Chapter 7

Undeniable

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Hey guys! So my beta got this back to me within one night which is amazing. Now I know this chapter's more on the short side of events but I wrote what I found needed to be written for this chapter, so hopefully you guys all like it. Alright, so here you are and enjoy!

Songs:

Words Meet Heartbeats-Parachute (Alec and Magnus-Bathroom)

I Wanna Hold Your Hand-The Beatles/Across the Universe/Glee

Phoenix Burn-Alpha Rev

Hey-Backseat Goodbye


Magnus listened to the soft snoring of Alec filling the dorm room. He couldn't help but smile as he remembered last night. It had been everything he imagined and more. Alec had been perfect. Magnus had never before felt the way he did last night with him in his arms. It felt so easy with Alec. Magnus didn't feel like he was trying to be something he wasn't and that was one thing he had always wanted. He didn't see any judgment in Alec's eyes. He just saw innocence and understanding. He saw a man who was rare in the world and he saw a man that he wanted all to himself.

Magnus still couldn't shake the image of Alec's face when he admitted he didn't know what to do. Alec looked so ashamed and embarrassed yet Magnus found the whole thing adorable. He loved how awkward Alec was and how unsure every one of his movements were. He also loved that he was everything Magnus wasn't. Alec was a dreamer, he was innocent, he was completely clueless sometimes, and he was absolutely everything Magnus had ever wanted. Magnus had never fallen for someone as quick as he had fallen for Alec and he thought that was only for the movies but here he was, watching the adorable boy that had stolen his heart. Here he was, happier than he had been in years.

Magnus smiled as Alec shifted in his bed, the sunlight glaring off his hair just right. Alec was so beautiful when he slept. It wasn't that he wasn't beautiful awake but here, Magnus was able to just stare at him. Here, he was able to trace each line of Alec's face and body with his eyes. Here he was able to linger on the small indentation of his collarbone and the slight curve of his nose. It was in this hour that Magnus was able to capture in his mind a beautiful image of Alec that he had every urge to draw.

Magnus went to grab his sketchbook when Alec's eyes fluttered open. An instant flush painted Alec's pale skin as he noticed Magnus staring at him. Alec buried his face in the pillow as he took note of the whole situation.

"There's no need to hide your face Alexander."

Alec looked back up at Magnus tentatively, his face still a dark shade of red. "How long have you been there?"

"About a week now I think."

Alec smiled at Magnus' literal statement. "I mean, you know…"

"Looking at you?" Alec nodded. "That's been about four weeks. Of course, you've been doing the same."

Alec buried his head again and it brought a smile to Magnus' face. "It's nothing to be ashamed of Alec. I love that you found the need to go out of your way to 'accidentally' sit at my tree."

"God, you figured that out?"

"I'm a genius, what can I say?"

Alec sat up slowly as he met Magnus' gaze. "So, last night…"

Magnus went to speak when Alec's phone went off on the bedside table. Alec looked at it as he heard the small rumble from Alec's stomach. "You answer that. I'm going to go grab us something to eat."

Alec watched as Magnus left the room, the scent of him lingering in the room and on Alec. He looked back at his phone, cursing it for interrupting. He was definitely going to rip Jace a new asshole. But it wasn't Jace. It was Anna. Alec felt his spirit sink as he looked at the number. It's not like it was early or anything-he had chosen to sleep until 12:30-but still he did not want to talk to Anna. He didn't know what to say to her. He knew he didn't want what she did but he didn't know how to tell her that. Alec wasn't good with confrontation like that, or at all for that matter.

Alec moaned as he picked up his phone, hitting the talk button as he put it to his ear. "Hello?"

"Hey Alec, it's Anna." Anna was way too happy for Alec's liking at that moment. "How are you?"

"Tired. You?"

"Good. Look, I wanted to talk to you about last night."

"Anna…" Alec really didn't want to talk about last night. At least, he didn't want to talk about the part with Anna. The part with Magnus would be perfectly fine.

"Please just hear me out."

"Alright."

