked in a little baby voice.
He laughed. "Yeah let's go get you one." He said pinching my cheek.
Jacob abruptly threw me over his shoulder which caught me totally off guard.
"Jake, what are you doing? Put me down!" I screamed pounding my fists against his back. I could have tickling him for all the effect it was having.
"Come on little baby. Let's go play outside."
Emmett and Jasper were laughing hysterically. It was probably quite a site; with me kicking and squirming wildly on top of a huge wolf/man. I glanced at Nahuel and he was definitely not smiling. There was a deep frown set into his tan face and when he caught my eyes I could see plainly that he was very unhappy.
I jerked my head up quickly in an effort to try and flip myself off Jake's shoulder and smacked my head on the top of the back door.
"OW!" I screamed.
Jake immediately set me down. "What did you do that for?" He asked trying to hide a smile.
"Jacob Black! You hit my head!"
"I did not! That was you."
"Bad dog!" I said pointing my little finger at his huge head.
Then we both started laughing. It was just giggles at first, but then we both exploded with laughter and I was holding my stomach just to try and keep it from hurting. I looked up at the door sill to see a little dent where my head hit it. This made me laugh even harder and I pointed up to the dent so Jake could see. He laughed harder when he saw it too and I fell onto the floor onto my back laughing. When our laughing finally subsided, I rolled onto my side to find Jacob sitting beside me.
We looked at each other and smiled. And it was about right then that I remembered Nahuel.
"Oh shoot! Where did Nahuel go?"
"We left him in the living room." Jacob instantly had a serious and suspicious look on his face.
I hopped up off the floor before he had a chance to question me and walked into the living room. It was just Emmett and Jasper.
"Hey guys, did you see where Nahuel went?"
"He said he wasn't feeling very well. He went upstairs to sleep. He asked that no one bother him." Jasper said eying me suspiciously.
I sighed and headed for the stairs.
"Seriously Nessie I think you should leave him alone." Jasper added.
"Well, okay." I said walking back to the kitchen.
Jacob was still where I left him, sitting on the kitchen floor with a concentrated look on his face.
"Uh-oh. That's your thinking face." I said laughing.
Jacob just smiled back at me and opened his arms. I said down on his lap without hesitation. "Let's go outside by the river." He said suddenly.
"Okay." I said as I stood up.
We just walked the short distance instead of running. Neither of us was in a hurry.
"So…" Jacob started.
I looked up at his face to try and read his expression. "So, how are you?" I asked.
"I'm fine, Nessie. I'm curious though. What's going on between you and Nahuel?"
"Nothing." I said shortly.
"Well, maybe you're not feeling anything for him, but I know he's feeling something for you."
"What makes you say that?" I tried to keep my voice even.
"I saw how he looked at you when we were messing around. And then he went upstairs to pout. It's kind of obvious."
"I don't like Nahuel." I stated. I thought he would see through the lie, but surprisingly it sounded very truthful. Maybe because it was the truth.
"I believe you. I just think he likes you. You better be careful." He added seriously.
"Careful?" I asked, genuinely confused.
"Nessie, he looks at you like he's hungry for something. It's just something about him that just makes me a little worried. Just be careful is all I'm saying. I'm not going to tell you who to date; I'm just asking you to be smart." He added.
"Thanks, dad." I said trying to blow off his little speech.
"Shut up." He smirked down at me.
I stuck my finger in the river water. "It's warm enough to swim in." I commented lamely.
I looked up at him and he was smiling down at me. "You wanna?"
"Yes!" I said laughing. "Just let me go on back to the house and change really quick."
When I got to the river, it turned out that everyone was back home and everyone was changed to go and swim. Even Nahuel was outside in a pair of swim trunks. I skipped over to where everyone was at, talking and laughing. This wasn't a usual thing that we did. I only remember swimming with the whole family once when I was around three.
I walked over to the group and stood by my mom and dad. My mom had a black one piece swimsuit on that was very elegant but still stylish. My dad was still wearing a t-shirt with his swim trunks. I quickly took off my shirt to reveal a bright yellow bikini with a red embroidered flower on the top piece of the swimsuit. Rosalie had gotten it for me for my birthday.
"Ready to swim?" I asked my parents eagerly.
My mom smiled and nodded at me while my dad had a huge frown on his face.
"Are you sure you want to swim, Nessie. There are other things to do." He said quickly.
"Yeah, dad I'm sure."
He swept his eyes over my swim suit and I immediately saw what the problem was. He was worried his daughter was dressed a little inappropriately. I laughed when I saw his expression. I turned around and walked to the edge of the river. I was about to jump in with Emmett, Rose, Alice, Jake, and Jasper when I felt someone push me in from behind. I went flying into the river screaming at the top of my lungs. When I emerged from the water's surface I heard Nahuel's laughter.
