Damon was surprised, one moment he was standing practicing with Bonnie and next thing he knew he was on the floor being straddled by her. Instead of getting her off him he was frozen, captivated by her green eyes that were staring down at him conveying the same surprise he felt. And then in walked Elena looking for Stefan breaking him out of the trance he was in, he chose to leave them alone to talk and head to his room. On the way there he didn't know why but he felt disappointed that Elena had disturbed whatever moment they had been having.
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After Elena left Bonnie was alone, seeing that Damon had also left it could only mean that their lesson was over. Calling out a goodbye she walked to her car and drove home wanting nothing more than to lie on her bed and sleep. Yet it seemed that her head had other ideas, sleep eluded her. All night she tossed and turned trying to lull herself to sleep but Damon's face kept popping up behind her eyelids everytime she closed her eyes. The scene of him lying underneath her kept replaying over and over in her head. It wasn't until the early hours of the morning that she welcomed sleep which was accompanied by dreams of Damon.
5 Weeks Later
For weeks Bonnie kept having countless dreams of Damon. Sometimes they would be married, other times she would just dream of kissing him so passionately, but the one that was most frequent was of them making love to each other. Those dreams confused and terrified her, was that what she really wanted. Cinderella did say that a dream was a wish your heart made. Did her heart know something her head didn't. Did she like Damon but was too proud to accept that she had fallen for the guy she said she never would. She needed someone to talk to, get someone elses opinion on her dreams. Calling Caroline she was glad to know they could meet right now. Not wanting anyone they knew to hear their conversation Bonnie told her to meet at a coffee house she had recently visited instead of their usual hangout, the Mystic Grill.
Le Chat Noir Coffee House
Bonnie enters the coffee house and looks around for Caroline, once she spots her she walks towards the table she is sitting at. After they have ordered their coffees and pastries, Bonnie begins talking.
"Caroline, thank you for coming. I really needed someone to speak to"
"What are best friends for. So are we just waiting for Elena now"
"Actually Care, I. . . I didn't invite Elena"
"Okay, so why do you need to talk"
Just then the waitress who took their order returned with their coffee and pastries, interrupting Bonnie from what she was going to say. Thanking her, Caroline took a sip of her coffee while Bonnie gathered her courage once again to let Caroline know why they were meeting. Breathing in and out Bonnie started.
"How do I put it. For some weeks I've been having these dreams and. . ."
Before she could let her know what her dreams were about Caroline interrupted her firing off question after question
"Are they like visions? Are we going to be attacked again. Are you going to be attacked, are you in danger again? Or is this about Elena, is she the one in danger? Is that why you didn't invite her, you don't want her to worry? If it's an attack we have to let everyone know so we can defend ourselves."
"Care if you could let me finish. No it isn't about an attack, I've actually been dreaming about Damon and no not of his death as much as you hope. I dream of us being in a relationship, being married, having sex, and when I wake up I am confused and disappointed. Disappointed that he isn't sleeping next to me like in my dreams, disappointed that the person he actually likes is Elena. Because I'll be honest Care I like Damon, I don't know when it happened or how but I fell for him" Admits Bonnie as she looks at Caroline with unshed tears. "I didn't invite Elena because as much as she tries to deny it I know she wants and likes Damon and I don't want her to be mad at me. Remember Paul, when she found out that you liked him as well she was so mad she didn't talk to you for a whole month"
"Bonnie, as her friends we know that Elena isn't perfect, hell we aren't perfect. She has this notion that only she can like a guy and you know how she strings along guys who like her. I'm not sure if she does it intentionally or she doesn't see that she is stringing Damon along. Look I might not be a big fan of Damon but if you really like him go for it don't let Elena stop you. Who knows maybe you'll be a healthier relationship than the one he had with Katherine or would ever have with Elena".
"What do you mean healthier" asked Bonnie
"You have to admit that Katherine did a number on Stefan and Damon, she made both of them fall in love with her, she faked her death and entrapment in the tomb. Her "death" made Damon hate Stefan, and you saw what happened when they discovered that she wasn't trapped in that tomb. Damon's relationship with Elena would be toxic, for one he was after her because of her similarity to Katherine and his promise of making Stefan misabrable for eternity, it would only cause the rift in their brother relationship to grow. You can show Damon what it feels to be loved unconditionally and not worry about you liking his brother as well. So my advice would be for you to let him know what you feel for him, whatever happens I will always be here for you".
"Thanks Care I needed this, talking to you has helped me alot. So enough about me, How have you been? Have you heard anything about Stefan?"
" Not since he dropped by my house five weeks ago saying that he was leaving and didn't know when he was coming back"
He'll get in touch when he gets back. What do you say after we have finished drinking this coffee I actually treat you to a real meal, preferably at the Mystic Grill".
"Deal, I'm glad I can be here for you. Remember every time you need someone to talk to, I'm here to lend my ear".
