A/N: Sorry for the delay. Here's part 2. It is pertinent to the rest of the story so hang in there with me. Just know that there is a method behind Bill's madness. That's all I can say...Thanks to my lovie hearttorn as usual. Any mistakes are my own but don't hold me to them. Thanks so much for reading. You guys warm my heart and give me a reason to continue writing. *mwah* Happy reading!
Sookie POV - Part 2
I put my hand on his leg, massaging his thigh. Bill quirked an eyebrow at me and growled. I bit my lip to keep from laughing. I continued my assault on his leg and he moaned. I leaned in to him, pushing my breasts against his chest. I ran my fingers through his hair, pulling his face down to mine, kissing him with all that I had.
Once I was sure of myself, I moved my hand back to his thigh. He worked his way from my lips down to my neck. As I continued to massage his thigh, working my way up to his zipper, his hips bucked. I moved my hand until it hovered over his erection. Bill grabbed the back of my neck to brace himself and pushed away from me.
The look in his eyes was wild and frantic. He bent his head back to my neck and started to suck and nibble. I just knew I'd have a hickey tomorrow. I would officially be "marked" as his. I moved my hand again and he bit into the curve of my shoulder. It didn't hurt but I was surprised by it all the same. It kind of turned me on so I stroked his rock hard member through his pants again and he bit down. Harder this time. That was gonna leave a mark.
While I enjoyed the first one, I really hoped he wouldn't bite me again. I didn't want to ruin the mood but I didn't want to be bruised either. I would have never been able to live that down with Amelia.
"Umf Sookie, do you know what you're doing to me?"
"I'm giving you the green light Bill. I'm ready."
"You're ready? Are you sure? You're not just saying that and then you'll change your mind?" He pulled back again, looking into my eyes. I may have changed my mind once or twice before. I could understand his reluctance.
"No Bill, I'm ready. I've thought about it and I love you." It was the first time I'd said it. It felt good to be able to say it. And mean it.
"Oh Sookeh…"
We continued kissing and touching for a while. He didn't bite me again. He stood up and pulled me with him. We walked over to my bed. He started to unbutton his shirt. It fell to the floor as he moved his hands to his pants. I wasn't sure what to do so I followed suit. My dress cascaded down my skin slowly, pooling into a puddle of red fabric at my feet. I stepped out of it and moved closer to Bill. He stood looking at me while I covered my exposed breasts.
Embarrassment colored my cheeks in the form of a blush. His chocolate brown eyes studied me, memorizing the dip of my clavicle, the curve of my breasts, and the width of my hips. He reached out to me, leading me to the bed where we lay down facing each other.
Bill kissed me again, moving down my neck to my chest, palming my left breast while kissing the right. I kept thinking "relax, relax, relax" which was a little difficult with Bill squeezing my breast as if it were a stress ball. The attention he paid to my nipple helped to get me in the mood. I could feel myself getting lost in the moment until, squeeze…
His hand trailed down to the wetness pooling at my center. I felt him touch me then quickly pull his hand back, wiping his fingers across my sheets. I thought that was odd. I could hear Amelia in the back of my mind saying "go with the flow" so I ignored it and moved beneath him.
He climbed on top of me and got into position. I asked him if he was going to put on a condom and he seemed a little pissed. I was on the pill but I wanted the extra protection. He nodded that he'd get one and got up from the bed. He came back a minute later, shutting off the light, and climbed back onto the bed. I hadn't moved an inch.
He placed himself between my legs again and I felt him at my entrance. He thrust into me in one swift motion and I cried out because I wasn't ready. He pulled back a little and held still. I'd have to tell Amelia that I don't think it mattered if a guy is big or small because the shit hurt.
I was so tense that I could not relax and get in to it. I closed my eyes trying to think of some way to calm down but couldn't. I moved my head to get more comfortable and he must have taken it as a sign to continue as he pushed forth again entering me with one quick thrust. I bit my bottom lip to keep from crying out.
I was really uncomfortable and tensed up again. I waited for the sharp, throbbing pain to end but it didn't. I really just wanted it to be over. I knew there would be a little pain but it just felt awful. I hoped that the next time would be better. Maybe by then I could learn to relax and enjoy it more.
Bill moved thunderously within me and moments later he shuddered while moaning my name. He pulled out and rolled over to the opposite side of the bed. I felt a warm fluid seeping from me. I didn't think I had an orgasm…
He kissed me then went to put on his clothes. I pulled the sheet up to cover my nakedness and looked at him, waiting for him to say something, anything. He asked if I was okay and I told him I was a little uncomfortable and sore. He said it was normal as it was my first time but it would get better the more we did it. I hoped the next time would be better because that was not how I thought my first time would go.