"I know I shouldn't have come on to you last night. It was wrong of me and I apologize for my behaviour. But, I want you to know I like you Alec. You're different than the other guys and I feel like we really connect." Alec felt his world close around him more and more with each passing second. Great job Alec. Now you've got two people who like you when a month ago you couldn't even get someone to look at you like that. But Alec knew which one he wanted. He knew that he wanted Magnus. He was scared of wanting Magnus but he knew in his heart that it was what he wanted. Anna was a friend. She was a simple attraction that went no further than friendship and anything more than that was false. Kissing Anna wasn't like kissing Magnus. Kissing Anna didn't fire up anything inside of him but Magnus brought him into an inferno far beyond anything that seemed natural. Anna was just a crush-a crush that he forced himself to have to peel himself away from Magnus. But it hadn't worked and now Alec had a friend who wanted more than just friendship. At least now he could give Jace Anna's number if Clary fell through.

"Anna, I respect our friendship and I don't want to ruin it. I'm sorry if I gave you the impression otherwise." Cue Jace punching him in the face and calling him an epic failure for letting her go just like that.

"That's what I thought." Anna let out a small, disappointed breath. "I'm sorry. Now I've ruined things between us."

"No, no. Anna I still want to be friends with you. I just…"

"Don't want anything more than that. I understand perfectly." She paused. "Well, have a good weekend Alec. I'll see you on Monday." Alec looked down at his phone mournfully as Anna hung up. So that was definitely not what he had expected or wanted.

He felt extremely confused. The last few days had been a whirlwind of events and a roller coaster of emotion. His feelings for Magnus had grown exponentially to a state where Alec was bursting with them and the events of last night were playing like a movie, repeating over and over in his mind.

Being with Magnus felt perfect. He wasn't really sure what to make of it or of them, but it just felt perfect. He felt like Magnus was the missing puzzle piece to all of his problems. He felt like by giving himself up to Magnus like that, he was finally giving himself over to who he was. It felt good to feel the admittance within him. It felt a bit like there was a weight lifted from his shoulders and now all he wanted was to be himself with Magnus.

Alec didn't know what Magnus thought they were and he didn't know either. He wanted a relationship with Magnus, but was that what he wanted? True, they'd only known each other for four weeks, but it happened in the movies and in books right? People fell head over heels, and like those people, Alec was head over heels for Magnus. He was scared of committing to him but he knew that if he was to ever commit to a relationship with another man, it was Magnus he should do it with.

Alec stood up slowly, putting his phone on the bed as he made the effort to walk to the bathroom. He figured he might as well brush his teeth before he even considered anything with Magnus. He may have never kissed anyone before but he knew it was the decent thing to do. Alec opened the bathroom door, grabbing his toothbrush and toothpaste from one of the drawers. He didn't even make the effort to look in the mirror, as he already knew he looked horrible. Mornings were not his best friend. As Alec brushed his teeth, he heard the dorm door open as Magnus walked in, humming some tune Alec couldn't quite distinguish. The smell of freshly cooked blueberry muffins and coffee filled the room. The smell brought a smile to Alec's face as he realized that Magnus had grabbed Alec's favourite breakfast food. So twenty questions did pay off. Who knew?

Alec spit into the sink, rinsing his mouth out before splashing a handful of cold water on his face to wake himself up. He looked up into the mirror as he heard Magnus walk into the bathroom.

"What is that?"

"That, darling, is a hickey." Magnus came up behind Alec, wrapping his arms around his waist as he kissed the bare flesh of Alec's neck where the blood had surfaced. "I personally like to think it's me marking you."

"Marking me?"

"Well, if that's what you'd like."

"What do you mean?"

"If you want me." Alec looked into the mirror, meeting Magnus' eyes with his. A warm sensation flowed through him that brought an utmost happiness to each of his senses. If you want me. Of course he wanted him, but did Magnus really ask him that? It was like a dream; a blissful, beautiful dream that Alec never wanted to wake from.

Alec blushed as he pulled his gaze away from Magnus'. "I…Yes…But…"

"Your 'buts' are killing me Alexander."

"But…do you really want me?" The words fluttered out of his mouth as he felt the heat rise more fiercely. Alec didn't feel like he was worthy of Magnus.

He laughed, kissing Alec's neck once again as he pulled him closer to his chest. "Of course I do. I don't just give my marvelous self to anyone."

