Chapter 7: blunt truth
Sasuke slipped through the door of the giant house soaking wet. It had started to rain not much after he had hailed down a cab. Shitty weather for a shitty night…perfect. He slipped off his shoes, threw off his button up shirt and was left with jeans and a solid white shirt. He shook his head like a wet dog before walking quietly across the living room to the hall at the other end of the room.
"Sasuke." He heard someone say before he was halfway across the room. He didn't even notice the lamp on, next to the leather armchair with a silver haired man lounging in it. Kakashi put down the latest copy of Makeout Paradise and waited for Sasuke to say something.
"Oh…h-hey Sensei." Sasuke said, trying to clear his head. It was like he had been in a trance this whole time. Through the long ride home all he could think about was Sakura and everything he had lost with her.
"Have a good night?" Kakashi asked not showing if he knew what had happened or not.
"Hn."
"…I see." Kakashi said, his expression unreadable. "You look tired. I won't keep you any longer."
Sasuke just nodded and walked quickly to the hallway. Just when he thought he was in the clear Kakashi spoke again.
"Oh and Sasuke…" He said as he lifted to book back up to find his page. "I don't know what you did to Sakura but if you don't fix it by the time Naruto comes back… he'll kill you."
"Hn." Was all Sasuke said even though he really wanted to say 'he won't be able to kill me because I'll have killed myself by then!' but that seemed a little dramatic for his taste.
The hallway seemed long than usual and Sakura's door bigger than normal. As he passed it he could hear a guitar play but didn't think anything of it. He stopped just as he passed her door and turned back slowly. He tip toed closer and pressed his ear to the door. Maybe… just maybe she was singing and then maybe…just maybe he could see inside her head. See how bad he really had screwed things up.
And his prayers were answered, just like that. He could hear her soft sweet voice singing.
"I think that possibly, maybe I've fallen for you… yes there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you."
Sasuke waited for the point in the song where it all of a sudden changed and told about what a back-stabbing-evil-black-hearted-bastard he was but it never came.
"I've seen the path that your eyes wander down, I wanna come too… I think that possibly maybe I'm falling for you. No one understands me quite like you do through all of the shadowy corners of me.."
Sasuke didn't care about the rest of the song. He ran down the hallway (which still seemed very long) and straight into his room. He pulled his guitar case out of the corner and unsnapped the locks. He threw it open and grabbed his acoustic guitar out. He was probably going to make an idiot out of himself. Not because he couldn't sing or play the guitar, but because he'd never gone this far for a girl. Nor would he ever again. He jogged up to Sakura's door and pushed it open just as she was about to lock it. She looked like a deer in headlights and he looked like a man on a mission.
"Heard me coming?" He asked as he nodded towards to lock.
Sakura tightened her mouth as she turned around and stomped back to her bed. "GO AWAY!" she said like a five year old as she flopped down onto her bed.
"I heard you sing." He stated flatly as he completely ignored her by closing the door behind him and walking towards her.
"What?" she snapped as she rolled over to face him, still on her stomach. She sat up as he plopped himself down at the other end of her bed. "You can't do that!" she cried as a furious blush over took her face.
"It's not the first time." He said with a guilty expression.
Sakura clenched her jaw as her eyes widened in rage. "That's not fair! I can't hear what you're thinking!"
Sasuke crossed his legs and pulled his guitar into his lap. "You're right."
Sakura opened her mouth to say something but then shut it at a lose of words. "Um…yes…yes I am right!" She said as she gathered her composure.
"Well then I think it's time for payback right?" He said as he looked down at his guitar.
She raised her eyebrows at him and stared for a minute. She finally pushed her hair back and took a deep breath. "Well, I'm waiting." She said, still staring at him.
Sasuke raked his minds for the perfect words. For something that was poetic and beautiful. A song that had the kind of phrases kids put up on facebook and myspace. But then again… what was more beautiful then blunt truth? He knew exactly what song to sing.
"She pulls me in, pushes out. Has her plans and has her doubts I'm falling somewhere in between. She makes it obvious enough…"
Sakura's mouth dropped open. "bastard.." she mumbled
Sasuke only smiled. "She asks me why? I ask back. Seems my best defense so far is what I lack. This shit goes round and round and round….. but if it all came down to love…"
"What are you saying?" Sakura mumbled more to herself then him. First he sings about how she's so uncertain about him and now he was going to sing about love? Idiot…
He looked up to her and she tried to find the lying in his eyes. All she saw was truth. Blunt truth.
"I love you deeper then I can swim, feel my lungs caving in. Nobody's saving me now. I love you stronger than I can hold, worth what I'm dying for. Nobody's saving me now."
Sakura could feel the tears come to her eyes. She wasn't much for love songs but this one suited her just fine. It was kind of hard to believe that someone could love you after what she'd been through.
"You're so much better than I deserve, more than these stupid words."
He started to slow down and sing softer now, hoping she would catch how much he actually meant with every word.
"Page after page scribbled down."
Sakura looked up as a tear fell down her cheek.
"I'm going crazy so crazy…"
. Could he love her? Actually really love her, no lies?
"Nobody's saving me now."
Sakura shifted her gaze back down to her lap as another tear fell down her cheek.
Sasuke didn't say anything. If she told him to leave, he would. If she told him to stay, he would. If she told him to jump off a cliff, he would.
"It's just really hard, ya know?" She whispered after a minute. She still didn't look up at him as tear after tear fell onto the back of her hands. "Conner told me that he loved me… and what he did to me… that's what people do when they love each other. But everyone else told me that he only said he loved me so I would think that he didn't actually ra-" She choked on the last word as she squeezed her eyes tighter. "Please," she squeaked, her voice barley audible. "I love you too…. so please, I'm begging you for the love of god please just don't hurt me!" She cried as she started bawl. She buried her face in her hands as she felt her body heave at every sob.
Sasuke gently set his guitar on the floor and pulled himself closer to her. He grabbed one of her forearms and pulled her into an embrace. He laid them both back on the bed, still holding her as she cried.
"please..." she begged again as she buried her face into his chest.
He kissed the top of her head as he rubbed her back up and down trying to calm her. "I wouldn't ever dream of hurting you, I promise."
Not too much later she had calmed down. They laid there at least an hour in silence, Sasuke toying with the ends of her hair and Sakura thinking, wondering if she could really trust this man.
"I love you" is by Benji Davis Project. It's a REALLY good song and people always love it, I'm not sure why it's not really popular. Here's the music video…. song Sakura sings is called "falling in love at a coffee shop" by Landon Pigg. You might have heard it on that jewelry commercial.