We tried it a few more times after that and it did seem to get better. I just couldn't relax with Bill and he always seemed to be in such a rush. I thought maybe it was me, that I wasn't doing something right. I tried to talk to him about it but to no avail.
To make matters worse, the month after we'd had sex for the first time, I was late. I panicked. I was never late. I was on the pill. I watched Bill put on condoms every time…shit. I didn't see him put one on the first time. Amelia was out with Tray and I knew I couldn't talk to Eric about it so I called the only other person I could think of. Pam.
"Pam! Hey, it's Sookie. Do you have a sec? I really need to talk."
"Sookie Stackhouse. Well how the hell are ya? Sure I have a sec."
"I think I might be pregnant."
"Shit. Does Eric know?"
"Why would Eric know? I didn't tell him I had sex with Bill. He hates Bill."
"Oh, of course, I meant that um…okay, did you get a pregnancy test yet?"
"No, I called you first. I'm really panicking here and I don't know what to do."
"Calm down and listen to me. Here's what you need to do. Go to a drug store and get a pregnancy test. Once you find out the result we can go from there."
"Pam I can't do that. I'd have to sit here waiting for the results alone."
"No you won't. I'll stay on the phone with you. If you are pregnant we'll deal with it. I'll make sure Eric kills that Douchetard first then we'll figure something out."
"Pam! Eric won't do any such thing and you mind your mouth when you're talking about Bill. I love him."
"Well that's rich. Sorry Sook. You know I can't stand his ass. I never could understand what you saw in him."
"Please don't start." I couldn't take a lecture from her on why I shouldn't be with Bill.
"You two didn't use condoms?"
"Yes Pam we did but I'm on the pill. Although…"
"Shit Sookie. You know you have to keep up with a guy wearing condoms whether you're on the pill or not. Accidents happen. Some times in the heat of the moment guys get stupid and think you won't notice they're not wearing one. Here's a tip, put the shit on for him that way there's no question." Leave it to Pam to tell it how it is.
"You know I love you right?"
"Yeah, yeah. Have you left yet?"
"I'm heading out the door now."
I ran most of the way to the pharmacy. I couldn't be pregnant could I? I've never been so scared in my life. I bought every pregnancy test they had then raced back to my room. I drank about five cups of water while Pam blathered on about European boys and how "hot" they were. She really knew how to get my mind off of things. Finally, I had to pee and started going down the line of tests. I had to wait three minutes. Three agonizing minutes.
"Well Sookie, what does the first one say?"
I picked it up but my hands were shaking so much that I couldn't read it. "Hang on Pam, I can't read it." I put it down.
"It's a minus sign. That's good right?"
"It's good if that's supposed to mean you're not pregnant. What about another one?"
"Oh, this one says not pregnant. Thank God!!"
I looked over all the others just to make sure before I finally decided to celebrate. I may have dropped the phone at that point. I could hear Pam yelling something about 'fuckwad' and 'murder' but I wasn't sure. I just yelled my thanks to her and ran around my room a few times before picking the phone back up. I had so much pent up energy that I didn't know what to do with myself. I wanted to call Bill then realized I would be worrying him for nothing. I decided to call Eric. Hearing his voice would calm me down and right now that was what I needed more than anything.
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Eric's Apartment - present day
I couldn't help feeling so nervous being with Eric. I wanted our first time together to be perfect and I knew it would be because it would be with him. The sensation he was creating within me, I'd never experienced with Bill. I couldn't help but feel that I somehow owed it to myself to give in, to relax and let go.
Yield to me Sookie, the sound of his words echoing in the back of my mind. Buzz. What the? I felt a vibration against my leg. Buzz.
"Damn it. Sorry Sookie, it's my phone. I can ignore it." We were both panting heavily.
"No, you should get it. It may be important." I was stalling. I kept going back and forth in my mind why shouldn't I be doing this. I told my mind to shut the fuck up.
"Sookie, its Tara calling for you. She said she tried calling your phone but it went to voicemail." Eric hands me his phone.
"Hey, Tara what's up?"
"Sook are you sitting down?"
"No, why?"
"You should. I've got some bad news." I move away from Eric to sit on the couch. He follows me, grabbing my hand.
"Sookie, Gran is in the hospital. She had an accident. I think she may have fallen down the stairs at home. I don't know much about her condition since I'm not family, but I think you should come home as…" I drop the phone not hearing anything else Tara is saying, barely hearing Eric calling my name.
"Sookie, Sookie what's wrong?"
"Eric, can you drive me home?"
"Sure. What's going on? You know you can stay here if you want."
"Not my apartment, home to Bon Temps. Well, the hospital in Clarice. Gran's had an accident and I need to go…" I couldn't finish my sentence. I felt guilty. Here I was about to…with Eric…and my Gran…
"Of course. Let me grab my overnight bag then we'll go."
"Eric you don't have to…" He cut me off.