Alec turned around in Magnus' arms so he could look directly into his eyes. He was so close that his head almost hit Magnus' nose. He had to move back a bit to make a comfortable distance but Magnus' arms were still around him, holding him where he was.

"I've never done this, with a woman or a man." Alec saw the understanding in Magnus' eyes. "I mean I honestly don't know what to do."

"That's ok with me."

Alec felt a shiver run through him. "So then what does that make us?"

"Whatever you want us to be." Magnus brushed a loose curl of hair from Alec's forehead, pushing it behind his ear. Magnus' hand lingered there, at Alec's neck as he searched his eyes.

"I want you."

"Then it's settled, because I want you too." Magnus pulled Alec towards him, their lips meeting. Alec felt the same fiery rush flow through him, as he had felt the night before. He felt like he was floating, lost in some world he didn't know existed.

Alec felt Magnus' tongue slip through his lips and he shivered. Magnus' tongue ran over the top of his mouth as Alec felt his back hit the bathroom counter. His tongue nipped at Alec's teeth as Alec placed a hand on Magnus' side. He pulled Magnus closer wanting to feel Magnus against him. He never thought that he could react like this to physical contact. Magnus grounded him and yet he felt like there was no ground. He lost everything in his embrace yet he had everything he wanted. The passion in Magnus' kiss was overwhelming and torturing. Each movement of his tongue and lips sent Alec catapulting into a new dimension. It was perfect, irresistible and perfect. Alec was lost in Magnus' embrace and he didn't want to be found. He wanted to remain lost and happy forever, frozen in that beautiful moment with Magnus.

Alec moaned against Magnus' mouth as Magnus pulled away slowly. He continued to place soft kisses on Alec's neck and collarbone, causing a blazing trail to erupt on Alec's skin. Magnus' hand moved up Alec's side, stopping at the centre of his back as he returned to Alec's lips. An explosion of electricity was ripping through Alec, shooting through every inch of his body. Every thought dropped from Alec's mind as Magnus took Alec's bottom lip between his, grazing it with his teeth as he destroyed any sense of self control Alec had left.

He didn't know that it was possible to fall as hard as he was at that moment. Magnus awakened him and threw away every insecurity and fear he had. Alec just felt right for the first time in his whole life. He didn't know what would happen between them but at that moment, he really didn't care. He just wanted to be with Magnus. He wanted to hold on and never let go, staying there with him as long as could.

Magnus pulled away from him and disappointment flooded through Alec. Their eyes met as Magnus smiled, his arms still holding Alec in place. "Let's go eat." Alec's stomach had taken that moment to proclaim its feelings and he felt a blush form over his face. Way to ruin the moment Alec.

Magnus took Alec's hand as he pulled him out of the bathroom and into the dorm. The room smelled of coffee, blueberry muffins, and Magnus. He led them over to his desk where Magnus had placed the food. Alec knew the coffee would be cold but he couldn't care less. Magnus grabbed one of the muffins turning to present it to Alec.

"Eat."

"But…"

"I won't hear of it Alexander." Magnus just glared at him and Alec could do nothing but give in to Magnus' demand. Alec took the muffin from Magnus, taking a bite out of it. Magnus grabbed his own muffin, taking his own bite as he looked at Alec.

"How do you do that?"

Magnus swallowed. "Do what?"

"Make me do things I don't want to do."

Magnus smiled. "It's a gift. Helps too that you have the inability to say no to me."

Alec went to defend himself but his mouth just simply opened and closed. Magnus was right. He didn't have the ability to say no to him. He had tried to but he could never do it.

Alec looked down at his muffin, defeated as Magnus grinned. As Alec finished his muffin and coffee, one question kept nagging at him. It was a question he had had since the night before but had pushed it aside because he wasn't sure whether he should ask it and if he even wanted to hear the answer.

Magnus slid his arms around Alec's waist, the warmth of Magnus against him pushing those thoughts away. Magnus kissed his lips softly before pulling away.

"What are you thinking about?"

"Hm? Oh, nothing." Am I really that predictable?

"If this is too fast Alec, we can slow down."

"No. No. This is fine. I just…"

"What?"