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It was another friday as always for Damon waiting for Bonnie to come to the mansion for their daily lessons. While he waited he thought about how weird Bonnie had been acting recently, everytime they sparred she wouldn't look him in the eye and if by some chance their eyes did meet she would quickly look away. He noticed it all started five weeks ago, he didn't know what had gotten into her but he hated how distant she had become. He'd gotten so used to her blabbering on about her day and being comfortable in front of him as to fall asleep. He would confront her today and demand to know why she was acting the way she was. All he had to do was wait until she arrived and he would get the answers he needed. An hour and a half later Bonnie walks through the front door and says a meek greeting.
"Hi"
"Bon Bon" greets Damon with a slight head nod. "Before we start today's lesson I actually want to speak to you about something Bon Bon"
"Okay, what about".
"I want to talk about the way you have been acting. You've been acting weird not looking at me in the eye, just like you are doing right now. What's wrong you can tell me anything you know"
"I'm fine Damon"
"No Bon Bon you aren't, I thought we were close enough for you to feel comfortable telling me anything. I'm here for you Bonnie" Damon said in a serious voice while facing her.
Thinking whether to tell him the truth or just run away, she decided to take Caroline advice and just tell him everything.
"You want to know what's going on with me Damon, I'll tell you what's going on. I like you okay and not like a friend, I like you as a woman likes a man. I tried fighting off these feelings but I just couldn't. You kept saving my life, helping me out like that time at the beach, and at New Orleans I saw another side of you. And I know you love Elena and you will never reciprocate my feelings. I just wanted to take some good advice I go and tell you my feelings, I'll be taking my leave now I don't think I could practice having just told you all that" Not looking back Bonnie ran out of the boarding house
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5 Weeks Ago
After leaving the boarding house Elena drove around town hoping she could find Stefan and with any luck get out of her head what she witnessed. Having no luck finding Stefan and even less luck forgetting what she saw at the boarding house she decided to head that he would be at her house she was disappointed when she arrived and there was no sign of Stefan, expecting to see him tomorrow Elena went to sleep.
Elena woke up to the first rays of the day illuminating her room and her first thoughts on finding Stefan and clearing up everything. Lady luck seemed to be on her side for once she stepped out of her house there was Stefan waiting on her porch.
"Stefan, I was just about to go look for you. It's all been a misunderstanding, It was about Damon but not for the reason you think. I don't want Bonnie to do anything with Damon not because I feel something for him but because of the way he feels for me. If Bonnie falls for him she will only end up getting hurt".
"Elena, I'm not here to talk to you about that. I actually came to tell you that I am leaving Mystic Falls for a while to clear my head"
"Stefan you don't need to do this we can work this out. . . don't doubt my feelings for you."
"This isn't about you or what you feel. This is about me, what I feel and understanding what it is I want to do with these feelings. I need some time to think what is the best thing for me to do. I just wanted to have the decency to say goodbye and not leave without letting you know what I decided. Bye Elena"
Before Elena could make a grab at him to stop him from leaving, he'd already sped away leaving her to grab at air. She tried calling him with no reply only a message stating that the person she was calling was unavailable. Not knowing where he was going all Elena could do was cry in sadness and rage.
Present - 5 Weeks Later
Elena hadn't heard from Stefan in a month, every time her phone rang she would answer as fast as possible hoping it was Stefan. Her hopes were always dashed, but that never stopped her from hoping one day it would be him. Such as right now her phone was ringing , running towards her room where she'd left it she was disappointed when it once again wasn't Stefan but a telemarketer. Hanging up she went back to lying on her bed thinking on what went wrong with her and Stefan's relationship. Needing to be with her friends she called Caroline and Bonnie. Caroline answered at the first ring she told her to come to her house, Bonnie on the other hand went to voicemail. Now that she thought about it, it was a Friday she probably was with Damon taking her self defense lessons.
Five minutes after she had called Caroline she was knocking on her door.
"Did you run here"?
"Yeah, you sounded like you needed to see me as soon as possible" said Caroline as Elena let her into her house.
While they were getting comfortable in the living room there was a knock on her door again. Wondering who it could be she walked to the door, as she was opening it Stefan popped into her head. But the person behind the door was't Stefan it was Damon. Her heart beat a bit faster until he opened his mouth.
"Is Bonnie here"
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She was so stupid, what had she been expecting to happen when she confessed to Damon. For him to confess that he felt the same way ever since they started hanging out and that he'd been too blind not to see it sooner. That was just wishful thinking on her part for he might dally around with other women but in his heart there would always be Elena. Not wanting to be around her friends who would persistently ask her what was wrong she decided to go to the only place she felt at ease, the Old Witch House. She'd ran there as if possessed that she didn't notice the branches scratching her skin. Just being in close proximity to it made her feel calm , entering she was greeted by the spirits.
"Hello Child, what brings you back"
"I came seeking some peace and quiet"
"What ails you child, I sense that your heart is in turmoil"
"I regret letting myself like the person who has my heart like this".
"Child you can not control who your heart decides to fall for as much as humans can control the weather".
"I should have known better, he would never look at me. Compared to Elena who's a beauty I'
m just average"
"Child you should not be so hard on yourself you may not be the beauty that your friend is but you're beautiful in your own way. Never forget that. We shall leave you to your peace and quiet"
Leaving her alone Bonnie laid on the floor and closed her eyes being lulled by their comforting presence she could still sense. Without planning to do so, she was so at peace that she fell asleep in the middle of the
room.