"Sookie, I know I don't have to but I want to. I'll stay with you as long as you need. You won't be alone."
It takes Eric about two minutes to grab a bag which he fills with I don't know what. I can't think. My head feels as if it will explode and I can't breathe. Gran. I curse myself for being so wrapped up in my feelings for Eric that I wasn't able to answer my phone. Maybe Gran was calling me and her accident could have been avoided had I…No, I can't think like that. Tara said she didn't know much and Gran may be okay.
Eric drives like a bat out of hell and for once, I was grateful. We get to the hospital in record time. I run to the information desk in the Emergency Room to find out what room she is in. Tara must have heard my voice as she comes around the corner, waving to get my attention.
"Oh Sookie, you're here. Come on with me. Hey Eric."
"How is she Tara?"
"Not bad. She's a tough woman, you know that."
"Yeah. I just thought the absolute worst when you called me."
"I know and I'm sorry. Here's her room. I'll give you two some privacy. Come on Eric. Let's go get some coffee." Tara grabs Eric by the hand and they disappear down the hall. He looks back at me offering me a smile. I think I may love him…
I brace myself before looking into her room. Gran isn't hooked up to any machines. She is reclining on a bed in the required hospital gown watching Wheel of Fortune. She was actually screaming at the woman on the television to not buy a vowel.
"I don't know why they waste money buying vowels. I know if I was on that show…Sookie honey, what are you doing here? Did Tara call you? I asked her not to worry you. I'll have to have a little talk with her." Gran was fine. Her sassy attitude was in full swing so I knew she would be okay.
"Gran, if Tara hadn't called me I would have been so upset with her. How are you? What happened?"
"I'm fine child, just fine. Here, have a seat." She made room for me on her bed. She doesn't look like anything is broken so I hug her, tightly.
"You have to tell me what happened to you and where is Jason?"
"Jason would have been here had I called him. I don't think Tara got a hold of him anyway. I was doing something I shouldn't have been doing and I fell down some stairs."
"Gran!" My heart may have skipped a beat. What in the world could she have been doing that was so important she couldn't call someone to help her or wait for Jason to drop by?
"Some stairs? Tara said THE stairs. I can't believe you Gran. You know better than to…what exactly were you doing?"
"Well, I was trying to get to one of my puzzles in the upstairs hall closet. I had the phone to one ear and I was pulling at boxes. I guess I pulled a little too hard. I lost my balance and tumbled down the stairs. I grabbed a hold of the banister which may have helped. I'm just a little bruised, nothing too serious. See, didn't even break my hip." She patted it just to make her point. I had to shake my head and laugh. She sure was a tough old bird. If anything ever happened to her though…
"So when can you go home?"
"They want to keep me overnight for observation, make sure I don't have a concussion or anything. I told them I was fine but of course no one listens to an old woman. I'm sure I didn't hit my head. Doctors."
"How did you get here? I can imagine you trying to get up and go right back to finding that puzzle too. Who called the ambulance?"
"Tara was dropping by for our weekly Pinochle game. She saw me at the foot of the stairs when she came in. I told her not to fret over me but she wouldn't hear it. Now here we sit when I could be at home in my own bed. Did you come here with Bill?"
"No, no he's working tonight. Eric drove me down." She smiled at me. She always did like Eric.
"Well, you go on home. I'll be fine. You can stay in your old room. I just put a clean set of linens on the bed so it's ready for you."
"Thanks Gran. I think I may just do that. I'll be back first thing in the morning. You call me if you need to."
We said our goodbyes and I went to find Tara and Eric. Knowing that Gran was okay I could feel myself relax. It probably didn't hurt that Eric embraced me the moment he saw me. His hugs were always like medicine to me. We say our goodbyes to Tara and leave to head to the farmhouse. It would be good to go home again.
My mind drifts as we ride in silence. I cannot get over the fact that I want to have sex with Eric. I turn to look at him, the wind taking hold of his long blonde hair, whipping it back from his face. I was happy. Being with him is relaxing. I don't have to think I can just, be. I reach over to him, grabbing his hand as he moves it from the shifter. A surge of energy runs through us and I pull my hand back. He laughs. He must have felt it too.
He walks me to my door with his hand at the small of my back. He's barely touching me and I feel myself yearning for more contact with him. I turn to face him and throw myself into his arms. He wraps me in his embrace pulling me close, closer to him. The warmth of our bodies colliding as our limbs intertwine. This feels so right.
My emotions are in such turmoil that I don't know what to feel. So I relax and let go. I reach behind me pushing the door to my childhood home open thankful that we have the entire place to ourselves. Eric looks at me and I look back at him. In that moment we both know what we are about to do and why. Eric pushes the door closed behind him and turns the lock. No more disturbances tonight…
A/N: I know, I know I'm horrible. It'll be worth the wait...