"Why me?" Alec bit his lip self-consciously. He didn't really know why Magnus had chosen him and a part of him-the part that asked the questions- didn't feel like he deserved Magnus.

Magnus laughed and Alec looked up at him in fear.

"Why are you laughing?"

Magnus sobered, meeting Alec's eyes. His eyes didn't show anything Alec thought they would. "Because you ask a hell of a lot of questions." Magnus smiled, putting a hand on the side of Alec's face. He brushed his thumb across Alec's skin sending a shiver through him. "Do you really want to know why I like you?"

"I don't know. Maybe. Yes."

Magnus put a finger on Alec's lips. "Shh. I like you for a thousand reasons. I like how you appreciate good music, you can joke about boring old guys in wigs, you can quote old movies, you don't know anything about fashion, and you are completely oblivious to when I'm trying to flirt with you." Alec opened his mouth but simply closed it yet again. "I like how you make me feel safe. I like how I don't feel judged or misunderstood by you. I like how I feel complete with you." Magnus was saying everything Alec would have said to him, except for the flirting part of course. Magnus was saying everything Alec hadn't expected him to say. "Is that what you wanted to hear Alec, because I can keep going?"

"No. That's good." Magnus had just vanished all of Alec's worries with his words and Alec had never felt as happy as he did at that moment. Alec pulled Magnus toward him by his shirt, meeting his mouth with Magnus'. This time it was his turn to delve his tongue into Magnus' mouth. He didn't know exactly what he was doing but he followed Magnus' example and his instincts. He explored Magnus' mouth with his tongue, sliding it over his teeth and gums. He pulled his tongue out as the sudden capture of Magnus' mouth had left Alec slightly breathless.

"So why did you make me spill my heart to you?" Magnus said against his mouth.

"I just wanted to hear you say it."

"And are you happy?"

"Yeah, I'm happy."


Magnus slid out from underneath the covers, putting his feet on the ground softly. He looked across the room to see Alec sleeping, the covers covering his waist and his arms thrown over his head. The moon reflected off of his sleeping figure, bringing a smile to Magnus' face. Alec was his. The beautiful, amazing boy was his. Magnus had never wanted anyone as much as he had wanted Alec and the day that they had shared had been one of the best days of his life. It was like his feelings for Alec literally grew with every passing second. He hadn't pushed Alec any further than a kiss and he wasn't going to until he knew Alec was ready. Magnus knew the whole thing was new to Alec, Alec didn't have to tell him that. But it didn't bother him that Alec didn't know what to do. Magnus actually found it adorable that Alec was a virgin in every sense of the word. But for someone who didn't know what to do he definitely knew what to do with his tongue. Magnus had never felt such a fire within himself as he did when he kissed Alec.

Magnus had the urge to finally draw Alec there but the moonlight didn't supply enough light to give Magnus the view he wanted. Right then and there he could have just stared at Alec for the rest of the night, but he wanted to draw. He needed to or that night he wouldn't get anymore sleep.

Magnus stood up quietly throwing on a pair of pajama pants as he grabbed his sketchbook from his bedside table. Magnus went to cross the room, stopping as he almost tripped over the sleeping form of Chairman Meow. The cat had actually adjusted better to the new living quarters than Magnus had thought, which was good because he wouldn't be able to part with the cat and at that point, he didn't want to part with Alec either. Chairman Meow had noticed the change in his relationship with Alec and it had taken some convincing on Magnus' part to get him to accept it. He was still grouchy about having to share once again but he liked Alec, which was a start.

Magnus stepped over the cat, closing the distance to the door. He took one last look at Alec before leaving. Magnus moved quietly though the hallways as he made his way to the roof. The roof was off limits but no one was up at that hour to catch him. Two nights after moving in with Alec he had gone looking for such a place as the roof and had been going every night since. He wasn't sure whether Alec was aware of his nighttime spot but he wouldn't be surprised if he did. Alec had the ability to find the spots that made Magnus happy.

The roof gave way to a beautiful panorama of the school campus and at night, Magnus could just see the lighted city in the skyline. The late September air nipped at his skin but it didn't bother him. The cold actually soothed him, calming the fires within his soul.