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Damon watched as Bonnie left, the whole time she'd been confessing her feelings he'd been silent not knowing what to say to her. What he did know was that Bonnie was his friend and he cared about her wellbeing. He didn't like the way she had left so he decided to go after her just to make sure she was okay. Assuming that she might go to Caroline or Elena's he set out to find her and speak with her about her confession now that he had time to get his thoughts together. Heading towards Caroline's first; for Bonnie had been hanging out more with her recently, at the door he was created by Liz.
"Hey Liz, is Caroline or Bonnie here"
"Damon, No they aren't here. Caroline actually got a call from Elena, she just left about 6 minutes ago. Why are you looking for them".
"Thanks Liz, Well you can say I agitated Bonnie and I need to find her to make things right. I'll see you around"
"Bye Damon"
Speeding away he arrived at Elena's in less than a minute and knocked on her door. As soon as the door was opened he just blurted out.
"Is Bonnie here"?
Damon saw Elena take in the fact that he was at her door asking for Bonnie. Steadily she answered
"She isn't here"
"Elena you are her friend where else would she go, I know you must be hiding her. Tell her I need to talk to her, she ran off before we could talk"
From behind Elena he could see Caroline walking towards them to the front door. Standing next to Elena she faced Damon.
" Elena is saying the truth Bonnie isn't here. She might be at the Old Witches House it's the only place where she feels at peace or so she's told me. Whatever you did to her you need to talk and fix it".
Damon sped away without thanking Caroline, wanting to reach the witch's house before Bonnie decided to leave and go somewhere else.
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"Caroline why did you tell him where she might be, there's a reason why she ran away from him. What if she doesn't want to see him"
"Elena this is between them, they need to clear the air and communicate like the adults they are. And anyway Damon is so irritating he probably said something that didn't sit well with her and that just made Bonnie mad. I'm actually surprised that he is not being his usual dick self and is actually going after her to explain"
While Caroline had been talking and stating her point of view on Damon's character change, Elena had been bristling on the inside. Why was it that when it came to Bonnie, Damon was very protective of her and didn't mind if she took up his time or made him change plans . Around her he wore a genuine smile not one of those cocky ones he showed the rest of the world. That just infuriated her so much. Without Caroline noticing she messaged Bonnie letting her know that Damon was looking for her and he was headed to the Old Witches House.
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Getting close to the Old Witches House Damon began to think on how he would start the conversation with Bonnie. Nearing the door and hoping that the witches wouldn't give him an aneurysm he came to a sudden halt he smelt blood, not just any blood but Bon Bon's blood. Damon charged in to the house not worrying whether the witches would blow up his brain when he stepped inside. The first thing he saw as he entered was Bonnie lying in the middle of the house not moving, the smell of blood was coming from that direction but he could not see what her injuries were. Speeding next to her body he pulled her against his body and began calling to her.
"Bon Bon, I'm here, I'm here. What did you do to yourself"
All of Damon's jostling around woke up Bonnie who was surprised to see him there.
"Damon! Why are you manhandling me"
At the same time the witches gave him the worst aneurysm he ever felt, he was thankful to Bonnie for talking with the witches and making them stop. Making them understand that he was not a threat to them or her.
"Bon Bon, you're okay. I smelled blood and thought you'd done something stupid to yourself.
"I'm okay they're just scratches from branches as I ran here. So why are you here Damon"?
"We never talked about what you told me at the mansion, we need to clear this up"
"I thought your silence said everything that needed to be said, and anyway everyone knows how you really feel it's not a mystery. So there's nothing to talk about you can leave, also I think I've learned enough so there is no need to continue our lessons"
"Will you be quiet and let me speak. I didn't say anything because I was trying to get my thoughts together. I'll admit that I love Elena but ever since the whole Ciarán incident you've had me topsy-turvy. I've dreamed of you and me being in an intimate position, and that time that you fell over me if Elena hadn't walked in I would have probably kissed you"
"You've said it Damon 'probably', you're just confused because of how quickly we got close. For you it's always been Elena and nothing is going to change that and I accept it".
"Who are you to state what my feelings are or whether they can change or not"
"Damon don't patronize me ever since you laid eyes on Elena you haven't wavered in your feelings"
Feeling his blood boil at how thick and close minded Bon Bon was being it caused him to act impulsively. Moving fast he grabbed her face with his hands holding her in place and leaned in planting his lips on hers. He started kissing her softly deepening the kiss, nipping at her lips asking for permission to heaten up the kiss.
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Bonnie was in cloud nine, she could feel Damon's smooth lips moving against hers. This couldn't be happening, this surely was a dream and any second now she would wake up. The only sense of reality she felt was the lack of air she was feeling. Breaking away from Damon in order to breath, that action woke her up from the haze she'd been in.
"Damon why did you do it"
"I don't know, it just felt like something I should do. But I don't regret it"
"I need space Damon, this is just getting my hopes up. Please don't follow me.