"Nahuel!" I yelled angrily.
"I couldn't resist." He admitted weakly.
He jumped in laughing and we swam over to join everyone else.
"Water fight!" Emmett declared as soon as I had reached their little circle. Alice and Rose were squealing as the boys nearly drowned them with water. Emmett was smacking the water with his massive hand which caused a tidal wave with each smack.
"Emmett! Try and keep the water in the river!" Carlisle yelled laughing. He was wearing a sweater and swim trunks. Yeah, Carlisle would be the only person to ever do that. My parents were sitting in the grass beside Carlisle and Esme. It didn't look they were planning on getting in anytime soon.
"Fine." Emmett frowned.
"I have an idea! Let's play chicken!" Jasper said excitedly.
Emmett quickly agreed and Rose, Alice, and I looked at each other and shrugged.
"Why not?" I asked as I started to swim to Jake.
Nahuel grabbed me from behind.
"Hop on Nessie!" He tried to keep his voice light but it sounded a little commanding.
"Okay." For some reason, I thought it would be a good idea not to argue with him.
After all the girls were on the boys we formed a little circle.
"You guys up there can judge!" Alice shouted to Carlisle, Esme, and my parents sitting on the shore.
"Alright everybody get ready. On your mark, get set, go!" Shouted Esme.
Emmett lunged for Nahuel and I while Jasper and Alice started to go after Rose and Emmett. I was laughing as I tried to fight off Rose as she tried to fight off Alice. Emmett kicked Nahuel in the back of the knee cap and we were the first pair to go down.
"Haha chickens!" Emmett yelled pointing at us and laughing.
"Emmett!" Rosalie screamed as Jasper head butted Emmett and Alice pushed them over, causing a huge wave.
Once Emmett got above the surface, he was screaming for a rematch. Nahuel and I stood by each other in the water, laughing.
"We're not very good partners." I said laughing.
"You don't think so?" He asked me half serious.
I tried to blow it off with a laugh as I got out of the river. Jacob was standing on the shore by my parents and I walked over to them dripping wet.
"Are you done, honey?" my mom asked offering me a towel.
"Yeah thanks." I said taking the towel.
Jake was eerily quiet. It was a little uncomfortable standing there, so I laid my towel out on the grass and tried to catch the random spurts of sunshine that would break through the clouds.
"Nessie, come with me." Nahuel said, holding out his hand.
"No Nessie! Don't listen to him, come to me!" Jacob shouted holding out his other hand.
"He doesn't love you, Nessie. Only I do." Nahuel said in a hypnotic voice.
"Renesmee he's lying. You can't possibly believe him over me."
"Renesmee." Nahuel said once more, holding out his hand.
"No! I won't choose!" I screamed at the two of them.
"You have to." Jacob said.
I took a step closer to Nahuel. Then Nahuel lunged at me and as he got closer, he smiled an evil smile. He knocked me over pinned me to the ground and whispered in my ear, "You should have picked Jacob."
I woke up startled. I looked around me to see that I was in my bed and my alarm clock said it was around 3:00 A.M. I laid my sweaty forehead against the pillows and tried to breathe calmly in and out and slow down my heart rate. It was ridiculous that a dream should shake me this badly. As soon as my pulse was normal and I had stopped panting, I started to hear some awkward noises coming from my parent's room. I gracefully leaped off of the bed and stepped quietly outside. I was sure they wouldn't notice.
I just needed to go on a little walk to clear my head. I walked farther into the woods instead of towards the Cullen house, just needing to be alone. I had told myself that I didn't want imprinting to be what kept Jake and me together. And I loved just being his friend. I loved him being my best friend. When he was with me it just felt like I could breathe a little easier.
However, Nahuel was a good friend too. He was the only one who truly knew what it meant to be a rare kind. I was the only one out of my family that wasn't completely vampire. I was a half breed, a freak. Nahuel had known what that felt like. He was with me when I realized that I wasn't like mommy or daddy or any of my aunts and uncles. I had never thought of him romantically, but as I thought back to our kiss in the grass, it really was nice. And I had let him do it, so if I turned back now that would be hurting Nahuel.
The real trick was trying to do this without hurting anyone. Dating Nahuel would hurt Jake, but dumping Nahuel would hurt Nahuel and cutting both of them off completely would make us all three unhappy.
My mom and her situation as a teenager came into my mind. Only, there was one difference; I would not be the cause to Jacob's pain. Nahuel and I would keep our relationship severely under wraps, and no one else would ever find out. I figured if we dated for around a month and I felt like I wanted to keep dating, I would tell everyone.
Right then I made myself a deal, if after a month, I felt like I loved Nahuel, he would be the one that I would choose. If at the end of the month Nahuel and I weren't working out, I would try and pursue a relationship with Jacob. If I survived that long.
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