Magnus flipped open his book to a blank page, posing his pencil on the endless white page. He looked up at the skyline, taking a deep breath. The memories had started to plague him and they had woken him in the dead of the night. Magnus was actually happy that he hadn't woken Alec. He wasn't ready to tell Alec the truth, not yet. The only thing that knew the truth was the sketchbook in his hand and the many others under his bed. His mother had gotten him into art. She had been a painter and had had a bright future ahead of her. When Magnus was born she had put painting on the back burner but when he got older, she always planned on starting again. She always dreamed of one day owning her own gallery. He remembered her as the one who, when it first started, had put that sketchbook in his hand and said draw. She was the one who told him to let it all out and tell his story. He had never stopped drawing since that day and now, every time he put pencil to paper, he saw his mother's face. Drawing brought his mother back and allowed Magnus to flood the bad memories away with all the good ones.

Magnus started drawing, engulfing himself in the happiness as the darkness drained onto the paper. It flowed through him into small charcoal tendrils that dipped and curved around each other. Lines met in an uneven balance, folding and twisting into a reflection of Magnus' soul. Magnus lost himself there, the world draining away around him.

Magnus jumped at the sound of footsteps behind him. He turned around to see Alec standing there. Alec looked embarrassed for having interrupted him. He had on one of his holey sweaters and his arms were tucked around himself to block out the evening chill. He had neglected to put anything on his feet. Magnus smiled at the site of Alec there, already shivering from the cold and red from embarrassment.

Magnus was actually glad Alec had come. He had been expecting him sooner actually, but he wouldn't be surprised if Alec had been there all along and Magnus just hadn't noticed. He closed his notebook, setting it down on the ledge next to him.

"Well don't just stand there and freeze. Come here." Alec walked over to Magnus slowly. Magnus wrapped his arms around Alec's waist pulling him flush against him. Together they looked out over the roof at the campus below them. His body was warm against Alec's cold skin.

"You're hot," said Alec.

"I already knew that darling, but thanks for the compliment."

A few seconds passed between them as Magnus felt a light flow through him. Alec was the first to break the perfect silence. "It's beautiful. Is that why you come here?" Alec looked up into Magnus' face.

"Yes. That and this place lets me be alone with myself. The air, the view, it all gives me time to think."

"About what?" Alec's eyes searched his.

"About everything."

"Do you think about the things in your drawings?" His question was innocent and although it pierced Magnus' heart it didn't hurt. Alec didn't make remembering everything hurt. He made remembering easier and it was probably because he knew Alec would help him through it. Magnus had nearly bared his whole soul to Alec when he woke that night and now Alec knew more about Magnus than he knew.

"Yes." They both fell silent.

"Magnus?"

"Hm?"

"What happened?"

"A lot, my love. A lot." Magnus pulled Alec closer to him, reveling in the feel of Alec's body against his own. "But tonight's not the night for that."

He felt Alec chipping away at the walls around his heart. Magnus had had relationships but he had always hid a part of his heart away in fear of getting hurt again. He didn't want to lose anyone else he loved because he knew his heart wouldn't be able to take it. He had hidden that part of his heart from Camille, so losing her hadn't been so hard. But now he felt Alec slowly finding his way through the labyrinth of his soul. He found Alec climbing the walls and breaking through each and every brick. For every brick he tried to put back up, Alec broke away ten more. Magnus didn't know what he'd do if Alec got through. No one had seen the real him since he was 10 years old. He had vowed at that age to never love someone the way he loved her and he had kept it that way for 11 years.

But now he found himself feeling a part of his heart that had been cold for a very long time. Now he found himself loving when he had told himself he wouldn't.

Magnus looked down at Alec, kissing him softly on the top of his head. Magnus had never felt so whole in his life and he wanted this moment to last forever.


So there you go. What did you all think? Let me know in a review if you want. And I thank all of you who reviewed, favourited, and alerted the last chapter, you are absolutely positively terrific. And to all of you who have been reviewing each and every chapter and have stuck with me this far, you are a thousand and one synonyms for the word amazing. But in general, anyone's who has simply read this story, you guys are great. Anyway, no promises on having the next chapter up fast. My beta's working everyday plus school and I've got a bunch of school stuff too so we will try, try, try try to get the next chapter out as fast as we can. Again, thank you all for reading.

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