5th October 1999
This is the first time I've returned to Grimmauld place in months, I'd almost forgotten about this diary! So much has happened; I don't even know where to start.
Voldemort is dead! Harry defeated him in a grueling fight to the death, and we thought we'd lost him for a moment. We managed to take over the headquarters after that and althoughEnglandis still crawling with Death Eaters, we have the upper hand.
The country is still in ruins, but if we band together we can fix it. We can fix each other, we can fix everything. There seems to be a lighter tone in the house today, compared to last time we were here. Draco is helping me box my things- I'm moving into his house…
Doesn't that sound ridiculous? Hermione Granger is moving into Draco Malfoys house. I can hardly believe it myself, but I don't want to live alone. Nightmares have been haunting me for a long time, and I wouldn't be able to cope with them alone… we're moving fast, but I think all this has taught us to live for the present and stop worrying for the future. After all, Voldemort sympathizers could get us any day and we'd be gone forever.
He told me he loved me, and I didn't say it back. I couldn't, I can't- I can't love again, not yet, I'm not ready for that. With Ron, I didn't say it back and I'm glad because I didn't, but maybe with Draco the foundations for love are there. The fact that he doesn't care that I can't say it back yet speaks volumes for itself, because he's sticking around when many men wouldn't. We argue, we scream and shout at each other and storm out of the room, I've cried to him, he's let me into his heart and his deepest fears, he fascinates me but confuses me, yet I'd do anything for him and he'd do anything for me, he's even saved my life. Maybe just for once, it's enough. Maybe I'm finally enough for someone, and they're finally enough for me.
We're telling everyone (well, formally) about our relationship tonight. I hope they're supportive- I'm sure they will be. Most of them have ideas, and they've seen us close and know I nursed him back to health as well as the fact we were held hostage together. They know Draco's not the same man anymore, I'm sure most of them would trust him with their lives by this point, and after all, many unlikely relationships have come from all of this. I'm happy for everyone, I'm happy we can all move on with our adult lives, finally, even if we have to stick the jigsaw pieces back together with glue, we'll do it.
I'll write soon to let you know how it goes, I hope…
A/N- I'm hoping one or two more entries and I'll be done! Don't forget to review my lovelys!
